Just wondering if anyone else has noticed this, or, if its just a matter of 'getting lucky' my last few trips, or what.
But, the last few months, the times I've done mushrooms, I've noticed that the confusion/headfuck of the trip has been greatly diminished, if not non-existent.
The thoughts are there, the alerted thinking patterns, the viewing things from new angles, the self-analysis, etc is all still there, and I can still get lost in my head at times. However, it feels far more lucid and easier to control (for lack of a better word), then when I was tripping say, a year ago.
My 3rd and 2nd last trips this was /really/ noticeable on. I had a certain level of mental clarity and the ability to explore my thoughts in an easy way which surprised me, but I credited that to taking a much lower dose than I normally take (2g one night, 1.3g another)
However, the past weekend, I did a rather large amount of mushrooms at the beach. I don’t know how much I took exactly, I just had a big bag, no idea how much was in it, and split it between my boyfriend and myself, me taking the larger share of it. Judging by the intensity / level of visuals, it's the most I have taken in a /long/ time (was a really stellar trip, and visually - it’s the strongest visuals I've gotten from mushrooms in a LONG time, OEV and CEV, truly beautiful)
However, normally - visuals even half that strong, usually come along with a great deal of confusion. But again, my head was clear, I felt at peace/relaxed, my thoughts weren’t racing, and again I felt myself having a 'clear' head, and being able to explore my thoughts with ease.
Is it a matter of the more you've done mushrooms, the more you know how to handle them, the less confusing they become - even when at higher doses?
My last few trips have re-sparked a bit of a love for Mushrooms (not that I havnt always loved them), but my last few trips have been so good, its almost like using mushrooms in a new way then what I used to.
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I haven't been doing mushrooms very much lately, but I'm planning to this Wednesday.. sometimes I get confused, but usually I don't.. One time we were getting ready to go outside when it was winter, and my room was a mess and I was looking for my hat and gloves, but I just ended up throwing clothes all over the room and almost forgot what I was looking for. I guess I haven't been very confused since that time, though, so maybe there is something to this time thing.
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Kaniz, It sounds to me that you have greater control over your subconscious mind. When your subconscious and conscious mind are in sync, you will always have a clearer sense of self and your surroundings. You have probably reached an epiphany in your psychedelic experiences, in that you have the answers to what confuses you.
I'm not a philosopher by any means, but it sounds like you have found your center while tripping. Your trips will be more meaningful and concise. I would look at this as a gift.
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