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RandalFlagg
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God, I fucking suck
#5732597 - 06/09/06 11:10 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I'm all buzzed up on booze (which seems to be the norm nowadays).
I am going to complain and vent. There is no need to respond to me if you don't wish to. I am not seeking advice. Maybe my emotional flailings and self-flagellations can offer something to my fellow dorks. You are not alone.
I went out to a bar tonight. My friend was DJ'ing. He had invited a bunch of his friends. There was a girl there. I had met her before at this friend's house about eight months ago. The second I saw her I became infatuated. She just oozes hotness, sex, coolness, and mystery. The first time I met her our eyes locked and I about fell into her. Her eyes were that magnetic. She gave me a look that made my head swoon. If there was a word to describe her, "yummy" would suffice. I am really damn picky when it comes to women too. I can go a year without coming into contact with a woman that really catches my eye. So, when a woman does catch my eye it really hits me and I take notice.
So, she was out at this bar tonight. She looked incredible (of course). I had a few beers and I was sitting near the pool tables. She came over and said, "Hey". She started talking. She said, "Have I met you before?" and "Where are you from?". I attempted to act all cool. I said, "Oh...I think I remember you. What's your name again?" (I knew damn well what her name was). She smiled and obviously wanted to speak to me. I can't tell if she was flirting or if she was just being nice. I managed to carry on a half-assed conversation. I was not spectacular but I didn't fall flat on my face....at first anyway.
As the conversation went on I became more and more like a deer in headlights. I either stared at the floor, pretended to stare off in the distance at something, or said completely STUPID shit. I couldn't believe some of the unfunny, pointless, and assanine stuff that was coming out of my mouth. The conversation slowly died and we ended up looking at stuff in different directions.
Jesus fucking God, how shitty it is when stuff like that happens. Both people sit there and are completely aware that the conversation has died. They then wonder what to do next. Does one get up and look for some diversion? Does one attempt to rekindle the conversation? Does one attempt to look aloof? If there was a word to describe the whole affair....AWKWARD.
Yes, I usually freeze when I come into contact with attractive women. I either don't say anything or I make an ass of myself. Every once in a while I am able to make a good impression with an attractive woman, but it is rare. I'd say my conversation success rate with attractive women is about 10%. If she was a guy or if I found her unnattractive then I would have been able to sit and talk with her no problem (if I had put forth effort).
This girl is so damn sexy. Christ. Why did God make me such a fucking dork? Motherfucker.
Edited by RandalFlagg (06/15/06 05:32 PM)
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5732678 - 06/09/06 11:43 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Don't be so hard on yourself. Everyone gets a little nervous around a hot woman. You just have to work through it with practice.
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: Le_Canard]
#5732691 - 06/09/06 11:48 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I'm almost 27. If I haven't figured it out yet I ain't gonna figure it out.
Because I can't talk to the girls that I like I always end up going out with the ones that I don't really like. I'm fucked.
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5732697 - 06/09/06 11:49 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Naw, that's still pretty young. You'll get some confidence soon.
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: Le_Canard]
#5732709 - 06/09/06 11:53 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Sometimes I can pull it off. Most of the time I can't. It's like I have no control over my charisma. Sometimes it appears and sometimes it doesn't.
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5732849 - 06/10/06 12:45 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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man i hear ya on both counts, being all boozed up and not being able to talk to the girls..
i met this girl about a week ago at a party, and somehow we ended up climbing a tree togeather and making out for a while, in that tree... it was allright.
2 days later i called her back but she missed the call and called me back later. i by that point, was driving and tipsy, and handed off the phone to my friend for a second... bad move...
then it all just went to shit. oh well im such a clutz, handing the phone off to my drunk friend who had taken her on a date years ago, who had to bring it up..
its a bitch... i have pretty much given up on chasing girls...
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: ZippoZ]
#5732871 - 06/10/06 12:52 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Yeah man, it sucks sometimes. I swear with the ones I want...nothing ever happens, I make an ass out of myself, or it goes to shit quickly. But, the ones that I don't want I end up going out with for a while or in bed with.
Will God please let me get with (and stay with) a girl that I really am attracted to and that I like? Fuck no...that asshole doesn't like me.
Edited by RandalFlagg (06/10/06 12:55 AM)
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5732878 - 06/10/06 12:54 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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oh you know what the worst part is?
you end up with this girl you kind of want, and then every other girl you have ever wanted is up on your nuts... like as soon as you have a girl, they are all over you...
Like i said, im tired of the games and chasing and bullshit. if somthing happens, ill be greatful. yeah there are a few girls out there that i would love to be with, but im just letting things happen if they do. i dont have time for the bs...
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: ZippoZ]
#5732895 - 06/10/06 12:59 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Seriously, shit like this is like some cruel cosmic joke. God is fucking with us on purpose.
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5732904 - 06/10/06 01:01 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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yeah, i laugh at it sometimes., and sometimes i just pick up the 40 i have next to me, and i take a swig, and try to hold back the tears :cry:
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5732980 - 06/10/06 01:35 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Jesus Christ I whine a lot. 
My most recent threads are this and the thread about me being hassled by black dudes while I rode my bike.
I gotta stop whining.
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5733771 - 06/10/06 10:41 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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It's a bad feeling knowing that you blew whatever shot you may have had. One of the worst in my opinion. I always used to let this happen. And it is important to realize that it is YOU letting this happen, not some cosmic joke from God. It took me awhile to get over this. Much chemical assistance...[edited due to poor advice] Alcohol sucks, ditch that crap. Really, you just need to be comfortable with who you are. And remember, many girls tend to love attention and often love to talk about themselves. You just have to feed that.
Also, exercise and stuff like that'll get you more confidence. Make friends with girls as well, don't approach every girl as relationship/sex material. You will learn a lot about women and it makes it much easier to talk to other women. They are people too.
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Edited by cilosyb (06/10/06 10:46 AM)
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5733909 - 06/10/06 11:25 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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"Yes, I usually freeze when I come into contact with attractive women."
I used to have this same problem. Than i got a girlfriend, and now i don't have anything to worry about. I'm not trying to fuck them, so now they are just regular people that i don't have to try to impress.
"you end up with this girl you kind of want, and then every other girl you have ever wanted is up on your nuts... like as soon as you have a girl, they are all over you... "
Haha, yup, somehow i'm fuckable now that i have a girlfriend. If i didn't love her so much...
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5734347 - 06/10/06 01:32 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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You have low self-esteem. Why?
What helps me in those situations....I know that later the next day, she's gonna take a massive shit....'cause she's human too. Fuck that. The minute you put a woman on a lofty pedestal, she'll only dissapoint and more than half of it will be your fault.
Bring the woman down off the pedestal, talk to her like you would an ugly chick who's your "friend" or your sister and just chill out.
"Never whistle while you're pissing." 'Cause your mind is split, duality. Same with a chick, stop "thinking" and just be. Just let it flow. Charisma doesn't happen if you want it to, you have to let it just ooze out.
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RandalFlagg
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Quote:
McKennaDMT said: You have low self-esteem. Why?
I don't necessarily think that it's low self-esteem. I just freak out when coming into contact with women that I'm attracted to. It's like they are mythical beings that scramble my brain or something.
But, you made a good point. I should realize that they are human just like me.
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5734791 - 06/10/06 04:47 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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It also helps to remember that men age better than women do. So if you're the shit at this age, you'll probably be even more the shit (??? ) when you're older.
So that hot piece of ass that causes you're penis to enlarge but your mental capacity to shrivel up, remember she'll look like a dry, withered grape in a few years (or decades ).
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I am seriously flawed. My charisma comes and goes. I am the only person I know that has this trait. Everybody I know either has charisma and they have it all of the time or they don't have it at all. With me it comes and goes completely randomly.
There are times when I can talk to a woman I'm attracted to like she's just another person. But, most of the time I can't.
I missed all of the appropriate cues too. She said a few things about herself and I didn't follow up on them. For example, she talked about having to school the next day. Why the fuck didn't I ask her about her school? Women love talking about themselves usually. I just nodded my head and stared at the floor. 
After the fact, I can sit here and deconstruct everything I did wrong. I can think of stuff that I should have said and questions that I should have asked. Too late now though.
Edited by RandalFlagg (06/10/06 05:08 PM)
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: RandalFlagg]
#5734984 - 06/10/06 05:40 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Did you give a shit about her talking about her life or did you just want to talk to her in teh hopes of de-pantsing her?
I find it incredibly hard to listen to anyone (especially women) when I don't give a fuck. It's one of the hardest things for me to do is to act interested.
But you're not alone. I have the same problem. Exactly the same problem. Most of the time I dont give a shit about how people view me or think of me or whatever, but then there's that once in awhile moment when I actually want to get to know someone and then I act completely self-conscious, wondering if what I'm saying or doing is fuckin retarded or not....
I try not to worry about it though....
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I'm not sure how alcohol brings out social anxiety in you.. most everyone I know finds the opposite effect. You are a freak!
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Re: God, I fucking suck [Re: Dared]
#5735267 - 06/10/06 07:20 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I rarely drink.
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