You are like a candle in a big room. God is standing over you with two rocks smacking them together over and over and over again, trying to spark the wick. It is self sparking self. God is selflessly working, every second showering you with sparks. Will you ignite?
A spark is just a spark. Sometimes we attach all of these funny ideas and labels to it. What is it that you are feeling? Anger? How will you ever realize self if you are constantly angry? Anger is bad right, so are we bad if we feel it? NO! It is just God’s wake-up already spark. It is like every time you ignore or try to change anger you are dodging the sparks God is shooting at you. When you just let this “anger” be a feeling, you are free to feel it and just be curious about what it feels like to feel THAT. When you aren’t avoiding feeling, you can simply feel. There is no “me” attached to a feeling, it is just self experiencing self. Every time mind tries to change it, it is like telling God, “No, that’s not what you meant. You mean this. This is what you mean, I am sure of it.” We think this because it’s so unfamiliar and eerie of a space to be in.
The space of a whole big room out is there waiting for us. What is there? We don’t know. We have never seen it before, there is no light to see it. Simply being this unlit candle is where we find comfort, right? I can handle this. I know how to be an unlit candle. But that’s choosing ignorance. There is a whole big world out there. All you have to do is let God spark you up and all of a sudden there is so much here for you! Surrender to your SELF! Lay down your arms. What that means is quit dodging all these sparks self is tossing at you. Let beingness be what it is.
Realize and *~BE~* Realize and *~BE~* Self never stops sparking self. So what happens when you get sparked? The window is open. You have the choice to blow out and go back to believing you are just a candle in a dark dark room. Will you let a waft of air blow out the wick? It is flaming now for a reason, if you just let it go out then there wasn’t a whole lot of point to trying so hard to get sparked in the first place. Get sparked and let every last spark those rocks are knocking over your head light more and more and more on fire. Never stop surrendering to the Godly flame. Becoming sparked is just the beginning. Now, start a wildfire.
Are you still on fire? What is left? There is only fire, light, and a wad of burnt wax. The fire touches everything now, everything that could possibly exist. Are you still on fire? What is on fire?
All of a sudden there is no little ‘ME’ to get enlightened. There is no bigger and better ‘ME’ waiting for you at the end of the tunnel. There is just self, there is just fire. There is fire setting fire to anything that can possibly burn. There is self sparking self. There is only surrender to God, surrender to self. Do you see? There is only self.
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