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Fungi_x
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SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE
#5624731 - 05/13/06 01:51 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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My name is Calvin. I live in a boarder town very far north. I have allot of friends, well thats what I call them. I should say I know allot of people, and allot of people know me. I have 2 best friends. On is a girl named Sarah and one is a boy named Travis. Travis lives on my couch at the moment. Sarah lives with her mother still. I have three nuts and show them at party's allot. I'm a drunk/drug addict I was in a relationship with the girl for 3 years. She was the first girl I ever had sex with. She left me soon after I turned 21, I still love her, I miss her. I think about her all the time. She has not had sex with anyone but me and when she does Its going to hurt. I think about killing myself allot. If I was going to Id do it with phenobarbitol in the woods so no one could find my body, no joke.
Sarah is the best human I have ever met. We had sex in the walmart parking lot. I love her. I truly have feelings for her. She could be pregnant and its prolly not mine. I want it to be mine.
Everyone always tells me im a good person. But I always feel like shit. I do what I can and more. Still I always feel like shit. I get depressed. I get crazy. I break stuff, punch holes in walls. I cry sometimes over nothing... Or maybe it just isn't one thing maybe I cry over everything. I'm confused, I'm scared and I don't understand the planet and the animals who run and ruin it. I'm going to start doing heroin and I'm hoping at least to gain insight before death
insight before death... I like the sound of that.
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jcdangerously
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: Fungi_x]
#5624744 - 05/13/06 01:54 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Good to know.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: jcdangerously]
#5624751 - 05/13/06 01:56 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Yea heroin is pretty decent
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Fungi_x
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: TheCow]
#5624759 - 05/13/06 01:57 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Im doing it. I just need to go all the way to detroit for my hookup
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jcdangerously
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: TheCow]
#5624760 - 05/13/06 01:58 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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If you have a death wish and money to burn.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: Fungi_x]
#5624762 - 05/13/06 01:58 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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dude, you are just living. we all go through the same shit. different names, different details. but its all the same in the end. i feal for ya on the girl man. i really do. i want to be thinking happy thoughts when i go.
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drSE
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: TheCow]
#5624781 - 05/13/06 02:04 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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my only advice, is that if your going to do heroin, then your going to do heroin no matter what i say, so i am not going to lecture about anything that is not going to go nowhere.
I myself like many others here do lots of drugs, but to run to drugs (especially hard ones) due to depression is more then a bad idea.
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Fungi_x
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: drSE]
#5624828 - 05/13/06 02:21 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Its not from depression. Its because of sublime. I want to when I'm happy. by the way I'm bipolar
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jcdangerously
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: Fungi_x]
#5624837 - 05/13/06 02:23 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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It's not because of Sublime. You don't do things because other people do them. If you choose to use heroin, then own up for it. Take responsibility for your choices.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: Fungi_x]
#5624860 - 05/13/06 02:30 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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WAHHHH!
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Fungi_x
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: jcdangerously]
#5624864 - 05/13/06 02:31 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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You are rite. I choose to do it because I think its the best way. Its my CHOPICE and im going to make it. I plan on slowly leaving everything I know and drifting into death. My choice. I just need to start ge4tting it.
I was told the other day that I should shot oxy not heroin. Is that a good idea? It sounds like one because the oxy are good grade and the h could me a mexican shit ticket. What you all think.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: jcdangerously]
#5624868 - 05/13/06 02:33 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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ml right in your neck that always cures my depression
-------------------- Going to trial with a lawyer who considers your whole life-style a Crime in Progress is not a happy prospect. Hunter S. Thompson Reality is just a crutch for people who can't cope with drugs. --Robin Williams
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: Fungi_x]
#5624878 - 05/13/06 02:38 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Why so concerned about your health all of a sudden
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Liquidkick
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: TheCow]
#5624900 - 05/13/06 02:45 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Like he just said, he is bi polar.
The other side is kicking in now.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: TheCow]
#5624902 - 05/13/06 02:45 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Quote:
TheCow said: Why so concerned about your health all of a sudden
People can get off of heroin, and depending on how you treated your health on an addiction can be the end difference of how your life is gonna be after you get clean. So health should always be a main concern no matter what you are doing
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: drSE]
#5624911 - 05/13/06 02:49 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I guess I was just pointing out that he said he wants to die and do heroin. But then hes saying he wants to do a drug he knows is clean. So in actuality he doesnt want to die or really even do heroin he is just venting. Which is fine.
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Fungi_x
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: TheCow]
#5625023 - 05/13/06 03:26 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I don't want to get sick before I die!!!!.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: Fungi_x]
#5625039 - 05/13/06 03:32 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I bet she was a fatty.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: Fungi_x]
#5625050 - 05/13/06 03:36 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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you are 21 years old.. you have about 60 more years of life ahead of you.. you met this girl when you were 18-19.. chances are you will meet another girl that makes you feel amazing in these 60 years.. and another.. and another..
hard drugs and suicide are not the answer my friend
my recommendation would be to take a vacation from work/school for a few weeks and travel. go somewhere youve always wanted to visit and juts relish in the facts that there are so many opportunities and possibilities in this country.
if you cant afford/ dont have time for that i recommend at least this weekend stay away from the booze / bud and go for a nice walk and just think about all the positive aspects of your life..
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HELLA_TIGHT
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: Fungi_x]
#5625079 - 05/13/06 03:45 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Whatever, bitches are bunk as fuck.
Don't lose any sleep over them.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: HELLA_TIGHT]
#5625102 - 05/13/06 03:53 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Yea dude ive tried suicide (lamely) once. im bipolar too. But this whole heroin idea is not a good one i think. I agree that you shouldnt run to drugs because of depression. Its just going to make you more sad. Although you may not realize it right now life can be really good if you just give it a chance, and you cant take on the weight of more life than your own. If you take in other peoples shit, its too much to handle. Just take it one day at a time man (damn AA) and try to stay alive. Youll probably be thankful you did.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: AA2277]
#5626145 - 05/13/06 08:37 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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You have 3 nuts? Intense.
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Re: SO I WAS TOLD I NEED SOMETHING MORE [Re: Fungi_x]
#5626159 - 05/13/06 08:40 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Heroin is for the weak.
Just like religion
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