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BleaK
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i feel like i shouldnt write this.
#5652090 - 05/20/06 01:02 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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i also feel like i should. i am confused. it is hard to articulate. i dont understand it in my own head. but i have to do it. i am it. i am confused. its happening to me and i am reacting to it. what am i suposed to do? what is the point? why can i ask questions that no one can answer?
why do i feel joy? is joy meaning?
where is my motivation? why should i strive to die later rather than sooner? why do i have to die? what the fuck happens when i die?
where do i find solace?
please dont ever put this torment on another life. sterilze yourself. kill yourself. enjoy yourself. just please dont make any more of this.
-------------------- "You cannot trust in law, unless you can trust in people. If you can trust in people, you don't need law." -J. Mumma
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652095 - 05/20/06 01:05 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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You are a window for the universe to see itself.
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BleaK
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the universe doesnt need to see itself. the unviverse doesnt need to exist.
further i dont see how it could exist in any rational way.
-------------------- "You cannot trust in law, unless you can trust in people. If you can trust in people, you don't need law." -J. Mumma
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652111 - 05/20/06 01:12 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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How do you know that? Maybe our experience is the only data it can get... we are all just pawns if that is true.
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BleaK
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i thought of it.
-------------------- "You cannot trust in law, unless you can trust in people. If you can trust in people, you don't need law." -J. Mumma
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652118 - 05/20/06 01:13 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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But you did, but you did, but you did.... And I thank you.... 
You ask questions because you can.... You feel emotions because you do.... You give meaning to what you choose to....
You have to die because you have to live.... And you live because it is the only thing worth dying for....
>^;;^<
-------------------- I'll be your midnight French Fry.... "The most important things in life that are often ignored, are the things that one cannot see...." >^;;^<
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: PhanTomCat]
#5652122 - 05/20/06 01:16 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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explain why i have to live. explain why i need worth. explain causality. explain linear time in the context of infinity.
-------------------- "You cannot trust in law, unless you can trust in people. If you can trust in people, you don't need law." -J. Mumma
Edited by BleaK (05/20/06 01:18 AM)
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: PhanTomCat]
#5652124 - 05/20/06 01:17 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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this is a good dream
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BleaK
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: palmersc]
#5652128 - 05/20/06 01:19 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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oh yea and explain infinity and duality. and.. how all of these things are related
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652131 - 05/20/06 01:20 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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it's all a joke
i think hmmmmmmmmmm
the question I am unable to articulate its answer
language
I feel you
Edited by palmersc (05/20/06 01:25 AM)
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BleaK
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: palmersc]
#5652134 - 05/20/06 01:22 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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explain humor and how it fits into awareness. explain awareness also.
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652139 - 05/20/06 01:27 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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explain humor
haaaaaaaa haha heee heee haaaa haahahahah heheheheh jejejejjejejeje
its all the same game
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: palmersc]
#5652145 - 05/20/06 01:29 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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im still confused.
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652155 - 05/20/06 01:35 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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its like a thirst
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BleaK
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: palmersc]
#5652162 - 05/20/06 01:41 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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what is?
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lIllIIIllIlIIlIlIIllIllIIl
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652170 - 05/20/06 01:47 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I'll tell you all you need to know, but first you have to answer me one question.
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BleaK
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okay.
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lIllIIIllIlIIlIlIIllIllIIl
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652190 - 05/20/06 02:04 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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K, just a sec.
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BleaK
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its been more than a second...
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652214 - 05/20/06 02:19 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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It's almost impossible to find a perfect mate. What do you most look for in a partner?
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BleaK
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beyond infatuation? understanding
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lIllIIIllIlIIlIlIIllIllIIl
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652220 - 05/20/06 02:22 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Purity?
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BleaK
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you said one question
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lIllIIIllIlIIlIlIIllIllIIl
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652222 - 05/20/06 02:26 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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So, above all else, you want someone that understands you? I'm just trying to clarify.
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BleaK
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this whole post is about how i dont really know what i want because i dont understand reality, or myself. so i dont really think my first answer holds up. maybe just the infatuation part. im really tired and about to go to sleep.
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652234 - 05/20/06 02:32 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I think that the whole point is to procreate, that's what we're programmed for, right? So I think you need to find a chick that understands you and procreate... that is if you want to follow what you're programmed to do.
3 billion years of sex can't be wrong, can it?

That answer your questions???
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re-read the last few lines of my original post and then eat some shit and die.
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652241 - 05/20/06 02:37 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I know, you said you don't want to procreate. 
My answer is unsatisfactory to you??? Well have a good sleep.
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i havent read a thing about what (most) of you all typing. <---1
*Most of what people have to say about life is pretty dull and uninteresting, so some might say the same for me*
but if you really wanna make things good, "fill that void". what ever it is you dont understand. then just do what i say, shut up. shut up and be friends with everyone. because once you truely don't feel joy and feel misery, you'll learn to appreciate what you once had. and once you reflect on appreciating what you are appreciating you once had, you'll know; that you were the fool who crossed over the edge. and whats off that edge, you dont wanna know. you really don't.
and on that note. dont be like me either, when it comes to philosophy. im mostly right. (dont take what i say as in "Im" as in me as a person, but me as what ive found to be true and saying). trust me, by the time you've fried your mind, you wont know how to explain it.
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#5652353 - 05/20/06 05:21 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: soulcircus]
#5652358 - 05/20/06 05:25 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Have you ever been to africa or south america? Traveling and getting out of your "element" can have a great effect on you. Make it a posative one and its yours
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652570 - 05/20/06 08:18 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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what am i suposed to do?
What you are doing.
what is the point?
Divided..
why can i ask questions that no one can answer?
Because no-one can answer everything? (BTW I use "ingen" as Irc Nick)
why do i feel joy?
If you feel joy, then joy is what you are projecting...
is joy meaning?
"joy is a meaning"
where is my motivation?
In acting it out..
why should i strive to die later rather than sooner?
We die ever day.. why strive?
why do i have to die?
Going deceased is of dis·ease!? ..
Having to, is a choice.. (when) !?
what the fuck happens when i die?
when your skin cells die.. you scratch..
where do i find solace?
In creating the opposite [as well as] ..
please dont ever put this torment on another life. sterilze yourself. kill yourself. enjoy yourself. just please dont make any more of this.
I kind of agree.. Do not make one, before you can SHOW it what it is... And can sustain it in a "HEALTHY/RICH/WHOLE" manner/way..

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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652584 - 05/20/06 08:26 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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explain why i have to live.
Choosing ..
explain why i need worth.
Choice ..
explain causality.
Out of the ordinary..
explain linear time in the context of infinity.
If you think all there is, is linear time, (past has been; and is growing, whilst the future always is new..) that will be your infinity, as all there ever would be, would be the infinitely present moment..
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5652778 - 05/20/06 09:55 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Your whole philosophy is pretending to deny what is there. If you really denied it you would follow your own advice...your just a poser as far as I can tell. You tell people to end their lives but you are still here....your really leading by example. Your whole premise lacks heart.
-------------------- "A warrior is a hunter. He calculates everything. That's control. Once his calculations are over, he acts. He lets go. That's abandon. A warrior is not a leaf at the mercy of the wind. No one can push him; no one can make him do things against himself or against his better judgment. A warrior is tuned to survive, and he survives in the best of all possible fashions." ― Carlos Castaneda
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: Huehuecoyotl]
#5653074 - 05/20/06 11:47 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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i am not denying the universe exists, i am questioning how its possible. and for the most part i tell people not to make more life. its irresponsible.
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: BleaK]
#5653090 - 05/20/06 11:50 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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You said "kill yourself". I don't see you following this advice. As a matter of fact you have not followed this advice for several years at least.
-------------------- "A warrior is a hunter. He calculates everything. That's control. Once his calculations are over, he acts. He lets go. That's abandon. A warrior is not a leaf at the mercy of the wind. No one can push him; no one can make him do things against himself or against his better judgment. A warrior is tuned to survive, and he survives in the best of all possible fashions." ― Carlos Castaneda
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Re: i feel like i shouldnt write this. [Re: Huehuecoyotl]
#5653150 - 05/20/06 12:09 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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that was 1 of a few options i offered to anyone reading at the end.
i also said enjoy yourself.
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