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Scarfmeister
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Thailand is destroying my life.
#6001423 - 08/27/06 11:57 AM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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I went to Thailand for a backpacking trip late April to late July this year and had such and amazing time i couldn't believe it. Made some very good friends and we ended up staying in Phuket for two months. We spent loads and loads of cash going totally nuts, drinking every day and just having a blast. Eventually we forced ourself to go home.
The first week was excruciating and all i could think about was going back to the land of smiles. Two weeks later my friend from Phuket called me and told me he was going back and said i should come. So i booked the next flight to bangkok and off to pattaya we went. Pattaya is rightfully named the Sin City which is a name they proudly flaunt when you enter the city. Pattaya was totally insane and it didn't take long for me and my mate to indulge our every desire. The drunker we got the more cash we burned and the Thais aren't a people to turn down hard cold cash. Needless to say we had the time of our life. After 3 weeks of intense partying i could feel that i was heading for a train wreck. I knew i should go home but there were to many temptations. Just one more week we said.
By know i could feel pain in my organs which i no doubt come from excess alcohol and drug consumption. The last week was a roller coaster ride of crazy events, with angry Thai men and insane Thai hookers. We had both began to fall over the edge and started to make enemies of the bad sort. Fortunately for us we had been spending a relative fortune at the right places so i suspect a couple of club owners kept the wolfs of our backs. At least that is what i think they hinted at now that i think back at it.
We missed our planes home because we had been pissed out of our heads, and had woken up and some girls shitty rugged metal shack that she called a home. We said fuck it and stayed another five days.
By know my friend had maxed all his credit cards and my once fat bank account was looking less than respectable. Fortunately my mates dad is some kind of hotshot at some Dubai airline so he got us cheap tickets back home.
Been home for 2 days now and looking back all i can think about is buying a ticket to Bangkok and go back at it. I know that at this point it would be really stupid as i would no doubt burn the last of my savings. I even considered selling my top of the line flat screen tv just to buy myself a couple of more weeks.
What the fuck is wrong with me? I've started to act strange and paranoid when i drink and sometimes aggressive for no reason, a problem i rarely had before. Im going to try and stay white for at least four weeks but im not sure ill be able to hack it that long. Its not the staying sober part that worries me its that i want to go back to Thailand so bad. I feel empty. Its so cold here and the people depresses me more now than ever.
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: Scarfmeister]
#6001439 - 08/27/06 12:02 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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sounds like an addiction to me... not to alcohol but to thailand and especially the time you have when you are there...
go cold turkey, man... try to go home to your parents or some place where you know you will feel a lot of familiarity... and live it out... what do you do for a living anyways? don't you have school or work to go to?
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: Scarfmeister]
#6001448 - 08/27/06 12:06 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Welcome back to reality. Start working hard and saving for another vacation?
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Scarfmeister
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Don't have anything to do at the moment. Im trough with uni and been doing some real estate developing on and off with a friend which had paid off nicely, but i no longer have the cash to continue along those lines. Even if i did i wouldn't chance it at this juncture.
Been thinking about getting a regular job which shouldn't be much of a problem but i dread whithering away at an office playing grab ass with the boss. I guess if i hustle this month i should be able to go back to Thailand and live in style for a month or two.
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: Scarfmeister]
#6001496 - 08/27/06 12:37 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Just look forward to going back man, work like hell. I'm scared I'm not gonna come back from the next place I go.
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: Scarfmeister]
#6001524 - 08/27/06 12:46 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thailand isn't destroying your life, you are. seems like you have nothing else to latch onto, other than a fantasy life you cant afford. financially, physically, or mentally.
reassess your values in life, prioritize whats most important & dedicate yourself to working on those things to better your life.
a vacation is to take a break from life, not to become life.
take care dude.
p.s, your post was a good read. reminded me very much like "requim for a dream"
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: Scarfmeister]
#6001612 - 08/27/06 01:09 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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More about the hookers and drugs.
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: Scarfmeister]
#6001634 - 08/27/06 01:15 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
QuantumMeltdown said: Welcome back to reality.
I think this says it all.
You went to a place of what seems to be pure happiness. And now youre back to reality, and you cant cope. No one wants to give up happiness, and no one has too. But somethings must be taken in moderation, and to do this you have to let go of the Thai fantasy life. It was good while it lasted and you will probably go back eventually, but it would be insane to go back right away. Enjoy regular life while looking forward to your future trip, but dont let this fantasy burn you to the ground. Remember, fun though Thailand might be, you cant survive living this fantasy for too long. Take a break and stabilize yourself, give your body and mind a rest for a while.
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: Scarfmeister]
#6001815 - 08/27/06 02:07 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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hey at least you didn't die.
you put me in TJ for two days with $1500 and i guarantee i'll be dead or in jail.
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: Phoshaman]
#6001838 - 08/27/06 02:12 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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go get tested for aids, then you'll know if your life is really ruined.
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gema
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: Scarfmeister]
#6001858 - 08/27/06 02:19 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Why not make it a permanent move?
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Scarfmeister
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: gema]
#6001889 - 08/27/06 02:30 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Believe me i though about it but it just isn't feasible unless you have a fairly decent secondary income from your home country. A hotel or restaurant requires to much key money and running a beer bar (AKA being a pimp) isn't nearly as profitable as one would suspect.
Guess i will have to ride out the storm like the rest of you.
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: daimyo]
#6002028 - 08/27/06 03:25 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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daimyo said: More about the hookers and drugs.
LOL my thoughts exactly
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Scarfmeister
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: cyalume]
#6002045 - 08/27/06 03:32 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
cyalume said:
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daimyo said: More about the hookers and drugs.
LOL my thoughts exactly
What happens in thailand stays in thailand.
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Re: Thailand is destroying my life. [Re: KidgardFromSRQ]
#6002487 - 08/27/06 06:07 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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KidgardFromSRQ said: go get tested for aids, then you'll know if your life is really ruined.
good tip!
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