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In(di)go
People of the sun.



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Re: Traumatic or life changing events in your life. [Re: Artnotwar]
#6880759 - 05/06/07 02:25 PM (16 years, 9 months ago) |
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My parent's divorce at 6 Moving to Germany at 18 The death of one of my best life-long friends also at 18
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DrCamacho89
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Re: Traumatic or life changing events in your life. [Re: In(di)go]
#6880948 - 05/06/07 03:31 PM (16 years, 9 months ago) |
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My mother being diagnosed with breast cancer when I was 10 My mother dying of stomach cancer after the cancer in her breast spread to her other breast and finally her stomach even after a bone marrow transplant. My father dating other woman just weeks after her death (I think, I was left at home alone) Getting kicked out of high school for peeing in the parking lot drunk after a Friday night basketball game (zero tolerance bullshit) Going to college anyway and meeting all my friends who I still am close with today Taking my savings and moving to Queens, NY after I graduated without a job which put me deep in credit card debt, but worth it because I loved NYC Moving to Chicago because of a woman who I fell deeply in love with, who had a child from a previous marriage but it taught me the beauty of a good parent Breaking up with her just months later after problems stemming from stress in the relationship
And here I stand... wiser than I've ever been before. At least I have that going for me.
-------------------- "The Highways of Life are Paved with Flat Squirrels who Couldn't Make Up Their Minds"
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CUBErt
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Re: Traumatic or life changing events in your life. [Re: DrCamacho89]
#6880966 - 05/06/07 03:38 PM (16 years, 9 months ago) |
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Nothing that traumatic, but life changing:
*Trying psychedelics - Good *Opiate/Heroin Addiction - Negative *Parents confronting me about the above - Negative *Going away to college where I am now - We shall see...
EDIT: Yes, and as an addition to trying psychedelics, I think I should put my one DMT experience as a seperate event. Was just so intense. I actually felt an intense physical sensation, almost like pain, and I'm still trying to figure it out to this day
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WildLASER
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Re: Traumatic or life changing events in your life. [Re: DrCamacho89]
#6881012 - 05/06/07 03:48 PM (16 years, 9 months ago) |
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Wow, lots of crazy shit folks. I just wrote a post about traumatic shit in veterans lounge actually. Read
I would say
Growing up sometimes sick, picked on, kinda always out there.
Moving alot, family troubles.
First night smoking herb and tripping shrooms same night. First LSD trip. Hell, first trip on anything.
First gf, sex, and stupid shit that followed.
spending a week, 20th bday in the middle, in ER, grandma then dying the next day.
Getting raided by the police, escpaing to the hospital, fleeing the state,and being a fugitive the next day after being a researcher at a harvard hospital.
rehab # 1.
turning myself in to the cops and being araigned(sp?) and all that.
all other court dates and the struggle.
waking up to find my friend dead on the couch a few feet away from me, choked on his own vomit.
rehab # 2 and 3 consecutive.
buddhist temple and meditation learnings of all sorts.
hanging out in the ghetto in jersey.
finally finish court and getting a great deal.
all the times ive been so high i almost died on hard drugs, in fucked up situations in the ghetto, in horrible agonizing withdrawls, and now once again, in prolonged milder withdrawls, but seeing how life is finally lookin up and I may make up for lost time.
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Re: Traumatic or life changing events in your life. [Re: Artnotwar]
#6881058 - 05/06/07 04:00 PM (16 years, 9 months ago) |
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My first rave/MDMA experience
When my mom got a heart transplant
My strongest acid trip about two years ago in which I died and was reborn.
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CUBErt
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Re: Traumatic or life changing events in your life. [Re: WildLASER]
#6881075 - 05/06/07 04:08 PM (16 years, 9 months ago) |
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WildLASER, sounds like you've had some pretty crazy times.
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WildLASER
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Re: Traumatic or life changing events in your life. [Re: CUBErt]
#6881555 - 05/06/07 06:25 PM (16 years, 9 months ago) |
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Yeah brother man, alot of good times, and I mean, ALL good times until a point in which everything became a downward spiral, but in any case, life has it's ups and downs, sometimes these take a spike, being involved with intense extreme things can lead to intense extreme spikes, then you have the randomness of life.
Anyways, I agree with intense_cutn
I think that everything in our lives shapes us, imprints us, perception dictates reality, memories are emotionally charges, consciousness itself changes. We can also exert our own influence and change behaviors to shift our mind and attitudes. It's a wonderful chaotic complexity 
Oh and cubert, been there with the heroin, good to be off it, im still kicking my buprenorphine now, been over a week in withdrawls, but it's cathartic. Don't let her lure you back in.
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HB



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Re: Traumatic or life changing events in your life. [Re: WildLASER]
#6881586 - 05/06/07 06:34 PM (16 years, 9 months ago) |
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congrats and good luck with the opiate kick! a week off the bupe is solid, the 3rd day is always the hardest ...
I have to say that of all addictions, opiates were the hardest for me to kick ... the hardest part was reintegrating myself into life once the withdrawal and the cravings were mostly over, because I had lost 3+ years and a variety of friends and a major relationship to the haze of madness with dilaudid and fentanyl as the main perpetrators, and realized that although I went into pain meds as a teenager, I came out an adult ... that is speaking both metaphorically and truthfully in many respects.
you seem to truly understand what you need to do and how to do it, so I'm positive you will come out on top ... and again, having made it a week is having endured the worst part of the hurricane ... if you keep the course steady, you'll be on your way to sandy beaches and blue skies in due time ...
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WildLASER
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Re: Traumatic or life changing events in your life. [Re: HB]
#6882523 - 05/06/07 10:33 PM (16 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thanks alot HB. Thanks for sharing your story, gives me hope ya know. I am a neuroscience student, opiods in particular have the highest relapse rate, change the brain in a dramatic way. I am currentely researching some promising things.
MUST READ
U'FINER, a mixture of chinese herbs it lists, in 6 months time, it can repair the cerebral damage from opiod use, and many other drugs I imagine, it has been confirmed by SPECT( SINGLE PHOTON COMPUTIZED TOMOGRAPHY) analysis.
For now, I am also looking into some blue green algae (AFA/PEA) strain to produce phenethylamine for some beta endorphin.
I take many supplements, see a naturopath, work out, etc, your right though man, first week was rough, sleeping every other day is a plus, coming off of opes ,benzos, and coke all at the same time I would be up for weeks having a night terror/ intense dreamspace experience now and then when I caught an hour sleep.
How long has it been for you?
I identify with you though, builds adversity, growth, etc, still... (forgot this window its hours later) anyways one love brother
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