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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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Have you ever fallen into a state where nothing can be for certain? Where fantasy and "reality" holds no difference at all. I've found myself in this position sometimes, and as I guess my fantasy is kinda well developed, it makes for some really far out believes which I have no way to not valify.
Some of these believes are about telepathy, and I get the distinct feeling that all people are reading my mind. It's like my inner world is out there in the open, and every comment made around me points towards some issue in my mind. Most often pertaining to my direct thougts in that moment. I've given this much thought, and consulted all my most trusted friends with these issues and all of them can confirm that it must be delusion. Yet some few friends and I have communication going on as we've both (or it's two or three different persons) have acknowledged what is going on. Other believes is that I am somehow communicating with other people and the enviroment around me on some weird subconscious level. I've been thinking about what Alan Watts once said so clearly, that if I am my heart and my foot, I most obviously aslo am the Sun. How can't I be? Why should my skin separate what I am? Am I running this body more volunteeraly than the sun and birds flying round? No, I'm not. It seems all a movement. So this leads to me point. If people somehow start realizing how omnipotent we really are, and I'm not meaning omnipotent as to start actively manipulating other people by thought, cause our personalities (egos) are just the viewing eyes of ourselves, the all there is. But this realization might lead to another level of interpreting reality. Connections start to explode around you. Everything is like following a narrative story, and every piece of it makes sense in the flow. Every time I get proud, I am sure to get in my own way though, so the flow vanishes, or at least start giving me bad signals, signals that urge me to humble that self-importance. I am starting to realize how literal I am God maybe. And how I am everyone else too. Is this all about waking up? How people cough and move their arms and say things out of the blue that they never intented, but which makes sense to a particular thought in someone elses head. Is this how reality can communicate directly to the apprentice, and how life is the lesson. Actively persue imagination to get access to deeply unconscious truths. Deep down we all know. other dimensions and higher states of awareness have been an obsession almost for me awhile, but now I suspect that the psycical dimension is more spiritual than most people dare to imagine. Ask the force to really show you a sign when you wake up one morning. Maybe as signs start progressing, we are not reading people through thoughts only, but facial/bodial expressions and every detail in the enviroment starts communicating. Asking questions without demanding answers leads one in the right direction. It seems to me as a very valid path. Sorry for the ramble, I'm not sure if I said anything of value at all. Hopefully someone can relate.
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I Tell You What! Registered: 06/24/05 Posts: 5,998 Last seen: 8 years, 9 months |
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"I am starting to realize how literal I am God maybe. And how I am everyone else too. Is this all about waking up? How people cough and move their arms and say things out of the blue that they never intented, but which makes sense to a particular thought in someone elses head."
dude. precisely. entirely. cannabis does this in spades. synchronicity. It is the staple of delusion, but yet it is a form of communication and it is valid to your own ego and whatever is on your mind at the time. I mean..... it's hard to say. It is perhaps your subconscious's way of understanding that you are normally divorced from? See to an infant the world is the infant and the infant is the world... so when someone walks into a room, they take that as a significant event.. when someone sneezes a certain way they take that as a significant event.... everything that they experience with their senses they attribute as a connection to them, a communication with them (and i'm not sure what authority i have to say this, it is part speculation) so a stoned perosn, a schizophrenic, a man of God, a man tripping... they can see these connections too.... they see how their thoughts create their reality and their reality creates their thoughts, but perhaps they are stuck only seeing one. feeling completely out of control that reality creates their thoughts, or feeling completely in control that thoughts create reality. and this begs the question, agents of communication, what are they? TV is an agent of communication but you cannot control it (per se) so it will take power over you in anything it tells you. however people are interactive and in sycnhrony you can effect them. I will just share so briefly. I spent 3 hours connected to TV having a terrible terrible trip being really stoned on super dank herb. During that time every single thought I had was in synchrony (and controlled by) the television. Now when I got up after the shows were over I was still freaked out and still pretty off kelter and I said to everyone "Everything I thought this entire time was controlled by the TV, I've never been this high in my life!!!!" and RIGHT THEN they were watching a David Cross comedy special, and RIGHT THEN he opens up into a new joke and he starts by saying "Have you ever been, really, REALLY high!!!" and I knew this shit ... I mean I didn't know it was coming but completely in synch I go SEEE!! And I point at the TV and they look at me funny. That! That is beyond explicability isn't it? It happens though. Perhaps cannabis surrenders you to outside and classic hallucinagens bring outside inside? I have no idea. Perhaps not, perhaps just different flavors of hallucinagen activity. I was going to say one more thing about that experience hmmm ohhhhh yes.... so I was convinced tripping out thinking I was about to die, and they held a raffle at this party, and in my mind if I won it that meant I would die that night.... and so I was the absolute first name they drew and I CAUSED THIS TO HAPPEN i caused them to draw my name..... and I mean..... because I was so tripped out thinking it would happen... it was all part of the synchronicity too...but I did have a way out of this ill fate.... it was communicated to me countless time by commercial advertising that I would live if they drove me home. The synchronicities were so much more than this... someone got a call saying someone had just been in an accident, and I thought that someone was me... all sorts of things completely synchronous. But the most important thing man is this IS delusion... this is how crazy people work..... I guess it is the ego so detached that it attaches not to the body but to the external reality in fear of complete ego - loss? All I know is I could have perhaps tasted enlightenment if I were on my own and had just lied down and rode the high. But thinking. Thinking is delusional. Thinking is what caused all of that. So many things... Dunno if this is completely on topic anymore but I know exactly what you describe. -------------------- ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human......
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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Thank you for answering, my friend.
I have curiously observed your recent months thoughts on TV and syncronicity and experience alot of them reading your posts. BUT I do believe that you twist it a little concerning TV. In my opinion consciousness can act through all medias, all walks of life. It all depends on the observer. Two different mindsets can have a synchronisic event concerning the exact same TV-show/movie or whatever, but it will be tied into their subconscisous. Or tapped from if you wish. These resonances reveal ourselves to ourselves. If the world outside is interpreted and sort of manifested in our neural network (we see our inside, made up of the outside signals), then TV can also be used positiviely as far as I'm concerned. Not advocating to swallow junk here, but have you ever had the feeling that when you swap through channels they are all talking to you. You end up laughing cause there is some red thread stalking you. Everywhere you turn you are shown. And then you just know - it is a game. It must be a game. When I was in my worst psychosis some years back I could see that everyone wore masks. It was just behind their faces. I couldn't stay serious. People thought I was on drugs, cause I couldn't help laughing and sometimes they starting participating. The next day everything was forgotten. I hope.
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I Tell You What! Registered: 06/24/05 Posts: 5,998 Last seen: 8 years, 9 months |
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i think you are right.
"Two different mindsets can have a synchronisic event concerning the exact same TV-show/movie or whatever, but it will be tied into their subconscisous. Or tapped from if you wish. These resonances reveal ourselves to ourselves." The challenging distinction is that TV directly shapes our subconsciouses, giving everyone who watches the same content the same unconscious mind with time. True television is to some degree a reflection of reality, but is always hyperexagerated. For example take violent media junkies. They are agressive people (don't tell me otherwise, nothing is absolute but I know many violent media junkies who would willingly join the army, or who already have, I am basing this assertion on the extremes) porn addicts are very sexual people, right? Or maybe they don't have any sex, but sex is dominant in their minds. So yes it shows us to ourselves, but.... how did ourselves come to be? Men are more likely to love GTA than women. Men are more likely to join the army than women. Men are more likely to enjoy violent culture. This violent culture ensures that men are more likely to view violence as a legitimate response to conflict because many hypothetical violence scripts are loaded into immediate conscious access given their constant reinforcement through seeing them acted out in fantasy media. So you see yourself, sure...... but by submitting yourself to TV you are allowed yourself to be reprgorammed with all the salient social norms floating around in the box. Norms that are generally extremely pessimistic and fear/hate centered more than love centered. entirely greed centered and without any remorse or consequences for glutonous actions. for example. When you think of police, how many police do you know? Not as many as you know from cop dramas. So what is true about police? It's okay for them to hurt innocent people if they have drugs on them, or to break their own laws to catch the "bad guy" so your views on police are not sanctioned by what happens in reality, however in fiction. and because what happens in fiction can in many cases be more lewd and unacceptable than what normal police conduct allows, is it any wonder we are a rampant police state? (flip side is yes real police do worse things than you would see on tv BUT these things are not acceptable, whereas often times it is acceptable for fictional police to break the own norms and laws that they enforce, and often they may get away with it and be praised in the end for "getting the job done" and this in turn might create tolerance and apathy to real acts that police commit in real life) another case in point look at all the terrorism shows that reference the patriot act.. some authority figure defies the constitution..... some hippy says "no man" and he says "fuck you" and gets away with it and in the end it helps him save the nation. things like that.... i'm very heavily biased though. it's kind of hard to expound but maybe you follow me. you aren't surfing your subconscious with the remote, you are surfing the collective subconscious, it acts upon you generally speaking. that's how it would seem to be but it seems completely circular, too. -------------------- ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Edited by leery11 (06/05/06 08:47 PM)
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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I agree. That is why I try to limit my TV time to movies with messages. I don't watch action movies and stuff like that. It seems to hurt my sensitivity. When I was a child I always had to turn away when the news showed death.
It's been a long time since I stopped watching the new now. Sorry for being unclear, but my point was more in the direction that TV is not inherintly evil. There are much educational and uplifting stuff for the discerning eye (or remote if you wish).Good points though. The syncronicty part might be madness. But in the words words of Dali: The only thing separating me from a madman, is that I know I am mad." (/i] (no further comparisons of course)
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irregular verb Registered: 04/08/04 Posts: 37,532 |
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you are getting glimpses
wind down dont get wound up relax
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I Tell You What! Registered: 06/24/05 Posts: 5,998 Last seen: 8 years, 9 months |
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Quote: yeah I'm starting to realize I've been demonizing too much. But frankly though........ even mild violence to me in a purer (altered) state is unacceptable. I found the Simpsons disturbing.... I found the Brady Bunch disturbing even, because they were lecturing one of the kids about an instrument... I forget what he did.... I was on LSA at the time and the TV shows would answer any questions I posed by timing the "yes" and "no" just right... it was nutty. I was told to never smoke cannabis again (by the LSA?) it's very confusing...... but I did eventually realize that the cannabis was what made the LSA trip(s) so confusing and scary, that's its better for winding down at the end of a trip and kicking in rad visuals. hmmm what to do about drugs. -------------------- ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human......
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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I'll keep breathing gently.
Much good stuff have happened in my life lately. She is winding me down. But I miss her now.
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Babyman Registered: 05/22/06 Posts: 996 Loc: Seattle Last seen: 17 years, 3 months |
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what is stopping you from realizing your full potential
is the fear of God you are afraid to face the responsibility that U/R God when you begin to accept the truth, that indeed you are intimately connected with EveryThing then you will get nearer and nearer to the fact that you are in charge of a huge portion of the world, and unlike the majority there is alot of strange irony and paradox involved too, always and there are alot of things stopping us from rising to the highest levels of consciousness bonds to money, or family or friends, or ego, or fear of being fully aware the truth is always gonna hurt at first, like a needle but it's the all-healing medicine we really have no other choice but to face the fact that we are being watched and scrutinized very closely by God and we are gods too, literally what do you think it means to say we are made in the image of God male & female made he them. we don't really want world peace we don't really want there to be a solution to all problems we don't really want to wake up and realize our omnipotence because the day that happens is the day that all this will end for us in Utopia Rapture and we are desperately holding on to ignorance as if it binds us to the world the world serves as a distraction. but some of us know what needs to be done, we're good lookin' out. it is not the purpose of a mans life to walk intimately with god across the eternities- that is the purpose of a prophets life, or a saint, or a savior. maybe you are somekind of prophet bro? since you're having all these "strange connections". hey i'm hip about mandelbrot set too.
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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Maybe go sober for a while then proceed when the mushrooms start calling your name again? I haven't touched the golden teachers since the summer of 04. They really gave me a beating to absorb. No need to climb too steep when we have so many years ahead. Don't know if this counts for you though.
I am what most people would label an abuser of cannabis, but sometimes I like to indulge heavily for a week or two just to unwind to the point of total confusion and free falls. For me the hard downhills always teaches me something. But I would never been able to return without so many experienced and loving minds around, both here and where I live. People seem to genuinely care when someone is down on their knees. That's when the inherit compassion is revealed so clearly to me. It seems everyone loves everyone when there are no veils of ignorance (politics, group mentality etc) blocking our views. One on one it is pure love. If you're told to stop smoking cannabis during a deep trip, that might be your own subconscious urging you to take a break. Maybe sobriety will bring you new heights of awareness? Or maybe it was fear. Go deep and do what feels right. That's what I'm thinking now at least, I'll probably change my mind ten times before tomorrow
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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I've been having a reoccuring thought for a time saying "the only thing separating me from god is me."
I guess this is right in a way. Me is all that I am, but it is my ego. And that is the bundle making me everything a personal experience. I think The Vision makes Division. Sometimes I am afraid to face that responsibilty, but more often I am faced with forgetting that if I'm God then so is everyone else. Which means I shouldn't worry so much. For myself AND for everyone else. The bonds and attachments you speak of. Being watched and scrutinized is a strange experience. But slowly it heals all shame and leaves me laughing at all the absurdities. This varies extremely though, depending on my mood. If i get into a dilligaf mood it might be easy, but that seems so counterproductive to the more noble approach of compassion. I keep thinking that selfishness isn't very wrong if we suddenly wake up from a nightmare in a state so blissed out that we can't stop laughing of the so called suffering that tickled a small fragment of our floating fullness of love. It's like I've realized incarnation and hell and everything as hysterical ramblings of sad, lonely monks who really should devote some of their cave-dwellings in intimate contact with other human beings. To feel the pulsing warm heart of another being is heaven, and the purest feeling I ever felt. But who knows? No-one (that's the whole point. When you're there, there is no-one there to know, only Knowing. So in the words of a wise man; 'you could realize wisdom thousand times, but never bring it home with you') maybe you are somekind of prophet bro? since you're having all these "strange connections". hey i'm hip about mandelbrot set too. Heheh. Nah, sorry. No prophet here. I promise to tell everyone if I every am able to realize something important though. Everyone interested that is. Btw I recommend you check out the buddhabrot fractal on wikipedia if you're interested. Edited by dr_mandelbrot (06/05/06 10:14 PM)
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I Tell You What! Registered: 06/24/05 Posts: 5,998 Last seen: 8 years, 9 months |
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this post was disorganized and inane.
I have been communicated that 'psychedelics are not allowed' but i don't know if it was by God or not..... it seemed very reasonable and to come from a throat chakra consciousness... and I could not argue because it just felt like what I was being told was the "truth" and that it would help me stay on the right track. I asked why and after some digging and speculation saw alternate realities of a person hurting himself in a more primitive time, and that because we are in this reality we have access to all knowledge (for the most part) and don't need to try things out the hard way. I then thought to myself that cannabis is a gradual tool, a psychedelic but nothing that will get you in over your head because you use it at your own pace, so casual exploration is much easier. LSA is used by me in a similar fashion so as to not be thrust into something completely unknown.... and I think LSA may be in the clear too but not necessarily in high doses... and the seeds seem unhealthy. I then was reminded that I think I did tons of drugs in a past life and had some memory impressions.... so like this life I am not supposed to? But none of this is "real" to me because I'm so deluded in my cynicism that I'm just like. My life is bland. Now I have all the necessities. A blessing of a wonderful family and ample resources. It's just that I'm lacking in everything else. Poor connections to peers. No love life. No physical contact with a woman ever in my entire life other than very brief holding of hands and extremely brief and impersonal cuddling. The walls are built up strong and despite recent efforts to try to find a nice girl they have fallen apart. So we have me going wtf.... I've realized so many things that finding GOD is the most important thing to do, nothing else matters. But it's a hard journey... where in the world is this fellow that he won't at least get me into a state of mind where I feel happy consistently so that I can better follow him? What obstacles are in my way? Does he exist or is the God simply me? am I being crude in communicating with my inner God.....? I mean... so I'm just thrust with one sensible option: enlightenment. do tons of drugs or don't. but i gotta get there becasue I've convinced myself the American dream is a dreary and monotonous one that bears little fruit.... one I'd like to awaken from. so like to me running off to be a monk would be better than getting a fancy degree and working a huge office job. but the best would be having a mild recreational and balanced life with lots of spiritualty but also a rich wholesome connection to a great peaceful community that has good vibes... some good health and exercise..... a wife or a close companion to fill my sexual/physical/emotional/love needs..... and you know just chilling out and exploring the truth that way.... but not as some suit selling his soul working a reptetive job. i dunno. a monk's life is just like my alternative to this so i can run away from all hinderances till I find God... then hopefully I can come back with God and reintegrate into society. In fact tho..... what is God? God is just a word I don't like. There is something and that something is God, but it's also Tao, Jesus, Buddha, Allah, and many other things too..... probably Tao is a more fitting word for the universality of it... how it is beyond symbols yet has a symbol. I dunno wtf to do... it would be easier if I had some companions. I was told psychs aren't allowed yet I had a dream about having a great mushroom experience, that confuses me.... shrooms are okay maybe? I wish God would just sit down and tell me the truth about it whether I wanted to hear it or not But then again people in my dreams have, and I've forgotten and gone against their advice and had bad trips to show because of it.... real bad trips...... but why didn't I remember? Couldn't these people stay and remind me? Don't they understand how my mind works since they are in it? Can't they intercept me and make me remember the dream right before I did the drugs that day, so then I'd be like "ohhhh okay, thanks guys" and not do them? I mean wtf? I'm trying to make the best decisions it's just that the ego is ignorant, naive, and foolish, and stubborn. I should've heeded the dreams but I didn't remember the most important warning. -------------------- ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Edited by leery11 (06/05/06 10:51 PM)
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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Your mind seem very, very wind up when you write. Like a chaotic but super smart frenzy roaming all over the place.
I don't know what to say to you. The more experienced people here could maybe point you home. You seem surprisingly trapped in duality. To the degree that I sometime start fearing that my view of things are too forgiving. That I'm leading myself into the path of oblivion. But then I get into Zen material, and they say it's all the same. A coin, nothing to be afraid of. The world is ok, and there is nothing we have to do to change it. If we won't of course. I believe in existence on different levels, but I don't believe in non-existence as an experience. This makes suffering and all the wrongs in the world easier to bear. Maybe that is an escape, but maybe it also is truth. What about Mr. Natural? Please don't take responsibility for everyone out there. Only yourself. You are more aware than most I know if my impression of you is right. You have nothing to worry about. If people think I'm wrong here, please correct me. Didn't you do alot of drugs for a while and ending up in quite a mayhem? What does that tell you? Just stop them for a while. Meditate. Breathe extra deeply. Feel your thoughts. And I would also like to recommend something like holosync (centerpointe institute), hemisync or brainwave generator if you'd like assistance in quiting your mind. Also, you will find a girl who is perfect for you. How could you not? Your reaping gold. You are a genuinely caring and good person. This autumn I will be meeting the girl of my dreams, and I can't wait at all.
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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Also, don't be so hard on yourself. No need to be perfect all the time. Just try to act impeccable. We all fail all the time. Me at least. That's when I'm adviced to get up and try again. Just as in meditation. When I lose awareness, it is just that - losing awareness. Gently ease back into flow. All is good.
Or is it? Please let me know if you suspect me wrong. Edited by dr_mandelbrot (06/05/06 11:36 PM)
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I Tell You What! Registered: 06/24/05 Posts: 5,998 Last seen: 8 years, 9 months |
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I dunno if I'll find a girl. I think one would work well with me because of the depths that I've experienced, but because of the depths I've experienced maybe only 10% of the population would even be on the same level as me? ah how egoistical....
I know why I'm not supposed to trip. Last night I meditated a long time and couldn't sleep. When I did sleep I dreamed a lot. When I woke up from the dreams I was tripping and my third eye was semi-opened up. See normally at bedtime I get all this nasty plague of static, disloacted and disjointed and nonsensical meshes and mosaics of extremely dyslexic and unorganized and crude visuals streaming around but not entirely visual, more like they flicker in and out of existence at a set frequency which if I could hold onto it my third eye would open. So I woke up tripping and it was pretty intense..... there was a storm going on, it was 06/06/06 and I was like "man I hope the rapture doesn't come, I guess God would probably save me but I can't handel this kind of elevated consciousness" and like I would look and some phatasmic visual of a swirly staticy white thing would swirl up into my room and flirt away to the cadence of the uprising waves of sleepiness (i was very sleepy) ..... and I wasn't feeling like I could go back to sleep though. I prayed a bit and the Lord's Prayer did the trick more than anything... I couldn't even retain enough focus to know what I was saying when I tried to do the Jesus Prayer (ala the one in the thread "Jesus Prayer" in the mysticism forum) and I kept forgetting and having to start over like something was blocking it from succeeding. But the Lord's Prayer worked in fragments and I smoothed out and was like "okay then, this is fine." I then prayed for no rapture and was intent on going back to bed even if the world was coming to an end, which I assumed it wasn't. I don't know if I can handle such altered states of mind. I think the only way I can is with protection, even if purely symbolic and archetypal, such as that offered by Jesus. So I said if you want me to do psychedelics I will... and I was certain in that assertion.... then I reluctantly said, maybe 20% meaning "and I won't if you don't want me to". Then I thought about cannabis and am wondering if it's a distraction and not a true entheogen because of how much it fucks your lungs up in nothing more than a "recreational" high for most people. But it sure brought me to revelation of clear light through chi, and that's good isn't it? I may get cannabis and give it a spin. I don't do tons of drugs and go nutty... rather I do like one drug and maybe go nutty (the only one that severely impacted me was my last trip on DXM because I was terrified of hell and felt like I became posessed by a singer [who was in my dreams today singing a collage of his songs that kind of explained to me how he does this to people if i'm not imagining his presence, which I could be] see I guess a lot of people can trip for fun and be amazed at visuals and take nothing seriously. If I were that person I'd trip. I'm not sure if I am anymore. I would have been when I was a 15 year old on prescribed ambien and laughing at his clock that looked like it was on fire..... but now it's all serious and has levels of realness and permanence to it. If by simple breathing into it during my meditation my third eye partially opens later in the night upon awakening..... well I dunno... third eye IS drugs! -------------------- ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Edited by leery11 (06/06/06 12:58 PM)
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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You will find someone resonating. Just be convinced. Let your mind dwell on her. She will come. You are in synch, I'm pretty sure of that.
I have no idea what to tell you on the drugs though. Maybe you could spend some serious time in meditation on herb just to check everything. Make the setting optimal, clean out your apartment, light candles and ease into it. You could also use that prayer as a mantra if you find it comforting. For me cannabis has surely been a huge distraction alot of the time. But there is difference between lazing in front of the TV and using it seriously in meditation. I like to wind down for a day or two, staying stoned out of my mind, just observing breath and silence. That is therapy to me. I always took tripping seriously, and that is what started me investigating hallucinogens in the first place. It has made my world swirl and it has made me cry alot. ![]() You say third eye is drugs. Maybe you should turn that phrase. Drugs give you energy. It blocks out conditioning and energy runs more smoothly. Therefore you come into contact with ie your third eye. Some say drugs are magic, but it is us who are magic. Drugs are just catalysts, as is meditation, tantric sex, spinning, running, singing etc. Endorphins and all that good stuff. Hope I made some sense.
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The Minstrel in the Gallery Registered: 03/15/05 Posts: 95,368 Loc: underbelly |
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You will find someone resonating. Just be convinced. Let your mind dwell on her. She will come. You are in synch, I'm pretty sure of that.
Then the trouble begins.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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![]() Maybe so. But I remember the old Iceman once said that to accelerate the learning process one must complicate ones life. Is family life starting to take its toll, dear friend?
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Babyman Registered: 05/22/06 Posts: 996 Loc: Seattle Last seen: 17 years, 3 months |
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I've been having a reoccuring thought for a time saying "the only thing separating me from god is me."
- I agree with that mandelbrot but, the only thing connecting you to god is U too. the term "I AM" can be seen as egotistical, or selfless depending on what perspective you're looking at it from. like the word "ME" leery goes on to say, "i don't know if i'll find a girl" the only thing seperating you from said girl is you. it's not hard for me to promise you, if you love the word girl, and you honor your own love for girl, you will surely find her. the talk about weed. weed won't enlighten you, except maybe the first dozen times you smoke it. weed brings peace of mind. weed is so relaxing and peaceful. enlightenment isn't a relaxing, passive, peaceful state of mind. arriving at truth is active, thrilling, disturbing, intense- to such an extent that yea, it's impossible to take it home with you. the tiny piece which you may be able to bring back can provide peace though. like a bowl of weed you saved to come down from a heavy trip at the end of a long night. lol
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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Yes I believe That I Am That I Am.
Which sort of was explained so well in the words of Watts. If you are your foot, you are also the Sun. What I mean when I say 'me' is separating me from god, i mean the person i think myself to be. The word persona means mask. My bundle of conditioning is an echo from interacting this fragment of space/time since birth. It does not exist in my opinion. It is all one movement in the cosmos. Good posts, man. Keep em coming.
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I Tell You What! Registered: 06/24/05 Posts: 5,998 Last seen: 8 years, 9 months |
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Quote: Thank you, you reminded me..... in the beginning there was the WORD and the word was God. Well that's what I sort of understood during this episode too.... thought, sentience, is God.... but then you add your own words in and corrupt eh? It was confusing. I understand it but not really. Isn't that how life is? I have a body, but not really. It's real and yet it doesn't seem so as long as its functioning well (like for example being an imbecile and thinking "I will get in an accident to test my helmet" landed me with a sprained ankle.... then I realized how foolish that line of "invincible" thinkin was..... so then the body was quite real!) so much duality of nothing and everything. leery goes on to say, "i don't know if i'll find a girl" Quote: I don't know? Because I am a girl. I am a guy. I am neither. It's like I'm tapping the femnine energy because I never got an outlet to tap from in physical reality, so I tapped the inward feminine and its turned me into some sort of hybrid. It would almost be lesbianism if I found a girl lol but at the same time not really.Quote: Dude you don't know me and cannabis. Weed can be a very intense ride if you keep your tolerance nonexistant. Trippy and amazing. So close to psychedelic if you have a potent sativa. It can also be relaxing and peaceful if you just use a tiny bit. A full bowl = intense high, not "ahh time to wind down" plus it can be used to focus upon chi/chakras to expand consciousness. -------------------- ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Edited by leery11 (06/06/06 05:40 PM)
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don't look back Registered: 04/12/04 Posts: 1,511 |
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Quote: Dude, you don't know me and cannabis either. When I speak of unwinding I speak of meditation. I try to unwind all day. I don't have songs and rubbish roaming my mind most of the time. I work on silencing it as much as possible. Of course it goes up and down, but being unemployed makes it easier to focus. When I walk, I walk. Absorbed by nature. My attention span have improved beyond expectations. But sometimes I get meddled.
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I Tell You What! Registered: 06/24/05 Posts: 5,998 Last seen: 8 years, 9 months |
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Quote: i was talking to telepytus. and that's wonderful that you don't have songs in your head. I do. -------------------- ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human......
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hmmm ohhhhh yes.... so I was convinced tripping out thinking I was about to die, and they held a raffle at this party, and in my mind if I won it that meant I would die that night.... and so I was the absolute first name they drew and I CAUSED THIS TO HAPPEN i caused them to draw my name..... and I mean..... because I was so tripped out thinking it would happen... it was all part of the synchronicity too...
It's been a long time since I stopped watching the new now. Sorry for being unclear, but my point was more in the direction that TV is not inherintly evil. There are much educational and uplifting stuff for the discerning eye (or remote if you wish).
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