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I'm fuckin moron
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I took approx 30-40 1mg xanax yeseterday(not spreat out much) started the day with 20mg of oxcontin and then spent my day out in an humid field full of weeds plants some tomatoes ...
then I night I wast eating burgers and my mom said I passed right out into the burger and had sauce all over my face and the she had to drag to to my bed...I don't remember this of course BUT I Remember the day of semi-hard labor...but was a hot/humid mofo yeterday
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took 1mg of xanax today and feel high...why did I Feel some retarded need to take that many...I'm either hardcore or just a fuckin moron
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sorry my friend, I'll have to go with #2 on this one
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: goobler]
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well my home life is extremely stressful...if u knew the shit that was going on right no u would probably understand why I stupid things like this
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dying isnt stupid
its plain ol dumb
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Xanax are very moreish, i used to end up eating however many i had once i started. Fuckin dangerous really, more because of how you are once you've taken them rather than the risk of OD.
I was drinking on top of taking them this one time. I was that hammered that when i tried to stand up my sense of balance was non existent so i just toppled over, i didn't even put my hands out to stop myself falling. I'm not even sure i realized i was falling till i hit the floor, taking out half of my room with me.
I calmed right down on them after that ! That was without a doubt the most wiped out ive ever been in my life.
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: goobler]
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u obviously do not understand benzos so keep your mouth shut..everyone in my family is attackin me right now...one the main reasons I have axniety
I had the oxy EARLY morning for wtidhraw...I could have literally swollowed 100 1mg xanax and I would not have died cause benzos DO NOT effect the gag reflex or breathing...so next time keep your mouth fuckin shut before opening it...when u don't understand things
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just worried about you man, no ill will meant...guess you need to pop another
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Iamthewalrus said: u obviously do not understand benzos so keep your mouth shut..everyone in my family is attackin me right now...one the main reasons I have axniety
I had the oxy EARLY morning for wtidhraw...I could have literally swollowed 100 1mg xanax and I would not have died cause benzos DO NOT effect the gag reflex or breathing...so next time keep your mouth fuckin shut before opening it...when u don't understand things
oh...and another thing....I've watched Xanax destroy a few lives over 20 or so years... so I was just expressing my concern...
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: goobler]
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one of my friends a poster on here recently had a xanax/booze problem--by the end of it he was eating a handfull of 0.75s and washing em down with half a bottle of whiskey. while i've never had that much access to xanax i was addicted to clonazepam for quiet some time, to the point of stealing them from my grandma (which she had no business having--you don't give muscle relaxers to an active senior notorious for falling down!). one night i completely flipped out--prolly had 7-8 klonopins and a 2-liter screwdriver, and was so out of my mind my old man called the heat down on me--luckily i guess i was able to escape before they arrived. neither of us have ever discussed the incident again, but it really made me aware of how reckless benzodiazepines make a person.
i totally agree with you that if you've got xanax/etc. your gonna eat as many as you can before you black out.....they're just...so...good. if its mostly spawned by stress at home....perhaps you need a bag of fungus and a spirit quest, perhaps for the whole family. good luck whatever ya decide to do, i kno those little bastards are hard to stop doin =/
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benzos DO NOT effect the gag reflex or breathing.
Benzos cause respiratory failure in high enough amounts, it gets even worse when mixed with alcohol.
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Mike_yy]
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/<------keeping mouth shut
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: goobler]
#5914747 - 07/30/06 11:45 AM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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I don't understand pharmies.
I'm sorry you're going through so much shit though. maybe you should put all of the negative energy you feel and creat something positive with it. drawing? writing? Always better than a handfull of pills in my opinion. and then you have something to show for it afterwards.
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Re: I'm fuckin moron *DELETED* [Re: Iamthewalrus]
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Aninator]
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Yeah, it sucks that you feel so bad you have to rely on pills. I'm intrigued as to why your family are being so on top with you, but i hope it's more of a short term thing.
If it's going to go on for ages it might be a good idea to find some other sort of relief. That's easy for me to say i know but i think you'll know what i mean.
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Aninator]
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I really don't get the pharm deal either. People who use medicine to cope a buzz, are no better than a heroin junkie.
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: dr_gonz]
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you are full of fucking shit, kid.
fuckin kids.
Agreed..
One of the symptoms of alpazolam overdose is difficulty breathing.
-------------------- m00nshine is currently vacationing in Maui. Rumor has it he got rolled by drunken natives and is currently prostituting himself in order to pay for airfare back to the mainland but he's having trouble juggling a hairon addiction. He won't be back for a long while.
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: dr_gonz]
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Yeah I'd be willing to bet it'd send him into an instant coma (as soon as the pills started to break down) with death shortly following.
-------------------- m00nshine is currently vacationing in Maui. Rumor has it he got rolled by drunken natives and is currently prostituting himself in order to pay for airfare back to the mainland but he's having trouble juggling a hairon addiction. He won't be back for a long while.
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<----------still keeping fucking mouth shut
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Iamthewalrus said: u obviously do not understand benzos so keep your mouth shut..everyone in my family is attackin me right now...one the main reasons I have axniety
I had the oxy EARLY morning for wtidhraw...I could have literally swollowed 100 1mg xanax and I would not have died cause benzos DO NOT effect the gag reflex or breathing...so next time keep your mouth fuckin shut before opening it...when u don't understand things
You've got a pretty dangerous attitude right now, dude. Not an attack, just an observation.
If you think you're the only person here to have a shitty situation where family members attack you then you've forgotten where you're posting as well. Teh Shroomery loves j00. Stop talking so sketchy and feel better
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: goobler]
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They say it's not good to bottle things up. What is it that you would like to say goobler?
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I can't, he'll yell at me again
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post some proof of benzo withdrawl(WTHOUT ALCOHOL)...they are one of the sastest drugss in high amounts...I have enough of my current situation I've bene screaming at the top of my lungs for hours and am about to move due to abuse from bascially my whole family...everyone on my family has anxiety and I am the target my soul us been beaten down by basically beinng called everything in the book...and hte more I try to better myself the more I am held back...so I"ve made made the decision to move in 2 days and thats why I'm in the pissy mode...I"m sure nough benzos could kill just like any other sutsbtance including water...but I didn't take nearly enough for that...I'll be bringing my recently lpanted shitwth me(good thign I put most of em in plants) I"Ll post pics cause I don't give a fuck at this point...I was told to plant these btw and now i'm getting blamed for it...I was begged for months to plant these...so I make it happne and I am attacked as usual(cause I did something) this family needs their fuckin target to get out stress on
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Iamthewalrus said: post some proof of benzo withdrawl(WTHOUT ALCOHOL)...
We are talking about benzo "overdose" not withdrawal. Although I hear withdrawing from benzos is very hard.
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well least u all know hwy I've almost taken my life
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I'm not talking withdrawl either but benzos ARE VERY HARDS TO OD WIHTOUT OTHER CNS DEPRESSNATS even my doc told me once my whole bottom of clonaazepam would probably not kill even(this was after finding out about my suicide attempt)
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I'm glad you decided to move out, now you can start moving on.
Withdrawal = Insomnia Rebound REM (or dreaming) sleep Anxiety, possible panic attacks Tachycardia Hypertension Depression, possible suicidal ideation Tremor Perspiration Loss of appetite Delusions Dysphoria
An abrupt discontinuation of benzodiazepines may result in a severe and very unpleasant withdrawal syndrome that may additionally result in:
Convulsions Confusion Psychosis Effects similar to delirium tremens
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Why do you get so worked up about problems with the family? What exactly is it that makes probs with the fam so hard for you? Just trying to understand why you're so down. All families have their fights and plenty of drama dude. ("helps to get rid of the bad blood")
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Please be careful. Not an attack. But 30-40 mgs of Xanax, can easily kill people. No joke. And if it dosen't kill you, it can make you do things you will deeply regret.
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because I'm hit the end of rope
I'm nice to everyone and I'm walked all over and treated like I don't matter...this shit was STILL happened when I sad down to write the post...I've shut them up tho and I'm fairly shut up now...and I'm gone within a couple dsay...I could go into the severity of my anxity but its depressing and its not needed to be say...I will say this...Iv'eb been in anxity workshops and no one was advanced as I am...and I"Ve been told the mental abuse that was done to me is worse then physical abuse...anyway don't matter I'm moving on
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i had to add my 2 cents
some people are fuck-ups, a waste of space, a waste of oxygen, a waste of good drugs... some by birth, some by choice. I chose to waste away for a couple years, not anymore.
coming of a benzo addiction (xanax) is rough
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Mike_yy]
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btw I JUST got ONE script of xanax...ONE SCRIPT I am hardly an addict
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also have a unquie gaba receptor move benzos do NOTHING for me...NOTHING but take a slight edge off in serious anxiety...I've never bene sick from alcohol or had a hangover and alcohol gives me insomnia...so u can't really can't go by my #'s
I remember eveyrthing I did that day and didnt' do anything stupid just sounded a lil funny
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You're talking to somebody who also suffers with extreme anxiety so I do understand. I just don't get how people you've known your whole life can make you so anxious. (I'm guessing it's your immediate family..) It's too bad man, your family should be your comfort zone. Sounds like you definitely need to get the fuck out of that situation. You sound more depressed than anxious imho.
-------------------- m00nshine is currently vacationing in Maui. Rumor has it he got rolled by drunken natives and is currently prostituting himself in order to pay for airfare back to the mainland but he's having trouble juggling a hairon addiction. He won't be back for a long while.
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"I remember eveyrthing I did that day and didnt' do anything stupid just sounded a lil funny"
"I took approx 30-40 1mg xanax yeseterday(not spreat out much) started the day with 20mg of oxcontin and then spent my day out in an humid field full of weeds plants some tomatoes ...
then I night I wast eating burgers and my mom said I passed right out into the burger and had sauce all over my face and the she had to drag to to my bed...I don't remember this of course BUT I Remember the day of semi-hard labor...but was a hot/humid mofo yeterday"
Dude, you made those posts a few hours apart. Your downplaying the incredible danger you put yourself in. You seem like a good guy. You'v just got some issues that need be worked out. You said originally that the benzoz were solely for opiate withdrawal. You started the morning with 20mgs O.C. and ate 30-40 xanax that day? You need help. Moving away from your family is not going to do it for you. Don't want to be preachy. We are genuinely worried about you. Mabey you need some inpatient rehab?
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they watch me and point out every lil I do that they feel is wrong(Even lil sisters) I only have on sister I can talk too...I leave the room when teh others around...I DO need outta here...I've been saying it for while but I Really didn't want that family could od that to someone...they've taken my gentle soul beat it into submission...the only good thing I can say at least I have an edge...I've extremely caring all that shit but I won't not take shit if I feel like I'm trying ot be taken advantage(no physical violence just stern)
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What if you were eating soup, and your mom was out of the room?
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"You sound more depressed than anxious imho."
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Dreamer987]
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i think, it's good to move out, away from the family.
people don't need to be told what to do, life is supposed to fun and happy. Authority is such a downer.
I moved away from the parents at age 18, I've done pretty well on my own. No one telling me what to do, no one holding me back.
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Iamthewalrus said: they watch me and point out every lil I do that they feel is wrong(Even lil sisters) I only have on sister I can talk too...I leave the room when teh others around...I DO need outta here...I've been saying it for while but I Really didn't want that family could od that to someone...they've taken my gentle soul beat it into submission...the only good thing I can say at least I have an edge...I've extremely caring all that shit but I won't not take shit if I feel like I'm trying ot be taken advantage(no physical violence just stern)
See you don't really sound anxious man.. If you were anxious around the family you would lock yourself in your room and not come out. That's anxiety. The feeling of "get me the fuck out of here!" during a social interaction. You sound extremely depressed about how your family is treating you. Maybe you should go back to your doctors and tell them the benzos just aren't cutting it. An SSRI such as Prozac would probably do you a world of good.
On another note, why get so upset about what your little sisters have to say? How old are you and how old are they?
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Nashbar]
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"they watch me and point out every lil I do that they feel is wrong"
Every family does that. my family does that too, it really sucks and when i was in high school it was hard, but a couple of years later, they still do all of that but i on the other handjust explain shit to them. Instead of gettign mad at their reactions, i explain myself to them. Family's the one thing you should take the time out to explain yourself to Beucase they'll understand and love you an dlisten to you. You ahve to reach a point with parents where you both understand that there are things you agree and disagree on. and depending on your age they can't really do much but agree or disagree with it. Be proud of what/ who you are if you really disagree with what they say. that's the only way i get by.
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You'll be ok man, just do what you need to do. It'll take alot of effort but it'll be worth it in the end.
I had alot of anxiety/panic attacks shit and they sorted themselves out eventually. The counselor i was talking to did nothing for me, it was a change of thought and a better understanding of what exactly was going on with me that helped so much.
As soon as i knew the mechanics of a panic attack they started to decrease simply because even though i still got that rush of chemicals ( start of an attack ), i no longer panicked. That turned a 15 min freak out into 3 mins of feeling uncomfortable. Now they have almost all disappeared.
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Nashbar]
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Nashbar said: i think, it's good to move out, away from the family.
people don't need to be told what to do, life is supposed to fun and happy. Authority is such a downer.
I moved away from the parents at age 18, I've done pretty well on my own. No one telling me what to do, no one holding me back.
what planet did you move to? I wanna go there
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Aninator]
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there's very little "understanding" between parents and children, parents are people too. they have prejudices and biases the same as everyone else.
family conflicts are often a matter of control, control makes people feel satisfied and important. Control interferes with what other people want to do.
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: goobler]
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is minnesota a planet? it's a happy, fun place. I do whatever I want.
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Nashbar]
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I have a SEVERE anxiety disorder guys...I'll go into vivid detail when I"m not stupid for like 3 mg of xanax I had(almost done btw)
life is about to get much easier I can't wait(I'm moving in with my friend who has ms...I've always helped her out so she loves me and she knwos what my family is like) this is not the average family tho I assure u that...its abuse...I will go over why later on...most if it is from my dad who is also so anxiety ridden hes partly delusional...I wish it was just depression but the depression was just a by prodcut of anxiety(which is usually have it goesa)I have done much reading and saw a few docs...I HAVE anxiety...its damn near gorophobia actually but more later
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Just remember the anxiety is all in your head, it's not caused by all the shit that's going on in your life it's caused by how YOU react to it. If you keep reacting the same way it'll continue. If your going to move out and get away from it all i'm guessing that's a different reaction to usual, i'd say your heading in the right direction. Goodluck man i'm sure things will turn out alright
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Nashbar]
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is minnesota a planet? it's a happy, fun place. I do whatever I want.
I very happy for you....I cannot seem to get away from authority, even when its me sometimes
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let me ask u this matt can u work? can u leave the house most days? I cant' even go into convience stores without shakin like a leaf at time...and franklys its a lil insulting to have someone argue something like this which is VERY severe...I"m not aking bezos from the anxiety...I jut happen to score some xnax from a friend becasue it is VEYR rarly percribed upu here in canada(with good reaosn)
I am trapped in limbo...everything I had has to be perfect but it can better be perfect so I am never ppl...ppl wonder why I do do shit sometimes and act like they have alll the answers which PISSES me right off...I understand much of the human brain and this diordre in general..I feel like now moaving I will be able to taclke exposure teh way I need too
at this point I don't plan on every seeing anyone but my oldest sister(23 and I'm 24)...the rest of em can rott in hell where they belong(most ppl think my moms the sweetest person the world and she is...but she goes right along wiht my fathers abuse cause shes a fukin pussy which I told her that toay lol)she'llbe treatin one of em us like shit phone rings "hello" in the sweetest voice..she saves all her good nature for ppl who don't even matter really
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Iamthewalrus
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Re: I'm fuckin moron [Re: Mike_yy]
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and your worng I'd done extensive research on axiety and while yes its in the head its the way the your brain has been programmed to fuction and this is nto something u can "snap" outta...the pathways have been made...but I wanna go plya gf4 and I'm high...I will fill u in later just how u wwrong u(I'm reallyh not rying to bea know it all but this is a veyr silly way of htinking of it)
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This thread has been closed.
Reason: If you want to seriously harm yourself...don't be posting in The Pub about it as if it was a cool thing to do.
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