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Iamthewalrus
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sorry bout my post yesterday
#5918117 - 07/31/06 10:11 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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shits really fucked up within my family as stated...I was letting out a lot of anger that needed to be let out...I love YOU guys(better?) and it was not geared towards u...I'm also have girl problems but not the bad kind(well bad but not the breakup kind) her friends treat her like shit her mom has basically abandoned her...maybe this is why we connect so well...we are both kind ppl who care whos family's treat us like we don't matter..neways I gotta lotta shit to figure out right now and I was high as a mofo the last couple days(just finishin off the last of the xanax now...I won't use it again I'm stickin wtih clonazepam with anxiety) once I start using xanax I can't stop(that day)
Edited by Iamthewalrus (07/31/06 02:38 PM)
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918122 - 07/31/06 10:13 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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btw my behaviour was wreckless but not as bad it may sound on paper I have a very unique gaba receptor most benzos do pretty much nothing...I remember eating the burgers and enjoyin them before passin out...and most of the day is in my memory as well tho its broken up...I did everything I Needed to do right it was the following shit that made shit hit the fan...shit I can't go into because even tho he dosen't deserve it I have to protect my father(sperm doner)
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918170 - 07/31/06 10:34 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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You're good, man. Everybody has a bad day now and then.
You love guys?
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Cowgold]
#5918189 - 07/31/06 10:45 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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of course they give better head(kiddin) lol
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918234 - 07/31/06 11:15 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Your ok man, you don't need to aplogise, all's well. When i was saying all the anxietys in your head and all the " change of thoughts " shit, i was just saying that because that's how i helped myself. It was stupid advice really because that change of thought wasn't something i did it just happened over time.
Hope your feeling better anyway, i'm having a fuckin shit day today lol.
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918281 - 07/31/06 11:29 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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well u are right...you do have to change how the mind is mapped...but it takes time and a lot of effort its not switchin on a lightbulb thats all I was saying
hope u figure out your day...I'm planning my move and my girls move right now
lol u can tell I got some xanax in me still I"m making fucked up posts
Edited by Iamthewalrus (07/31/06 11:32 AM)
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918319 - 07/31/06 11:43 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Quote:
Iamthewalrus said: You do have to change how the mind is mapped...but it takes time and a lot of effort its not switchin on a lightbulb thats all I was saying
lol u can tell I got some xanax in me still I"m making fucked up posts
LOL, i wish i had some xanax.
Your right in what you say anyway. I'm gonna do my best to do fuck all today, i'll get smoked up then i'll be vegin out. Sounds like a master plan to me,,
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918324 - 07/31/06 11:46 AM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Just glad your O.K. Take it easy on them drugs.
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Mike_yy]
#5918487 - 07/31/06 12:53 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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I'm not saying drug bingin is the way to go...I'm just saying to get over anixety takes much disicpline and doing some of the hardest shit a human being can do(putting yourself in positions which your body believes is physically dangerous)
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918489 - 07/31/06 12:54 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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thx dreamer I appreciate it...I have problems on many ends and I have to move out asap...so I'm feelin a ton of stress(without the xanax I'd be fucked) but I want clonazepam...theres no high and it works better for what i need
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918528 - 07/31/06 01:07 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Using really large amounts of pills to treat anxiety is not the best approach. It may help you forget about it temporarily - but long term it probably isn't going to do anything.
Taking a bunch of pills is only a way to hide from it. The next day it isn't going to be any better. You have to slowly learn to deal with it over time. I used to have it bad too and the only good way i know of beating it is to face it. Takes time and is stressful, you have to have patience and confidence. If you use the benzos in low reasonable doses, such as that recommended by your doctor, it will have a better chance of actually curing your problem (or making it better).
Antyways I wish you luck.
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: eris]
#5918588 - 07/31/06 01:34 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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I am facing it...it was ONE day of binging(and cleaning it off today)...this xanax was originally intended for dealing opiate withdrawl but I Could not hanlde myself with it...its too addictive...the clonazepam I will be getting is for withdrawl as well
after that I will be taking nothing 5-htp and acid to deal anxiety(and cbt which is THE best thing u do to deal with it)
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918593 - 07/31/06 01:36 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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I don't mean to be a prick but I've studied this shit a lot already and seen multiple shrinks...don't confuse a day being stupid with treatment in fact I have said myself hiding away in a haze will not beat anixety
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918636 - 07/31/06 01:57 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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Quote:
this xanax was originally intended for dealing opiate withdrawl but I Could not hanlde myself with it...its too addictive...the clonazepam I will be getting is for withdrawl as well
But if the Klonopin is for the withdrawal too, are you going to be able to make it last this time?
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918659 - 07/31/06 02:07 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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yes kpins don't make me high at all and the half life on is a long one so I will only need a daily pill
Edited by Iamthewalrus (07/31/06 02:08 PM)
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918694 - 07/31/06 02:22 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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LOL You said you "love guys". No wonder you got girl problems J/k j/k
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918729 - 07/31/06 02:37 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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haha ya I know I realized taht after ...I got myself a GREAT girl actually...best girl I"ve ever met and my perfect match...we're gonna be living together very soon(we can't stand being apart) its one of those mushy forever type dealy's
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918757 - 07/31/06 02:47 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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I Just wanna thank everyone here at the pub...u guys truely made me feel better...I now know why I can't feel good about myself...because whenever I do something to feel good about myself everyone in my family brings me down by pointing out what a fuck up I am etc
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Re: sorry bout my post yesterday [Re: Iamthewalrus]
#5918879 - 07/31/06 03:22 PM (17 years, 5 months ago) |
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That's what sucks sometimes. You'll be excited about something and when you try and share it with someone they don't want to acknowledge it. I deal with that alot and I've noticed that over the long term it eventually is noticed. Mostly it seems the things I do go unnoticed, but that's not why I do them. Mainly... just find a way to ignore their attitudes and focus on what you know to do. And, try to include as many people around you in it, they'll appreciate it eventually.
One trick is to pass the credit on to someone else. If you come up with a good idea... Tell them, "I like that idea you had." It works in your favor like you wouldn't believe. They hop on board quicker.
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