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and we are beating. These are the important things. here and now, brown cow.
Floating rhythms, unlatched melodies, broken into by moments of tonal clarity. What is this? This, my friends, is shitty writing. But one must wade through shit to get to water, and I'm sorry but I must place my pondscum here to butterfly stroke my way through.
ROBOT HUMAN
I am lost until the music begins and then I feel my mind adjust to a more linear state, and I can function and formulate thoughts in a systematic manner that makes some sort of logical sense. I take intelligence for granted. My brain is a machine. An instrument. I can play it.
it is hard to remember, for me at least, that one cannot master something until one practices at it. Practice doesn't make perfect, practice wafts the scent of perfection underneath our noses so that we may follow it wherever it may lead.
When a baseball player is at his best, he is not thinking. HE falls into a streak, ten games long, cranking out ribbys and belting longballs back behind the bleachers, and you ask him what he's done to turn up his game and he'll tell you that he's done nothing, he's just being. A confident laziness. Stepping up to the plate not over-thinking, simply being, and by being, connecting.
I try too often to cut out the middleman, hope that the desire to create will descend upon me suddenly, divinely. God will spill from my fingertips, and it wil all become clear.
But work is necessary. Work has to be done.
These are ramblings. Hello.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Sounds like those Benzos are working pretty good for ya.
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it is moments like these that make me really critical of myself and my every-day.
I spend so long in a passive, uncreative mindset. Of course, thoughts are occurring, endless processes of dynamic cross-references and correlations drawn and relevations found and subsequently destroyed by logical counter-suppositions.
While laying on a couch patterned in blue and white, staring aimlessly at a shoddily assorted brickface wall, thirty fourty seventy minute passing before I finally get up again and wonder what the fuck I am doing.
Then, there's this.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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OneMoreRobot3021 said: Of course, thoughts are occurring, endless processes of dynamic cross-references and correlations drawn and relevations found and subsequently destroyed by logical counter-suppositions.
You ever read the book "The Sublime Object of Ideology "?
That reminded me of it a bit.
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The days seem to last forever but the weeks fly by in a blink of an eye.
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Re: We are being [Re: domite]
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I have not read that particular piece of literature, no. I haven't been ereading much really, lately, and I'm trying to break out of that and settle into a reading groove. The last three books I picked up and tried to read all puttered out on me after a few chapters: The master and Margarita, The Teachings of Don Juan, Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience, none really gripped me.
So now I'm reading Stephen King's The Shining and though it's boring to me and I find lots of flaws in King's writing style, it's doing a really great job of getting me into a reading rhythm.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Re: We are being [Re: Noetical]
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Noetical said: The days seem to last forever but the weeks fly by in a blink of an eye.
Sometimes, I look back at a day, and think of how much could have been accomplished, and I gasp.
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Its dense as hell, I dont really reccomend it. Unless you know alot about Lacan. Which I don't.
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Think about your mind, and look upon your hands. Hold a wiffle ball bat in your hands and think about the symbiosis of body and mind. Tell your hand to squeeze the bat, the other one to twist around. What is the reasoning behind these actions? if I send neural messengers down the length of my body to my fingertips and tell them to tap along with a Daft Punk rhythm on the very base of the wiffle ball bat, what does that mean and what purpose does it server.
You see, it's all just
Stop Making Sense.
Art does not make sense. Performance does not make sense. The nonsensical things will be our saviors.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Same here.
It makes me sick sometimes when I realize how much time I've lost do to apathy.
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Re: We are being [Re: Noetical]
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That subconscious nag, that's the worst part. So much worse that I train myself to ignore it.
Shit that right there is the biography of entire handfuls of human civilization.
You and I my friend must slip between the knuckles of the Passive Fist's grasp. Join me. Escapist Creative League of Cyberpsychedelic Heroes.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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All right I'm in. But I need a green cape.
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For a second, your avitar's humping motion was exatly in sync with the song I was listening to.
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Re: We are being [Re: Noetical]
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my colors are green and purple. I'll forgo the cape so you can have that, but you must simply accept the fact that my costume will have green in it as well. I'll be like the Joker, green and purple, pointless acts of insanity.
Have you ever read a story by Harlan Ellison (have you ever read him at all? Amazing short story collection called Slippage, really stellar) where a world is run completely on clocks and a court jester figure flies around dropping jelly beans on the world to disrupt it all? Fabulous.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Sounds like The Invisibles.
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I am so out of a writing groove. My thoughts seem so multidimensional. I really see the challenge right now of taking intelligent, introspective thought and transforming it, through one's fingertips on a keyboard, into a fair translation and reinvention of the complication of a thing such a thought. I mean a "thought" if we call it that it sounds so similar, just a thought. Oh, just a thought. What is a thought? A thought is more than you or I.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Looks like tomorrow's mission name is Harlan Ellison.
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This thread is entertaining! 
Between reading this thread, and tangentially hypertext-linking my way through Wikipedia, I'm not getting any work done...
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You know, Noetical, this here is an important post. I want to express how gratefully I am to you for being what I think we should all strive to be - prisms. You soak in information, and then you really refract it out all from your own unqiue vantage point. It's definitely a thing of awe to witness each and every day, here in cyberspace.
I feel I can really believe you when you say you'll look into things you hear myself an others mention. Myself, I am guilty, very guilty, of saying I will and never doing.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Re: We are being [Re: Papaver]
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There's not much I know about you Fear will always make you blind But the answer is in clear view It's amazing what you'll find face to face
The thing is, what it comes down to, and I really respect Robert McKee for instlling a fervor for this in me, is that Story is essential. Story is ancient, story is everything, story is the way everything was built. All societies, all histories, all beliefs, became permanent parts of our lives through story. Story is the spine of all.
And I feel that I am meant to spin stories. Words like thread. Thoughts spinning all around my mind, I remember talking to an acid burnout meth addict homeless joe in the park and I bought him a pack of camels and he told me how his brain was just a ball of flashing lights bouncing around in his brain and he couldn't get it straight. Granted his eyes were portraits of intoxication and depravity but there was a real honesty in his voice, like a clear communication from the soul, and I felt tangientally connected to this feeling. Now when I think about my brain is really just reaching out in all directions, tenticular, sponging up information and doing so with absolutely no direction.
Perhaps that's the point of writing. To straighten it all out. But jesus fuck, where does one begin? When there's so much, and it's everything, and it's all part and parcel of the same network, where does one begin? OI.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Re: We are being [Re: Noetical]
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Okay, i have a bunch of unread books in my house, so you guys are going to choose which one I should read next.
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The first two are both well worth reading! I don't know anything about the third, except that it was last on the list...
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I remember when you originaly posted your prism theory, it had me hooked.
I've even had very lively and stimulating conversations about it over some fine hops with my commrades. Kind of weird eh to have something you wrote on a message board be a focal point of an evening a couple thousand miles away.
I haven't been able to refract Fast, Cheap and Out of Control yet though , But I'm working on it.
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Based on the back of the book, it looks like some post-modern/anticolonialist drivel with a very perdictable train of thought. It is supposedly really good though....
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Fast, Cheap & Out of Control, man, I would love to watch that right now.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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and now to bed where something waits that I most likely won't remember in the morning. Usually, as I tumble off into slumber I imagine myself clutching at thoughts, and tell myself I'll bring something back from the sleepworld to the dayworld. I'll report my findings in the morning...
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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You talk a lot.
You say what you want to do, yet, are you doing it? Are you going to make that effort to suppress that attitude of whatever is suppressing that "nag" to want to create? What are your plans, what are your goals to achieve this? Do you even really "want" to achieve it?
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-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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So.....what's the answers?
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I'm trying my best to do what I want to do. It's hard to focus on those, the really spiritually important things, when I'm scraping by day to day financially. My head is in shambles. I'm hoping to have that straightened out soon.
It's a slow process, I need to read more each day (check) and write more in general (that's where I really fail) if I want to feel like I'm making any sort of progress towards a regular rhythm of creation. Most of my words just end up here, on the Shroomery.
I don't know what my goals are. That's just the truth. I want to make money, and I want to do it writing. I want to be able to support a family. I want to have a child. THat's all very long-term though.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Yeah man, almost 23 and you're thinking about having a kid.... Until I read that they were you're long term goals, I almost got scared. 
I hear ya though. I'm in the same boat but think that I made a great decision in that I went back to school now that I've had 3 years in the "real world." I have deeper understanding of who I am and what i want and am now taking the necessary steps to do it.
Good luck man. We're all gonna need it.
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When there's so much, and it's everything, and it's all part and parcel of the same network, where does one begin?
Wow, this really all jumped out at me. I feel similarly to the comments in the beginning of the post.
I'm also interested in reading this prism theory, but am too lazy at the moment, to look it up...got a link?
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I'm drunk. I just got home from the bar.
I wish I could be a writer, but I do not believe that I have the talent. I have such dualistic philosophical battles occurring in my head. Spirituality vs. materialism. Tolerance vs. violence. Purpose vs. nihilism. God vs. self.
How is it possible to crave the structure and certainty of a divine mandate but to want chaos? How is it possible to love God but to be so enraged at Him for the predicament that He has left for Mankind? How is it possible to simultaneously want to love and yet to yearn for utter destruction and depravity? How can a human mind be so split?
The arrogance of humanity must be explored. The folly of human thought must be exposed. The weaknesses of reality must be detailed. The failure of God must picked at like an itchy scab. The absurdity of all that is known should be examined.
I either have the meaning of life or the proof that all absolutes should be rejected hidden somewhere in my brain. If only I could see God's Will and His beauty. If only I could reconcile my need for freedom with my desire for an irrefutable and undeniable Truth. I just wish that I could find the answer.
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I think you have the talent to be a great, drunk writer.
I'm trying so hard to write right now. I'm tripping on LSD, alone in my apartment, and I get so easily distracted. I'm trying to follow certain trains of thought and to make myself realize how important it is for me to go through the simplest of motions. Feels like I'm in training school. But words are slowly getting cranked out. I am my own worst enemy though.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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RandalFlagg said: I'm drunk. I just got home from the bar.
I wish I could be a writer, but I do not believe that I have the talent. I have such dualistic philosophical battles occurring in my head. Spirituality vs. materialism. Tolerance vs. violence. Purpose vs. nihilism. God vs. self.
Man, writing is all about conflict. That is the heart of it. You would have nothing to write if there was no conflict. You can take that all, channel it, and find the meeting points betwixt each of them.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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You and Redstorm need to write your own books.
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I've lost so much motivation.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Not if you are pushing yourself to do better you arent. Your talent for typing while on LSD is also pretty impressive.
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I've had a keyboard under my fingers since I was three...that plus it's one hit of blotter that is weaker than I expected it to be, but in strange ways. I don't know. I feel really lucid but I'm still on a trip, no doubt about it...barely any visual stimuli, but the feeling is there.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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OneMoreRobot3021 said: I've had a keyboard under my fingers since I was three...
haha, that sounds like Toadie.
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OneMoreRobot3021 said: Man, writing is all about conflict. That is the heart of it. You would have nothing to write if there was no conflict. You can take that all, channel it, and find the meeting points betwixt each of them.
I do not have the ambition or the acumen to thoroughly explore the thoughts which inhabit my brain. Examining the ideas of my mind are like watching something beautiful yet incomprehensible. I don't mean to sound arrogant, but I have genius in my mind that I cannot translate.
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It doesn't sound arrogant, language often lacks the ability to articulate the complex connections that exist between your desires, thoughts and emotions. That last sentence, for example, didn't really get at exactly what I was trying to say.
Im kinda drunk if that didn't make sense.
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It seems to me that you have the acumen in spades.
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Jesus, everybody in this thread is fucked up.
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I'm trying to write about the mouse I murdered.
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Awesome musings, friend. You're writing skills shine in moments of intense waves. I know the feeling, but my brain runs out of control and I lose my train of thought too easily. ADD sucks.
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I was diagnosed with ADD when I was younger, but I don't really beilve it is a "disorder" anymore. Both ADD and Dyslexia to me just seem like a trait that causes a different pattern of thinking, each with its own advantages and disadvantages.
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I think I could get diagnosed with ADD but I don't think I have ADD, if that makes any sense. Man, I am a lazy fuck. That is what I am. Attention Deficit Lazy.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Do you want greatness? Do you want your name to be immortal? Do you want to be an "Achilles" or an "Alexander"?
I desperately want this. Every day I feel an agitated lethargy. I do not have the talent nor the vision to create or conquer, but I crave the end result of such pursuits. I want to be remembered and feared. I realize that probably sounds somewhat ridiculous.
I have been exposed to stories of incredible men who have accomplished incredible things, yet I find myself a normal person with no special talents and I live in a comfortable time. There is no great struggle for us. We are merely consumers who seek comfort. What would it be like to face true struggle? To face death? To conquer?
Supposedly, God frowns upon such prideful desires; as if we should obseqiuously bow before His expectations. How can He expect complete devotion from us if He leaves us in such a world and with such natural desires?
I believe that when I stand before God I will completely understand His will. I will bask in his omnipotence and I will beg for His mercy and grace. I will turn into a sniveling and apologetic coward before the Creator. My natural human desires will all have been for naught.
The only hope I have is that either His love is so incredible that I forget all other things or that my consciousness is extinguished so that I will no longer be bothered by my fate.
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I am saving this thread to my favorites. We should contribute random thoughts on certain things. I am about ot pass out on the keyboard, but I think I'll go have a shmoke and a pancake, 86 the pancake. I'll be back.
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I wish I could quote that entire post and use it as a sig. I have exactly that same sentiment.
Any time I saw some show on "discover" or whatever channel involving some dangerous tribal initiation ritual I would feel like I was watching real life instead of living it.
I think it is just human nature not to cause strife when comfort is avalible. Its a hard impulse to fight.
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Just wanted to bump this thread back up, because I like it alot.
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Quote:
blissedout said: Just wanted to bump this thread back up, because I like it alot.
It's beautiful that you bumped this now of all times, blissed. I'm there. I'm at the plate and I'm in the groove. And if you ask me the secret I'll tell you I'm just doing what feels right, following my heart, not overthinking. I'm writing all the time, and it's okay that I can't shit gold on command. Thanks so much for bumping this. To think I used to sit around saying this stuff to myself and then doing nothing about it. Well I'm doing something about it these days. And it's a beautiful feeling.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Quote:
OneLessForeskin said:
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blissedout said: Just wanted to bump this thread back up, because I like it alot.
It's beautiful that you bumped this now of all times, blissed. I'm there. I'm at the plate and I'm in the groove. And if you ask me the secret I'll tell you I'm just doing what feels right, following my heart, not overthinking. I'm writing all the time, and it's okay that I can't shit gold on command. Thanks so much for bumping this. To think I used to sit around saying this stuff to myself and then doing nothing about it. Well I'm doing something about it these days. And it's a beautiful feeling.
i read back through this thread and felt very warm from it
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im groovin to this thread as of t minus 3 2 .
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I like to reread this thread from time to time just to reflect on my life and what I'm doing to make it better. There are a few threads that I have saved for this very reason.
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