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GringoLoco
I spit in theface of peoplewho ain't cool.


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Boooo
#5657073 - 05/21/06 04:38 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I basically gave up on school, failed all my classes and don't care because I'm not going back. Now I've been out for 2 weeks and my willpower is sapped. Most days I get up, watch Star Trek reruns or whatever, browse the net, and eat all day. I can't even get fat because of my metabolism. I don't even have the attention span to read a book or play a video game. Yesterday I noticed my muffler is basically fallen to shreds, I didn't even notice it for all those months. Living off my savings, I owe my parents money for wasting my college experience. More than a little bitter that this is supposed to be the best time of my life but nobody wanted to be my friend. My hair is long and flys out everywhere like a Jewfro, and I'm too scared/cheap to go get it cut. Ditto on shaving, I look like Chong. Last night I had a dream I met a beautiful girl, we were in bliss. Then I woke up, and realized my sad existence. Wanted to get drunk today, but now I'm sleepy as hell, I think my mind hates this life and wants to go back to that dream world.
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eligal
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Registered: 05/25/05
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Loc: California
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Sounds like a job would do you good, let you get out of the house, make some money, meet some people, and give ya a reason to shave.  Maybe joining some kind of sports gym like a boxing gym or something could be good. you obviously have alot of time you could be dedicating to something like that.
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GringoLoco
I spit in theface of peoplewho ain't cool.


Registered: 10/08/01
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Re: Boooo [Re: eligal]
#5657332 - 05/21/06 05:36 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I agree, problem is that I've always had problems finding a job. Something about going up to people and asking if I can work there intimidates me. Last time I had a job it wasn't even work. I stayed in a trailer all day and watched movies. I'm spoiled.
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eligal
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Then I guess youve found a challenge for you to over come havent you
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SneezingPenis
ACHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!111!

Registered: 01/15/05
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GringoLoco said: I basically gave up on school, failed all my classes and don't care because I'm not going back. Now I've been out for 2 weeks and my willpower is sapped. Most days I get up, watch Star Trek reruns or whatever, browse the net, and eat all day. I can't even get fat because of my metabolism. I don't even have the attention span to read a book or play a video game. Yesterday I noticed my muffler is basically fallen to shreds, I didn't even notice it for all those months. Living off my savings, I owe my parents money for wasting my college experience. More than a little bitter that this is supposed to be the best time of my life but nobody wanted to be my friend. My hair is long and flys out everywhere like a Jewfro, and I'm too scared/cheap to go get it cut. Ditto on shaving, I look like Chong. Last night I had a dream I met a beautiful girl, we were in bliss. Then I woke up, and realized my sad existence. Wanted to get drunk today, but now I'm sleepy as hell, I think my mind hates this life and wants to go back to that dream world.
So, whenever someone finally does agree with how pathetic you perceive your life to be, what then? is it going to help justify your complete lack of responsibility? Sounds to me like you have no rational bitch about your life, yet feel the need to use inanimate and external factors as a justification or disguise for your lack of happiness. Happiness and exhiliration for life isn't a default position, you are entitled to the pursuit of such, yet the only thing that seems to give you an ounce of pleasure is how big you can make the puddle of self-pity for you to wallow in.
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GringoLoco
I spit in theface of peoplewho ain't cool.


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No rational bitch? I flunked out of college and failed my parents expectations. That's a start. Now I'm stuck in a dead end town that offers nothing to those not in the college. Now I'm feeling shut in. I can't even keep it together long enough to hold a conversation with someone. The other day I kept having to ask people to repeat themselves, like their words were spoken in a vacuum. I'm too depressed to even go to the doctor.
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BloodNOil
Captain Zeep

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What's the point of this post? Why did you fail college? What's going on in your life? Who did you have to ask to repeat themselves? Fill us in on the whole situation before you fill up the thread with whining. Whining doesn't do any good. If you want help, you'll have to be proactive.
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HeavyToilet
The Heaviest OfThem All


Registered: 08/06/03
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Loc: British Columbia
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I'll make it short and sweet:
Get a haircut and get a job, hippy.
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SneezingPenis
ACHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!111!

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GringoLoco said: No rational bitch? I flunked out of college and failed my parents expectations. That's a start. Now I'm stuck in a dead end town that offers nothing to those not in the college. Now I'm feeling shut in. I can't even keep it together long enough to hold a conversation with someone. The other day I kept having to ask people to repeat themselves, like their words were spoken in a vacuum. I'm too depressed to even go to the doctor.
I don't feel the need to say much to you..... and I hope that you get this, and have a nice cathartic realization, so here are some pictures.
I suggest you watch the movie "Hotel Rwanda", or maybe do some research on the current affairs of Darfur. Then start to compare your "really intense, and utterly depressing and seemingly unfair state of being" to the rest of the non-self-obsessed people, who are either too busy finding enough food to survive to sit in self-pity and loathing, or find the few charitable moments of peace and relaxation that they get in life are too precious to be wasted fretting about how "unfair life is".
Wow man..... your parents are angry at you..... how do you go on living? how do you do it? where do you find the strength to go on struggling in such unrewarding, vile, difficult and overwhelming times?
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cybrbeast
Up, then down, then...



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psilo, that's a bit over the top. Sure it sometimes helps to see that other people have it worse and are suffering more. But that doesn't mean your own depression isn't valid. Depression is not something that you can just turn off.
Gringo, I think getting a job and a haircut is a good idea. Also you might want to consider moving to another town. Maybe being in another place which doesn't have associations with the rotten things that happened in your town. Might give you a fresh outlook on life, might not. Is this the first time you've been depressed?
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SneezingPenis
ACHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!111!

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yeah cybr, I forgot that the #1 cure for depression is telling people they are helpless to it and that nothing is their fault..... its been working for years....
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Rambel
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cybrbeast said: Gringo, I think getting a job and a haircut is a good idea. Also you might want to consider moving to another town. Maybe being in another place which doesn't have associations with the rotten things that happened in your town. Might give you a fresh outlook on life, might not. Is this the first time you've been depressed?
I think that is good advice! I definately recommend moving to another town! If you were only there to go to college, and you no longer attend classes, being in that town is just going to be a constant reminder of your failure. It sounds like it is time to move on to the next phase whatever it may be. Sitting in neutral can bring down even the happiest of spirits. Good luck.
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kotik
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Re: Boooo [Re: Rambel]
#5664633 - 05/23/06 01:54 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I flunked out of college and failed my parents expectations.
did you fail because you watched star trek reruns all day, ate and etc.? was it because of your short attention span? If you failed because you "gave up," then your problem is you give up to easy. If you failed although giving it your honest effort, then perhaps school just isn't for you.
but sounds like you need to do something productive or else you will just keep feeding your own mindstate its own pitiful excrement.
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ZippoZ
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Re: Boooo [Re: kotik]
#5665395 - 05/23/06 04:25 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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you need to get motivated. cancel your cable and internet, and leave yourself no other option if you have to.
get a job, and get some $$ and realise how much its going to suck working at mcdonalds for the ret of your life, then get back in school
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zippoz "in times of widespread chaos and confusion, it has been the duty of more advanced human beings - artists, scientists, clowns, and philosophers - to create order. In such times as ours however, when there is too much order, too much m management, too much programming and control, it becomes the duty of superior men and women and women to fling their favorite monkey wrenches into the machinery. To relieve the repression of the human spirit, they must sow doubt and disruption" "People do it every day, they talk to themselves ... they see themselves as they'd like to be, they don't have the courage you have, to just run with it."
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