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HighGuy
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After Effects of a Bad Trip
#5675670 - 05/26/06 01:24 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Today I ingested some of the crops from a recent grow. This is roughly the 7th time I have tripped. A few people came over to trip with me. Soon after ingesting I quickly began to realize how one of these people uses whoever he can to the max amount he can to get what he wants. I felt major bad vibes and I knew I was going to be in for my first bad trip. At first I thought maybe it was just some stupid shit going through my head but I found myself extremely paranoid around this kid. I went to chill for a bit and listen to some music see if that would help at all and I come back downstairs and the kid stole my pack of cigarettes. I'm a nice person, if he would have asked I would have said yes. This set me off and I kicked him out. I knew having him there would only make this experience worse. Anyways once I was alone again I was left with an extremely agonizing mental mind fuck. You know the ones where your moral fibers (can't think of a phrase, but everything you stand for / believe in) is shredded into pieces. I tried to find something to occupy me but it was hopeless these shrooms were grabbing me by the nuts straight for ego loss. I laid on the floor in writhing in agony fighting off the experience because I was in no way ready for ego loss. I'm not really sure what I ended up experiencing other than intense mind fuck. Pure pain for 3 hours, felt like a few days. I came down finally, feeling great to have returned to my body. I had to keep stretching every single muscle in it because it felt like I had been away from it for quiet a while.
Anyways. Now I am left with a radical perspective change on life. I feel disgusted to live in America. A country that is so obsessed with self-image, materialistic bullshit, etc. I feel like I want to just close up shop and go live on a mountain side or a forest away from all modern civilization and grow my own food, build a log cabin with my bare hands, and get connected to nature and a god. On the comedown I felt like I was extremely connected to whatever being created this world and all its inhabitants, and I want to find out how to feel this without mushrooms. I don't know if this even makes sense, I'm on 30 mgs of Ambien so my brain can recover from the stress today. If someone has any insight please respond. Otherwise I'll make a new post after I wake up, which hopefully won't be for a few days. 
Oh and if dosage is important, I am pretty sensitive to shrooms. Back when I first started growing I could trip off 5 grams fresh in lemon juice. Just mild visuals. Today I took 2.5 grams dry of some Brazils grown off hpoo. Two weeks ago I ate 20 grams fresh from the same batch and had a pleasant trip with no where near the mind fuck of this one. Maybe .5 is just too big of an increase for me, or perhaps I should have thought much more carefully about who I trip with.
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danlennon3
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Re: After Effects of a Bad Trip [Re: HighGuy]
#5675859 - 05/26/06 03:11 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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putting the shroom experience aside, imagine the same situation happened if you guys weren't tripping... it wouldn't have been too big of a deal.I have also been through a complete mind fuck, and its not enjoyable at all...but you shouldn't have let some punk effect your trip so much. you should have left with someone else trippin and went for a walk... Don't let this one experience ruin what you think about America, tripping or other people... just because there is one prick, doesn't mean we all are.
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Re: After Effects of a Bad Trip [Re: danlennon3]
#5676026 - 05/26/06 05:34 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Although that really sucks hardcore that your trip was turned into agonizing pain... perhaps you learnt an important lesson from it.
I find that after any experience - whether it be a shroom trip, a weekend holiday with family, a play, musical, movie, album, a girlfriend /boyfriend who you just broke up with or just got with or are still with.... any experience.. as soon as you can look at it from a unique perspective.. you can learn some huge lessons from it.
This, of course is much easier when stoned/bemushroomed/drunk/intoxicated in whatever way, because for a little while, your brain is rewired to operate in a completely different way to the norm - your soul is poisoned/enlightened and once you are back to sober - you can look back at the memories you gained from that and realize many lessons you learned. In some cases - the experience may have totally rewired your brain.
I believe it is incredibly important to always think of things from different unique perspectives, to try and gain as much knowledge as possible, to try and understand new ideas, or a familiar idea from another point of view.
Also - weird you should mention the whole hermit-style desire.... I have the same thing - but I started to feel that even before i'd started DRINKING! lol.. I get so annoied and dis-illusioned with society, people and the way things are and have a strong urge to become part of nature, grow my own everything, build my own stuff, be friends with just my animals etc.....
But then I remember.. We have to stay here. We have to try and change all this shit.
I just wish i was more motivated.
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Re: After Effects of a Bad Trip [Re: HighGuy]
#5676030 - 05/26/06 05:40 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Quote:
HighGuy said:
Anyways. Now I am left with a radical perspective change on life. I feel disgusted to live in America. A country that is so obsessed with self-image, materialistic bullshit, etc. I feel like I want to just close up shop and go live on a mountain side or a forest away from all modern civilization and grow my own food, build a log cabin with my bare hands, and get connected to nature and a god.
Sounds good to me.
Quote:
On the comedown I felt like I was extremely connected to whatever being created this world and all its inhabitants, and I want to find out how to feel this without mushrooms.
Seek and you will find.
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