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OfflinePowerTrip
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Reunion with the cosmic consciousness
    #6249697 - 11/05/06 10:39 AM (17 years, 4 months ago)

I feel that there is no way to put into words what I experienced. There can be no "word of god" because god goes beyond what this mind can manifest. I will however make some attempt to convey what I felt last night..

I started out my day by eating rather light. Whole grains and fruit all day, with a couple hour fast leading up to my dose. 5:00 PM I dose 2.1g dried cubes, along with grapefruit juice and some very pure chocolate(reported light maoi and mood enhancer). This dose was less than I usually take, but the experience that followed was more intense than any I have ever had.

I spent around 15 minutes meditating to clear my head and relax. I then began to read Be Here Now by Ram Dass. It is a very spiritual book and I feel that it had a great influence on the experience that followed.

As my ascent really began to accelerate I experienced my usual anxiety. I thought maybe some music would help me relax. At first I was listening to some trance, which was quite enjoyable, but soon it put me on edge so I switched to classical. While listening to the classical music I came to the realization that the human voice must be the most beautiful source of sound ever created. Despite the fact that the singer was reciting a language I did not understand, the passion behind her words was very apparent. It resonated throughout my entire body.

Now, approximately +1:00 into the trip the mushrooms began their assault on my ego. I felt I had no choice but to go lay down in the darkness. Cowering in the fetal position under the covers of my bed, I saw everything that I associated with my "self" being systematically stripped away. At one point I concluded that some part of my mind was god, and everything I have ever come in contact with was something that I produced. Every person, book, literally everything, was a product of me/god. I was on the edge of something and I could have let go of all of that, but I thought that everything I knew in my life would be gone forever. I frantically tried to call a girl who was the only really close person I have in my life. She answered her phone but I could sense she wasn't really there for me. She was with friends and too into her situation so I just said goodbye. I must have accepted the fact that I had nobody who could help me through what I was experiencing. I had given up, only to realize that the fear of everything being taken from me was really a product of my ego fighting back.

I can only describe what followed as being enveloped in the pure energy of god. It was a state of total euphoria which went beyond anything I have ever experienced, including ecstasy. I was being shown things the entire time, explaining every spiritual question I have ever asked. I was shown that part of me is in fact god. As well as every other living being. I was shown that there are two planes of existence. The spiritual plane which is nothing but energy/love/consciousness, and the material/physical plane. Our bodies are simply god's connection to the material plane. I also thought of how people get so caught up in chasing material objects and they forget that they are directly connected to this spiritual force. I felt sad for people who spend their entire life accumulating wealth thinking that they have to leave behind something physical as a representation of themselves. The person who is obsessed with the material plane builds a statue of himself. The person who fully realizes his connection to the spiritual plane has statues built for him by those who are fortunate enough to come in contact with such a being. These realizations made me wish to leave my life behind and pursue a more simple life of agriculture or live within a monastery.

Love was also a very prevalent part of my experience. The total ecstasy I felt being one with god was like being enveloped in a sphere of true love. I realized how powerful love was and how we can all use it every time we come in contact with another being. If you are so pure of heart that you are able to look into the eyes of a total stranger with pure love, imagine how they would react to you. This is where the stories stem from of gurus and realized beings who can walk fearlessly through the dangers of jungles because the animals sense their vibrations and know they are one with the spirit. Being this pure is what it means to be Jesus/Buddha/etc.. We all have the capability if we are able to accept the fact that we are one with the god energy. I was shown that my true purpose here is to spread the love energy of god throughout the physical plane. That is what it really means to do the work of god. God works through our actions and the love energy we give to others.

As I came down I tried as hard as I could to hold onto this energy I had connected with. I wanted nothing more than to be able to bring it back with me to the material plane. Ultimately the chemicals broke down and the connection was no longer being forced on me. Only the very pure can stay in that state indefinitely. As my ego regained control and my reality reassembled itself, I am left with only the memory of the experience. It was more real than anything I have ever felt, and I refuse to even entertain the possibility that it was a product of my mind or a chemical. I now see how much time I have wasted searching for the answers within books of religion and science. Science can never explain why we are here or what we are because it attempts to detach us from the true source.

I may not ever use mushrooms again because they have shown me all that there is to know. The difficulty is accepting the experience as truth and integrating it into your life. It just fades over time for so many of us.


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and I refuse to be concerned with condescending advice
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Re: Reunion with the cosmic consciousness [Re: PowerTrip]
    #6249745 - 11/05/06 11:06 AM (17 years, 4 months ago)

What an awesome post. I agree with much of what has been revealed to you. It's a shame that the majority of us cannot remain in such a hightened state of enlightenment. This planet would be a million times better if it were so-no more wars and animosity, and less focus on materialistic accumulation. So ironic that a naturally occuring fungus capable of sharing such beauty with us is outlawed for consumption.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience.

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Re: Reunion with the cosmic consciousness [Re: EthericOctopuss]
    #6249940 - 11/05/06 12:31 PM (17 years, 4 months ago)

yes!

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Re: Reunion with the cosmic consciousness [Re: bluedolphin]
    #6250940 - 11/05/06 06:33 PM (17 years, 4 months ago)

Great post!  :thumbup: I had a very similar experience a week ago in which I experienced myself as the universal consciousness/god.  :grin:


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Re: Reunion with the cosmic consciousness [Re: SoY]
    #6258360 - 11/07/06 05:32 PM (17 years, 4 months ago)

I had a very similar experience on e recently. I saw that their was actually a personal aspect of God and that it resides in all of us so we are all the same, nobody is alone and we are all here to love ourself. I think you may have gone beyond and seen the transpersonal oneness(Brahma as opposed to Atman) beyond the high self.


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2. "We were feeling pretty good so we decided to smoke a few bowls..."
3. "I had to be real quiet because my parents were asleep upstairs..."

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Re: Reunion with the cosmic consciousness [Re: Divided_Sky]
    #6309295 - 11/28/06 10:22 PM (17 years, 4 months ago)

Thanks, I enjoyed reading that. I haven't triped for ten years, (cept for perm effects) and it has taken me all that time of constant meditation to arive at similar conclusions. I'm going to be going on a small/light trip from MG soon, and I hope to embrace and enhance these positive understandings. Very inspiring.


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Re: Reunion with the cosmic consciousness [Re: 789andIeatyou]
    #6326041 - 12/01/06 11:46 PM (17 years, 3 months ago)

congratulations brother I'm very very happy for you. this is the goal in using psychedelics. this is what all of the other experiences point to. welcome to the love party. :grin: i love you and remember to keep spreading it. it is essential to the future of our planet and our race. :heartpump:  :heartpump:  :heartpump:


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Re·union with the cosmic consciousness, indeed! [Re: PowerTrip]
    #6326124 - 12/02/06 12:34 AM (17 years, 3 months ago)

"Only the whole of it, knows all of it!"
~Unknown

BTW: Was it really ever forced on you?
What if it is the other way around? (As well as…)

Meaning: You hold on to THIS energy, and if/when you let go of it, you return to source?

When we transcend our egos, we do not kill them, we integrate them?
As one return to source, one is free of any ego?
And as one return to THIS, one makes one?

Soul/Ego, as the very same thing – being you! (?)

I was going somewhere whit all these questions, but I rather let my doubt take control.
Thus I “leave you” with this comment:

Great re·port!

I love it! And I will probably read it again!

:happyheart:

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Re: Re·union with the cosmic consciousness, indeed! [Re: Gomp]
    #6339604 - 12/06/06 06:09 AM (17 years, 3 months ago)

Yes, positive experience is like healthy grain to the field...it helps us better establish our internal "karma" onto our lives and brings us deeper into our journey as creatures of emotion and responsibility.

I've had similar experience's, though, less involved with any notion of being God, the imposed concept, or whatever, but more about the consciousness of sharing knowledge and of great teachers who saw into emptiness and brought out good, watching over us, guiding us into a better future.

Very cool Trip, and off of 2.1 g, I'm def going with Grapefruit next time...:)

Ego-self realizations is to strengthen humility, to love and spread love as you decree, is to be humble.


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Re: Re·union with the cosmic consciousness, indeed! [Re: WIZOLZ]
    #6353925 - 12/10/06 12:23 PM (17 years, 3 months ago)

Thanks for this. I myself have had a very similar experience.


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http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Cat/0/Number/6352268/an/0/page/0

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Re: Re·union with the cosmic consciousness, indeed! [Re: gtpen]
    #6357188 - 12/11/06 09:35 AM (17 years, 3 months ago)

Try Syrian rue instead of chocolate next time. Harmine (the MAOI in Syrian Rue) will REALLY enhance your trip. I'd suggest using the same dosage of mushrooms though, don't want to go above and beyond too far :laugh:

Great report!

:mariopeace:


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Re: Re·union with the cosmic consciousness, indeed! [Re: DrMario]
    #6360646 - 12/12/06 09:09 AM (17 years, 3 months ago)

Was this energy you experienced able to be "seen"?  Did you experience it visually?  I beleive that I may have experienced what you are refering to, but only once.  Twas quite the experience!

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