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adamj
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This is fucked.
#5770739 - 06/20/06 12:08 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I don't like what marijunana does to me. Makes me lazy, eat too much food, paranoid, self-concious, depressed.
YET WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP SMOKING IT
I always tell myself to stop. Yet at the most convient times it seems like a good idea, kinda like I made myself feel it was a good idea. And I smoked... again...Repeat the loop.
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Dreamer987
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: adamj]
#5771069 - 06/20/06 01:31 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Doing the same thing over, and over again, and expecting differant results is a major sign of addiction. You just made this post, so it is getting harder to delude yourself. Everytime your about to smoke. Think about all the shitty side effects it has given you in the past. Some people don't react so good to pot. Its O.K. not to smoke. Your friends won't understand, but fuck'em. I haven't smoked regularly in years, and people still act shocked when i don't hit the pipe.
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: adamj]
#5771073 - 06/20/06 01:33 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Yeah man - I was stuck in a serious rut like that for nearly a year. I felt like shit every day, had mood swings, severe depression and yet, I couldn't stop.
You can pull out of it. I did. Nowadays I only smoke weed for purely creative reasons.
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: Dreamer987]
#5771078 - 06/20/06 01:34 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Good advice. I rarely drink and my friends don't understand that. Booze makes me feel shitty 80 percent of the time.
It rarely makes me happy, just horny, hungry and tired.
Plus, I hate worshiping the Porcelain prince for hours after drinking too much. You could say I learned my lesson. I still drink, but not all the time.
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I am in the exact same situation. I hate how it makes me feel now, yet I always smoke it hoping that the extreme paranoia / self conciousness won't show up and it will be like it was when I first started smoking, just plain fun. It was even to the point that I was failing drug tests for felony probation. After a good trip spending some time reflecting on life and where I want to go, it is easy to abstain for a few weeks. But eventually I always fall back into the loop. It's like I am addicted to not being in a normal state of mind.
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: HighGuy]
#5771309 - 06/20/06 02:48 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Give it up dude. You'v got to show some willpower. Trust me, i have struggled with the same type of thing for years. Admitting to yourself, and others, that there is a problem is the hard part. After that its all about realizing that you have the power to change shit. Are you gonna be a man, and do what needs to be done to be happy, and productive, or are you going to allow life to roll over you, and be completely helpless?
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: Dreamer987]
#5771384 - 06/20/06 03:24 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Being happy is hard. Being miserable is easy.
Ultimately, as Dreamer987 stated, only you can change yourself and you do have the power to do it.
I don't want to come across all high and mighty, cause I'm still struggling with this weakness ... since I can recall man. It feels like there are two of me and whatever I do, regardless of how miserable I feel, I just can't overcome that other me that keeps pulling me down. I've lost the battle so many times. But I have to keep trying because I've realized that's what it's all about man. Never giving up. Keep trying.
It's hard to realize you're not alone because by the very nature of this affliction it makes you feel alienated from the world and yourself. But I think a lot of people go through this sort of thing. Some people with drugs, others with food, alcohol ... whatever.
Fuck man ... I still lie and deceive myself to this day.
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Quote:
lsdandfrisbee said: I hate worshiping the Porcelain prince for hours after drinking too much.
We were once well acquainted.
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: adamj]
#5771660 - 06/20/06 07:26 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I've been trying to take a break for about the last two months. After two unsuccessful attempts, it's finally happening. I took some LSD this past weekend, for the first time mind you, and I figured out the situation. Instantly as the LSD kicked in, I felt no need to do any other drug again. Since Sunday around 1:00 a.m., I haven't taken a single puff and only once have I even felt like smoking.
I guess it could be bad that I couldn't figure it out/do it on my own, but to me it's irrelevant because I am doing it now. Just remember, when feeling burnt out all the time and down...sobriety has to be and is a better feeling; maybe not at first, but ultimately.
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: demiu5]
#5774177 - 06/20/06 09:18 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I'm trying to kick a light daily smoking habit myself. It ain't easy. I'm drinking more wine now. Dancing, too. I don't know why.
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demiu5
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: Derelict]
#5774328 - 06/20/06 09:54 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Be careful not to trade one habit for another. In trying to kick my tv habit, I've been online much more.
I need to try to pick up meditation.
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: adamj]
#5774349 - 06/20/06 09:57 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quote:
adamj said: I don't like what marijunana does to me. Makes me lazy, eat too much food, paranoid, self-concious, depressed.
YET WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP SMOKING IT
I always tell myself to stop. Yet at the most convient times it seems like a good idea, kinda like I made myself feel it was a good idea. And I smoked... again...Repeat the loop.
I feel the exact same way. I thought I was the only one, thank you.
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Edited by robbyberto (06/20/06 09:57 PM)
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: adamj]
#5774430 - 06/20/06 10:13 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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You've gotta put down the ganj for a while mang
Straight up, I almost completely cut recreational smoking. Now I don't even have TIME to get stoned. I puff once or twice before the gym, occaisionally to eat a big meal and if I get headaches. My funk's lasted for months on end and it's only a puff here and there. I feel great, have my lucid dreams again, don't feel groggy or paranoid and it's awesome.
I may have had some slight denial over the years. Weed's been very kind to me, but don't abuse it. I never really had true problems with weed, but when you lay off it things do get a little nicer. It's a literal breath of fresh air, why not take a break. It's too convenient to keep smoking, but please stop for a bit. I worship marijuana and when I have the time for a recreational smoke, it's nothing short of amazing.
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i can agree with alot of that, but one thing that you might want to consider is the type of pot youre smoking.
There is the indica and the sativa variations of weed. the indica being a shorter higher yeilding plant, that provides a very couch lock type high
then there is the indica, which is more of a mental stimulant, and has less of the whole couch lock lazy eating everyhting in site sort of high.
personally i notice the difference and aviod smoking indica that lays me out because i hate being that way too.
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: adamj]
#5776246 - 06/21/06 12:01 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I am in a similar situation, as i get really bummed out and self conscious and quiet when i smoke with groups of people/people i don't know that well. I am also noticing a dependency forming, as i find it hard to go a day without smoking now. Good luck on quitting.
and zippoz, you made a typo, writing indica twice, sativa is the stimulating cerebral high.
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: demiu5]
#5776999 - 06/21/06 03:50 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quote:
demius said: I've been trying to take a break for about the last two months. After two unsuccessful attempts, it's finally happening. I took some LSD this past weekend, for the first time mind you, and I figured out the situation. Instantly as the LSD kicked in, I felt no need to do any other drug again. Since Sunday around 1:00 a.m., I haven't taken a single puff and only once have I even felt like smoking.
I guess it could be bad that I couldn't figure it out/do it on my own, but to me it's irrelevant because I am doing it now. Just remember, when feeling burnt out all the time and down...sobriety has to be and is a better feeling; maybe not at first, but ultimately.
Hey, it's really good that something broke the cycle for you (I've often found psychedelics to have this affect) but... BE CAREFUL. The slope is still slippery... remember that you needed help to get back up, and let that humble your approach to using MJ again.
Just saying, it's easy to fall back down is all... my recommendation is take a long break, stay away for a long while. Make sure you break that habit right the fuck off, or you might find yourself right back in the middle of it in no time.
Peace
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demiu5
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definitely man. I've slipped back down soooo many times within the last 6 months. I'm going to be selling my last vac. packed 1/8 to a friend here in a lil bit, and I don't plan on buying anymore for a while. I've got that great feeling again. Thanks for the words, though.
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browndustin
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He's definitely been smoking some indica... I mean... sativa...no?... whoops!
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: demiu5]
#5780594 - 06/22/06 02:05 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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i (involuntarily) stopped smoking for about 10 days. i was irritable as hell. yesterday i toked up and thought....this is what i was missing? kind of disappointing. so i say, give it a break if you can for at least a week, when you come back you may feel the same way. i'll love my MJ forever, but i think cutting back is just what the dr ordered. you're not alone in your feelings man, hang in there.
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Re: This is fucked. [Re: adamj]
#5780903 - 06/22/06 03:48 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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adamj said: I don't like what marijunana does to me. Makes me lazy, eat too much food, paranoid, self-concious, depressed.
YET WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP SMOKING IT
I always tell myself to stop. Yet at the most convient times it seems like a good idea, kinda like I made myself feel it was a good idea. And I smoked... again...Repeat the loop.
Maybe you are doing it to yourself, aided by the weed?

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