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Drone
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Re: What do you do when you can't get away from thinking? [Re: Asante]
#5608358 - 05/09/06 11:32 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Wiccan_Seeker said:
Will you have what it takes to face up to your True Self, see all your good sides and abysmal failures and shortcomings? Will you be prepared to go straight through Hell to find Heaven in the heart of it? Are you ready to suffer intensely for the Greater Good?
This is exactly how I feel right now.
As I've ventured further and further into this state..Ive found I have to go through hell to reach heaven. I have to face myself and my inner thoughts. I have to sort out my lifes problems before I can enjoy myself. Ive found it to be the most painful, yet most wonderful experience ever. There is no greater feeling than the pure bliss that comes after u have felt like dying.
Shrooms show you, yourself... Its hard to truely know yourself if you run away.
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BMArts
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Re: What do you do when you can't get away from thinking? [Re: Asante]
#5609026 - 05/09/06 02:35 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Wiccan_Seeker said: Your thought/babble loop is just one big doodoocaca escape reaction to not face up to some Inner Truth which you do not want to see, because you flee from the experience and therefore, yourself. You do this to avoid hurt, an MOUTAIN of hurt, and to avoid a Life's Change, a HUGE change.
Its not because you took too much: it's because you took enough
This is the crossroads. Left, right, or back from where you came? Make up your mind, make your plan, make your move.
First of all: thank you very much W_S for your insight. Often I have read your posts with great interest...
I realize that my reaction was precisly because I took enough. Still it was an uncontrolled reaction that happened automatically indeed to protect me from being faced with myself. But this is what I mean... I am serious in wanting to go down that path and see myself fully in good and bad. But what can I do to get around this automatic reaction I have that sends me off into my head to protect me from what lies beneath? Is it possible that I can use mushrooms to help me in the process of breaking out of this or do you think that once I am ready I will be able to do it? Or is it something that has to be tackled sober before it can be so when tripping?
The body and the mind have many automatic reactions that come to be to protect one from what will be painfull. I have experienced that myself through traumatic experiences I had as a chield. Ever since I have been trying to brake the barriers that were built up in me out of protection when I was a child, because now these barriers are not protecting me anymore, instead they themselves are causing me problems and keeping me from being in touch with my own inner/emotional/spiritual life/being... this is what I want to brake through. Please let me know any advice you have
Peace
-------------------- Everything I post on this board is pure fiction. Nothing in the post above is real. It is all made up...
May the source be with GNU
Edited by BMArts (05/09/06 02:42 PM)
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