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comradelucifer
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Not a very good trip- interested in your interpretations
#5899033 - 07/25/06 06:11 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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hey guys.
So I tripped for the fourth time, and, unfortunately, it was not very good. I have a hypersensitivity to psilocybin. I only need 1.5g to propel me into a full blown, incredibly visual trip. My past three trips, I found myself throwing up and feeling vaguely sick for a period of time, so I decided to grind this dose and mix it with orange juice.
I drank it over a period of twenty minutes when- BANG- i experienced an incredibly fast come up. Within ten minutes, I had that familiar lightheartedness, and my limbs were beginning to grow leaden once more. Five minutes after this I was out on my patio laying in front of the boom box listening to echoes. It was incredible.
The third movement of Echoes comes on, with all the eerie whale sounds and the like...and this took me in the wrong direction. Demonic blue faces appeared, and I found myself becoming more and more agitated. Shiva and Parvati appeared to me, and asked me to come with them. They were beautiful. They took me to their world. It was a mythical court arrayed with thousands upon thousands of gods, all obsessed with beauty.
Simultaneously they made me the Advocate for the human race and clothed me in heavenly raiment and made me "Vishnu of the Hundred Mouths." As a new god, I was made to understand that the universe had been created only to be eaten and devoured by us gods. We would go to a world, collect all the beauty, and then eat the planet, killing millions. This was horrible.
At the same time I was Vishnu, I was the Advocate, and I was charged with attempting to prove that the human race did not deserve this fate.
They would not listen to me. I lived eons as a god, and pleaded for eons as a human, but they would not listen.
This was a horrible trip. I came down and felt depressed- I had seen the opposite of spiritual fulfillment. There were gods, and we/they were beautiful, but it was beauty without soul.
Interestingly, I had been agitated a few days before my trip. I had found spiritual fulfillment through tripping, but I began to entertain doubts. I began to worry that the mushroom reality was all illusion, and that we were fooling ourselves, that psychedelics were without value.
I don't believe this. But my trip has left me shaken, because it was a waking dream in which this fear was realized.
I will not stop using psilocybin for spiritual fulfillment, but nonetheless I am somewhat worried that my next trip will be influenced by a fear of this vision and world repeating itself.
Before the trip I was somewhat nervous...concerned about the dose mixed with the orange juice.
Do you guys have any thoughts? How can I make my next trip beautiful, with the spirituality that makes these substances so incredibly beautiful and beneficial to mankind? 
-CL
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Phishe
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Re: Not a very good trip- interested in your interpretations [Re: comradelucifer]
#5899061 - 07/25/06 06:23 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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This seems to be a lesson of beauty, and that it's not at all what its credited for. True beauty is the soul.
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FunkyLoFi
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Re: Not a very good trip- interested in your interpretations [Re: comradelucifer]
#5899082 - 07/25/06 06:28 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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I can understand where you are coming from. There have been times when I thought psychedelics were actually a mind control drug that the powers that be wanted us to be on. I felt that I had bought right into the scheme. Pretty wild stuff! And while in the midst of a strong psychedelic experience you can make yourself believe anything...
This is why I often suggest a trustworthy trip sitter. They can be very useful in redirecting you to true spiritual enlightenment. When your thoughts began to wander in a negative direction, your trip sitter can help bring you back and get you focused on a positive experience.
Just remember the mushrooms will not hurt you. Let them guide you. Do not be afraid.
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comradelucifer
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Re: Not a very good trip- interested in your interpretations [Re: FunkyLoFi]
#5899147 - 07/25/06 06:46 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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yeah man..I agree..trip sitters are the thing to have. Unfortunately, my friends do not share our view of the sacred dimension..they trip to get fucked up and see colors...and so I find myself around people who I cannot connect with. They'll watch me and make sure I'm alright and try to help me if not, but you know how much emotional sensitivity one has while experiencing...and I feel somehow as if a deep connection is missing... they cannot assist me with spiritual matters because they put no stock in psilocybin other than as an amusement drug...a hedonistic item.
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Re: Not a very good trip- interested in your interpretations [Re: comradelucifer]
#5899333 - 07/25/06 07:33 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Take these nay-saying friends and give them each a LARGE DOSE say 5-7 grams and then after they come down ask them if they believe mushrooms are sacred or not.
I am not serious....not completely serious. Most people probably can't handle that level of deep spirituality, and on the other hand it is probably exactly what they need to jar them out of their complacancy. It wasn't until I experience large doses of psilocybin that I recognized the spiritual gravity of it.
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Re: Not a very good trip- interested in your interpretations [Re: phungi]
#5899913 - 07/25/06 10:05 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Trip sitters are good but are hard to come by. The majority of the time, people that are labeled as trip sitters end up drinking alcohol and becoming more impaired than the trippers. I am pretty much done doing psychedelics with my friends, I don't think they value the plans as I (WE) do...
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Re: Not a very good trip- interested in your interpretations [Re: comradelucifer]
#5900565 - 07/26/06 12:07 AM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
comradelucifer said: Shiva and Parvati appeared to me, and asked me to come with them. They were beautiful. They took me to their world. It was a mythical court arrayed with thousands upon thousands of gods, all obsessed with beauty.
1.5 grams... I'm not calling you a liar, but damn, I didn't think people could trip that hard on shrooms, period...
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Re: Not a very good trip- interested in your interpretations [Re: comradelucifer]
#5900592 - 07/26/06 12:11 AM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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comradelucifer said: yeah man..I agree..trip sitters are the thing to have. Unfortunately, my friends do not share our view of the sacred dimension..they trip to get fucked up and see colors...and so I find myself around people who I cannot connect with. They'll watch me and make sure I'm alright and try to help me if not, but you know how much emotional sensitivity one has while experiencing...and I feel somehow as if a deep connection is missing... they cannot assist me with spiritual matters because they put no stock in psilocybin other than as an amusement drug...a hedonistic item.
It's the same way with my friends... You just can't connect to them, and they wouldn't understand.
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comradelucifer
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Re: Not a very good trip- interested in your interpretations [Re: MustardMan]
#5901235 - 07/26/06 06:41 AM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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yep. It was 1.5 mixed with orange juice that set for about 10 minutes before I drank it. I don't know why I have this hypersensitivity...but it seems to extend to psychedelics in general (although I've never had LSD or mescaline, just THC and psilocybin.
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