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#600037 - 04/05/02 08:36 PM (21 years, 11 months ago) |
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overdose Spread your wings with me and soar Gave up...not gonna fight no more Not gonna live, not gonna die Just sit and wait as time goes by Lost it all to the game of life Looking down at my shiny knife No, that's too hard...cause I'm not strong What then? A gun? No...that's all wrong They think I'm so strong, happy and free What the fuck do they know about me? There's pain in my body, my soul, my heart Who gives a damn that I'm falling apart? They come to me when their lives aren't right But this time I wanna be the one that's held tight A tender kiss....a sweet embrace They know not the pain behind this smile on my face Lost my will to live, and just don't wanna die Don't even have the strength anymore to keep on gettin high Now XTC rollin through my veins, I think that I'm in love I'm so high now on this crap, I'm lookin down from above Here, just chew on this little paper...mmm, yes, that numbs the pain Ahh, no, not clearer now, I'm not feeling very sane Altered state of mind...hmm...just too hard to think Maybe I can bring reality back if I have another drink Hmm, that tasted nasty, I'll chase it with a toke Oh, no, feeling sleepy now...where the hell's my coke? Ahhh this coke is speeding me out, now I wanna come down Morphine fix is ready, only my needle needs to be found Hold me off while I run this shit...ahh...ok thanks, my friend Yes, finally, here it is, I feel I'm closer to the end Guess I'll close my eyes now, and see where I wake up And if you haven't noticed yet, I just don't give a fuck I just don't give a fuck I just don't give a fuck I just don't give a fuck I just don't give a fuck I just don't give a fuck Maybe I was never meant to be.... 'her' Maybe I'm just "crazy" ~K~
Edited by MystrysAbsynth (04/05/02 08:50 PM)
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#600465 - 04/06/02 10:02 AM (21 years, 11 months ago) |
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That is sad. I know what you mean. Hey, are you the person who replied to a post about chakra energy about a week ago?
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#601926 - 04/08/02 05:06 AM (21 years, 11 months ago) |
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Or maybe I don't know what you mean.
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Hey, are you the person who replied to a post about chakra energy about a week ago? Yes, that was me...things are crazy in the Universe lately...too much energy vibrating in odd areas...LOL....so do ya know what I mean or NOT?? LOL...j/k... I'm serious about the energies though...weird stuff
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#602458 - 04/08/02 06:02 PM (21 years, 11 months ago) |
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I think I do. I'm gonna start meditating. Thing's are fucked up!
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Oh my god! It was a coincidence (about my new avatar). I should get rid of that image.
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HUH??? What's wrong with the image? It's a river, right? I agree with you about the meditating part....I need to start focussing more on my practice also. Once a week in K.Yoga class I get a good deep session, but my alone time sessions have been fraught with distractions and negativity. Alot of bad energy here in the house,too. ~K~
Edited by MystrysAbsynth (04/08/02 06:26 PM)
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#603024 - 04/09/02 05:18 AM (21 years, 11 months ago) |
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HUH??? What's wrong with the image? It's a river, right? HAHAHAHAHA! Yes! I thought I was making the impression that I wanted to jump in. I don't (well, maybe I do, but not THAT river). Your dilemma gives me a better idea for an avatar. You'll see! Kundalina Yoga? I have Wai Lana tapes. I should go to a real class though. PEACE
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Well..I AM an emotional RETARD..remember...sometimes things slip right over my silly blonde head!! LOL :P Can't wait to see the new avatar... I started out with and STILL do workouts at home with Gurmukh and Ravi Singh. You should chck them out before trying a class...I enjoy my class...but to be honest...because of my awakening...alot of energy get misplaced during our workout. My instructor has literally sent 2 of my classmates to me for help with their symptoms!!! He says I a ma "strong force" in his class and he feels I am to help these people now with their spontaneous awakenings.He says it's my duty... seems like a lot of pressure on ME!! IMHO I do it..but feel I cannot be of help in the same capacity the instructor could and SHOULD. My opinion has changed greatly about him. I feel he is all talk now and no action. He sortta throws his students to the lions.He confided in me and told me he had NEVER ahd a student,much less 2 in one class, spontaneously emerge with full blown K. I think he wishes I would go away!! LOL ~K~
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#603574 - 04/09/02 05:47 PM (21 years, 11 months ago) |
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That's a lot of work you have on your hands! What is full-blown K? Forgive me for I am retarded as well. My idea didn't work. I had a bunch of papers (mostly bills and junk-mail), and an industrial-strength cooling fan and videotaped it. It's on my computer but I can't figure out how to put it up as an avatar yet. But, thanks for sharing your dilemma (and the info). I am not familiar with the people you mentioned. I'll look them up. I need to learn how to meditate. Take it easy.
Edited by frogsheath (04/09/02 05:52 PM)
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Yeah...seems a bit unusual for a teacher/guru to pass the buck when he feels he doesn't have the time or simply doesn't want or know how to deal with a situation. Apparently both students came to him and begged for help and re-assurance. He treated them like they were faking it. The first gal was an elementary school teacher and now can no longer teach. She has horrible episodes of a catatonic type state...while in this state she is conversing with the Devine and experiences something I am VERY familiar with...spontaneous cosmic orgasms!! It's Divine ecstasy throughout the entire body...wave after wave of full body orgasms. The nectar is there. Kinda rough standing in front of a class full of 4th graders and have this happen Full blown K just means they simply went from nothing...a few meditational highs maybe...to an all out assault on their chakra system by Shakti. Once the Kundalini uncoils and ascends, there is no stopping it. That is one reason I feel our instructor is misleading and subjecting the students to dangerous territory. I feel he may have some experience, but not as much as he claims...why else would he pass them off to ME??? She was also kicked out of a free-form dance class and wasn't allowed to enter my belly dance class due to word of mouth.People treat her like she's crazy. It really is sad. I told her she needs to find a Buddhist(she's MAINLY a Buddhist) and speak with a monk on these spiritual issues. She needs more guidance than I can provide. Right now I'm here for her to realize she's not crazy...this is real and it is really happening to her. SAD but true...watch who you trust your spiritual path and health to!! She is now seeking psychiatric help and medication...BAD IDEA...but she's scared and everyone but me has no clue what is going on. But I have my own shit to deal with. So. I just warn people as they come into class.... LOL...BEWARE!!! Careful what you seek...you may find it here!! Namaste ~K~
Edited by MystrysAbsynth (04/09/02 08:40 PM)
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#603655 - 04/09/02 07:23 PM (21 years, 11 months ago) |
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Thank you! I hope she is alright. You too. I'll be doing my part- learning from the info you have provided. WOW!
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#604465 - 04/10/02 03:16 PM (21 years, 11 months ago) |
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I think you're doing more than is humanly possible. I am excited about the info you gave me. I've been in a great mood almost all day (and last night). I must keep cool though. Thanks again!
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Glad to hear it....I hope you checked out some of the things we talked about...I have some more references and reading suggestions if you need. I just got a list of advanced K. reading from my instructor this afternoon...he wants me to start a type of spiritual counseling at his groups for those having difficulties. I wish I could say NO..i feel a bit overwhelmed by his confidence in me. BUT..I was told 2 years ago with my awakening that would travel East and I would be required to help others...never went into details...maybe this is the helping part...only place I wanna travel is...nevermind...keep that one to myself ~K~
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