********************************************* Subject: The greater desire and some relevant subjects (Elias) *********************************************
"...the greater desire is to be aware and to be intentionally directing and creating what you want." (Elias/Session 1970)
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ELIAS: ... You may engage an idea of what you want, but what you genuinely want is to be generating the awareness to create your reality intentionally entirely in association with what you want -- THAT is the genuine desire. That can be expressed and developed in many, many different manners, and not necessarily always comfortable, for that choosing aspect of you does not distinguish between comfort or the lack of comfort. What it moves toward is whatever is most efficient to gain your attention.
RODNEY: Ha! Dying will get you there very quickly! (Group laughter)
ELIAS: Yes. (Smiles) Therefore, whether an expression is comfortable or not, if it is efficient and if it gains your attention quickly, that is what you will choose.
In this, as you shift into paying more attention to the process -- which is what you are doing, all of you -- your motivation becomes unclear, for you are not incorporating a clear goal. You incorporate an idea that you want to create your reality intentionally. What does that entail? You are not sure, and therefore the goal appears to you to be somewhat defined, but somewhat undefined and vague. It is not; it is quite clear, but you do not incorporate an expectation of what the outcome may be. Without the expectation, that creates, in a manner of speaking, a type of floundering, for it is unfamiliar. You always incorporate an expectation -- you KNOW what to expect, you KNOW your direction, you KNOW what you want -- but the greater desire is to be aware and to be intentionally directing and creating what you want.
You can think of many, many, many expressions that you want, but in relation to any of them the desire to be intentionally creating and aware of creating is greater than any of the individual wants that you may want to create. You may want a particular employment, you may want not to be employed, you may want to engage a particular action, you may want to create a relationship, you may want to create money -- yes, these are all valid wants. But the greater want is to understand and know HOW to be directing yourself intentionally to create those WHEN you want.
Therefore, in that greater desire, you yourself shall present to yourself the opportunity to become more familiar with yourself by identifying what is the most influencing of you that prevents you from creating what you want, and those, many times, are your truths, merely in association with not being aware of them and therefore not intentionally directing yourself in relation to them as guidelines. Therefore, yourself shall present many different expressions and scenarios in which you can offer a showing to yourself of your truths and how they are influencing.
That opens the door to choice, and choice presents your freedom. For once you recognize that you incorporate choice in every situation, in every moment, that you are not locked to one expression or one direction, that within any scenario -- within every scenario -- you incorporate choices, not one choice but many choices, there lies the seat of you directing yourself intentionally and allowing you to create what you want WHEN you want it. Not futurely, not anticipating: "Some day I shall arrive. Some day I shall incorporate the ability to create this. Eventually I shall incorporate the ability to create what I want." No.
"NOW, in this moment, I can create what I want, for I am aware of what influences me and I am aware that I incorporate choices. It is not black and white. I am not hidden from myself. I am also acknowledging of myself and my guidelines, for they are what allow me to create what I want" -- not that I discount myself in incorporating these guidelines, not that they are bad.
Not justification -- terrible word; very, very bad. No, it is not. It can be, but it is not.
Respect -- very, very bad; incorporates tremendous judgment. This is very bad. "I should not be judgmental of other individuals. I should be..." Should, should, should, should!
Image -- "I should, should, should. I should present myself in this manner. I should appear in this manner. I should express in this manner. I should not express in that manner. I should be aware of how I present myself physically and mentally and interactively. I should be aware of how I present myself in attractiveness or not attractiveness. My form, my thoughts, my speaking." Many, many, many shoulds!
ELLA: It's always self seeing self inside of your head.
ELIAS: And this is what creates the discounting. This is what creates the obstacles and this is what creates your truth, your own guideline as an enemy.
ELLA: How do you...?
ELIAS: You appreciate this IS your guideline. This is what you do. This is who you are. This is the manner in which you behave. This is not bad.
ELLA: This is acknowledgment of myself, which I'm doing lately. It feels liberating. But when you say "guideline," to me it has a connotation that it gives you a sense of direction.
ELIAS: Yes!
ELLA: Acknowledgment, I understand that -- I acknowledge myself. But how do I direct myself going somewhere where I don't associate with sense of direction in that? I'm not sure.
ELIAS: It already IS your direction. You already do this.
ELLA: I do. But I thought when you said "guideline"...
ELIAS: That IS the guideline.
ELLA: Guideline for me means behave along those lines — is that what you're saying?
ELIAS: Yes, and you already do this. You ALL already do this.
GEORGE: You are doing what you were saying before. You are making this more complex than it is.
ELIAS: Yes.
GEORGE: You're saying, "I understand, but..." and adding some other element there. But you are acknowledging yourself.
ELLA: You sense something, but not entirely the way that you feel comfortable already. So you're halfway there? I don't know if it works this way.
DANIIL: In Ella's case, image is the truth, right? (Inaudible) ...by trying to make a certain image and not to protect at all. So oftentimes it helps you to direct. Your thinking about image helps you to make choices that will serve you well.
GEORGE: That IS your guideline.
ELIAS: Yes.
GEORGE: You're already doing it.
ELLA: But in those cases that I notice that I say "I should," then I say to myself "I really shouldn't, it's only that I believe that I should." Then I am helping myself, right?
ELIAS: No. The should and the should-not are the expectations. Those are the obstacles associated with your truths. Those are the discounting elements of your truths. Those are the opposing expressions of your truths.
ELLA: I am saying, me, myself, what am I doing? Not that I should not have an expectation, just accepting myself just the way I am. I don't say that I'm talking a lot, so stop talking. No. I'm just saying, "I talk a lot; it comes naturally to me. So what?" Is that...?
ELIAS: Partially, yes. Partially. But in association with other individuals, if that generates conflict or uncomfortableness, there are other choices that you can engage, not merely expressing to yourself the acknowledgment "this is what I do," but also with the what you expressed "so what."
In that, you generate another element, and in that element you are closing yourself to genuine interaction. In this, you are also setting yourself in a direction to create conflict or distress or disappointment or hurt in relation to how another individual may respond to you in difference. The point is, yes, acknowledge your direction, acknowledge your truth, do not view your truth as bad but recognize that in relation to other individuals you incorporate choices of HOW you express.
ELLA: I'm hearing. I'm not sure I am processing that internally yet.
ELIAS: You will. Cause and effect, also.
CAROLE: So we're talking about the how and getting to know ourselves, but we're not going into the why. We're not going into why we became that way or why we perceive that we became that way. We're simply talking about this is the way we are and we're acknowledging of it. We're also acknowledging the fact that we have other choices...
ELIAS: Yes.
CAROLE: ...should we discover that this way causes too much conflict for us and a lot of uncomfortableness that we're becoming aware of, and also why that conflict and uncomfortableness is manifesting in our lives. So it's more of an understanding of ourselves and who we are, kind of a "know thyself," correct?
ELIAS: Yes!
Excerpted from Session # 1970 ©2006 Mary Ennis, All Rights Reserved http://transcripts.eliasweb.at/t_frames?session_nr=1970 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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