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Syle
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I experienced an "ego death"
#5577908 - 05/01/06 04:32 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Happened to me last Friday. I mentally had myself convinced the mushrooms were killing me and I was actually dying. I endured about 4 hours of hell in my shower until I had a brief moment when I gave in and let it take me. For a split second, I was merely existing. Nothing more, nothing less. I had no concept of time or of who I was. I was just a figure of energy existing as an entity in this space time we call reality.
It was amazing. Then I eventually got a handle on the trip. But needless to say, I was freaking out for a while.
Would you people consider that an ego death? It was a very spiritual experience for me.
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Syle]
#5578004 - 05/01/06 04:48 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I would consider that ego death. I've had similar experiences where I thought and knew that ThI was dead. Felt like being in afterlife. I was a glowing ball of oneness watching molecular building blocks break appart.
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Syle]
#5578495 - 05/01/06 07:15 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Would you people consider that an ego death?
Most likely yes. Although there is really no such thing as ego death. The ego receeds into it's proper role of gardian rather than despotic guard. That few moments of letting go and surrender is the point at which growth begins IMO. The aftermath is usually much change for the better. Good for you. Keep going.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Icelander]
#5578539 - 05/01/06 07:27 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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so classic. One suffers, there is angst even self recrimination agony and letting go. something like transcendence... then the fricken handles come out again, re-integration tastes so good, but by then the great one has passed, the little one is panting and excited - creamed & spent, until the next encounter.
call it what you will
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Icelander]
#5578571 - 05/01/06 07:36 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Quote:
Icelander said: Would you people consider that an ego death?
Most likely yes. Although there is really no such thing as ego death. The ego receeds into it's proper role of gardian rather than despotic guard. That few moments of letting go and surrender is the point at which growth begins IMO. The aftermath is usually much change for the better. Good for you. Keep going.
God damn, that weiner shaking figure is about to make me piss my pants...
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Icelander]
#5578593 - 05/01/06 07:45 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Quote:
Icelander said: Would you people consider that an ego death?
Most likely yes. Although there is really no such thing as ego death. The ego receeds into it's proper role of gardian rather than despotic guard. That few moments of letting go and surrender is the point at which growth begins IMO. The aftermath is usually much change for the better. Good for you. Keep going.
there is such a thing as ego death
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Deviate]
#5578661 - 05/01/06 08:06 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Nope. Death is a permenant condition.
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Icelander]
#5578676 - 05/01/06 08:13 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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so the ego lives on after death then?
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Deviate]
#5578684 - 05/01/06 08:15 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Oh I get you. Yes indeedy, when the ego dies the whole physical entity dies.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Icelander]
#5578701 - 05/01/06 08:18 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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we have a different understanding of the meaning of ego but what i should have said in my first post was ego loss.
Edited by Deviate (05/01/06 08:27 PM)
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Re: I experienced an "ego death" [Re: Deviate]
#5578982 - 05/01/06 09:08 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Maybe. I see the ego as a necessary part of the personality. Because it becomes distorted we tend to have a negative view of it's usefulness.
I think ego loss is closer to the mark. It's like the ego becomes inoperative as the central focus we use to view ourselves and the world. In those moments we come closer to seeing what we really are, and a much broader horizion opens up before us. In this totality we see ourselves interconnected to everything that is. We become one with the Tao and enter a flow state were we know the bliss of being alive and the joy of loving, which is our nature along with every other feeling possible. We also see and feel that our fear is just the restriction of the energy that becomes love and bliss when allowed to flow unrestricted.(releasing tension) That's been my experience anyway and that of my friends.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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