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fireworks_god
Sexy.Butt.McDanger


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Naturally, there is a corncucopia of negative behavior and energy in the world, in fact, it is possible for it to completely surround us.
I think, however, that one's attitude and perspective on life will naturally direct one's life in a manner that will bring you into situations that reflect your perspective.
It is possible that an individual effectively sabotages one's preferences on how they wish to live and the type of emotional being that they wish to be centered in by concerning oneself with conflicting and dualistic thoughts and feelings.
Life isn't a series of random occurences. The path that unfolds for us in life is greatly influenced by the choices and decisions that one makes, which are, of course, the result of one's perspective and understanding of reality. If we dissolve aspects of our mind that obstruct our ability to directly perceive reality as it presents itself, then we more fully realize the nature of ourselves and the environment. Thus, we form a perspective that enables us to more effectively navigate reality.
A good practice for an individual is to simply bring awareness into one's mind, to observe its processes impartially, in order to realize what we may need to change within in order to produce change in our environment.
Maintaining perspectives that have absorbed and retained the negativity expressed in one's environment in the past (which only continues to exist as an abstract sense, an illusion) and within one's own mind effectively ruin any chance of producing change that will reduce the amount of negativity expressed in one's environment and within oneself.
 Peace.
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If I should die this very moment I wouldn't fear For I've never known completeness Like being here Wrapped in the warmth of you Loving every breath of you
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Veritas

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Telepylus said: i'm a person who believes in the power of goodness i've been living as miss goody two shoes for years now
the idea that if you are a "good man" you will find a "good woman" it's a lie
Perhaps it would be more accurate to say that if you are an independent, self-cherishing man, you will not choose a partner who is dependent and self-loathing. Finding has little to do with it...you may find any number of damaged, angry, abusive, manipulative & dishonest people as you travel through this world. The difference is in whom you allow into your life.
You said: "they all claimed to be good christians, and into love, and all that stuff." But what evidence did you have for their claims? It is possible to fool someone with your words if they are willing to ignore your actions. It is unlikely that the first signs of their dysfunction were the events you describe.
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please, don't lie to yourself and act like this world is filled with nice good hearted people, because it ain't.
It is not filled with nice people, but that doesn't mean it is filled with evil people. There is a mix. Everyone is trying to fulfill the same basic needs, but many of them don't understand how to get those needs met, or even what their needs actually are. They may believe that others are trying to keep them from getting their needs met. People who are mistrustful and afraid of being left out in the cold may be incapable of being nice.
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i love myself just fine, what's not to love?
Great attitude! 
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in lynnwood, where i live violence is what chicks lust for and tattoos, and dudes from prison who smoke meth, and dump their children in garbage cans stuff like that
maybe i should try to move to your town where everything is peace and joy and love and lollipops
Sounds like a bad neighborhood. Negativity does seem to love company, doesn't it? If you don't start out that way, the miserable people around will give you a big push in that direction. Perhaps it is not a good place for you. Why are you still there?
Yes, my town is very peaceful and lovely. I've made many sacrifices in order to stay here, but I love the fact that strangers smile and talk to me, that the air and water is clean, that I can hike in the woods a few blocks away, and that it is full of New Age hippy types.
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Telepylus
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Re: Crying... [Re: Veritas]
#5755252 - 06/15/06 09:01 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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i'm sorry for exaggerating. i had a bad day. i just miss my wife, and daughter.
i've talked alot of shit in this thread, and lied a couple times. forgive me for that. this thread will soon fade into oblivion anyways.
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Icelander
The Minstrel in the Gallery


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Ideed it will as will all the wins and losses in our lives.
Nothing lasts.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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MOTH
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I haven't read the thread, but I thought I'd give my own take on crying, since I do it A LOT. It doesn't take much to make me cry, and I can't control it! I don't like this at all, you have no idea how embarressing it is to just start crying over something totally stupid and insignificant. The frustration/overwelming feeling just starts bubbling up inside of me and I don't have a choice, it just pours out. I always frantically try to stop it, but usually it's no use, out it comes and I feel silly and embarressed about it, the humiliation alone making me cry harder.
I used to feel like such a freak in high school. Someone across the room could look at me oddly and I would interpret this as my world ending and just start crying. I have such a vulnerable side, and I've had it my entire life.
Weirdly, I've been able to totally block the effects of psychedelics simply by holding back my tears. For hours I'll be sitting there, waiting to trip, feeling more and more like crying, but holding it back because I'm trying to stay positive. Then once I accept that I'm not going to trip, the tears flood out like crazy and then BAM, I'm tripping like crazy and my heart is throbbing in ecstasy from the glorious release. It's happened during half of my trips and ecstasy experiences, usually at the beginning. It's like I I cry, there is a switch in my brain, and then the drug gets through.
What explanation for this can there be?
I enjoy crying during a trip, but it's just embarressing to have no control over it when there's people around you.
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Veritas

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No apology or forgiveness needed. It was clear from your posts that you were hurting and angry. This thread may fade into oblivion, but that does not mean that this discussion is insignificant.
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MushmanTheManic
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Re: Crying... [Re: Veritas]
#5755429 - 06/15/06 09:52 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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GROUPHUG!
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DoctorJ


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Re: Crying... [Re: Jon]
#5755623 - 06/15/06 10:50 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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just for the record I would like to say that I plan to visit the Jefferson Memorial someday, and I know that when I get there I will start crying like a baby.
I visit that place a lot in my mind and every time I do, I can't help but crying. He was just such a beautiful man, with such a beautiful dream that it literally chokes me up just thinking about it.
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slaphappy
Its just me


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Re: Crying... [Re: DoctorJ]
#5756440 - 06/16/06 07:25 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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You can't control crying. You can't control anything.
Control controls itself. And thats it.
You don't cry, you have never cried, you will never cry.
The tears are themselves, holy and horny at the same time, expunging themselves of the duality of being nothing.
You're stuck in the middle, with me.
And we are not nothing.
-------------------- The argent messenger of truth beyond truth, the antithesis of life, cruel and bleak as interstellar space, pulseless and frozen as absolute zero, dazzling with the frost of irrefragable logic and unforgettable fact.

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Veritas

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DoctorJ


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Re: Crying... [Re: DoctorJ]
#5756905 - 06/16/06 11:07 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Oh, yeah:
I also cry just about every time the 'I Have a Dream' speech by Martin Luther King is played. Beautiful speech.
Once I was so deep in love with a girl that whenever she slept with someone else, I could feel it, and it felt like a dagger piercing my heart. I cried many tears of great sadness over her.
Edited by DoctorJ (06/16/06 11:12 AM)
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