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moog
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an experience
#5600726 - 05/07/06 11:06 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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This forum has been pretty dead lately. I guess it's because the weather is nice and everyone is outside being social or whatever. Anyway, here's an experience i'd like to share, that i will never forget...
I was home alone one night, and decided to take a plunge into the DXM headspace. At one point i was very fucking high and decided to watch the TV just to try and bring myself back to earth somewhat, because i was becoming really detached from consensus reality. As i flipped through the TV stations i began to notice something odd. I could see into everyone's being. I could see right through their intentions, even though i was just watching recordings of people i've never met.
There was a consistent pattern i noticed, particularly on the news programs and other non-fictional shows. Everyone was very afraid. They were insecure. On one news program there was a group of middle-aged men talking about some sort of domestic political policy. I could see how fearful they were of the world around them. They advocated control over certain people because they were afraid of individuals expressing themselves in certain ways. They were particularly afraid of people who thought differently from them, and so they verbally attacked and ridiculed them.
On another channel there was an advertisement for a workout video, with a guy who was really big and muscular. I could see how insecure he was, that he only wanted the world to see him as a fit and attractive body, rather than his inner self. Underneath the faux confidence he exuded, he seemed desperate for people to accept him.
On one of those channels that has religious programs, there was an old (i guess Catholic) nun talking about hell, and how the grace of God can save people from hell if only they would turn away from their wicked ways. She thought she was helpng and teaching people, but i saw that she was only projecting her own fear and insecurity about reality onto other fearful and insecure people. She seemed very bitter, and i wondered how someone in a position that is suposed to be "close to" the wonder and love of God could be that way.
There were other cases, though, where the people weren't so insecure and fearful. There was a particular commercial i remember, where a man was advertising financial debt relief. This guy was different from the others i had just watched. He felt more genuine. I could tell that he didn't really care how he looked on the commercial, that there was more going on his in life than just making some commercials and making money. I don't know how i knew this but that was the feeling i got from him.
What i got out of all this was, that the majority of people are very fearful and insecure. They allow their egos to take over their existence. And when the ego is in control of one's life, fear will be the root of all their actions. You can see this in people who are very defensive, especially of things that aren't part of them. They latch onto ideas and make them a part of themselves, so that when the idea is attacked they take it as an attack against themselves. This is the ego in action. It must always defend itself from that which it doesn't understand. You can see this very clearly in the Shroomery's own politics forum.
Most people just don't know what's going on, on the conscious level. Most humans aren't sure what the purpose of their life is, why they're here, and so on. Many are afraid of even searching for greater meaning, so they settle on the mundane. Others search for greater truth but become stuck due to their conditioning. They become slaves to a belief system, or just as worse, slaves to rationalism, afraid to consider what lies outside the mental boundaries they've created for themselves.
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Re: an experience [Re: moog]
#5602201 - 05/07/06 07:10 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Man I want to try DXM
In combination with playing Katamari Dymacy, it sounds like a trip
How easy is it to find and its cost?
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Re: an experience [Re: moog]
#5608166 - 05/09/06 10:32 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I think that's pretty good trip report, and it indicates much of human nature and essence. I guess everyone feels insecure regarding one or more aspect of their lives, that's the way our consciousness deals with this reality, where the lack of absolute answers to most universal questions are left in a limbo.
Even everyday interaction with the rest of society is sometimes put to test. It's not like you can fail or pass, but it makes you wonder why fear is such a big play-maker in the way you act, and the way society judge your performance.
Looking at it in another perspective, what you felt should be experienced as a learning lesson about human nature. There are really sensitive people which can "see" through in a natural and sober way. I believe it would be a burden to constantly perceive other people essence the way you did, but anyway, anyone can do it in a lesser or greater degree. You just used a "tool" which increased such capacity.
MAIA
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Re: an experience [Re: moog]
#5608221 - 05/09/06 10:46 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Just something i found 
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the universe is an incredible line up of seemingly impossible coincidence...
there is indeed an "invisible force" that operates behind the scenes in our daily lives - on this very website - on your t.v. shows - everywhere (who is controlling it changes depending on the venue)~
some call it the hand of fate, or god, others call it luck, coincidence....
but what we are really talking about here is the very mechanics by which the universe truly operates...
when the mystics tell us "the signs are all around you" they mean it!
THEY ARE ALL AROUND YOU....
now... once you begin to tune into this new level of awareness you will begin to notice something awful in the world around you
something terribly rotten is going on... and you can perceive some how in your subconscious that it (whatever it is) is wrong / against nature...
as you begin to pay closer attention to the media broadcasts, television and radio, Internet and print... you will start to realize that you obviously are not the only one who understands these principles..
infact you will find them at work against you, controlling you, in almost every television program and commercial, they work in conjunction with each other and your lower emotional brain.
The level that this has gone to is alarming to people when they first awaken...
eventually you will find you just cannot take it anymore and tune out mostly all together from main stream broadcasts of any kind through any medium...
I mentioned the invisible hand in the beginning of this because... it quite literally is the old way, or old knowledge of the magi.... old stuff being put to use in a modern way...
most people will never step behind the curtain... most of those who have unfortunately have turned evil and are exploiting their fellow man...
this is the heart of the sin against the creator or the hidden hand...
this is what shall be redeemed
MAIA
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Re: an experience [Re: MAIA]
#5609184 - 05/09/06 03:14 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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MAIA said: Just something i found 
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the universe is an incredible line up of seemingly impossible coincidence...
there is indeed an "invisible force" that operates behind the scenes in our daily lives - on this very website - on your t.v. shows - everywhere (who is controlling it changes depending on the venue)~
some call it the hand of fate, or god, others call it luck, coincidence....
but what we are really talking about here is the very mechanics by which the universe truly operates...
when the mystics tell us "the signs are all around you" they mean it!
THEY ARE ALL AROUND YOU....
now... once you begin to tune into this new level of awareness you will begin to notice something awful in the world around you
something terribly rotten is going on... and you can perceive some how in your subconscious that it (whatever it is) is wrong / against nature...
as you begin to pay closer attention to the media broadcasts, television and radio, Internet and print... you will start to realize that you obviously are not the only one who understands these principles..
infact you will find them at work against you, controlling you, in almost every television program and commercial, they work in conjunction with each other and your lower emotional brain.
The level that this has gone to is alarming to people when they first awaken...
eventually you will find you just cannot take it anymore and tune out mostly all together from main stream broadcasts of any kind through any medium...
I mentioned the invisible hand in the beginning of this because... it quite literally is the old way, or old knowledge of the magi.... old stuff being put to use in a modern way...
most people will never step behind the curtain... most of those who have unfortunately have turned evil and are exploiting their fellow man...
this is the heart of the sin against the creator or the hidden hand...
this is what shall be redeemed
MAIA
Sounds like paranoia to me.
As for the original post:
I think that people do let fear get to them. And it effects the way they act. Think about how difficult it is to go from one day to the next to the next and put all those days together with a useful mindset, understanding and knowing the truth when you can and accepting the questions that you can't. It is constant.. every moment. It never stops. Who can say that they never fail - they never stagnate or give up? We all do.
I think that some people are more humble and righteous. Both qualities could serve to atleast understand their fear. That shows character. The mainstream is not about real character anymore, though. Not necessarily, anyways. Some people care more about political correctness than anything else. Trying to be normal is such a sham. I guess that sometimes you just have to accept it, though, because it's not always about what's right to you - sometimes it's about what works.
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Re: an experience [Re: moog]
#5611643 - 05/10/06 05:56 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Moog - I liked this piece of personal insight. Ive had similar moments while also potentiating off of LSD, except it was accompanied by visual changes in their facial expressions. Though, In movies it's much different because its created to puposely invoke these various illusions of entertainment...fear, hate, or joy and adventure. This is another interesting topic also.
Considering how popular media is, I would imagine people seem fearfull and insecure while being interviewed. Not everyone has been liberated from mass social judgement and do not value their opinion of self more important. Even those who could, would still be nervous. No distinction of coarse from the actual intention they were potraying. Of coarse, there isnt anything more gross then a person comfortable with these obvious mal-functions.
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They advocated control over certain people because they were afraid of individuals expressing themselves in certain ways. They were particularly afraid of people who thought differently from them, and so they verbally attacked and ridiculed them.
"Man Fears what he does not understand, man kills what he fears." Sad really...Of coarse, thank goodness for those who disproive this statement.
"If it doesnt hurt you to see your brothers and sisters trapped in their fear and insecurity, then perhaps you are the one causing it." - Dr. J Douglas
MAIA - Im happy you wrote what you did, very wise response. I think people are more aware then we think in this regard, atleast for some easier moments of empathy. (Woman ecspecially, and mothers.) In trying to define what causes the fear as a "play-maker", it can be a number of things; Social seperation and acceptence, Disapproval, Lack of information, Lack of confidence, Secrets, Safety... Steping out of the box isnt so bad though, somtimes all it takes is a review of how we wish to present ourselves and treat others, how we can help them in that sense. I find the majority of people very seclusive, I spose thats because of how we've been lead to live nowadays. You dont talk to strangers on the street when your young, should it be any different when your older??? I think so, generally..people arnt out to destroy eachother, you may meet the occasional loose canon, but there are always "ways" of preparing for those instances. WHAT THE HELL CAUSED THIS ANYWAYZ!?!?! haha...^_^
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Edited by WIZOLZ (05/10/06 05:59 AM)
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Re: an experience [Re: moog]
#5611784 - 05/10/06 08:04 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Neat-o!
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Re: an experience [Re: MAIA]
#5611916 - 05/10/06 09:00 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Yeah! you can see, but not with your eyes...
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