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MystikMushroom
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Anyone else ready?
#5794041 - 06/26/06 09:33 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Today whist driving around for work (doing courrier duties) I said out of the blue to myself,
"Damn...I'm SO READY for my next life..."
I guess I mean that I'm "bored" with this one. I then suddenly realized that I've actually spent my entire life "fighting" this existance. I have never wanted to be me.
I have always wanted to be "someone else" with diffrent friends, diffrent love interests (maybe at least ONE), diffrent parents, diffrent locale...ect, ect...
Basically, I realized that *I* put myself into this existance...despite the fact that I long so much to exist in nothing-ness each day.
I want to be one of the Aeons juggling colored balls...I want to exist in a realm where I can do, see, feel, taste, smell, think...and experience whatever my imagination can drum up instantly.
For example, I want to have sex with so-and-so *BOOM* it's happened in that instant.
I have experienced events like this on high-dose mushroom trips. I was able to manifest and experience anything at any time.
I miss this.
Sure, it makes living in regular society pretty hard...but at this point I don't really care. I'm not worried about my soul...I know it'll just keep going on and on like it always has.
Anyone else feel "uncomfortable" in their bodies as well? I feel like my essence just wants to shed my "flesh suit" and fly away. This feeling has been increasing as of late.
I look back at all my memories and diffrent periods of my life, and I can't help but think,
"Ok...so what's next...I've been me for what feels like forever. When are things going to radically change? When do I get to be a cloud or a mountain?"...
I dunno..maybe im nuts.
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First off, you can do anything you wish (within physical bounds of course). If you want to be someone else, have different friends, loves etc... you can.
Second, it seems like your desires, your wants, are taking a hold of you and distracting you from everything you could be enjoying around you.
Just some thoughts.
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I dunno..maybe im nuts.
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I personally feel like you are going down a very negative train of thought, which just isn't true.
There are infinite possibilities right here right now, you should be looking at what there is, not what there could be. How could you possibly be bored.
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you should try lucid dreaming. when you get adept at it you can do those things. have sex with anyone your imagination can conjure.exist as an atom or a nuetron or something. but you can also do other stretches to your reality like attempt to split into 2 consciousnesses that are seperate, or 3 or 50.... try it. you can start by keeping a dream journal.
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Oh man are you in for a surprise...
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Quote:
Huehuecoyotl said: Oh man are you in for a surprise...
Most people are.
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yah i'm about done with this life. I'm not going to go off and kill myself. If I die tomorrow, it wouldn't be so bad. I don't have a very negative outlook on life either, I kind of just want to take the death trip. Though, I probably just need to experience ego death. Ah well, random ramblings...
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MystikMushroom
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Re: Anyone else ready? [Re: salviadog]
#5794388 - 06/26/06 11:18 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Oh I'm not going to kill myself or end my life early! I hope no one got that impression!
I just feel as though I have always had this "pull" to exist in my imagination.
As if, a static, and linnear life feels "wrong" in some sense, I feel as though I should have more freedom.
Freedom to...manifest shit instantly, freedom to astrally project myself to the top of Mount Everest...freedom to travel to Alpha Centari via spirit..
Anyone seen Star Trek: The Next Generation?
I feel as though I *should* be the character Q. I feel as though I KNOW that everything is linked, everything is part of the same-ness...so WHY can't I just snap my fingers and be a diffrent person with a diffrent life?
WHY can't I experience the memories I want to have? (like knowing what it's like to be a blade of grass...in every sense and perception)
Arugh...2012 is so far away to wait.
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MystikMushroom
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I don't think you guys understand...I'm talking about omnipotence...total and absoulte control over whatever and whenever I exist.
Maybe I need to learn to lucid dream myself into an entirely new life...and exist there for what "seems" and entire lifetime.
Maybe that's all this life is after all, one prolonged lucid dream...pre-programmed to keep me inside of it.
Edited by MystikMushroom (06/26/06 11:20 PM)
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Re: Anyone else ready? [Re: ShroomDoom]
#5794467 - 06/26/06 11:47 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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ShroomDoom said: you should try lucid dreaming. .... try it. you can start by keeping a dream journal.
You beat me to it. Although, Lucid Dreaming shouldn't be used to escape your waking life.
Dream Journals are so underrated.
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Re: Anyone else ready? [Re: Quankus]
#5794608 - 06/27/06 12:41 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Difficulties coping with reality, tends to bring the subject to closely identify him/herself with his/her imagination.
This is textbook stuff.
Like you are imaginative enough to live forever by the whim of your fantasy. Hah! You'd fuck Christina Aguilera or whoever your fancy is, and then what? You want to be a rock?
I don't think you have a clue.
This is the obvious: You are allready doing this, it just isn't going as fast as your feeble mind would like it too. And you think its boring.
Edit: You are instantly hallucinating to be someone who instantly wants to be someone else. 
But infact speeding up the process of doing nothing, eternally, would make you catch up to what you really don't want.
Who the hell wants to be a genie? Didn't you ever see Aladdin?
Sorry if I come off as a cynical, hung over and exhausted prick, but I am.
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Edited by slaphappy (06/27/06 12:43 AM)
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Re: Anyone else ready? [Re: slaphappy]
#5794681 - 06/27/06 01:18 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Odysseus was given the option either live a long but boring life or a short one full of excitement.
which did you choose...
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Re: Anyone else ready? [Re: Schwammel]
#5794802 - 06/27/06 02:30 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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How does lucid dreaming work?
I had this book called dream gates, it was consciously making yourself sleep, in a sense your awake but asleep, it took practice to induce this sleep, and you could detect energy fields, say if you induced the sleep at a place where alot of corruption took place, you could see the corruption within self induced dream state,
I also heard Aborigines from Australia practiced this type of dreaming alot, they are so good at it, that they can induce 24 hr sessions and get very deep into their dreams
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MystikMushroom said: Today whist driving around for work (doing courrier duties) I said out of the blue to myself,
"Damn...I'm SO READY for my next life..."
I would bet that if you do die, you will come back into this life you hate so much. You are in this life to learn how to enjoy it.
If you cant learn to enjoy this life.....why would God give you another life for you to fuck up?
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I guess I mean that I'm "bored" with this one. I then suddenly realized that I've actually spent my entire life "fighting" this existance. I have never wanted to be me.
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There is the problem my friend You will have to learn how to be happy in THIS life before you are granted a "new life"
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"Ok...so what's next...I've been me for what feels like forever. When are things going to radically change?"
When you make the change happen
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: niteowl]
#5795278 - 06/27/06 09:41 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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luckily several times in this life I have let go and realized that the magic is already happenning .....have to dance to the magic.... ...synchronize to synchronicity....
I have seen many who only get their first peek of it when it is far far too late to enjoy.
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: MystikMushroom]
#5795346 - 06/27/06 10:09 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I guess I mean that I'm "bored" with this one. I then suddenly realized that I've actually spent my entire life "fighting" this existance. I have never wanted to be me.
You probably already realize this, but if you can't enjoy this very life here and now, then you certainly won't be able to enjoy the next one.
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: Schwammel]
#5796803 - 06/27/06 06:44 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Thank you guys for all the replies! Especially you slaphappy. I needed the voice of, "oh quit bitching and buck the fuck up!"
Today was a wonderfull day for me. I woke up and decided first thing before I got out of bed that I would have a good day. I can't quite describe it, but I just "decided" with my being to have a fruitfull day.
I spent most of my day driving around alone thinking...and this was a very good thing indeed.
I'm a thinker...If im not talking out loud, im talking to myself inside my head about several things at once. I can shut it down for meditation, but I find that when I let my mind wander on it's own I can "download" very interesting concepts and ideas without realizing it.
So, I gave much thought to this life that I am living...
I had a textbook normal childood. Two parents (still together)...no abuse, no family problems at home. The only problem I can *think* I might have had as a child was not being EVER able to relate to my parents.
Even at a very early age I knew that my parents wouldn't understand my imagination...as I grew older, I knew they could not understand my social situations in highschool due to the diffrence in the 50's culture and 90's...
I closed myself off to my parents and basically gave them a false image of myself.
I too in the past 4 years have had my life come "crashing down"...from flunking out of college...and many other things many here would consider "minor" (but to me were major)...
Then, 2 years ago about 7 months after my gastric bypass, I ate an 8th of shrooms. Call me arrogant, naive, whatever...but I am convinced nobody could trip any harder than I did.
I existed for probably an hour inside the "all-consuming white light" that the Buddhists refer to at the most subtle levels of awareness. I litteraly "saw" the mobius, the infinity of the universe. I felt the ONENESS and realized I was never created, never will die, never...anything! The paradox made sense. It all exists, but it all dosen't at the same time.
Then, I died...several times. I think at least 10 times in rapid sucession.
Everything would go black and I knew inside that I was dying. My body would go limp and I would collapse on the dirt and feel my consciousness curl up into itself and then be reborn back into bright light.
After this, I then began to belive in my own divinity. I saw entire possible lifetimes flashed in mere moments over and over again. Litterally the entire human experience of all the lives of every human that ever was or will be--was shown to me at lightspeed.
I tried desperatley to navigate the "streams" (i felt like i was in a river moving at lightspeed)...and had SOME mild sucess.
I was able to totally leave my body at will in this state. I wanted to see the earth from above--and I soon found myself in orbit spread eagle watching the earth below. I remember tears streaming down my face in pure elation...
Many more mystical and profound events (some even MORE profound) happened that night.
Since then, I have been trying to capture a piece of that state in my every-day life. I meditate, use brainwave entrainment software, read esoteric books, and just try and be "aware" to all the infinite possibilities in each moment.
Yesterday I felt an overwhelming sense of dispair at my lack of progress in this area.
I think I was spoiled 2 years ago...and am finally seeing just how wide and long the road ahead of me is.
Today I went to a metaphysical store and picked up some new stones and had a very enlightening chat with the middle-aged woman behind the counter. She is definatley an "indigo" if there was ever such a thing. I would feel no silly-ness in slightly bowing and saying, "Namaste" to her with full sincerity...even though I barley know her personally.
She was very interested when I told her I could feel the chakras in my abdomen "spinning like pinwheels" when I used the Moqui marbles I bought the time before. Somthing about having an elder not look at me like im crazy/stupid in my "real life" was very satisfying.
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: MystikMushroom]
#5796824 - 06/27/06 06:52 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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why did you have a bypass and eat shrooms?
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: Schwammel]
#5796996 - 06/27/06 07:34 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I'd say that to find a shortcut in trying to recapture that glorious oneness, shrooms, acid and above all lucid dreaming are your best bets. It's easy to overdo it with that sort of thing, though.
Sounds like a helluva trip you had, there, man.
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: MystikMushroom]
#5797082 - 06/27/06 07:56 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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That was one beautiful trip. After that, day to day existence and struggle can seem pretty harsh. Just remember what Don Juan said. "Only as a warrior can one withstand the path of knowledge" That statement has proven true over and over in my life. You have to find a way and push through. The challenge of living awake.
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MystikMushroom
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: Panoramix]
#5797083 - 06/27/06 07:56 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I used to be according to western medicine "morbidly obese". I was over 250-pounds at five feet five inches.
Two years of retrospect, im DELIGHTED with my health and physical well-being. Shedding those pounds was terribly diffuclt (imagine ALL the fat-solluble toxins expediting into one's system)...but I am so much more "who I need to be" today than I was before.
A subsequent mushroom trip was most interesting. I remember hearing wispers in my head. Thousands of voices wispering. Every now and then one voice would take forefront over the others.
I remmber hearing these voices, along with a strange internal sensation. It was if there were "hands" or a "snake" inside of me. It was totally benevolent. It was just trying to "figure out" what I had done to myself.
I litterally heard:
"hmm...ohh...whaaa? Oh...I see...yes....ok...."
I knew then, that the mushroom was probing my physical body. It was going, "this is wierd...this isn't how a normal human is set-up..ok, i see why this was rigged the way it was..."
And INSTANTLY...(this was SO profound to my every-day worrying mind) I got an impression, or more of a "knowing" that I would never have trouble with my insides ever again.
It's been oh, at least a year since my last psychedelic trip...oh i've done nitrous and salvia...but no tryptamines. . . I have a feeling I just need to go back to the mushroom once more to "remind" myself of what I am working towards.
Thoughts?
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: MystikMushroom]
#5797105 - 06/27/06 08:05 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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"Shedding those pounds was terribly diffuclt (imagine ALL the fat-solluble toxins expediting into one's system)..."
I know what you mean,,,
it took me 3 years plus, i'm putting a whole bunch of "olive oil" in me system now...
i'm 6'1" and 234.
lots of the toxins are coming out slowly before i make my final ascent
Edited by Schwammel (06/27/06 08:11 PM)
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: MystikMushroom]
#5798303 - 06/28/06 03:04 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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MystikMushroom said: I used to be according to western medicine "morbidly obese". I was over 250-pounds at five feet five inches.
Two years of retrospect, im DELIGHTED with my health and physical well-being. Shedding those pounds was terribly diffuclt (imagine ALL the fat-solluble toxins expediting into one's system)...but I am so much more "who I need to be" today than I was before.
A subsequent mushroom trip was most interesting. I remember hearing wispers in my head. Thousands of voices wispering. Every now and then one voice would take forefront over the others.
I remmber hearing these voices, along with a strange internal sensation. It was if there were "hands" or a "snake" inside of me. It was totally benevolent. It was just trying to "figure out" what I had done to myself.
I litterally heard:
"hmm...ohh...whaaa? Oh...I see...yes....ok...."
I knew then, that the mushroom was probing my physical body. It was going, "this is wierd...this isn't how a normal human is set-up..ok, i see why this was rigged the way it was..."
And INSTANTLY...(this was SO profound to my every-day worrying mind) I got an impression, or more of a "knowing" that I would never have trouble with my insides ever again.
It's been oh, at least a year since my last psychedelic trip...oh i've done nitrous and salvia...but no tryptamines. . . I have a feeling I just need to go back to the mushroom once more to "remind" myself of what I am working towards.
Thoughts?
A godzillion thoughts. At once. 
You seem like a very open and high spirited individual, and quite frankly I'm all teary right now. (Could be due to the god damned HPPD, my emotions is runnig rampid and I'm having zaps, but still.)
The trip you explained made sense to me. Except for the part where you said nobody could trip harder of course, heheh, my experience with 2 Hoffman millenniums was way harder (longer, more eternal, more more and so on ;p)
The Deja-Vu was impeccable. I remembered everything. I foresaw it all, and I didn't want to. And I knew I didn't want to, and I knew that not wanting to would make the unreal real.
It was a repeated and prolonged version of the few salvia experiences I had.
I was the eternal hallucination of myself, and I have never existed and everything I had ever known was ... fake ... an incredibly simple construct, multiplied with itself to the magnitude of eternal resurgence - to make up this incredible dimention I call life.
An example; situation: You and your friends are having a drink and a cigarette in your kitchen. You realize you have all power in the world, you are God - the allmighty and incredible. You exclaim this with great pride, and before the last word is uttered ... you put your hand on the red hot stove and scold yourself.
Your friends are laughing. And so are you.
This simple situation, multiplied with itself and augmented to a fractal pattern moving in lightspeed - and with a microscopic dot on a microscopic dot, somewhere in this macrocosmos, representing the "me" - is the culmination and nadir of life.
Everything is a part of, and the whole of, this situation. (A part of being a part of - to put it in Gomp.)
I was filled with a terrible feeling - an unexplainable feeling of being the omnipotent God over the *nothing* that percieves itself as *me*/*the universe*/*everything* - and knowing. Knowing that it isn't, knowing that it wasn't ... knowing that if I was to go about my life, I would have to fool myself into believing that my life infact was real, even though I had the irrefragable evidence to prove that it wasn't.
I was alone, I was nothing, I had nothing, I would never have anything.
I started a joke. The joke was on me. I had burned hands.
I could go on forever, I could explain this trip from an infinity of different angles and approaches - yet it would never explain how little I exist.
All is futile, I'm a shitpile, I'm pathetic, I'm not ethic, I'm void.
Its just me.
Hence: I can do what I want. I can be what I want. I can rule. I can be ruled.
I am my own God.
Point: I havent had a decent psychedelic experience for about 8-10 months, because every trip(shrooms, mdma, 5-meo-mipt, 2c-t-7) after that LSD burnout was a recurring deja-vu. The more tripped out I was, the closer to the center of the cyclone, or the little situation explained above, I got.
(sidenote: I had a burnout on 5-meo-mipt and chanel ecstasy on new years eve, pretty much a repeat of the acid/salvia, allthough I didn't have "the fear" - because of the vast amounts of E, I guess)
I knew where I was going. I didn't want to burn my hand. I didn't want to feel like shit. I didn't want to know that I was shit, to be able to know I was God.
The point, yeah, I'm on it.
I don't need a reminder. The reminders are everywhere. Every time you scare yourself, every time you depress yourself, every time you are happy, every time you feel anything at all - is a reminder of reminding yourself.
However, I have thought lately, that maybe I want a trip. A trip to celebrate my nothingness, my godliness and my shitpileness ...
(sidenote: Eventually I was able to eat mdma/mda without totally flipping out, so I've done that alot lately, hence the HPPD and brain zaps - which we all pray will leave me soon, right!? yeah!)
But something in me tells me not to remind myself. Its the same procedure as last year, James. The same Procedure as every year.
This may, or may not apply to you.
In the mysticism forum, there is a deja vu reminder post. Look it up. (I lost my train of thought, I'm at work, and there are old people running around talking slooooowly about mainframes and policies and utter crap like fucking twisted ethernet-cables and whateverthefuck. </moodswing>)
Peace!
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: slaphappy]
#5800922 - 06/28/06 09:33 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Slaphappy...
I know that sence of a "joke" being played. I remember feeling this wierd feeling that can only be put into words like:
"well DUH, what did you expect the nature of reality to be?...YOU!"
And the all-ness in that moment gave a elated giggle, a sort of "ironic/funny/tricked ya!" sensation/feeling/thoughts.
I have seen potential futures of myself...and the woman who I am chasing down at the moment looks eriely similar to the woman I can vaugley remember seeing myself happy with on that trip 2 years ago. No doubt, the attraction is immense. Check out my poem in the arts forum...
I find that ever since that intense trip, other psychedelics seem "hollow"...?
It's as if the substances, myself...or whatever are trying to get across to my conscious-awareness that "you already know what you want/need..." and give me little more than nice melting patterns.
Salvia did this on two occasions. She litteraly "kicked me out" of salvia-land. I felt somthing close/slam shut just as soon as I got in there, and I sobered up almost instantly. Just before though, I got an impression..."seek the mushroom".
Perhaps I ought to...but I don't really feel the time is "right"...
Thank you for sharing your story slaphappy, It reminded me of events that I have experienced but not thought about in many moons.
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Re: Anyone else ready? nahhh - avoid that ironic fate man. [Re: MystikMushroom]
#5809632 - 07/01/06 12:37 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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this whole topic deserves more attention...
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Start at the begining and read all the short-posts...
Post YOUR thoughts.
Peace be w/you,
Namaste... MystikMushroom
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Jalruza
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Huehuecoyotl said: Oh man are you in for a surprise...
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-------------------- Time keeps ticking and running away And It's taking us fast to a brand new free dimension Too cool to mention well that's the intention But some of us too dame blind to see Jesus is the King Volume I Jesus is the King Volume II Shroomery MSN club I'm talking to aliens! Volcano Vap and Brain Chakras Hilary Duff!!
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