Do not try to fill the emptiness. Dive into it. Don't hide from restlessness. Let it surround you. On the inside it is total calm. Flee not from fear. Let it eat you without resistance. When you become fear, there is nothing left to fear.
Breathe through all that is, and become a witness.
Live every day as you were already dead. The art of surfing co-incidence, follow the white rabbit, worship synchronicity.
The door to heaven lies here, in this bardo through suffering. Fall deep enough, and you will fall through the roof and land on a pink cloud to the sound of harps.
What is defended, is always attacked. Be weak, and see that it will make you strong. Don't try to get full of yourself, become empty.
Many are those who are brave or have strong self-esteem because they hold themselves highly, see themselves as better. To attribute oneself value demands pushing value on others, it creates false segregation and upholds separation. It becomes unavoidable to look down upon others. This facade will always burst under sufficient pressure. Let go of this, be from the inside out, not from the outside in. When there no longer is anything to defend you will be unbreakable. When you become pushed deeply enough, beaten hard enough, you realize your value at zero, that all is in vain. You let go of all thoughts you hold about yourself. The fasade cracks open, and you become naked. Like a child, you have nothing to defend. You are empty. This is true freedom, nothing to lose. This is what the voices are driving me towards. Time after time I build up my identity. This identity is always in the position of defense, and will get beaten up until it is broken. Then one is nobody. This is true being. This is the state of emptiness where one is free and open to let the realizations flow through in an ongoing stream of light. Critical paranoia has broken down the barriers. This continues until I once again form a picture of myself and the struggle starts anew. But the devils are angels, the pain the liberator, fear burns away ones picture - reflection - of oneself, and leaves one standing as a naked candle. Those who suffer in the outer world, gain inner freedom.
To dwell in emptiness opens the mind for all. The art of staying at the bottom, is the challenge when we already have fallen. Keep falling freely. Do not try to regain the grip. Be no-one and nothing. Perform actions through non-action. To build oneself up, will be a facade. To become fully torn apart, to fall, is the way towards "truth". Only here the filters evaporates. Freefalling is a weightless condition that loosens up. Follow the holy spirit to the deep end of the rainbow and realize that the treasure never existed. Know only that you know nothing. Let go of everything, and everything will be yours.
|