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Doctor J
    #5699561 - 06/01/06 12:53 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

What happened? Your posts are terrible, nowadays. You used to have content, but now there's no content. Just mindless rambling.

So, what's the deal?


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Re: Doctor J [Re: blissedout]
    #5699562 - 06/01/06 12:54 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Him and Ewok have been staying up all night every night smoking salvia for the past eight months.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: blissedout]
    #5699565 - 06/01/06 12:54 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

He's havin' a breakdown


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Re: Doctor J [Re: OneMoreRobot3021]
    #5699566 - 06/01/06 12:54 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

:rolleyes:


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Re: Doctor J [Re: blissedout]
    #5699573 - 06/01/06 12:56 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

A bunch of people screwed me over and now I've gone insane with rage and frustration! 

WUHOOO!!!

tripout!

:rofl:

"Its only when you lose everything, that you're free to do anything."

Also, I'm fishing for 1 shroom ratings.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699578 - 06/01/06 12:57 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

stuck on an astral plane/planes, it happens


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699589 - 06/01/06 12:59 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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Also, I'm fishing for 1 shroom ratings.




hooked up


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699590 - 06/01/06 12:59 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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DoctorJ said:
A bunch of people screwed me over




no one has screwed you over, these are not the droids you are looking for


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Re: Doctor J [Re: sleepy]
    #5699592 - 06/01/06 01:00 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I'm stuck in the physical plane, and its really getting on my nerves

you have no idea how much I hate being here.

the food sucks, the women are bitches, and everyone talks shit and lies behind my back. I'm tired of it.

ascension is my only goal

I've already given humanity the tools to save itself.

If they don't follow my advice, screw 'em.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699607 - 06/01/06 01:04 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

there is no etherial to ascend to, I know, I've been there


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699608 - 06/01/06 01:04 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Are you suicidal?
Please don't do it.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: blissedout]
    #5699634 - 06/01/06 01:13 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I suspect he's either bipolar or schizophrenic, probably the latter. I hate to see it happen. I had a friend who was schizophrenic, and it was heartbreaking to watch him slowly go deeper into madness.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: cybrbeast]
    #5699637 - 06/01/06 01:14 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

no, I'm not suicidal!

A lot of people wish I were, but fuck them!

life is the ultimate revenge!

I do plan to get off this rock in a few years, but only after my training is finished.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699639 - 06/01/06 01:14 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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DoctorJ said:
I've already given humanity the tools to save itself.

If they don't follow my advice, screw 'em.




Talk about an overblown ego!


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Re: Doctor J [Re: Silversoul]
    #5699646 - 06/01/06 01:18 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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I suspect he's either bipolar or schizophrenic, probably the latter.  I hate to see it happen.  I had a friend who was schizophrenic, and it was heartbreaking to watch him slowly go deeper into madness.




wow, thanks for the vote of confidence, man :rolleyes:

you really have little faith, don't you?  You talk the talk, but can you walk the walk? 

look dude, I'm an open-minded guy.  But I keep my insanity contained within my mind. 

Craziness isn't about thought.  Its about action.  Just because I write crazy shit on an internet board, does not make me crazy. 

I don't steal, I don't commit violence, etc.  I'm just another intelligent guy, bored off his ass by mainstream society to the point where I'd rather live in a fantasy world, to the extent that I can get away with it. 

but I still pay my bills on time and socialize and work a job like everyone else. 

who are you, anyway?  the thought police?


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699656 - 06/01/06 01:21 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Look man, I'm not here to dis you. I'm just worried about you. I've always known you to be a good guy, which is why I'm not trying to insult you like others are. Maybe I should. You seem to handle the insults much better than a genuine show of concern.


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    #5699662 - 06/01/06 01:23 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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Prisoner#1 said:
there is no etherial to ascend to, I know, I've been there





Oh no, there's an ethereal plane.  Problem is....it sucks just as much as this place does.  :tongue2:


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Re: Doctor J [Re: Silversoul]
    #5699663 - 06/01/06 01:23 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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Silversoul said:
I suspect he's either bipolar or schizophrenic, probably the latter. I hate to see it happen. I had a friend who was schizophrenic, and it was heartbreaking to watch him slowly go deeper into madness.




I suspect those accusations are just manifestations of your own inner problems.I suggest you stop telling J he is crazy in all his threads and take a look at your own sanity.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699667 - 06/01/06 01:25 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

J,

i can prove that ascension is not your only goal.
and if you are having trouble with people screwing you over, it's because you're missing your right time/right place.
you're slippin'.

i feel you'll probably regain your footing soon though, we'll see.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: blissedout]
    #5699671 - 06/01/06 01:25 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I think the best solution to the problem of doctorJ is a healthy dose of ban. I'll talk to Stein or eris, those guys just don't give a fuck.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: Silversoul]
    #5699675 - 06/01/06 01:26 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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Look man, I'm not here to dis you. I'm just worried about you. I've always known you to be a good guy, which is why I'm not trying to insult you like others are. Maybe I should. You seem to handle the insults much better than a genuine show of concern.




You seem like your insulting him to me.If calling the guy schizophrenic and bipolar isn't an insult I don't know what is.The truth is you are trying to insult him,you are just doing it in a different way than others.Think passive aggressive.

Your not a doctor,therefore you have no place to diagnose the guy with schizophrenia.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: Silversoul]
    #5699676 - 06/01/06 01:26 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

sorry

didn't mean to put you out

I appreciate your concern, but trust me its unecessary

people have been telling me I'm crazy since I was a little kid. 

but the funny thing is, I know people who believe MUCH more 'sane' things than I do, 

And they do some crazy shit that I'd never dream of doing!

like I said, insanity is all about behavior.

don't tell me what to do with my mind, and I won't tell you what to do with yours. 

we're both well behaved, so I don't think thats an issue :wink:


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Re: Doctor J [Re: aNeway2sayHooray]
    #5699679 - 06/01/06 01:27 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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Silversoul said:
Look man, I'm not here to dis you. I'm just worried about you. I've always known you to be a good guy, which is why I'm not trying to insult you like others are. Maybe I should. You seem to handle the insults much better than a genuine show of concern.




You seem like your insulting him to me.If calling the guy schizophrenic and bipolar isn't an insult I don't know what is.The truth is you are trying to insult him,you are just doing it in a different way than others.Think passive aggressive.

Your not a doctor,therefore you have no plays to diagnose the guy with schizophrenia.



Get the fuck over yourself, man! I'm just trying to help out an old friend.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699682 - 06/01/06 01:28 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

One of my absolute favorite professors had this mantra that made the biggest impression on me:

"it is what it is"

It feels a lot better when you are looking at plant cell phys and can't figure out what anything - a calm explanation or method to help figure things out and utterance of the mantra made everything okay.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: Silversoul]
    #5699683 - 06/01/06 01:28 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

This has nothing to do with me.I was addressing your post.If you cant take criticism then you don't need to dish it out.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699688 - 06/01/06 01:29 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Frank Zappa - Who Are The Brain Police?

What will you do if we let you go home,

And the plastic's all melted,

And so is the chrome?

WHO ARE THE BRAIN POLICE?



What will you do when the label comes off,

And the plastic's all melted,

And the chrome is too soft?



WAAAAHHHHHH!

I think I'm gonna die . . .

I think I'm gonna die . . .

I think I'm going to die . . .

I think I'm going to die . . .

I think I'm going to die . . .

I think I'm going to die . . .

I'm gonna die . . .

I think I'm going to die . . .

I think I'm gonna die . . .

I'm going to die . . .

I think I'm gonna die . . .

I think I'm gonna die . . .

I think I'm gonna die . . .

Going to die!



WHO ARE THE BRAIN POLICE?



What will you do if the people you knew

Were the plastic that melted,

And the chromium too?

WHO ARE THE BRAIN POLICE?

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i feel ya... i really do!
it's easy to get thrustrated when life is so meaningless and yet you know exectly how marvelouse it really can be!

i could try and spew some advice but i feel redicules telling people what they should do when i can't do it my self (for now anyway)

what i DO know is that you should lay off the weed for a while (at least massively cut back... and any other drugs too i guess...)
and this is just a guess... i may be wrong but this IS the shroomery and there's good chances you ARE smoking frequently :smirk:

WHO ARE THE BRAIN POLICE?


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699694 - 06/01/06 01:31 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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but I still pay my bills on time and socialize and work a job like everyone else.





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Re: Doctor J [Re: Telepylus]
    #5699695 - 06/01/06 01:31 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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Telepylus said:
J,

i can prove that ascension is not your only goal.
and if you are having trouble with people screwing you over, it's because you're missing your right time/right place.
you're slippin'.

i feel you'll probably regain your footing soon though, we'll see.




Time is new to me, and I've never been good at timing moves. Its a shortcoming, but one I don't have much desire to improve upon. Time sucks anyway.

and yes, my goal in coming here was to teach people, but I've pretty much said all I have to say. Everything I post is basically just a re-iteration of the same idea: there's two sides to every coin.

So anyway, I don't see much reason to be here anymore. I'll probably leave whenever I can.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5699722 - 06/01/06 01:41 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Well J, if you're as functional as you say you are, then I'll quit prying. I wish you well on your journey, and hope you find what you're looking for.


aNeway2sayHooray: How the fuck is it criticism to show concern for someone you care about? If someone here was suicidal, would you consider it insulting to worry about them? I've known DoctorJ for the entire time he's been here, and anyone can see that he's not the same as he used to be. I have a friend who might be dead by now if I hadn't intervened, so don't get preachy to me when I show concern for others.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: aNeway2sayHooray]
    #5699735 - 06/01/06 01:45 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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Silversoul said:
Look man, I'm not here to dis you.  I'm just worried about you.  I've always known you to be a good guy, which is why I'm not trying to insult you like others are.  Maybe I should.  You seem to handle the insults much better than a genuine show of concern.




You seem like your insulting him to me.If calling the guy schizophrenic and bipolar isn't an insult I don't know what is.The truth is you are trying to insult him,you are just doing it in a different way than others.Think passive aggressive.

Your not a doctor,therefore you have no place to diagnose the guy with schizophrenia.




I see what you're saying but I don't think it was a direct insult... maybe an unfair diagnosis. 



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I suspect he's either bipolar or schizophrenic, probably the latter.  I hate to see it happen.  I had a friend who was schizophrenic, and it was heartbreaking to watch him slowly go deeper into madness.




"I wish people would quit talking about me like I'm not here." - DoctorJ 

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Re: Doctor J [Re: Silversoul]
    #5699742 - 06/01/06 01:48 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I am not getting preachy.Saying the guy is skitzo is not showing concern.It is calling names and judging him.

Then telling me to get the fuck over myself realy shows your maturity.To me it seems you need to get over yourself.

I dont understand why your replys to me are so hostile.I am jusr expressing my opinion.I am in no way trying to "get at" you or anything like that.


EDIT:I deleted an insult that shoulndt be there.No need for that jazz

I am not going to argue this.I said what I want to say.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: aNeway2sayHooray]
    #5699810 - 06/01/06 02:09 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

um
schizophrenia is, i quote
"early symptoms"
being fearful for no good reason
jumbled thoughts and confusion
feeling "something's not quite right"
declining interest in people, activities, and self-care
hearing sounds/voices that are not there
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it isn't a disease at all. it is being stuck on astral planes that the people who diagnose you do not understand.  most people these days as a result of who knows what, are on one or a very few similar planes. mostly physical.  those that are not, are just different.  see what i'm getting at? 

is a shroomer fearful for no good reason?  when he knows he is about to die? (this is judging good/bad)

do shroomers ever get jumbled thoughts, or experience confusion? YES. after spiritual enlightenment experiences people often are confused, too.

how do you know something is not not quite right?  shroomers often feel, but there is no way to KNOW for sure. that is Gods business

people, activities, and self care do not cause everlasting happiness
:laugh:

lots of shroomers experiences lights, sounds, voices, etc.

trouble speaking clearly! LOL. trouble UNDERSTANDING WHAT IS BEING SAID. did everyone understand Jesus' parables?

so, i find it funny that "symptoms" of this made up disease called skitsophrenia is just talking about someone in a state of being like shrooms can make.

also, "spiritual" sadhus, those working on themselves, ie, spiritual aspirants, etc, frequently experience astral lights astral vision astral sound etc. its perfectly documented by paramhansa
 
i don't think its a insult to say you are shitzophrenic. but i think its also misleading. but i do think you have it :smile:  like i said, just astral planes. you should work on loosening your attachment to your "state." mind state.  i've been caught in a mind state where i forget people think they are bodies. lol.  i just wrote this entire thing in that state and now i see that it is useless.  i should delete this, but you remind me of myself J.

"hold on to the unchanging"


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    #5699889 - 06/01/06 02:34 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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    #5699906 - 06/01/06 02:37 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

eh

I'm not too worried about it :lol:


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Re: Doctor J [Re: sleepy]
    #5699987 - 06/01/06 02:59 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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sleepy said:
i don't think its a insult to say you are shitzophrenic. but i think its also misleading. but i do think you have it :smile: 





RE: DoctorJ
I wouldn't parade around telling ANYONE you're schitzophrenic, though.  Someone else may not define it the way he does or might even consider it an insult.  I think you're alright... maybe bored and dreaming up crazy shit to occupy/torment yourself with.  Easily fixed with any activity that breaks procrastination habits.  Something that gives you a sense of accomplishment and direction. 

But who knows?  maybe I'm crazy...


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Re: Doctor J [Re: blissedout]
    #5700002 - 06/01/06 03:03 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

J sounds like me, a long time ago.
Except his rants, are better than mine :flowstone:
He is cool his posts are welcomed by me
Bear with him, we always come back to the light.
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Re: Doctor J [Re: DoctorJ]
    #5700014 - 06/01/06 03:06 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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Silversoul said:
I suspect he's either bipolar or schizophrenic, probably the latter.  I hate to see it happen.  I had a friend who was schizophrenic, and it was heartbreaking to watch him slowly go deeper into madness.




wow, thanks for the vote of confidence, man :rolleyes:

you really have little faith, don't you?  You talk the talk, but can you walk the walk? 

look dude, I'm an open-minded guy.  But I keep my insanity contained within my mind. 

Craziness isn't about thought.  Its about action.  Just because I write crazy shit on an internet board, does not make me crazy. 

I don't steal, I don't commit violence, etc.  I'm just another intelligent guy, bored off his ass by mainstream society to the point where I'd rather live in a fantasy world, to the extent that I can get away with it. 

but I still pay my bills on time and socialize and work a job like everyone else. 

who are you, anyway?  the thought police?




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    #5700019 - 06/01/06 03:07 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I like his posts they are interesting and cause you to think.But only if you dont immediatly dismiss them as BS.


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    #5700067 - 06/01/06 03:20 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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I like his posts they are interesting and cause you to think.But only if you dont immediatly dismiss them as BS.



I too find many interesting insights in his posts. Being crazy doesn't mean you can't be right. In fact, if you read Terrence McKenna's Invisible Worlds, he talks about the connection between schizophrenia and shamanism. Just as I think that my psychedelic experiences have brought me some valid insights, I think that a schizophrenic may access parts of reality that we normally don't experience. The problem with schizophrenia and similar disorders is the tendency to get the different planes of reality confused, or sometimes lose touch with the physical plane and drift deeper into the psychic plane. According to Terrence McKenna, a shaman lives in both these worlds and learns to strike a balance between the two.


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    #5700134 - 06/01/06 03:37 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

thats exactly what I'm trying to do

My higher self is rushing down from above to meet me.

I think around the time I am 31, my higher self and I will be one.

After that, I don't know what happens

all I can say is: hang onto something!


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    #5700159 - 06/01/06 03:44 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Good luck dude!  :thumbup:

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    #5701014 - 06/01/06 07:27 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Doctor J. 

When everyone was critisizing me for wanting to remove my breasts (the jury's still out), you were one of the only ones who didn't immediately judge.  In fact, I think you were like, "I don't care." That meant a lot to me. 

Thanks for not caring and encouraging me to "do whatever."  :smile: 

It struck me through your posts of late that you may have recently had a death/rebirth experience, or a shock of clarity from a similar powerful experience.  Your posting style reminds me of my own six month long ordeal in which reality was pretty much hauled out from beneath my feet.  The type of thoughts you are recording here, I mean. 

So my heart goes out to you, because I know how much of a rollar-coaster it can be when your head is nowhere on Earth.  Enjoy it though, hopefully yours will stay up there.  Mine came back down once I decided to get serious about experiencing (and changing) my physical reality.  If I can get to a place where I can do both (experience total spiritual ecstasy and still manifest my mortal dreams)  I will be truly at peace. 

Anyway, thanks again.  Safe journey on your path.


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    #5701209 - 06/01/06 08:08 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Ah, yes.

kindred spirits we are.  best of luck to you with making your dreams reality. 

Oh, and I really liked your idea about reincarnating as one of the characters you've written.  Good idea :thumbup:

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    #5701215 - 06/01/06 08:09 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Seriously DoctorJ...are you OK?


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    #5701238 - 06/01/06 08:15 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

oh, I'm much more than OK :evil: :grin:


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DoctorJ is currently my favourite poster


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thanx!


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    #5701378 - 06/01/06 08:42 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Dallas can have many effects on people.


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    #5701390 - 06/01/06 08:46 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

For all the ones
Who bum me out
Shitlist
For all the ones
Who fill my head with doubt
Shitlist
For all the squares who get me pissed
Shitlist
You've made my shitlist"

maybe u shouldnt let that shit borther you bro
just handle your life and let the shit fly by. u only get filled with doubt if you arent holding onto a firm foundation.


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    #5701450 - 06/01/06 09:04 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

good advice :thumbup:


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    #5701865 - 06/01/06 10:38 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I didn't really mean anything bad, but you have just been getting more and more random in your ramblings. I think you are a pretty cool guy, but I was just wondering, you know?


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    #5702097 - 06/01/06 11:30 PM (17 years, 7 months ago)

J is just sad, and lonely, and has an "I'm better than most" perspective on life. Oh J, how you've moved up in the world, now they are creating posts all about you. You must feel very proud.

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    #5702236 - 06/02/06 12:09 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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DoctorJ said:


I've already given humanity the tools to save itself.






"A tool which cannot be used, is a tool of no use."

-Me


Yeah, I'm gunna use quotes to make points now, too!

You've definitely demonstrated its effectiveness.


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    #5702274 - 06/02/06 12:16 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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mycogirl said:


"it is what it is"






When I was 14 years old, this statement revealed itself to me and basically blew my mind...

I became an entirely different person.

I love that statement.

But naturally, I'm going to attempt "divulging" further.


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    #5702321 - 06/02/06 12:24 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Having read this entire post, and previously posting 2 replies...

I now feel compelled to state my desire to see Ewok return to the Pub and post once again.

DoctorJ is O.K.


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But like I said in one of your other posts, consider the "idea" that alot of your revolutionary "ideas" might've occured to others, too.

Then you'll realize that it's going to take more than an "idea," and begin placing importance on that "idea's" application.

That statement "applies" directly to me, by the way.


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    #5702437 - 06/02/06 12:45 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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J is just sad, and lonely, and has an "I'm better than most" perspective on life.  Oh J, how you've moved up in the world, now they are creating posts all about you.  You must feel very proud.

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You Create Your Reality..  Smoke you get cancer, Play with fire you get burned, Surround yourself around corruption become corrupt.




Ultimately, I'm stronger than corruption.  I can overpower and reform it. 

and no, I am not proud. 

I used my gifts on you to soon, dear one.

they were like a blunt instrument

now, they are precision tools

you should come check out my new skillz :wink:

better than most?  you of all people should know, If I could trade my superiority to make everyone better

I would

and have.

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    #5702538 - 06/02/06 01:18 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I think you wished you fit the Nazi image of an "Aryan man."


But you don't so you're doing this weird thing.


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    #5702986 - 06/02/06 05:49 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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DoctorJ said:
Quote:

Silversoul said:
I suspect he's either bipolar or schizophrenic, probably the latter.  I hate to see it happen.  I had a friend who was schizophrenic, and it was heartbreaking to watch him slowly go deeper into madness.




wow, thanks for the vote of confidence, man :rolleyes:

you really have little faith, don't you?  You talk the talk, but can you walk the walk? 

look dude, I'm an open-minded guy.  But I keep my insanity contained within my mind. 

Craziness isn't about thought.  Its about action.  Just because I write crazy shit on an internet board, does not make me crazy. 

I don't steal, I don't commit violence, etc.  I'm just another intelligent guy, bored off his ass by mainstream society to the point where I'd rather live in a fantasy world, to the extent that I can get away with it. 

but I still pay my bills on time and socialize and work a job like everyone else. 

who are you, anyway?  the thought police?



I think this says it all. Props man, that you can contain it, just hope it lasts.
Wish I could contain being bipolar within, without using meds.


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Re: Doctor J [Re: cybrbeast]
    #5703008 - 06/02/06 06:14 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

man, people have been trying to get me on meds for years

yuck!

mind control

My mind was once depressed, but my Higher Self took care of that

you should try to get in touch with yours

he might be able to help you!

those drugs don't work

nearly as well as the drugs they don't want you to have!


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    #5703056 - 06/02/06 07:07 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Well I thought that in the beginning. And don't get me wrong, feeling manic was great but it always went too far. It was the best feeling I'd ever had and I'm sad that probably at no point in my life I will feel as good again. It was like constant ecstasy all the time.
But after being institutionalized two times the fun isn't worth it anymore. Being thrown in an isolation cell for days, meds being forced on you, dealing with the fascist institution wardens. And at no point was I ever being violent to people, I just didn't fit into society anymore so they took me out.
And then there's always the huge depression which comes after the mania. Just entertaining the idea of death for months and not being able to function isn't what I want my life to be like.
Meds seem like a better option. But I haven't been using them that long, so I don't know if they will help against the next mania. It seems like they lifted my depression, though I can't be sure cause it could also be my natural self which did that.

I'm sure you will find your own way. I just hope for you that you don't end up in an institution or do stuff that you'll really regret later.


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    #5703062 - 06/02/06 07:14 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

in truth, depression and mania are the same

mania is your happiness

depression is other people's happiness at your expense. 

but,

you must realize that you have really deep pockets

so quit letting the expenses bother you! 

believe me, brah

I've paid some heavy expenses for other people's happiness

but one day I realized that it shouldn't bother me, because I can't ever really run out of credit

and other people's happiness is just as important as mine

to each his own, is what I'm sayin!

you have yours, they'll have theirs and I'll have mine!  And together we'll be fine!

whudju talkin bout Mr D? 

whudju talkin bout EVERYONE? 

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    #5703076 - 06/02/06 07:21 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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look dude, I'm an open-minded guy. But I keep my insanity contained within my mind.

Craziness isn't about thought. Its about action. Just because I write crazy shit on an internet board, does not make me crazy.

I don't steal, I don't commit violence, etc. I'm just another intelligent guy, bored off his ass by mainstream society to the point where I'd rather live in a fantasy world, to the extent that I can get away with it.

but I still pay my bills on time and socialize and work a job like everyone else.




:thumbup: Keep it like this! I like your posts.


Quote:

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My mind was once depressed, but my Higher Self took care of that





When was your last depression?


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    #5703091 - 06/02/06 07:28 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

'one pill make you larger
and one pill makes you small,
But the ones that mother gives you
don't do anything at all'


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    #5703096 - 06/02/06 07:32 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I don't see mania and depression the way you do. I think it's just a mind out of balance. The hopelessness of depression balances out the elation of the mania.

In a mania my brain is filled with ideas to bursting point, I get really creative and unconventional, my confidence rises, hitting on girls is no problem, I can talk for hours, I feel like I can do anything, depression feels like a stupid meaningless phase, I don't need sleep as much (could and have stayed awake for days), so much happens in a day that time seems to move much more slowly

Depression is the complete opposite. My mind is a blank, social interaction is incredibly hard, I haven't got a thing to say, I feel like I won't amount to anything, I could never be happy, mania seems like a fake joke, I'm always tired, the days flow by intertwining to a single hopeless bad day.

It feels strange knowing there is a part of me that I want to reach but can only get in a mania which then goes too far and I get delusions of grandeur and feel godlike much like you have now.


btw, your avatar rocks, X-men III was awesome (watching all the cartoons again atm)  :grin:


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    #5703180 - 06/02/06 08:05 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I see he's banned now, so my previous post is useless.
That's why there should be a banlist sticky at the top of this forum.  :grin:


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    #5703213 - 06/02/06 08:13 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I'm sure he'd like to see your post, maybe you could quote yourself and post it in OTD?


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    #5703320 - 06/02/06 08:58 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

I just really like the word elation. Species of fungus and some mosses have elaters (also known as capalletial threads[sp?]). Some words just slide off your brain like silk. That is a great description of mania and depression though.


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    #5703395 - 06/02/06 09:47 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

Yeah quote myself in OTD and be made fun of, I don't mind if that happens, but I do on really personal issues.


Thanks mycogirl.


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    #5703402 - 06/02/06 09:49 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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I'm sure he'd like to see your post, maybe you could quote yourself and post it in OTD?




PM?


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    #5703610 - 06/02/06 10:52 AM (17 years, 7 months ago)

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A bunch of people screwed me over and now I've gone insane with rage and frustration! 

WUHOOO!!!

tripout!

:rofl:

"Its only when you lose everything, that you're free to do anything."

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