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Silversoul
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Can't shake this crazy thought
#5950740 - 08/10/06 02:18 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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So, I've been planning for a while on moving to Portland, Oregon. It's not just that I like the city. I feel "called" to go there. I've told my parents about this, and they've been trying to help me find jobs up there, with no success so far. So, they recently said I need to just forget about it and look for jobs here, which I agreed to do. But I don't feel right about it. I just feel like I'm not supposed to be here.
Ok, so here's the crazy part: Last night, I had this nagging feeling that I need to just pack up my car, head up to Portland, and live out of my car if need be. I've tried to shake this feeling, but it won't go away. I feel like God is calling me. I've been pacing back and forth all day trying to talk myself out of it, but the idea keeps coming back, and I can't ignore it. I feel so restless and anxious. I can't get anything else done, because this obsessive thought keeps coming back to me.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5950786 - 08/10/06 02:32 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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do what you gotta do sometimes drastic change is good
you can use your parents house as an address for job applications and go under the guise of job scouting, maybe stash some cash away in your car so that you'll at least have enough gas money to go back home if need be
adventure is good
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Cherk]
#5950793 - 08/10/06 02:35 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Keep looking for a job. There's got to be something.
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eligal
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5950905 - 08/10/06 03:33 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Just go and find a job when you get there, even if its a dump job that you take just to hold you over till you find a better one.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5950915 - 08/10/06 03:40 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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It still bugs me, that I didnt go to California, when I was thinking about it, instead I ended up in Texas.
Go now.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: eligal]
#5950918 - 08/10/06 03:42 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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do it dude.
I hope that everyone has the blessing to be able to live up to such callings when they arise. I know it must be really hard to listen to the feeling and to go, but it's actually just as easy as getting some cash, getting in that car, and never looking back.
and if it doesn't work out, you go back home too.
remember the Bible says something like don't worry about food, how you'll eat, the birds don't and God still feeds them. I'm sure something can work out, just be sure to have enough gas money though!
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Edited by leery11 (08/10/06 03:43 PM)
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5951316 - 08/10/06 05:41 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Don't give up that idea, if you could wait for a little longer and see what happens maybe you'll find a job that would be great, if not just leave. If you feel like going there just do it. Somethings definitely waiting there for you and even if it's not what you expect it to be or even if it will be hard I think it will mean a lot for your life and give you some kool stuff to learn for life. Just go for it. Good luck and keep us up telling us how it worked for you.
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MushmanTheManic
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5951631 - 08/10/06 07:00 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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I recommend you don't do anything irrational.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5951748 - 08/10/06 07:36 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Just taking off with no plan is a dumb idea.
You should have some resources, a place lined up to live, and a line on some employment. Do you want to go up there and have to crawl back to your parent's house? You need a plan...even if it is a half-assed plan.
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MOTH
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5951940 - 08/10/06 08:32 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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It's best to have a plan. However, I've made most of the most important decisions in my life without thinking them through. If I had taken the time to plan them out, who knows where I'd be. (don't want to know, I'm happy where I'm at now)
Sounds like you're at the breaking point. Like you need something to change for you, so you're at the point of drastic measures where you become your own change.
I don't know. It's risky to go. But maybe you should. WHATEVER YOU DO, don't come crawling back. That would be so disheartening. If you think you can go NOW and make it work for the long haul, then do it. But if you have even the slightest bit of suspicion that you might be unable to survive up there, then don't even bother leaving now.
So basically...do what your heart is telling you. Don't think too much about it. Thinking will just breed inaction and possibly frustration. Ask yourself the question NOW: Go or stay: check one.
Maybe you need to take a chance. Maybe you need to stay and plan it out.
Personally...if I was you...I would go.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: MOTH]
#5952941 - 08/11/06 02:33 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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im from south of portland. i too have hankerings for portland.mostly because imma big city yankee and dont have any place urban to fulfill me. when this happens to me i usually pack a bag for a day trip. the music scene is pretty cool.
so often i get a bus ticket (idk how far you are from there) and i catch a show. but not before arranging a place to stay
as for the latter i like to stay at a place called hosteling internation on se hawthorne very cheap on a nightly basis. nifty thing its in the thick of things as well.
i recommend doing this if you are not acclaimated to the are. if so , do some job searches on craigslist. theres alot of oppertunity up there!
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Silversoul
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5952945 - 08/11/06 02:35 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well, after talking to some people, I think there's another way for me to do this, so I'm not going to go through with that plan just yet.
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Booby
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5953063 - 08/11/06 04:43 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Don't burn your bridges and that quote from pink floyd to that effect.Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us. To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side.
and the instrumental: "The dawn mist glowing, The water flowing, The endless river, Forever and ever":
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Edited by Booby (08/11/06 04:53 AM)
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trunksan
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: MOTH]
#5953428 - 08/11/06 10:26 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Quote:
EllemyshShade said: I don't know. It's risky to go. But maybe you should. WHATEVER YOU DO, don't come crawling back. That would be so disheartening. If you think you can go NOW and make it work for the long haul, then do it. But if you have even the slightest bit of suspicion that you might be unable to survive up there, then don't even bother leaving now.
Why be so radical? If he can't make it there, it shouldn't be a problem to go back to his family's house temporarily and go somewhere else aftwards. Unless he has issues with his parents I don't think its that big a deal.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: trunksan]
#5953588 - 08/11/06 11:38 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Eh, she has to be tough, to keep her position on the A-Team.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5953711 - 08/11/06 12:27 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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So go to Oregon. Whats the difficult part of this decision? Do you have the loot to make it there and survive for a month? If so, go. If not, work hard, get the money, then go.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5953794 - 08/11/06 12:59 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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I've always rode this wave by the seat of my pants, silversoul. I think there's a lot to be said for "going with your gut" and even going out on a limb because of a "hunch". Human intuition, while often misportrayed, should not be ignored.
Have you put any thought into why you should go to Portland? I'm sure you have, but it never hurts to try some more! I find that, when my intuition is screaming at me to do something, if I just sit down and ponder it for a while I can almost always deduce a logical reason behind what my intuition is saying.
Anyway man, I'd say go for it! If it's what your heart is telling you, why not?
As long as you don't see it royally fucking your life up....what's your reason not to go?
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5954003 - 08/11/06 02:23 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Why don't you do Missionary work or something? (My family has uber connections if you're interested.) Portland sucks; you should be in Cambodia building schools.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5954030 - 08/11/06 02:35 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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follow your heart -any disney movie
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MOTH
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: trunksan]
#5954476 - 08/11/06 05:03 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Quote:
trunksan said:
Quote:
EllemyshShade said: I don't know. It's risky to go. But maybe you should. WHATEVER YOU DO, don't come crawling back. That would be so disheartening. If you think you can go NOW and make it work for the long haul, then do it. But if you have even the slightest bit of suspicion that you might be unable to survive up there, then don't even bother leaving now.
Why be so radical? If he can't make it there, it shouldn't be a problem to go back to his family's house temporarily and go somewhere else aftwards. Unless he has issues with his parents I don't think its that big a deal.
Who cares? I said what I thought. Pick on someone else's reply, mmmkayyy??
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BOOBY: Eh, she has to be tough, to keep her position on the A-Team.
You can bug off too, you big BOOB. 
Edited by EllemyshShade (08/11/06 05:11 PM)
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Silversoul
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: MOTH]
#5954516 - 08/11/06 05:18 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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After getting it together, I've decided I'm just going to go up there for a week and look for jobs.
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MOTH
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5954527 - 08/11/06 05:26 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well, that's a great idea. It sets a stable platform for you later on...
Something I've always had issues with...stability. 
Good luck!
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5954537 - 08/11/06 05:30 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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You could get lucky and find a cool employer up there that might understand where you're coming from and give you a job whether or not it may not be in their best interest.
A man on a mission; follow through and it will become life.
I hope the best for you.
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Re: Can't shake this crazy thought [Re: Silversoul]
#5955152 - 08/11/06 10:10 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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do it tomarrow. You know you want to. You know you'll be fine if you do. You know every day you plan and plan or convince yourself to not do it is a day wasted. Your gonna die someday and that is something you can't plan for.
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