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"What
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right now, is missing?"
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Re: "What [Re: Lion]
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Dinner is not currently in my body; it hasn't yet been made. My stomache is declaring it's absence.
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I had PB&J.
-------------------- “Strengthened by contemplation and study, I will not fear my passions like a coward. My body I will give to pleasures, to diversions that I’ve dreamed of, to the most daring erotic desires, to the lustful impulses of my blood, without any fear at all, for whenever I will— and I will have the will, strengthened as I’ll be with contemplation and study— at the crucial moments I’ll recover my spirit as was before: ascetic.”
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Re: "What [Re: Lion]
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a deep, meaningful companionship with a member of the opposite sex (and preferably somewhere within a few years of my age )
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Re: "What [Re: demiu5]
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This is interesting.
I think every guy our age on these boards is thinking about this all the time.
Frankly I think such a relationship would do me some good, but I have begun to see how silly it is to yearn for one when I see all these threads about how lonely people are, how a guy claims to have been treated like shit by his girlfriend but feels like killing himself now that she's left him, etc... It's a pretty universal male situation, this yearning (or this regret, as the case may be), and it's not something I particularly feel like duping myself into feeling any more. I am definitely not nearly as romantic as I was recently.
But of course, that could all change in a moment. One can tame one's desires but the course of life will find a way to bring them back to the surface.
-------------------- “Strengthened by contemplation and study, I will not fear my passions like a coward. My body I will give to pleasures, to diversions that I’ve dreamed of, to the most daring erotic desires, to the lustful impulses of my blood, without any fear at all, for whenever I will— and I will have the will, strengthened as I’ll be with contemplation and study— at the crucial moments I’ll recover my spirit as was before: ascetic.”
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Re: "What [Re: Lion]
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My love from my arms  I'll make sure to make up for all that time when I'll get my hands on him, and he doesn't even know what kind of trouble he's getting himself into
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-------------------- “Strengthened by contemplation and study, I will not fear my passions like a coward. My body I will give to pleasures, to diversions that I’ve dreamed of, to the most daring erotic desires, to the lustful impulses of my blood, without any fear at all, for whenever I will— and I will have the will, strengthened as I’ll be with contemplation and study— at the crucial moments I’ll recover my spirit as was before: ascetic.”
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Re: "What [Re: Lion]
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bug said: It's a pretty universal male situation, this yearning (or this regret, as the case may be)
I don't think this is so much a male thing, as a common feeling in general, regardless of gender. I've certainly spent enough time feeling that way myself.
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I'm so glad I wasn't stoned when I read that, or I might have died.
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MushroomTrip said: My love from my arms  I'll make sure to make up for all that time when I'll get my hands on him, and he doesn't even know what kind of trouble he's getting himself into
Mi-e dor de tine.
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Re: "What [Re: Lion]
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bug said: right now, is missing?"
The body of your post?
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Do you even have to ask??
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Her. Somebody muzzle me, I say to much. All I long for is her touch. I pissed her off talking about sex on the beach, Its got my vote, into sex on the boat?? She was with her new boyfriend, Maybe thats why it didn't sit right. I'll drop that guy with the evil eye. Fair skinned friend never been blasted with a light so bright. I guess if she's happy, sweet. I miss her feet. I guess if she's better off, whatever. I miss her weather. For me there is no other, I love her??
Missing for sure. Dang.
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Re: "What [Re: Lion]
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If what is missing is a relationship then all is lost.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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If some things are missing in a relationship, then the ship is lost.
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You mean like your relationship with yourself?;)
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autoeroticism - self centered sex.
-------------------- Pray, v.: To ask that the laws of the universe be annulled in behalf of a single petitioner confessedly unworthy - Ambrose Bierce Medical science has confirmed what the male world has known intuitively for millenia: that scratching your ass is a great aid to complex thinking. Its God's responsibility to forgive the terrorist organizations such as Jaish, Lashkar etc. Its our responsibility to arrange the meeting between them and god." - Indian Armed Forces "Hey Monkey!! Get Funky" - Tarzan and Jane
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Quote:
Icelander said: If what is missing is a relationship then all is lost.
Actually, the answer I was thinking of is "nothing".
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Quote:
fireworks_god said:
Mi-e dor de tine.
Te iubesc
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AMAZING!! Just after I posted my last uh... comment.  She called.
Was just on her lunch break and was wondering what was up. 
I swear sending it out... Does something.
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If I could only replace what she has seen and been through dealing with me.
Gooser??
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Why replace?
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nothing is right but love is grand find it where you are at (not necessarily sexual)
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If nothing is right
does it follow
that nothing is left?
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"Why replace? "
It was a nightmare for everybody involved. I don't think she will ever view the matter as a spiritual event. Don't think she gets it. Super frustrating cause its all out there. spiritualemerg's blog has the scoop.
"It is possible to undergo a profound crisis involving non-ordinary experiences and to perceive it as pathological or psychiatric when in fact it may be more accurately and beneficially defined as a spiritual emergency." -- Stanislav Grof
Right??
I just want the chance to write over it in her mind with more positive images and experiences for her. I was in pretty deep, ya know?? It was a train wreck.
"nothing is right but love is grand find it where you are at (not necessarily sexual)"
I know, I know...!! 'Mucho Gusto Ma llamo Bradley, I'm hornier that Ron Jeremy!' Its just... important. To me. Possibly a perv. Look out. Any freaks??
 That's a plus too.
Me talkin about love... 
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Would you really want someone that has replaced memory? What would be so great about it?
Maybe you should just tell her what you just wrote there?
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I don't really know how to go about actually replacing her memory. Sinister. Dang.
I just understand that her idea of 'me' is a collection of what she remembers. Words can't knock those things around sufficiently, unless they are daggers or resonate something fierce. I left a mess. I want to be the person to her now that I want her to know today, ya?? Replace me in her head??  Unfortunately I don't get that opportunity cause she is gone. I fear that she projects her past mental constructs of me on me, rather than seeing me unobstructed for who I am NOW.
Maybe I'm still just a nut... Slow roasted, shelled, and seasoned, mmmm... pits.
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I can relate. I realize first I have to see myself for who I am now - or stop trying to see anything other than what is. There are many, many constructs about who I am plastered onto me. Who am I? Whoever I think I'll be in the next few seconds. However I think my hair and my eyes and my jaw look... Have I been working out? Okay, then I'm that guy. Have I been reading a lot? What genre? Then that's how I'm thinking. Ya know?
After LSD a lot of my friends thought I'd gone off the deep end. I was working hard to construct myself for them and every time I would get embarrassed about it and start over.
Fuck it. Let people think what they want. The real you and the real her know each other already and it'll probably shine through more and more. Best you can do is be present.
I don't think you're a nut, you're just weird.
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Re: "What [Re: Lion]
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"The real you and the real her know each other already and it'll probably shine through more and more. Best you can do is be present."
Know what you mean. It does. I just want her to acknowledge that. I see it. I feel it. I know she does. Sometimes I bring up out of line stuff though... Like the sex on the boat comment. Oops!! It slipped. Um, in and out but thats another story.
Shoot. Um... Sorry.

Being present. That's a task for me. I just fly away immediately. I once had a psychiatrist ask me mid session, 'Can we come out of it, just for a while??' Like he was overwhelmed. I fear that I'm always more trained on the inner happenings. She was interested. We were interested together. She was my lifeline back to the present, it seemed. She always gave me my room to explore, but when it came down to it held me to certain expectations that kept me, here. (for the most part??)
Really. I just want to connect her back to me in her head somehow. Kind of manipulative as fuck. Grrrr. Bad idea. It works though. I want her thinking about me. Is that not conceited as fuck?? Ah well. Crazy emotion, no?? Maybe I'm caught up in something else.
"I don't think you're a nut, you're just weird."
Oh, phoe show!!
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all can never be lost
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Icelander said: If what is missing is a relationship then all is lost.
I used to be so obsessed with this idea of the perfect relationship that would tear me out of the banality and disatisfaction I was experiencing, fulfilling me completely. Then I snapped out of it (over time.) It is my responsibility to tear myself out of banality and disatisfaction; no one else is capable of the task, at least in the long term. Not only that, but being a strong and self sufficient individual makes one more capable of being in a relationship with another person... so really, taking responsibility for your own happiness and not waiting around for some saviour prince is a win-win situation.
As it stands, I have no idea if I will ever have a long term relationship with another person. It stands to reason that sooner or later I may be so inclined, but so far no dice. That's fine. I've got my life, other folks have thiers. If we happen to meet along the way and be heading in the same direction, great. If not, whatevs. I got friends and a cat, and i'm good enough looking that i'll not suffer for lack of flings when I want them. 
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I too, gave up my idea of ever finding my prince...
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Don't be sad. I have shifted gears and am now seeking my princess.
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I found my sexy mushroom princess.
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REALLY? Now who would that be?
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Quote:
OrgoneConclusion said: REALLY? Now who would that be?
Everyone has a weird nickname for their wang. 
jk FW_G and MT, much love
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