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Knightmare
Orgasms sointense...theycause suspense.';'

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I have tons of friends but...
#5777540 - 06/21/06 06:49 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Honest, I rather just be alone.........I go out with friends and all still and chill...but in the end I would have more fun alone.....with my girl only..........
I don't really trust people much because almost everyone I know has back-stabbed me, and I hate hearing people's damn drama....and cause drama that never exited in the first place......I have like 5 TRUE friends, the rest are pretty much just tough-guys that act like bitches. And this goes for like 98% of everyone on planet Earth. No I am not depressed, I'm happy as hell :-)
... but every-time I go out anywhere, everyone seems rusty, robotic, under-control, depressed, obese... trying to fit in....Jesus just act like yourself for once...thats what I feel like saying to people.......people's obesity has gotten way out of control....I even hate TV i watch maybe 10 minutes a day.
But it's just the way I am. I can make friends with pretty much anyone -- but I am beyond their comprehension and life, I don't even need friends with me to be happy......just me.....and my girl......until all ends.....it's KoOl though...much luv to my friends.....I still will chill, but I just don't like to indulge into peoples life's and drama and getting to know them is like learning a Story of a depressed nut sack or something. loll
Oh well, fuck the world and I also hate money just buys junk, I don't even need money but yet, i have millions....and those millions don't even make or change me in any way....only thing it does it make me kick-it all day without worrying about jobs which stress the masses causing depression, baldness of the head and deterioration....
that is all, me.and vnsa.....for ever
-------------------- [Beautiful vnsa] Beyond space&time, Beyond the illusion, Beyond life's brilliant secrets,Beyond all reason and rhyme,Beyond the bottomless oceans, Beyond the deepest planet of space, beyond yesterday's excuses, Beyond a promised dream, My love for vnsa burns. My love for vnsa lingers. My love for vnsa wakes. My love for vnsa is true. My love for vnsa rises. My love for vnsa exists. Youre beautiful vnsa <333
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Kerbouchard
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5777591 - 06/21/06 06:59 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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That's gotta be Leo or Taurus talk there. I feel sort of the same way.  The people 'out there' are so fuckign brainwashed. I spend my time with people only when we both benefit.
However, since you have millions of dollars, this makes us slightly different, and puts doubts that you're a Leo. Cause if I had that money I'd be burning the city down every night
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ClammyJoe
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5777595 - 06/21/06 07:00 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I know how you feel. Most of my friends are just tweakers in training. I hate hanging out with them even if they are my friends.
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guri
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5777653 - 06/21/06 07:12 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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you want people to be themselves, yet your mad at obese people? think about it, a fatty doesnt care what others think they look like. if they did they would be fat
-------------------- "If you don't believe drugs have done good things for us, then go home and burn all your records, all your tapes, and all your CDs because every one of those artists who have made brilliant music and enhanced your lives? The Beatles were so fucking high, they let Ringo sing a few songs." --Bill Hicks
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venusblew
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: ClammyJoe]
#5777669 - 06/21/06 07:15 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Are these typical Taurus feelings, because I feel the same way, even down to the details and I am a taurus.
Lenny
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EonTan
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5777672 - 06/21/06 07:16 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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One day your girl might leave you.
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trendal
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: EonTan]
#5777675 - 06/21/06 07:18 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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That can be said for anyone
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evolprim
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5777742 - 06/21/06 07:33 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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honestly i feel the same way minus the millions of dollars
on that topic i would very much like millions of dollars please pm me if youd like to rid yourself of millions of dollars
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Knightmare
Orgasms sointense...theycause suspense.';'

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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: trendal]
#5777752 - 06/21/06 07:35 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Well I didn't mean obese in that way...I mean an obese view on life...People have an obese view on life that only contain a few hobbies and likes Mostly these are: Sweets, TV, continue til death......TV is like removing your third eye, removing your brain....if you're not safe....it sure does control the masses.....think about it...people turn tv on and never turn it on...base there life on it......I mostly just watch the Dicovery channel, some movies, history channel....i fucking hate reality shows which plague every channel nowadays.
And if my girl leaves me, which I don't think will happen, it's her choice and not mine, I'm strong and I'll have to be tough and move and not be a little cunt about the hole situation and not dwell on stupid shit. I dont let stuff like that effect me in any way.
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OK I'll donate the next million to the discovery, and legalization of certain drugs perhaps...what do you feel? At least that money could possibly do something good. I do help people out though. I love giving people free stuff and I've had friends cry when I sent them free stuff...feels good.
But yeah Money does sure make your life better when your 100% happy. It buys you good stuff, good house, good clothes, good rides, traveling, etc etc endless. But what it does not buy is a freemind...creativity...true friends...a true love...and happiness........it can in some people.....but to tell you the truth once you have all that money....it becomes like eating Donuts in the morning to cops.....nothing new.......same old shit.... heh =x
-------------------- [Beautiful vnsa] Beyond space&time, Beyond the illusion, Beyond life's brilliant secrets,Beyond all reason and rhyme,Beyond the bottomless oceans, Beyond the deepest planet of space, beyond yesterday's excuses, Beyond a promised dream, My love for vnsa burns. My love for vnsa lingers. My love for vnsa wakes. My love for vnsa is true. My love for vnsa rises. My love for vnsa exists. Youre beautiful vnsa <333
Edited by Knightmare (06/21/06 07:39 PM)
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eris
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5777777 - 06/21/06 07:40 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Any update on how your opiate addicted friend made out? Did you stop hanging out with him because of it?
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geokills
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5777793 - 06/21/06 07:43 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I agree with much of the general sentiment you have expressed - and back when I was in the deep waters of seemingly everlasting love, I did not feel that life needed anything else. Unfortunately, that love did not last - and though I've learned through loss, I still make my primary goal in life to find that love once again! My main purpose in responding here is to adress your comment about how jobs in effect can lead to depression and specifically deterioriation.
Mind you, not having monetary worries that necessitate a job is a nice comfort - but that it is possible to experience the same depression and deterioration through inaction, just as you can through overaction. Keep your mind sharp by keeping it in use. Keep learning every chance you get, and pursue your personal interests rather than just thinking about pursuing them someday. Perhaps you do, and that's great... and with a wonderful partner as it sounds you have (is her name Vanessa?), that should keep your mind that much healthier.
Keep it real
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Knightmare
Orgasms sointense...theycause suspense.';'

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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: geokills]
#5777816 - 06/21/06 07:47 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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No actually he's doing quite well thankfully. Thanks for caring and understanding.
He has completely stopped using Opiates and barley has any WD signs...other then sometimes he does throw up even if he has a Cig its strong and brings back the effects he says..... :o)
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thanks for wishing me all the luck and positive vibes Mr. Geokills I still do work, in fact I have around 100 websites that I make and I also make websites, program, and makes graphics for businesses....colleges...the list goes on and on.....I also sometimes cut lawns and other crap for my friends company just for fun and to help him.
I'm into reading a lot lately.....Any good books that I can learn from and have it still be a story-based book? I like horror books and that sometimes enhances my creativity.......I love gardening...traveling....expanding my mind through other means......Fishing.....I want to make music it's a great passion I have...Listen to music pretty much 24/7....(how much does it cost to copyright and release an album in stores?) I like all types of music.....Funny, my life, fantasy.....from rap to punk to rock...anything....I also want to make horror-movies and write them . She makes me strong, I actually just got out of a bad-state of mind recently. I had TMJ and depression for 5 fucking years.
Yes her name is Vanessa, I mean, she is the same way as me as far as friends...I mean, she is so hot, you'd think shes a Model....
she likes everything I do from music, to movies, to hobbies...She's 20 I'm 21. Hopefully it will last. Even if she leaves me, my love will stay....I probably wont seek girls much if she did though, I really have no interest in sex other with her....
I really have no interest in finding someone else, Once in love always in love for me. She is like no other girl I've ever been with. Most just wanted my money and nothing else. Sex. and a mansion.
Life is short anyway, and I'll probably die soon most likely. so why not enjoy it with her... :-) She makes me strong I'll tell you that much, she makes everything worth doing. She makes my love strong and I always do nice things to her daily if its buying her flowers, candle-lit dinners, looking at the stars, hot steamy sex all day and night (he he)
I actually just went through a terrible period of my life. I looked like shit, I was under so much stress and my point of view on life was like "ill never get better i should just kill myself"
I had tmj and it plague my mind and soul and everything i ever cared for. It made me hurt people, it made people hurt me. 5 years of hell is now gone and passed me. No doctors helped me at all, I just got sick and tired of it and started living. Started to stop about thinking of the pain...and boom....eventually it was gone.
But it made me strong, and Possibly It was meant to be because now I can face anything pretty much.
I hope my life is good all my life now, I went through the worst type of shit I can honestly think of, and I wouldn't even wanna list what I did in those 5 years you would all think I was pathetic. But I'll tell you this much, I was so mean if someone looked at me wrong I'd either talk shit to them, or try and hurt them in any way I could. Pain changes you thats for sure. I went from class-clown to some Lunatic
-------------------- [Beautiful vnsa] Beyond space&time, Beyond the illusion, Beyond life's brilliant secrets,Beyond all reason and rhyme,Beyond the bottomless oceans, Beyond the deepest planet of space, beyond yesterday's excuses, Beyond a promised dream, My love for vnsa burns. My love for vnsa lingers. My love for vnsa wakes. My love for vnsa is true. My love for vnsa rises. My love for vnsa exists. Youre beautiful vnsa <333
Edited by Knightmare (06/21/06 08:04 PM)
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SubGen1us

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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5778350 - 06/21/06 10:00 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Uh oh, shes 20. Have u experienced loss before?
People believe they're love will last forever but u guys are young!
It all comes down to friends. Wat im trying to say is even if u blow all ur friends off for this girl, they will still be ur friends.
Love does that, but in order to keep it going is make her friends ur friends and ur friends her friends.
Shes gunna hit a change when shes able to goto the bars. U dont want to let jelousy take over.
I see this so often where the guys follow the women like a lost little puppy, avoid this at all cost.
Bitches come and go but ur friends will always be ur friends.
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Kerbouchard
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5778356 - 06/21/06 10:02 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Well that's cool. So devulge me, what is your zodiac? I'm a gardener and free spirit myself  This here is the bible of all that is Organics. Displayed neatly around it was today's Rustica harvest. In the side is some chainmail
-------------------- "War Doesn't Decide Who's Right... It Decides Who's Left."
Edited by flowie (06/21/06 10:10 PM)
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Colonel Kurtz Ph.D
What What?

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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5778403 - 06/21/06 10:16 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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"L'enfer, c'est les autres", usually translated as "Hell is other people".
Jean-Paul Sartre
Wise words there, think about them positively... It can be done but I'm not in the mood to explain myself really
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Re: I have tons of friends but... [Re: Knightmare]
#5778733 - 06/21/06 11:37 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quote:
Knightmare said: Honest, I rather just be alone.........I go out with friends and all still and chill...but in the end I would have more fun alone.....with my girl only..........
I don't really trust people much because almost everyone I know has back-stabbed me, and I hate hearing people's damn drama....and cause drama that never exited in the first place......I have like 5 TRUE friends, the rest are pretty much just tough-guys that act like bitches. And this goes for like 98% of everyone on planet Earth. No I am not depressed, I'm happy as hell :-)
... but every-time I go out anywhere, everyone seems rusty, robotic, under-control, depressed, obese... trying to fit in....Jesus just act like yourself for once...thats what I feel like saying to people.......people's obesity has gotten way out of control....I even hate TV i watch maybe 10 minutes a day.
But it's just the way I am. I can make friends with pretty much anyone -- but I am beyond their comprehension and life, I don't even need friends with me to be happy......just me.....and my girl......until all ends.....it's KoOl though...much luv to my friends.....I still will chill, but I just don't like to indulge into peoples life's and drama and getting to know them is like learning a Story of a depressed nut sack or something. loll
Oh well, fuck the world and I also hate money just buys junk, I don't even need money but yet, i have millions....and those millions don't even make or change me in any way....only thing it does it make me kick-it all day without worrying about jobs which stress the masses causing depression, baldness of the head and deterioration....
that is all, me.and vnsa.....for ever
i think we are living the same life
-------------------- "Psychedelics should be used not to escape reality, but to embrace it"
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