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DiMiTripper
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All growed up.
#5744445 - 06/12/06 11:46 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I can't beleive I'm going to college. I also can't beleive I'm a drugged out loser. It's so hard to watch yourself grow up and notice it, one day you're six and the next you're on the death bed. Some people spend all of their life trying to get more shit, some spend all of their life trying to get more people. But some enjoy their lives and live accordingly.
It's so wierd.
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eris
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What do you mean by drugged out looser?
What kind of drugs are we talking here?
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DiMiTripper
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Re: All growed up. [Re: eris]
#5744495 - 06/12/06 11:56 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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My brain is fried. I've had my fair share of lots of things. Don't get me wrong, I'm not into opiates or meth, but I've done many, many, many psychadellics.
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blacksabbathrulz

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Stop doing drugs if you feel that way.
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DiMiTripper
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Like it's always that easy. I don't really feel like a drugged out loser, but other people SEE me as such. No one in my family would accept me if they knew what I did for a rise. No businesses would take me seriously and in college I would be labeled a "burnout" despite a good mind and school of thought. I don't see anything wrong with my habits.
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notapillow
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im in kinda he same situation. sept im not going to collage  its weird here i am an adult finaly. its all i ever wanted but fuck man i know im not ready. i dunno if anyone ever is i too spent my teen years searching the vast reaches of chaos only to find myself farther down the road with even more questions and very few answers. i however do not veiw myself as a drugged out loser. dont get me wrong iv had quite a few nights of complete transendence as well as total elersion into fractal infinety. seeing that feeling that being that is alot for a youg and still growing mind. but deep down i know i wouldent trade these experiences for the world
i just took shrooms this past friday afer my high school graduation. it was to be an end of an era type trip i could tell from the start. one of the ressons i truly love n2o+mushrooms is because it places my brain in the most peacful state of oblivian. every pattern of energy some how is ripped out of nothingness and placed before you in a beautiful pulsating blur. and in that state of almost mind shattering ego loss i am able to truly see what is. free of words. free from time. free from thought at all realy. and i have such a hard time in my day to day life desifering what reality truly is i often find myself lost in the fog of hmanity, lost in words with no direct meaning, .
and i guess thats the resson i truly love phychadelics and dont concede that i am indeed "a druged out loser" i just get to much out of it i suppose i need them to reinstil my faith in the eternal. in a way the only way they tether me to reality by letting me hang of the side of it  but hey what do i know. i cant even spell
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pantsboy
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sounds like you caught the ghey
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notapillow
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Re: All growed up. [Re: pantsboy]
#5744563 - 06/13/06 12:18 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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pantsboy
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None tonight. I'm just doing the dope thing in my brand new bubbler and taking whippets in my brand new shiny metal whip cream maker.
Did you see the Tom Goes to the Mayor episode that was on tonight. I thought you might appreciate since the entire episode was about bass guitar.
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notapillow
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Re: All growed up. [Re: pantsboy]
#5744585 - 06/13/06 12:27 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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i had no idea they sold chargers at the quin dats coo i diddnt see it when was it on wat kind o bud did you gets
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pantsboy
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I don't know, something from English's stash. It's all the same to me really. Some just get me higher than others.
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eris
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You are still young.. you shouldn't think of yourself that way. Might be an issue of self esteem. Drugs can lower self esteem and make a person depressed. It's all a mind thing - You should hold your head high and be proud. If you consistently think that way, things will get better.
Think about and concentrate on the good things in life. Positive things that you have done or could do.
I've been through my fair share of negative thinking and hard times. I can tell you from experience that it does no good to think that way.
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notapillow
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Re: All growed up. [Re: eris]
#5744701 - 06/13/06 01:11 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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i actualy ment wat kind of bub did you get
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