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schmutzen
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It All Comes Out in the Wash
#5652702 - 05/20/06 09:16 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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DPT 100 mgs via IM 4-6 hours
I had a good sit with my grandfather (who has been gone for 13 years) and he told many stories that would often run in circles, I think his point was something like 'whatever you're looking for, its right in front of you'.
I'm not terminally ill but i have a disease with no cure that makes day-to-day existence seem not worth it most of the time. I was allowed to go back to times before this curse. For a few hours i got to feel what its like to live without chronic pain, and it was magic.
There was a bit of strange happenings, it had been cloudy for the last three weeks, during this time our cable went out and I began reading 'Sometimes a Great Notion' by Ken Kesey. The previous day I had almost been struck by lighting, without Jon Stewart to tell me what's going on in the world i don't even bother with Sunday night Fox, but anways at one point, the South window light up like someone turned a light on (outside) at about 3am. So after a little hesitation I stumble out to the porch, and there it is, the Moon. First time I'd seen the old guy in three weeks. I felt pretty turned on myself.
Reminds me of a dream; my wife’s family and I are all riding on this small slab of limestone buzzing through trees and buildings, as long as we all believe and trust the stone it works, but sometimes you feel a little doubt and trees glimmer and hold for a moment.
I think it lasted a solid four hours, which I listened to Dick's Picks 35 or 8/7/71 and 8/24/71 by candlelight on the couch. My visuals consisted of being at the show, right up front with Pigpen. In one part of a song, the band harnesses this source energy, its not pure but laced with tradegy and the potential to become.... motivation in its purest form. I could see where every emotion originated. Love, money, adventure, etc. I could see the hallway that leads straight to the heart. I fluttered and clasped around in this jet stream. No matter what bright ugly morning attitude I cast upon it, I would just get warmer and happier.
At one point I captured the muse/geny/soul of myself. And since it had never been caught before and it didn't know what to do, it offered me a wish. Being with good spirits at the time, i decide 'hey, you know what? that wish is yours man, i wish to set you free.'
So basically, does this help a person heal? Does it do good for the Earth? Would I repeat this route and dosage? Sure would, it didn't do me wrong. It was glorious.
Looks like I found the little bit of courage necessary to go on; out of the frying pan and back into the fire. Let your Love flow to where it does the most good 
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"Blow up your TV, throw away your paper. Go to the country, build you a home."
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CptnGarden
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Re: It All Comes Out in the Wash [Re: schmutzen]
#5653659 - 05/20/06 03:24 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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beautiful. glad you enjoyed your journey. was worried abit when i saw your other thread before you did it. but it seemed like you were fairly good in preparations of the event. needles are a serious thing and im glad to see a shroomerite using well earned respect for them and their ability to take us to further realms.
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schmutzen
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Re: It All Comes Out in the Wash [Re: CptnGarden]
#5659383 - 05/22/06 08:02 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Thank you. It was my first time with a needle but it seemed like the most logical choice because I had previously tried snooting 30mgs. The burn/pain was too much for me, oral seemed too inconsistent and I probably will try the freebase at some point this summer.
It was a good lesson, one I don't think is necessary more than once or twice a year. I'm still blooming with ideas and revealations. That jet-stream of motivation, its with us all the time and when we use it for good it comes back
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"Blow up your TV, throw away your paper. Go to the country, build you a home."
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