That's funny, exciting stuff. You should be proud of that sticker...and of course yourself for showing it off.
I salute you!
Hunter S. Thompson is my teacher and like the ones that thought of Jesus Christ, he's taken up that part of my brain in away. And to be more clear, I beleive..or gEt, What Jesus Christ is..and I'm comparing The Good Doctor with him...the two, in my eyes, thought the same. For no particular reason, one Wednesday night during my two week holiday from being a kid temp at an army tank coating factory; I ate just one pink, what looked like a King engraving image, tablet of Ecstasy.
I sat out back and smoked half a pack. I just sat there for four or three hours, listening to music and painting my zoomed ego, when I saw him. I still remember the Eerie image, in my mind behind closed eyed, of him...I was totally at one with the music, the e high, the smoke, the ground, the sky, the weather, the world, my mind, the chaos of others, and God...Oh God how it all came on me, note after note. It felt like Enlightment for sure. I don't do E much at all, especially latley..it's been months. The shit came about by accident, drug deal gone bad, where dealer thought my friend said 5 E, instead of 5 G Weeed. I told him, he should of said Grams. Anyhow, we took two, and I promised myself I'd never take them if there was nothing to do...exciting, something new to thrill, or arouse my mdma mind. Unlike the other colors of E pills I've gobbled before, this one had a lot of pshycedelic thoughts..and even closed eyed images. Or no..that wouldn't be completley true, as this was only the second time I've tried one alone. Doing it again, after a few months, reminded me of why I craved a dose all week for the end of the week. How I felt on top of the world, and it made perfectly good sense. I may be young, and look it too, but I love it all, and await the future, to show you all what I can do for you. Perhaps it had some LSD in it. I've never found her yet, tho. All I know, is that normally E makes me feel guilty...like a shroom kickin my ass..cause of my life..not by the way I perceive it (I think it's very good and spiritual for the most part), but just the way it might be perceived by others. Oh how sad...what some of those brainwashed followers might think. They wouldn't understand my experience with that E pill, solo roll all alone, nothing going on, just me and my pshycedelic tunes...If I was to tell them, especially, that one of my favorite authors spoke to me that night. Sure it was in my head, but that didn't matter because I could of felt it being any more realer at the time. Perhaps it was the drug, perhaps the chemistry of the music as well, and the fact that I was outside, loving the cool summer night, puffing away the tobacco running plesant thoughts in a cycle...perhaps that just opened up a magical state, to allow him to say what he wanted to say about me. "You're gonna go nuts off it. Nothing you can't handle, I'm sure."
I'm 19, been loving his work since 17. I thought I remembered seeing an image of him when I overdosed on 8 grams of dried Mushroom, when I was 17. But I didn't know what it meant at the time...especially anything else for that matter. But I think I know what it meant this time. It had everything to do with me, my current state, age, and perception of the others, that move unnaturally, or just plain ugly, all around me..some of them secretly controlling and affecting what I want for me. I got nothing going for me. And mabye I should blame them for all of it. But I wouldn't want to go to prison..and why kill yourself when you got pot to buy and life to burn...in all the riight waays....their are ways. The American Dream. It's sad when you need money to truly live out what you are always thinking about. But you can't control those thoughts towards the woman you love, or the neat ideas of fun, that surround you. Cost some buck to trully have what ya need. And until then..I'll enjoy the e, and a lot, if not all drugs, a hellva lot more then right now. I just not it for a fact. And because of that, because I love all of you..and I'm fuckin Fearless as any suicidal Hero, I'm going to turn you on to it...someday...someway.
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