I've read up on mushrooms and researched their effects for almost a year now, and finally decided that I should trip. I ended up getting around 3 grams of shrooms, which were nothing but caps. They were blue all over, so I new they were the real thing.
I ingested the mushrooms with a glass of kool-aid at around 6:00pm, expecting visuals and much deep thought. About 30 minutes later, I begin to feel disoriented, like I would sit down in my mind, and then I would physically sit down. This feeling became worse and worse, with the slow-motion feeling there also. Everything became blue, and I didn't know what to do. Usually I like to have things planned out, but I just couldn't plan anything, or think of what to do. I kept going over in my head what I should do, but the idea just kind of faded away every time. I just basically walked around for about 30 minutes, until my friends decided it was time to play some video games.
I became more confused, not knowing what was going on, and feeling extremely exhausted, like I wanted to stretch and stretch and yawn forever. The only problem was, I felt ressless, like I couldn't sit still. My body wanted to do something, but my mind was just so confused. I was scared that someone would ask me a question, and I wouldn't know what to say. All of a sudden everyone died at once in the video game, and everybody started laughing. I figured laughing couldn't hurt, because I was trying to do anything to get my mind off of the wierd feeling that was set in my brain. I laughed uncontrollably to the point of where I started crying. I felt extremely stupid, but I had to get it out of me. At one point I considered going in the bathroom to try to puke this drug up, whether it would do anything or not.
Then the unexpected happened, and 3 guys who I don't care for much at all show up, and it was basically awkwardness for the whole time they were there. I didn't want to tell them that I was tripping because they wouldn't understand, I thought. I was asked to play horseshoes, and decided to try that. I found out just how confused I was when they would throw the horseshoes, and I would forget what just happened, and forget what was going on. Time was jumping, and I really had to concentrate with everything I had to understand what was going on.
I went back inside, and the next hour or so was so awkward, and I felt like anything I said would be extremely stupid, and they would think I was dumb for saying it. I kept quiet, still trying to come down from this drug when the 1970s music was turned on, and that just made me so happy. I realized how happy and upbeat the music was from back then, and it made me think of how happy America was in those days. I was so awed by the beauty of it, that I sat back and closed my eyes, which were filled with colors of all sorts forming neon-pictures and flashes of bright lights.
After the awkwardness was gone, and the 3 that I didn't care for left, I was very relieved. The confusion was starting to go away, and things were becoming clearer. I could actually speak half-inteligently again, and the slow-motion effects were going away. The comedown seemed much more enjoyable than coming up or the peak.
I guess I've only got one real question. I remember tripping off of motion-sickeness pills (dramamine), and I they made my body feel almost the exact same way as the shrooms did. It felt like a pain in the butt do do anything, or think about doing anything. I couldn't decide on what to do, and breathing felt like a chore. I felt extremely tired, yet my body remained awake and resless. My question is, is this the feeling everybody expiriences? Is it a feeling you must get used to to enjoy the trip? I really want to try mushrooms again, but I would like to learn a few things before going off and exploring them again. Thanks!
Edited by disturbedfuel15 (07/13/06 09:34 PM)
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I suppose the setting I was in was less than perfect, in my position. Next time, I'll be ready for what the shrooms have to offer, and I will pick a setting where I can be myself, no matter what I decide to do. It probably just made the whole thing unenjoyable because I had to try and remain cool, and watch everything I did. It felt like I was walking on pins and needles, and I really couldn't relax. I'll take your advice and focus more on where I should be, and around who next time. Thanks for your help!
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