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I Have a Problem With the Cock
    #5886700 - 07/22/06 04:39 AM (17 years, 6 months ago)

...Or should I have said, the Rooster? But, then you wouldn't have clicked on this post, would you? No, the Buddhists refer to the Cock, the Snake and the Pig at the center of the Wheel of Life. They are the 'Three Poisons of Existence' - the Lust and Greed of the red Cock, the Hatred and Envy of the Green Snake, and the Ignorance of the black Pig. Personally, I have a "Vajra Family personality" but I share a sexual nature from the "Padma Family" (a Buddhist psychology which relates to the Five Chakras of Buddhist Yoga).

I don't have personality traits that tend towards Ignorance on most levels, nor do I have much Hatred for others or Envy them their personal attributes, possessions. popularity, etc. As to the Cock, I am not greedy for money, food, or power, but since I was given a subscription to Playboy magazine at age 12, I have always been tempted by Lust. Living in hypersexualized Miami, it is my karmic predicament to transmute the abundance of this energy. I once tried to avoid it by very seriously considering becoming a Catholic monk. I was baptized in the Catholic Church with this possibility in mind, and met Franciscans, Capuchins, Benedictines and a Cistercian (Trappist) who was a cowboy-monk from Snow Mass, Colorado. After two years of struggling with the sacrifice of normal sexuality, I 'woke up' one day and the burden had been lifted from my shoulders like a tangible weight. I realized with Vajra (diamond-body) clarity that all the monks I met were gay! No real sacrifice for them! DUH! It is impossible to hide from oneself anyway. Lust exists in monasteries because it exists as a psychic reality - an unregenerated energy that must be transmuted - another reason why my car's tag reads ALCHEMY - a reminder to transmute my stuff and the stuff of others when requested.

The very first time I fell in love was with a girl named Elizabeth. It took me two years to get her out of my moment-to-moment consciousness, and I dreamed about her solidly for 15 years (still do, to a lesser extent), because when you break off a relationship - kill a relationship -it creates haunting ghosts! I broke up with her because, I suspect that in trying to evoke jealousy from me, she slept with my college roommate of 3 years. I haven't seen him in 30 years and guess what? I contacted him earlier this year, we spoke on Skype (he lives in Bogata, Colombia) and as of yesterday, he is visiting friends in nearby Aventura, Florida. If he visits, we will NOT talk about Elizabeth, who became internationally newsworthy after being busted for operating a high-end escort service. Yes dear friends, I've had a real initiation into the Red Cock energies, and this weekend, if he visits with his wife and young daughter, I should make a concerted effort not to go there with him in front of our ladies! I forgive him. Liz was irresistable.

Back to Buddhist psychology. The red color of the Cock belongs to the "Padma family" of the Five Wisdom Energies (corresponding to the five chakras and the five Dhyani [meditating] Buddhas one finds in Tibetan Buddhism). All the chakras have natural, unregenerated natures (often described in Hindu Yoga texts or modern descriptions of the chakras). In Buddhist Yoga, after certain Head Center Enlightenment experiences (life-changing Pychocosmic or Psychedelic Experiences), if one's life has truly been changed, the chakras (or centers) undergo a transmutation and they begin to operate as vehicles for Enlightened Action. I have the opportunity to work with Padma Passion almost every time I shop at Whole Foods in Aventura, Florida. It is a stage for trophy wives, kept woman and strippers - all of whom bank on their feminine beauty. When I notice an interested look, or a childishly narcissistic action demanding attention, I then have an opportunity to transmute the heat of the Root Center to the fire of the Navel Center to the Light of the Heart Center and communicate that transmutation (some would say sublimation) through a smile from the Throat Center, the Buddha Wisdom of Enlightened Action (Amoghasiddhi - the Buddha with right palm facing outward in benevolence and fearlessness). The practice works in strip clubs, if one wanted lots of energy to work with. Sometimes it has been a teaching experience in such a 'temple to Aphrodite.' To show a grown man a naked woman for the first time, or to show my own Lady the rapt seriousness of men who would otherwise never be in the presence of feminine physical beauty and sensuality, have been real teaching experiences, not rationalizations for indulging Lust (believe it, or not  :smirk:).

Wherever I go and whatever I do, I am always seeing my motivations reflected in the world. When they are of the nature of the 'Three Poisons,' my discipline is to transmute them. I fly strings of Tibetan Buddhist prayer flags around my yard, and just order two vertical flags for poles. The five colors represent the five chakras (lower two [anal-genital] and upper two [brain] combined in Buddhist Yoga), the Five Wisdom Energies of Enlightened Mind, five abstract forms of Buddhist Stupa architecture (cube, sphere, cone, hemisphere, drop), five elements (as in the pentagram), and other symbols that interface outer physical, inner psychic, and interpenetrating psychocosmic forces that comprise a human being.

Thanks for reading...I just could not sleep past 4:00 AM. Last night I didn't go to sleep til 5:30 AM. Summer vacation.  :smile: (Maybe I'll take a little nap [can't wake my Lady, she'll kill me],  or view some 'pron.' :naughty:... Nah!).

Addendum: My complete apologies for having mentioned Elizabeth's last name (now deleted). I presumed her buried in time, but LO! After 32 years, we have been brought together by God and internet, and, yes dear friends, someone saw her full name in this very post! I have apologized profusely, and she has been gracious enough to forgive me for my crude indescretion, for which I am both ashamed and humbled :bow2:. Thus, she has been to help ME work through my emotional problems regarding her from 32 years hence! Imagine that! Bitterness has turned to sweetness, sorceress turned Savioress! Transmutation. ALCHEMY. I feel redeemed. Thank you Liz  :heart:.
And...said roommate never did arrive in Florida. He went to NY state instead. Just as well.



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Re: I Have a Problem With the Cock [Re: MarkostheGnostic]
    #5886712 - 07/22/06 04:59 AM (17 years, 6 months ago)

I woke up at 2 am and couldn't get back to sleep. :smirk: I worked the overnight shift last week and will be going in on Monday morning, back to the day schedule that I have been on for the past few months, since getting promoted and becoming an hourly supervisor (before that, had been on overnights for well over a year). I think this weekend will be bouts of being up for four/five hours and then sleeping for about that much... I still don't know how to adjust back and forth, but am needing to learn, so I am experimenting with sleep and such... Not so sure that :joint: is beneficial or detrimental to the adjustments...

But yes, interesting post, much to think about. :thumbup: I think lust plays a part in my experience as well, although I'm learning to work with it and not mentally succumb to it - would never actually act on it, with anyone but my girlfriend, of course. :wink:

I think that people simply expect that everyone does act on it, which probably makes it so that it happens. I think that it occurs naturally, but it should not interfere with the balance in one's life situation, that it is best to channel that energy into other ways of expressing that energy. :shrug:

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Re: I Have a Problem With the Cock [Re: fireworks_god]
    #5887072 - 07/22/06 09:53 AM (17 years, 6 months ago)

We both have to work on readjusting our sleep cycles. I'll be back to my 8-4 schedule soon.

After the first two years of my present relationship the Lust factor unavoidably became merged with other energies. Kabbalistic Yesod and Tiphereth, Moon and Sun, began to develop Union. Sex and Love began to merge. Males typically have a greater propensity to 'rip-n-dip' based on biological urgency to impregnate as many females as is possible, but this is merely mammalian behavior which in humans can only be immoral because humans can't be amoral. It is Knowing this that has been the major principle behind my controlled sexual expression - serial monogamy. The merely natural proclivity for novelty and sexual thrill easily and usually becomes a form of pathology involving lying, deceit, and oftentimes violence (homicide-suicides fuelled by sexual jealousy for example). Mother complexes for young men and mid-life crises for middle age men further energize this obsession.

Thanks for your input!


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Re: I Have a Problem With the Cock [Re: MarkostheGnostic]
    #5887098 - 07/22/06 10:08 AM (17 years, 6 months ago)

My experience with my strong lust/libidinal energies has been that judgment and suppression tend to transmute the energy into aggressiveness, jealousy, disconnection and restlessness.

When I began Tantra practice, and used the "push" of my libido to raise energy for chakra healing, my POV shifted dramatically. To begin, or perhaps resume, seeing sex energy as sacred and powerful lifted the judgment and suppression I had long used to maintain control over what I deemed an unfeminine sexual nature.


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Re: I Have a Problem With the Cock [Re: Veritas]
    #5887188 - 07/22/06 10:53 AM (17 years, 6 months ago)

Thanks for your input as well. Could you say more about your previous view of sexuality as unfeminine? From my male bias I have tended to project my sexuality onto certain 'types' of women. Despite the Wisdom of Equanimity that I seek in my perception (Buddhist and Gnostic), I still tend to look for predominantly sexy 'Aphrodite' women (which Miami has an abundance of) over say, athletic 'Diana' women or intellectual 'Athena' women. I use these Greek goddesses after Jean Bolen's book Goddesses in Everywoman in which the major feminine archetypes are explored as the meaning of Greek goddesses of antiquity.

If you don't mind me asking, any idea which archetypes/goddesses predominated in your psyche before Tantra caused a shift? I know that you weren't a retiring Hestia homemaker  :wink:  but do you think any of the 'virgin goddesses,' including their combination into the Virgin Mary had a stultifying effect on your Aphrodite nature?


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Re: I Have a Problem With the Cock [Re: MarkostheGnostic]
    #5887207 - 07/22/06 10:59 AM (17 years, 6 months ago)

Quote:

MarkostheGnostic said:
We both have to work on readjusting our sleep cycles. I'll be back to my 8-4 schedule soon.




8 to 4 seems reasonable, and would be quite applicable in my own circumstance. Well, 9 to 5 might be better, but something in that general area... not sure if I would like a couple of hours before needing to be at work or not. :shrug: I just know that I would like to get more rest, but I think a lack of nutrition is certainly preventing the energy resources to keep me going - I already get about seven to eight hours of sleep, I just always feel as though I've substained a sleep debt that I need to catch up on. :wtf:

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Mother complexes for young men and mid-life crises for middle age men further energize this obsession.




I think I have already had my mid-life crisis, at 21... feels better to have gotten it out of the way, but I think that also implies I'll die at 40. :shocked:

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Re: I Have a Problem With the Cock [Re: MarkostheGnostic]
    #5887345 - 07/22/06 12:08 PM (17 years, 6 months ago)

I read and enjoyed Bolen's book, and had previously studied Egyptian, Greek, Roman & Norse mythology, so I "grokked" her metaphors in fullness. :grin:

Prior to puberty, I feel I had an even balance of Diana/Aphrodite/Athena influence.  I loved to read, was a natural sensualist/hedonist, and often engaged in foot races with the neighborhood boys.  I preferred playing with boys, as they were less fussy & more active than girls.  When I was on my own, which was often as I was homeschooled, I read or studied nature.

When I hit puberty, and grew five inches in a single year, my mother's Catholic upbringing kicked in & she began actively suppressing my Aphrodite energies.  She obsessively observed my appearance for signs of sexuality, and chastised me severely for any flirtatious behavior or revealing outfit.  (Even wearing Cotton Candy-flavored pink lipgloss resulted in a scolding and being grounded.)  This continued as long as I lived with her, and I definitely picked up the idea that my sensual and sexual nature was unacceptable.

I diverted my energy into sports (tennis, soccer, basketball, swimming) and intellectual accomplishments.  Any "indulgence" of my Aphrodite nature was kept very secret, and was a source of anxiety for me.  My boyfriends could not match my libidinal drive, and that reinforced the idea that my sexuality was unfeminine & unacceptable.

During my brief marriage, I did channel Hestia energy, believing that keeping the perfect home would mend all the problems in our relationship.  My husband was far more interested in my appearance than the condition of our home, and wanted more interaction with my Aphrodite energy.  :shrug:

Tantra not only facilitated my reclamation of my sexual nature, but shifted my focus away from being acceptable to others, towards connection and communion with the divine life force.  My practice continues to heal and strengthen me.  :sun:


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Re: I Have a Problem With the Cock [Re: MarkostheGnostic]
    #5887433 - 07/22/06 12:38 PM (17 years, 6 months ago)

I could use some more cock...


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Re: I Have a Problem With the Cock [Re: Veritas]
    #5891647 - 07/23/06 05:53 PM (17 years, 6 months ago)

Wow! Thanks for the candid description Veritas. Personal as it is, I'd be interested to know what kinds of visualizations and/or physical practices (not positions necessarily, but internal controls like Kegel exercises, etc.), and the goal (if there is one) for sessions (e.g., mutual climax, Kundalini experiences, ego-transcending merging, etc.) Anything you would care to reveal publically or privately is welcome.  :smile:


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    #5891863 - 07/23/06 06:50 PM (17 years, 6 months ago)

The goal is connection with inner divinity, the experience of intense pleasure, and raising energy for healing and manifestation purposes.

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Re: I Have a Problem With the Cock [Re: Veritas]
    #5892793 - 07/23/06 11:27 PM (17 years, 6 months ago)

Thanks again! :heart: Back at ya!


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