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OneMoreRobot3021


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Re: We are being [Re: Papaver]
#5713164 - 06/04/06 10:40 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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There's not much I know about you Fear will always make you blind But the answer is in clear view It's amazing what you'll find face to face
The thing is, what it comes down to, and I really respect Robert McKee for instlling a fervor for this in me, is that Story is essential. Story is ancient, story is everything, story is the way everything was built. All societies, all histories, all beliefs, became permanent parts of our lives through story. Story is the spine of all.
And I feel that I am meant to spin stories. Words like thread. Thoughts spinning all around my mind, I remember talking to an acid burnout meth addict homeless joe in the park and I bought him a pack of camels and he told me how his brain was just a ball of flashing lights bouncing around in his brain and he couldn't get it straight. Granted his eyes were portraits of intoxication and depravity but there was a real honesty in his voice, like a clear communication from the soul, and I felt tangientally connected to this feeling. Now when I think about my brain is really just reaching out in all directions, tenticular, sponging up information and doing so with absolutely no direction.
Perhaps that's the point of writing. To straighten it all out. But jesus fuck, where does one begin? When there's so much, and it's everything, and it's all part and parcel of the same network, where does one begin? OI.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Re: We are being [Re: Noetical]
#5713175 - 06/04/06 10:43 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Okay, i have a bunch of unread books in my house, so you guys are going to choose which one I should read next.
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Papaver
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Re: We are being [Re: domite]
#5713187 - 06/04/06 10:46 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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The first two are both well worth reading! I don't know anything about the third, except that it was last on the list...
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I remember when you originaly posted your prism theory, it had me hooked.
I've even had very lively and stimulating conversations about it over some fine hops with my commrades. Kind of weird eh to have something you wrote on a message board be a focal point of an evening a couple thousand miles away.
I haven't been able to refract Fast, Cheap and Out of Control yet though , But I'm working on it.
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Re: We are being [Re: Papaver]
#5713203 - 06/04/06 10:49 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Based on the back of the book, it looks like some post-modern/anticolonialist drivel with a very perdictable train of thought. It is supposedly really good though....
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Re: We are being [Re: Noetical]
#5713212 - 06/04/06 10:52 PM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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Fast, Cheap & Out of Control, man, I would love to watch that right now.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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OneMoreRobot3021


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and now to bed where something waits that I most likely won't remember in the morning. Usually, as I tumble off into slumber I imagine myself clutching at thoughts, and tell myself I'll bring something back from the sleepworld to the dayworld. I'll report my findings in the morning...
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Penguarky Tunguin
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You talk a lot.
You say what you want to do, yet, are you doing it? Are you going to make that effort to suppress that attitude of whatever is suppressing that "nag" to want to create? What are your plans, what are your goals to achieve this? Do you even really "want" to achieve it?
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OneMoreRobot3021


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-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Penguarky Tunguin
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So.....what's the answers?
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OneMoreRobot3021


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I'm trying my best to do what I want to do. It's hard to focus on those, the really spiritually important things, when I'm scraping by day to day financially. My head is in shambles. I'm hoping to have that straightened out soon.
It's a slow process, I need to read more each day (check) and write more in general (that's where I really fail) if I want to feel like I'm making any sort of progress towards a regular rhythm of creation. Most of my words just end up here, on the Shroomery.
I don't know what my goals are. That's just the truth. I want to make money, and I want to do it writing. I want to be able to support a family. I want to have a child. THat's all very long-term though.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Penguarky Tunguin
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Yeah man, almost 23 and you're thinking about having a kid.... Until I read that they were you're long term goals, I almost got scared. 
I hear ya though. I'm in the same boat but think that I made a great decision in that I went back to school now that I've had 3 years in the "real world." I have deeper understanding of who I am and what i want and am now taking the necessary steps to do it.
Good luck man. We're all gonna need it.
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When there's so much, and it's everything, and it's all part and parcel of the same network, where does one begin?
Wow, this really all jumped out at me. I feel similarly to the comments in the beginning of the post.
I'm also interested in reading this prism theory, but am too lazy at the moment, to look it up...got a link?
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I'm drunk. I just got home from the bar.
I wish I could be a writer, but I do not believe that I have the talent. I have such dualistic philosophical battles occurring in my head. Spirituality vs. materialism. Tolerance vs. violence. Purpose vs. nihilism. God vs. self.
How is it possible to crave the structure and certainty of a divine mandate but to want chaos? How is it possible to love God but to be so enraged at Him for the predicament that He has left for Mankind? How is it possible to simultaneously want to love and yet to yearn for utter destruction and depravity? How can a human mind be so split?
The arrogance of humanity must be explored. The folly of human thought must be exposed. The weaknesses of reality must be detailed. The failure of God must picked at like an itchy scab. The absurdity of all that is known should be examined.
I either have the meaning of life or the proof that all absolutes should be rejected hidden somewhere in my brain. If only I could see God's Will and His beauty. If only I could reconcile my need for freedom with my desire for an irrefutable and undeniable Truth. I just wish that I could find the answer.
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I think you have the talent to be a great, drunk writer.
I'm trying so hard to write right now. I'm tripping on LSD, alone in my apartment, and I get so easily distracted. I'm trying to follow certain trains of thought and to make myself realize how important it is for me to go through the simplest of motions. Feels like I'm in training school. But words are slowly getting cranked out. I am my own worst enemy though.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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OneMoreRobot3021


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RandalFlagg said: I'm drunk. I just got home from the bar.
I wish I could be a writer, but I do not believe that I have the talent. I have such dualistic philosophical battles occurring in my head. Spirituality vs. materialism. Tolerance vs. violence. Purpose vs. nihilism. God vs. self.
Man, writing is all about conflict. That is the heart of it. You would have nothing to write if there was no conflict. You can take that all, channel it, and find the meeting points betwixt each of them.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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RandalFlagg
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You and Redstorm need to write your own books.
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OneMoreRobot3021


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I've lost so much motivation.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Not if you are pushing yourself to do better you arent. Your talent for typing while on LSD is also pretty impressive.
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Re: We are being [Re: domite]
#5717671 - 06/06/06 01:06 AM (17 years, 7 months ago) |
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I've had a keyboard under my fingers since I was three...that plus it's one hit of blotter that is weaker than I expected it to be, but in strange ways. I don't know. I feel really lucid but I'm still on a trip, no doubt about it...barely any visual stimuli, but the feeling is there.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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