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Offlineleery11
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Let's talk about social isolation.
    #5666363 - 05/23/06 08:32 PM (17 years, 8 months ago)

I'm socially isolated and it induces weird mood swings... feelings of dejection, hopelessness.... and a cold and calloused depersonalization to all people.

I am worried about comitting acts of evil. There is no desire to. I want to attain enlightenment and help all sentient beings. But I don't feel love. Or compassion. I feel empty most of the time.

So if I speak to you. I will speak nicely. I will use the right tones. But we aren't connecting. We aren't connected. There's a wall 50 ft thick between us... I carry that wall around everywhere.... and walled into myself I worry about evil.

[makes me wonder if i have a split thing going on... because sometimes i am selfless, will look you right into the eye and try to get as deep inside you as i can instead of being isolated and withdrawn... nothing is absolute it all flucuates quite a bit]

I worry that this coldness..... though never a deliberate act, but the result of sustaining some trauma from peers throughout my youth which has left me feeling like I am not a worhty person of being connected to (even have problems with making eye contact because of it and feel somehow inadequate.... furthered by my drug exploration and genuine interest in freeing myself from samsaric games).

And it's tough right.

So I mean what can I do?

If you are a person who ties me down into the mundane hellhole of television, games, sports, and movies.... I don't need your company. That's how most people are. Man the game was good. I'm not interested. Man that's a funny TV show... I'm not interested.... man that was a good movie... I'm not interested.... man I love stand up comedy.... I'm not interested.....

Is this just because I'm cold and cynical? Would these people no matter where they exist on the stairway to heaven still pose significant interactions with me if I tried?

I don't try. I stopped trying when I was forced into isolation... into withdrawal.... but that was in damned middle school. Will I stay this way?

Even now the people I meet they interact with me... generally I don't try.

I've never had a full girlfriend or even been kissed.

And so I build a wall around my sexual desires and label them as attachment, hinderance, defilement..... and I say "you don't need it... you need to just cultivate spiritually" and that may be true.... but I want it. I crave it.

I sickly crave it. I'm not even sure what it is I'm craving. Because no amount of masturbation feels good unless I go a week without and do it really slowly or I'm stoned......... I crave connection more than fleshy pleasure... connection I was systematically deprived of during a semi-relationship with a girl who wouldn't let me hold her hand because it could lead to comitting sin.

And sin.

God doesn't want me to care about SIN! He wants me to focus on what is good to do, not what is bad. But the fear of hell is in me. The guilt is in me. It's bullshit. God is a good guy if he exists... he wants me to be free.... and I'm sure he'd work with me...... there is no reason to feel condemned beyond salvation.

It's just part of my self loathing isn't it?

So what can I do? Because I have asked 3 girls out (which is a substantial improvement from 6 years of asking ZERO girls out) and nothing has come of it except for one instance where it would have worked but she is just not my type. Too caught up in games..... nice to hang out with but I dunno.

So now I have a new prospect. A girl into Be Here Now. Waking Life. Ram Dass. Celestine Prophecy. Smart. Attractive. And do you guys know what I'm doing?

I'm sitting here checking my messages at least 10 times today.... and seeing if she's online. And I'm ATTACHED I am projecting all my pain into her thinking she will fix it and all she's even done is exchange a good conversation wtih me through text.

And this is not RIGHT!!! I CANNOT BE THIS WAY! She is the absolute what I am looking for for a life partner or even just someone to talk to about these things that I like talking about. But how can that work if I'm a lazy fearful and broken sort of leech or parasite or whatever it is.

I am so capable of love. Of being healthy. But I keep sabotaging my health. I sabotage my self-confidence.... somehow the only way for me to get what I want is to hurt myself and have others take pity.

It started because of that first girl. I made suicide attempts because I wanted her to see my wrists and be so sad that she would just hold me and comfort me.... because she wouldn't hold me. She wouldn't let me hold her.

It was so stupid. So wrong. But it was the only thing I knew to do.

Now it's getting too high or too drunk... freaking out and calling friends and freaking them out...... having bad trips and furthering depersonalization.

I had a good relationship with drugs... I used them okay. But somehow I just used them too much.

I don't know.

And so now it's self punishment. I'm a glutonous slob with bad karma from not ever having to work for anything I have in my life. So I have to push myself real hard through exercise (which is what I want to do, but is not what I do) in order to make it through "hell" so that I can somehow be "worthy" of living......

or I have to go join a monastery immediately and live a life of renunciation..... or I have to flee America because Christians say we are in the end times and America = Bablyon.

I have to do everything but BE HAPPY WHERE I AM NOW! I have to run away don't I?

It's a mess and anything I say is it even true? Does any of this apply to me ? Like I mean. Am I accurately analyzing myself? Or is this part of being down on me?

I'm a completely normal person if I let myself be. But I am roadblocked by sadness and loneliness and bad habits and who knows what.

and I mean. That girl was online. She didn't respond to my message. Now she is gone. I look for these sorts of things sometimes you know? Because I think..... well I'm sure she'll respond eventually. Who knows maybe she didn't have time to say what she wanted to say.

It's so good because we just talked. It was only like 3 messages. But I just said all the things I want to say to people about my views on the world but can't because they won't understand. But she did... she has the same views. So I just have this picture in my head like "she's the one... she is an equal that will help me make sense of this existence that is so confusing and we can both move out of this reality together onto higher levels of consciousness."

and she is.

but maybe she isn't.

she's that type of person. she said to me that it's very important to raise everyone's levels of consciousness and wake them up. I agree completely.

so she's the type of person I'm looking for.

Butahhhhhhhhfufufufufck!

There is nothing to do but be myself. This is myself. But myself is broken.

Nothing I am saying is true or false and I dunno.


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I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo!

....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human......
Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!


Edited by leery11 (05/23/06 08:33 PM)


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: leery11]
    #5666885 - 05/23/06 10:59 PM (17 years, 8 months ago)



Edited by StickyWater (04/29/08 01:22 PM)


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: leery11] * 1
    #5667552 - 05/24/06 02:55 AM (17 years, 8 months ago)

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Leery11 said:

I am so capable of love. Of being healthy. But I keep sabotaging my health. I sabotage my self-confidence....




Indeed you are capable of much love and being healthy and indeed you are being sabotaged blind. I was reading through all of this just listening to your self talk. Some insight into your saboteur, listen to this plasmic piece of slime  Leery-


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leery11 said:
I'm socially isolated

I am worried about committing acts of evil.

I am not a worthy person of being connected to

I don't need your company.

I'm not interested.

I'm not interested

I'm not interested

I'm not interested.....

I'm cold and cynical

I don't try.

I don't try.

I'm a lazy fearful and broken sort of leech or parasite.

I'm a glutonous slob with bad karma

I am roadblocked by sadness and loneliness and bad habits and who knows what.






You are not a leach parasite, however, it's pretty obvious, your earlier experiences did break you and leave you in fear and a parasitic entity slipped in that has been leeching the life force off of you and out of you.

You can starve that parasite off. The way to do that is to start becoming mindful and vigilant of your mental self talk.

All that self negating nonsense above is the parasite talking. You are the one saying the positive things. It is sabatoging all of it. 

Only you determine who and what you are. Only YOU are in control of your own mind. Apparently, you decided to give your power of control away over to that mental parasite. Take it back.

The phrase "I AM" is a very powerful and commanding statement regarding the laws of creation.

Energy flows where attention goes.

When you catch self negating thoughts running through your mind, stop them dead in their tracks.

CHANGE them to the positive self affirmative.

That list would then look and sound  like-


I am enjoying meaningful social connections with many diverse people.

I am confident of my ability to make safe choices in the spirit of good will for all and myself.

I am a worthy person of being connected to others and giving of myself.

I would enjoy your company.

I'm interested.

I'm interested

I'm interested

I'm interested.....

I'm warm and optimistic

I can do.

I can do.

I'm a vital, empowered remembered divine being.

I'm a disciplined person who takes action, knowing all positive thoughts and actions, as cause, lead to positive effects. 

I am open to joy and connecting with others and I am maintaining good habits to support my general good well being.

:thumbup: :thumbup: :thumbup: :thumbup:

:yesnod:


That's what I think the person leery would be saying if you gave yourself control of your own mind back. For as long as you let that life sucking parasite have its way with you, what else can you expect from life?

If there is an ounce of anger in you over the amount of time and life you have lost, use that anger to get determined to get control of your own mind and life back. Tell it to hit the road Jack, cuz Leerys back in town and he's not having any of that crap.

The parasite gets the boot :bigolboot:

One last thing to consider-

Our emotional pain and suffering, is simply, love that was withheld from the self and others.

Where there is unconditional love and acceptance shown for the self and others, there is no fear.

Where there is unconditional love and acceptance shown for the self and others, there is only wholeness.

Where there is nothing broken, and where there is no fear, there is no home for a parasite to dwell in.

Stick it in a proverbial envelope and stamp RETURN TO SENDER on it and send it back to hell Fed Ex.

Every day and moment is fresh and pure for you to make new choices with. Choices are the causes that bring about the effects we experience in life. The power to be and do is all yours through the freedom of choice and what you will for yourself.

:peace: :heart:


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: gettinjiggywithit]
    #5668131 - 05/24/06 10:32 AM (17 years, 8 months ago)

gettinjiggy that was probably the best post Ive read in my life


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: beltane]
    #5668204 - 05/24/06 10:57 AM (17 years, 8 months ago)

thanks jiggy.

i don't feel like i can though. I know I can. I just don't feel like I can. I think I can if something falls into play right. Like maybe I would go run away and go some random new place to start afresh for a few days...

You're dead on that this pain is love witheld. It's just. I don't seem to understand how to get things how I want them. I.e. how to have connections to other wonderful people. Because as much as I do not want to damn myself by saying this, it seems like when I try to it often just doesn't really work out.

I feel like I need a girlfriend so that I can repair this damage and validate my self worth. I feel like I would be needy though.

I feel many things, and that is the problem. I feel like saying to hell with it and joining a monastery.


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I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo!

....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human......
Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: leery11]
    #5668994 - 05/24/06 02:41 PM (17 years, 8 months ago)

Get an animal dude...A dog, a cat, an exotic bird...You can direct your love into that. It helped me alot during the last couple years, though when I had to leave her behind, it made me feel worse, but it was a good memory and a good aspiration of somthing which I know I will want to have latter in my life. Keep that perspective in mind...You most certaintly will not remain in this state forever and ruining your life now with evil acts is not an option.

I guess this might not be a pragmatic answer if your not capable of supporting a pet. I am a socially isolated person, but I do not dwell into believing that it is what defines me...Far from it actually. We are all capable of connection, some withhold this from others because they feel like their vulnrable by bringing somone into their circle of friends or whatever. People hate to disrupt their perfect comfort if it means they might have to sacrifice a bit of their precious time to share them selves just a bit. Thats fucking selfish if you ask me. People are too quick to judge eachother by superficial standards, its all too adult, too formulated, too restrictive for growth. BUT, it seems as if this isnt the problem, your the problem because you say your just not interested. Well, this is very contradictory, if your upset about not having more connection, but with standing from them because of your personal strongholds. I think we become comfortable with our behavior, most times beause were not aware of them, well you are aware of them...so thats the first step towards changing them right. You need to break down that wall your focusing on, sure were all seperated and different, we all have our strings of attachment, but not everyone is afraid of meeting new people and seeking freindship. You've got a major perception, attitude crisis going on and it needs to change before you really become isolated.

Start thinking of what you can contribute into other peoples lives, instead of this expectation your trying to fufill in yourself. It sounds very egotistical to think your thoughts are more important then theirs, even if they are superficial or trivial. This is relationships, we deal with the clutter to build the core. No one will ever meet your ideal expectations, so dont force them too. If your really effected this much by society and things the way they are, then you'll have to make a change, but its not such a somber place if we dont let it be. Dont be afraid of being different or seperated from the popular class, stand strong for your ideals. You cant control others, but can control yourself and in that way show the world a different side of things.


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: leery11]
    #5669055 - 05/24/06 03:05 PM (17 years, 8 months ago)

Thanks Beltane.

Leery, I understand that now you feel lazy and discouraged.

The feelings won't begin to change until the thoughts change and STICK.

And when the feelings begin to change as the result of the changing thoughts, they will serve as the motivation to start changing the course of your actions.

Monitoring your thoughts, cutting off negative self talk and changing to the positive self affirmation takes Zero physical exertion. It can be done while feeling lazy and discouraged.

At first you will probably be saying the positive affirmations to replace them with the impact of a dud and you'll probably miss catching many at first. That's fine. Everyday, as it starts to becomes a new habit, you'll start catching more and more and you'll start saying the new positive affirmations with more CONVICTION and more emotional impact put behind them.

Thats when the magic will begin to happen. Don't worry now about or think about the monumental task it feels like to you to change feelings and actions. It is a monumental and near impossible task until the thoughts start to change and stick. Once you do the thought work, the rest takes care of itself.

Thats all there is to do now. Listen to your thoughts like an objective observer of them. Become your own thought coach. Retrain your thinking patterns.

Energy flows where attention goes. Right now, your positive thoughts and the e-motion (energy in motion) are being run down the toilet by the negative ones that sabotage them. Thats where the discouragement and lazy feeling is coming from. NO energy to work with.

Experiment right now sitting in your chair to see how easy it is to change a thought. You obviously have loads of energy to think thoughts with. You type a lot of thoughts here. You're not brain dead yet at all, far from it.

So now, you are perhaps thinking  things like, Its of no use, I can't do it, I Dunno what to do. Say, "My life is of great use to myself and others. I can use it well. I know what to do."

Even if you don't believe it now, or feel it true, just say it to yourself anyway. Especially say the ones you don't yet beleive. Those are the ones that need the changing.

This needing a girl friend thing is just about finding another for your mental parasite to leech more energy from to make you think you will have more energy then to make positive change with. Until you start changing your thoughts, all of the energy drawn from her love, care and kindness will go straight down the toilet as well.

believe me, she will feel the drain of being around you and it wouldn't last long anyway until you change your thoughts to become a confident energy dynamic people will love being around. 

Right now, you have to be your own best friend. Talk to yourself about yourself the way you would a best friend who is very supportive of you to talk to you.

You don't need the attention of a girlfriend right now leery. If you "need" anything, its to start paying more attention to your own self and the place to start is with the thoughts. It all begins there.

Why bother joining a monastery? If you are already living celibate in social isolation, you are already living in a self imposed one.

Karma being something fixed is a misnomer. You don't have to be bound to any fate.

In another post , you said there may be some things wrong with Buddhism. That teaching is one of the places where that religion/philosophy was tainted by Oppressive energies.

The true law of the universe is Cause and Effect. You can  break any chain of cause and effect by simply, making new choices for yourself. That new choices (to think differently) will break the karmic chain effects. A new choice acts as new cause and starts a new chain reaction.

The only thing punishing you right now is your own thoughts. The only one ultimately in control of your thoughts is YOU. The lazy feeling you keeps giving that power of control away to the parasite. Right now, see how it takes no energy to change a thought around.

You are the Captain of your Ship and you let a mutiny take you over when you feel off guard "paying attention to your self sabateuring thoughts" and putting a stop to them before they took and continue to take you over. You are Captain. Your word is Law on your ship. Start exercising the power of your self position again. Let the mutants know you mean business, and send them all for a walk off the plank.

When you catch a negative self thought, tell it to go take a walk off the plank and replace the crews position with a positive self affirmative.

We can turn any direction we are currently headed in around to anywhere we want it to go, with NEW thought choices.

Keep reaffirming the new ones, Until you start to feel like you believe them. That when the emotions you feel will start to change and thats when you feel the energy to start changing actions.

Don't overwhelm yourself with it all at first. Just apply paying attention to the thoughts and  thought changes for now. The rest will naturally follow all on its own.

Changing thoughts is as simple as dropping a seed. Just let go and let it fall into your mind. Think of your mind like a garden the monk in you is assigned to cultivate. Weeds (negative thoughts) are popping up like corn right now and are self propagating new ones because you let them grow. The original seeds were planted by all of the people who effected you in Jr High and probably before that.

Start yanking the weeds by the roots so they will no longer propegate and get out of control again. Dwelling in the emotional feelings of those thought weeds is like giving them food, water and sunlight to grow in. Emotions are energy that give them life.

Start planting new seeds with new thoughts. Every beautiful positive thought you have of yourself is like dropping a new seed that can bloom in your life. Nurture their growth by allowing yourself to feel warm and good in thinking about them as if they are to come to be so. Every morning , noon and night, say allowed, "I LOVE myself and I love life" and follow with a smile and let yourself feel how good that feels to say.

Keep yanking the weeds so they do not strangle, and suck up all the water, food and light for the new healthy plants.

Not only is it easy to think and say positive things about yourself (even if you don't believe them yet) It's fun and enjoyable. Do it until you are laughing. Make it a new silly fun habit. I guarantee the positive new changes will sneak up on you and take a new hold in your life JUST like the negative ones did.

Your being re-minded of how all of this works now. If you ignore it, you'll be reminded again after you die. And then you will be saying, "Man, I wasted my whole life." I could;ve been experiencing this, and enjoying that, and making this good and that good happen and what did I do? I sat around feeling sorry for myself."

And guess what? You'll want to come back believing, you will be able to remember better how it works the next time. You'll want to realize your divinity in the physical, we all do, its why we are here. This is the place to make the dream come true, real, realized.

THAT is this life right now Leery. Re-member yourself and why you came here. It wasn't to wallow in what you are now.

Read my sig. In the end, which one will you have been?

:japsmile:

:peace: :heart:


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: WIZOLZ]
    #5669076 - 05/24/06 03:09 PM (17 years, 8 months ago)

may i suggest a few books?

in this order even:
Solitude : A Return to the Self
Party of One: The Loners' Manifesto
The Four Agreements: A Toltec Wisdom Book

and to wrap it up nicely,
The Bhagavad Gita by Eknath Easwaran

if anything, understand the things you DO enjoy, and embrace them.  just because you don't find joy in television, movies, sports, etc. doesn't mean there's something wrong with you.  It's unfortunate, but it's just a huge game; if you don't want to play, you don't have to.

I'd also like to add that having animals is cool (I love animals) but you have to understand the affection of a dog or cat is in many ways artificial.  You supply food and act as the parent to an animal, so it respects and loves you.  Replacing human interaction with animals might keep you from facing a problem, but that's all it would do.  Just think of that cat lady down the street.  You know who I'm talking about.


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Edited by kotik (05/24/06 03:13 PM)


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: kotik]
    #5669380 - 05/24/06 04:44 PM (17 years, 8 months ago)

jiggy where did i say there is something wrong with Buddhism? It's a fairly solid guideline for living.

anyway you are right about the garden, and about affirmation. I think what happens is I feel a bad emotion and then I get stuck in it and so I make up thoughts to explain it .... but these thoughts are not things I'm capable of doing ... like "oh I would just like to have a nice girl to hug me and cuddle with then it would stop hurting" well of course it would, but in thinking that it hurts worse because then girl and pain are lumped together and I cannot meet that need right now.

But I will tell you, it IS a need. I want to have sex. I want to fornicate. I want to be in love. And I want to be in love and have sex. And I am not capable of denying these truths. In fact it's part of being a healthy human UNLESS you choose to transcend being human and strive for immediate divinity.

And I want to join the moanstery because I feel like living this kind of life where you just work a job, get a wife, have kids, work a job, die, and never cultivate spiritually (probably hell bound I would wager?) is terrible. I think this American way of living is nothing but a fun suicide into a hell/hungry-ghost realm, because we have everything we need, and we take too much of it.... and we don't give it back to those who have nothing at all. We feast on living beings just for enjoyment... not for survival.... we enjoy eating tons of hamburgers and steaks.

We don't do hardly anything to make the world better.... we're a cancer and we rape the planet of its resources, and pollute it..... and we are polluted from wallowing around in our own wastes... our cellphones are beaming radiation into our heads.... there is fluoride in our water destroying our pineal glands..... we are forbidden to taste of the fruit of temporary release (psychedelics) ..... we are conditioned to have a disdain for nature and animals and encouraged to dominate and make them suffer.

We are supporting many wars. We are supporting wars even on our own people. We are a race of spoiled demi-gods and I cannot see this path going upward unless you break out of it and go somewhere else on your own.

This is why I feel a calling to join a moanstery..... but this decision is not made out of spiritual peace.... saying "ah there is such greatness to be found in the world that I must go and cultivate it nonstop" not it's just made out of me recoiling in horror at the cold deathly ways of American living and wanting a solution.

I kind of want to go back to using drugs, too.

I also do not think I would be a parasite to a girl I had. I fear I will be a parasite. I also fear I will be reincarnated as my dog.

I have learned enough to know just how to NOT be like that... and I don't think I would be. I fear I would be. That means there is a possibility. But I do have much to contribute..... I'm all up in my head... if I found someone all down in her body... we would fit together nicely as a dynamic.
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WIZOLZ said:

Start thinking of what you can contribute into other peoples lives, instead of this expectation your trying to fufill in yourself. It sounds very egotistical to think your thoughts are more important then theirs, even if they are superficial or trivial. This is relationships, we deal with the clutter to build the core. No one will ever meet your ideal expectations, so dont force them too. If your really effected this much by society and things the way they are, then you'll have to make a change, but its not such a somber place if we dont let it be. Dont be afraid of being different or seperated from the popular class, stand strong for your ideals. You cant control others, but can control yourself and in that way show the world a different side of things.



yeah that's true.

I can't really get an animal right now. I would like to have one and it's a possibility in the future. I have pets at my parents though.


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I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo!

....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human......
Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!


Edited by leery11 (05/24/06 04:49 PM)


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: leery11]
    #5669431 - 05/24/06 05:03 PM (17 years, 8 months ago)

it sounds like your interest in going to a monastery are based on your own fears and wishes of isolation as opposed to spiritual insight


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Re: Let's talk about social isolation. [Re: kotik]
    #5669565 - 05/24/06 05:52 PM (17 years, 8 months ago)

jiggy thank you for reminding me of the power of intention.

i did some apartment cleaning while using positive affirmations and i feel better about the issues i'm facing.


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I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo!

....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human......
Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!


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