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RedNucleus
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I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about yourself
#5541633 - 04/21/06 04:54 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hello. We are a community. It is not virtual. We may not feed or protect one another's bodies; I feel we are here to feed and protect each other's minds.
My name is James and I am a student at college. I was raised catholic. My parents divorced when I was very young. In high school I believed in psychic phenomena. There still exist a great number of posts of mine here regarding that part of my life. In college a good friend of mine convinced me that Christianity was not truth. Extremely recently I have become interested in fractals and Buddhism. I value highly sharing my thoughts and opinions with all of you. If I have harrassed anyone here in the past I apologize. I think tolerance of other people's opinions is one of the greatest virtues. Please, reply to this with a little about your idea of the world, religion, whatever you like or have interest in.
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LunarEclipse
Enlil's Official Story


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about yourself [Re: RedNucleus]
#5541699 - 04/21/06 05:14 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hi my name is The Iceman and I like to kill people but only if they pissed me off or someone else paid me to. Well OK I would have done it for free but at least being mad or making money gave me what seemed to be a valid reason. Does the fact that I like to kill people bother you? What college did you say you go to? I would prefer to continue this discussion in person, assuming they will let me out.
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shroomydan
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about yourself [Re: LunarEclipse]
#5541724 - 04/21/06 05:20 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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shroomydan
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about yourself [Re: RedNucleus]
#5541739 - 04/21/06 05:23 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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My name is Dan. I love Jesus 
But I am a poor disciple.
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TheGus
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: LunarEclipse]
#5541742 - 04/21/06 05:23 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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hi, my name is trifon
born in south carolina, almost died about 3 or 4 times in my youth
had multiple out of body experiences, one salvia trip where i was shown how to get out of the flow of time, i have met several demons (one who is the daughter of lucifer) as well as several dead people, one of the biggest things im looking into right now is how to get human beings to be able to telepathically communicate, it should be a natural part of our evolution (like it is for dolphins, whom i have been told can communicate telepathically) but it has only come about in very small degrees as of late
i am also insane, i have somewhat of a mixture of bi-polar disorder and skitzophrenia, i have had symptoms of both, but the reason i believe they first tried to 'help' me was because i started to figure too much out about reality, i do believe there is a conspiracy to keep me from figuring out more, and i also believe the female group consciousness is using me as a tool for some purpose (perhaps upward movement through the chakra's) but they can only place so much stress on me ever so often before i have a mental break down... o and im very dillusional, and have split personalities depending upon how high or low (strangely enough) my voice is at the time
i enjoy hangin out and getin high, currently im a student
kthxby
o, and everything is a fractal
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I pity the fool who break traffic laws with $870,000 of drugs in the car. -mo0nlite_sonata Psythos
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LunarEclipse
Enlil's Official Story


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: TheGus]
#5541792 - 04/21/06 05:37 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I forgot to mention that in addition to liking killing people that I am also a sociopath.
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RedNucleus
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: TheGus]
#5541801 - 04/21/06 05:41 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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well have you ever tried NOT being crazy?
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SneezingPenis
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: RedNucleus]
#5541854 - 04/21/06 06:08 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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My name is Kyle. I live in Nashville, TN where I run the sound for many of the venues here. I went to college at the University of Southern Mississippi once, but flunked out after making a .8 GPA, and then after promising my parents I would "really buckle down" I made a .2 or something ridiculous like that. Realized college was bullshit. Even though I passed all my tests, I made low GPA because of little to no class attendance. I didnt even attend the classes that outlined that you would be dropped letter grades for each absence past X days. I just showed up for mid and final exams.
I have been called an asshole so many times it has become laughable. I like to think that my online persona is an accurate representation of my real persona. I highly dislike: people who boast about mental disorders, self-absorbed people, people who show their tattoo's often, people who have peircings with no utility, and people who write lists of people that they dislike.
I like to see how cheap I can get a bum to "sell his soul" for. 63 cents is my all-time best. I have done exactly what I want my entire life, and in my 24 years of this go around, I have already lived an amazing life... many of the true life stories I tell about myself are rarely ever believed, even by the people who believe such stupid shit like Tom Cruise wanted to eat Holmes placenta.
I dont understand society and beuracracy at all, yet go through the motions quite robotically so as to be able to continue doing whatever the fuck I want. (Notice I never said I didnt do things I didnt want to do).
well that is about it. I usually avoid threads which cause me to repeat the words "I" and "Me", but the spirits have taken hold and that greatest of libations manufactured in Tennessee has loosened the tongue enough for me to blather on about something as boring as a synapsis of my life.
Die or Don't, just dont talk to me about your decision.
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MarkostheGnostic
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: TheGus]
#5541930 - 04/21/06 06:45 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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"The daughter of Lucifer?!" You met my ex-wife?! Wow, small world!
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MarkostheGnostic
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: LunarEclipse]
#5541933 - 04/21/06 06:47 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
LunarEclipse said: I forgot to mention that in addition to liking killing people that I am also a sociopath.
Well, that goes without saying.
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: RedNucleus]
#5542014 - 04/21/06 07:26 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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My name is Jon. I'm 23, a recent college graduate, with a degree in sociology and anthropology, and am currently trying to figure out what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. When I was growing up, my parents were technically Christian, but for all intents and purposes, they were pretty much non-religious. The only time we ever went to church was Christmas eve, and that's because we spent Christmas with my grandparents, who were much more religious. In fact, my grandfather is a theologian. His name is John B. Cobb, Jr. You might have heard of him if you've studied theology. He's somewhat famous.
I guess I've always felt a sort of spiritual calling, even though I don't seem to have gotten it from my parents. I've done a lot of soul-searching trying to figure out what I believe. I've been a pagan, a buddhist, an animist, a taoist, and an agnostic. I became more and more skeptical over time, but just as I was at my most skeptical, I had a religious experience. During an acid trip, I saw the face of Jesus, and felt overcome by his presence. I felt a calling, and I answered it, "Yes Jesus, I accept you as my Lord and Savior." Ever since then, I've been a Christian. I later studied up on Gnosticism, and learned the inner mysteries of Christianity. I feel like I've found my spiritual calling.
It hasn't been easy living with my newfound faith to discuss things with many of the skeptics here whom I had previously seen as allies. I now see what it was like for others whom I had once treated in a similar manner, and I hope they will forgive me for that. Forgiveness is a value that I have always held in high esteem, and as I develop spiritually, I strive to be more forgiving and more compassionate. I try my best now to restrain myself from responding to self-righteous bullies, but sometimes I slip up, and end up in a shouting match. I certainly don't have a problem with skepticism, and I find some skeptics here can maintain a mature attitude, but others just like to tell others how wrong they are, and I find that no better than fundamentalists telling people they're going to hell. I've sometimes thought about leaving this forum, but I know that if I did that, I'd be turning my back on a lot of great discussion just because of a couple fevered egos, and I don't want to do that.
I don't hate anyone, and I don't hold grudges. I have great love and respect even for those whom I tend to clash with often. I forgive the imperfections in others just as I forgive my own faults. I love my neighbor as myself, just as I love God with all my heart. Shalom!
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Silversoul]
#5542355 - 04/21/06 09:33 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I freed lots of slaves from the Romans, but was conveniently overlooked for the 1960 Acadamy Awards due to political reasons.
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Sporetacus]
#5543026 - 04/22/06 01:35 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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just another blip on the chart
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I_was_the_walrus
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: fresh313]
#5543071 - 04/22/06 02:19 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Well at least we now know who takes this forum seriously, and who likes to use it as their own personal playground.
I was raised LDS..somewhat. My parents never went to church, but were law obeying citizens. I was raised without a father and learned "lifes common knowledge" with friends. When I did see my father which was maybe twice a month for 2 days at a time...at which point he was always working, I listened to his Beatle albums. I was very amazed. Well...on that course in life I discovered drugs at a young age. I then started psychedelics. Ive been agnostic ever since.
I think theres some things in life you can explain, some things you cant...and some things no one will ever be able to explain.
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: I_was_the_walrus]
#5543080 - 04/22/06 02:24 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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sometimes so serious is so seriously sad
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PhanTomCat
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: I_was_the_walrus]
#5543088 - 04/22/06 02:32 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I_was_the_walrus said: Well at least we now know who takes this forum seriously, and who likes to use it as their own personal playground.
Hhhhhmmm, didn't know answers were being graded here...!?
"Knowing is half the battle...." --G.I. JOE....!
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: PhanTomCat]
#5543097 - 04/22/06 02:41 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Well lets not derail the thread here. Sometimes immaturity is not always witty.
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: fresh313]
#5543098 - 04/22/06 02:43 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hi everyone, my name is Nick(in greek it is Nikos or Nikolas) and I come from Athens, Greece. I finished high-school with an average of 17.3/20 which was good but I wanted to go away from home and so at 17.1/2 I went to Brighton, England to study. I now am a Mechanical & Aeronautical Design Engineer taking a year off to work and next year I will be at Brighton most probably studying for my Msc.
I did mj, shrooms and salvia and once a small bit of eric clapton which I hated. I used to grow my own shrooms and had the chance to eat some huge quantities as a result. Now, after some psychological problems, I hate drugs. Any kind. I just want to be me again.
I love pink floyd, frank zappa, eagles, bob marley, morrissey and many many others but above all I adore Joe Cocker.
I have a Peugeot 106 Rallye (it is the same with the Gti version but without alloy wheels, ABS and passenger airbag), which I have tuned a bit, replaced the air-filter, exhaust and ECU. Recently I bought a bike which I am going to be paying for 6 years because of the loan I took. It is a Ducati Monster S2R. After a lot of snow falling for some reason the carter in her engine was full of water!! anyway I got it fixed. My dream is to some day sell my rallye and buy a Caterham or a Westfield Megabusa.
I love playing adventure games. I have played almost all of the 3d person adventure games that hit the market the last 8 years and many many old ones too. My favourites are the Monkey Island games. I just adore them. I am also playing World of Warcraft now, left my main lvl30 night elf rogue for my now lvl27dwarf hunter alt. Too time consuming though. I also loved Final Fantasy 7. Great game if you had the patience to play through it. These days I am playing Bone:The Great Cow Race. You can download both the first and this episode from Telltale Games, the 2d episode i far far better than the first and if you have red the book then you know that the story is not one to miss.
I used to like Paulo Coehlo (the guy that wrote the Alchimist) and as a result I have red all of his books but I must say that he is out of imagination quite some time now. I enjoyed Frederick Forsythe's Odessa Files and red quite a few books about wicca, out of body experiences and crawleys magick.
I have done paragliding but stopped before I get a chance to take my diploma and be recognised as an official paraglider! :-) I would love to do parachuting one day, but I have some kind of problem with pressure and my ears nose and eyes hurt, so I'll have to fix that first or stick to paragliding.
I have traveled across Europe, the distance from Athens to the U.K. 15 times. Yes, 15. And next year it is going to be the 16th. It is a great experience and I love driving so I guess I'll be doing lots more of it. The distance is exactly 2000km. That is 1250miles.
I started this year living alone in an appartment here in athens, but then I set fire on the kitchen by forgetting that I have put oil to fry some chips which caught fire and burned the whole kitchen, and a bit of me as I was trying to extinguish the fire. I was home after 14 hours of continuous work and had won a bet about renault winning the f1 constructors title and I guess these are kind of the reasons I ws distracted. The neighbour(only one because it was a brand new building) had become a friend by the time and we were cool but some snitch told what happened to my landlady and well.....you can understand what happened. After I set everything right, all damages etc, I brought my dog home, a jack russell terrier. She saw him and told me in brief that either the dog will leave or both of us. And so we left the house and from christmas (yes, she threw me out on holidays) I live in my mother's house again.
I love john belushi, monty pythons and there is a kind of love and hate thing with jeremy clarkson.
I have my opinions about many things but are always open to change my mind if someone can convince me otherwise. I rarely get angry, when I do, it's a lot, but after very little time I forget about it.
From recent movies I liked Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, I love skrat, and I also love pacino's speech at the end of Scent of a Woman.
Well, anyway, I could about my life more... but I think I took the "with a little about your idea of the world, religion, whatever you like or have interest in." a bit too far...! :-)))
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: I_was_the_walrus]
#5543109 - 04/22/06 02:55 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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oh yeah, I forgot we were supposed to talk about our religious background.....
My parents were Scientologists as well as christians. For some odd reason I was forced to go to methodist church, but never had any dealing with Scientology until I was of age to be curious about it. My grandmother who was really close to me, died on my 12th birthday after fighting breast cancer for 13 years. My parents got divorced shortly after and I decided that it would be a good time to read the NT. After I read that, I no longer dealt with christianity.
i started reading the books my parents had on Scientology, but didnt grasp them at all. I remember how some of the neighborhood kids started talking to me about how evil Scientology was; I guess their parents had gotten wind that my parents were Scientologists and the kids repeated probably verbatim what their parents told them, or what they overheard. It is now laughable the type of satanic accusations that were supposedly lobbed at Scientology by my friends parents.
Honestly, imagine this: Living on coastal Mississippi, in a small gravel/dead end road surrounded by Mayberry-esque neighbors, labelled as the Santanic Scientologists.... oddly enough they still let their kids play with me, yet made sure to instill a great fear in them about it.
Later on I became interested in Scientology and in the 8th grade enrolled in a Scientology run school. Very different, much more advanced than any other school I had seen. In the year I was enrolled there, I graduated from the 10th grade. Thats right, i did two school years, in one. Then my mother and I moved back to Mississippi, to the same hometown before, one month before my friends graduated the 9th grade. My highschool wouldnt accept the credits of the Scientology school (big surprise there...) and we ended up working out a deal which stated that If I passed the final exams of all the classes I had "supposedly" taken (they didnt much believe our story), then I could progress onto the next grade, or be held back.
Now, the school in Mississippi was ranked high up relative to the nation, it wasnt your stereotypical John Grisham, nigger hating, ceiling fan, segregated, church schools - you know, the ones you are picturing in your head right now everytime you read Mississippi. Without so much as cracking a book I aced every exam and didnt really learn anything new until the 12th grade... that is how caught up I was.
In about the 11th grade I got into drugs, my mother and I gradually tapered off dealing with Scientology and since then religions have intrigued me, so I studied a myriad of different religions which gave way to my present day prententious sophist philosophy meanderings.
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: SneezingPenis]
#5543197 - 04/22/06 05:58 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I'm Brandon. I am originally from Iowa, moved to Wisconsin around high school (which I then dropped out of in order to play bass guitar and to not put up with the unnecessary bullshit, got my GED, of course). I then went to Norway for a year as an au pair, someone who lived with my grandparents as a foreign exchange student has a family now, and they paid me to go live in a different country... Sweet! I'm now back in the United States, of course, and its been just about two years since I have returned, and I am 21.
I work in retail now, and recently went off of overnights to become an hourly supervisor. I've been doing that for a few weeks now, and am enjoying it. New responsibilities, new things to learn, new situations to become involved with, etc. etc.
I am, of course, an aspiring musician. I play guitar a lot now, and that's about it. Perhaps in time I will begin finding other musicians to form a band with, to start jamming and to piece together songs. I am simply enjoying working on improving my playing and learning to express myself with guitar.
I am into metal, of course, but also enjoy psy-trance and ambience, flamenco/acoustic stuff, etc. etc. I've devoted myself to musikk and actively listen and formulate my idea of the perfect musikk as a result, which would then be expressed by myself as a musician. It cannot be described by words, but I know that it involves Borknagar, Tool, In Flames, Metallica, Shpongle, Infected Mushroom, etc. Different aspects of each that will work together to achieve an original sound, which would, of course, be expressed naturally as the result of my preferences....
I've found that, after setting goals and achieving them, that I'm not so motivated to arrive at a certain destination anymore. I've always aimed to focus on experiencing the present moment and simply working to guide that into the future, but now that I'm heading down a path that results from decisions that I've made, it feels more natural and free to simply face life as it comes and make the best decision in the moment, and to simply realize that I'll come out fine in the end.
I've recently went through a lot of change due to various reasons that I cannot elaborate upon at this time, and am beginning to question different aspects of myself/my decisions, and I think I might soon be facing even more important decisions, that are such that there isn't an obvious choice. I'm not sure what will happen and I have found assurance in simply taking it on as it naturally occurs. Anyone ever wake up one day, and have one thing change that changes your entire perspective on what you want to be doing?
As far as religious background goes, I was raised as a Lutheran. My grandparents attend church all the time, and I often went with them, and went through confirmation as well. I never took it too seriously and the experience involving church were positive. The church in particular was a beautiful, old church in the countryside, and it was mostly old, retired farmers that attended. I even remember a particular incident where, as everyone was leaving after the service, I turned my head back towards the front of the church and saw a simple outline of what could be described as an angel ascending. The interesting thing about it was that there wasn't any image in the church that it could have been an impression of (you know how you close your eyes and a spot of color hovers around and slightly moves, that kind of thing, it wasn't that ).
My spirituality revolves around focusing upon the present moment and increasing my level of awareness. I work on removing any obstructions in my mind that lessen my ability to directly perceive reality. I do not hold any conception of a "god" or anything of the sort, I simply acknowledge my experience and fully focus upon it, and live my life.
I will have the oppurtunity soon to partake in mushrooms for the first time since I was in Norway, so I am greatly looking forward to that. Considering the state that I am in now that I vaugely referred to, regarding new choices that quite possibly will have to be made, I don't know what the trip will be like at all, but it seems that it will be pivotal.
But that's just me. 
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: I_was_the_walrus]
#5543201 - 04/22/06 06:04 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I_was_the_walrus said: Well lets not derail the thread here. Sometimes immaturity is not always witty.
if u pm me in a adult like fashion we can talk about it 
i didnt know +m made you a judge of maturity either, maybe u can pm me that memo as well cuz i mustve missed it, this desk is so cluttered with things that matter, so it might be my fault it got sent to the bottom of the pile.
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: fresh313]
#5543880 - 04/22/06 11:52 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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My name's Danny, im 20, from England. I spend a lot of time reading posts in S&P but i don post here very often. I'm smarter than most of my friends, but then again they're mostly all dropouts lol... in comparison to most of the people who post on this forum i'm probably just below average. I love reading the threads and often find myself agreeing with several conflicting viewpoints at one time. I can follow the debates here easily and love reading and integrating other people's philosophies with my own when i feel they fit, but often feel out of my league when it comes to actually contributing my own ideas. I am a slow reader. I often feel frustrated that i cannot learn as quickly as i would like to (warp speed!), but that will not prevent me from trying to expand my awareness.
Walking contradiction. I'm the most paradoxical person i know. My beliefs, opinions, attitude, temperments and reactions to situations differ dramatically from one moment to the next, part of the challenge in my life is finding balance between my polar extremes.
I've been talking full sentences since before i could crawl, and was a very well mannered, polite little boy. School changed all that.
I was sent to a Roman Catholic primary school and refused to swallow the fundamentalist propaganda that was being forced down my throat from day one. I've always been a skeptic. I refused to believe in santa, and was briefly suspended from school at 9 years old when a teacher heard me saying "fuck what jesus says". I dont know why, but i remember crystal clear one day i stood in the playground and for no apparent reason felt extremely compelled to rebel against authority (especially dinner ladies who i developed a habit of biting). Not much has changed since.
Friends, good times, experiences and living for the moment are the most important things to me. I always stay up late because i worry that i'll be missing out on something while im sleeping.
I love music like it was my soul mate, writing poetry, playing guitar, exterme sports and creative experssion in general.
I like doing drugs very much and i'm not ashamed to admit it. I got into weed at about 16 and quickly found myself submerged in the stoner identity. At the time i adored it, now i look back and regret how much time and opportunity i wasted in a purple haze. I still would not change the early days though. Started doing ecstasy at around 17/18 and had some of the best times of my life. Got into rave culture and other drugs and every day i'm greatful for all the experiences i've had as a result. I had my first psychedelic experience with mushrooms around the same time and found so many answers, yet so many questions, which i feel have added great depth to my life. This psychedelic experience introduced me to the Shroomery forums, and i've been trying to crack open my head and free my mind ever since!
Religion wise, i'd say i'm probably agnostic, although i am extremely interested in spirituality, mysticism, philosophy, psychology, the teachings of religions and the pursuit of wisdom. I did a some psychology in college but unfortunately the only philosophy i've encountered in life so far has come straight from this forum over the past year or two, which is why i often feel like a quiet little voice in the corner. I hope i can change this and grow from the bonzai tree that i am now into one of the wise old oaks i respect and admire that i see posting on this forum every day!
-------------------- "Quotation is a serviceable substitute for wit." ~Oscar Wilde
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Sinbad
Living TheMoment


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Dfekt]
#5543955 - 04/22/06 12:14 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hi, my name is Alex. Im 22 and live in the UK. I post infreqently now, but i used to post here often at one time. Im interested essentially in life, and seek to understand the subtle interdepence that exist between all living beings. Im currently studying computer science at university, but am thinking of taking an extra modual in theoretical physics next year.
I enjoy relaxing and enjoying life as much as possible, whilst trying not to be fooled by appearences. Religion can be useful, but more important, i feel, is for each of us to uderstand deeply our own condition as it is. Science can be useful, but its limited because it is dependant upon the material level.
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Veritas

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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: RedNucleus]
#5543983 - 04/22/06 12:23 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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My "real" name is Laura. I used to post here frequently, but became disillusioned over management issues & took a long break. I may not be back for long, as the issues have persisted, and many of the voices I enjoyed listening to have been silenced.
Vital statisitics: I'm 34 years old, mother to two sons (aged 13 and 5), work as a bookkeeper, live with my partner (Icelander, who left due to the same issues I mentioned), hedonist by nature, well-behaved citizen by willpower .
My mother was raised Catholic, but was lapsed by the time I came along, so I was not inflicted with religion. I researched philosophy and world religions when I was 14, but could not find any one in particular which suited me and was supported by the evidence at hand. I prefer the "patchwork" approach to creating a philosophy of life, and I avoid belief in -isms as much as possible.
I attended public school for two years, was educated at home for ten years, and started college classes when I was 16. My focus points in University study were theater, literature, communication and psychology. I am curious about the world and all the strange people walking around on it, and I love to learn.
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MushmanTheManic
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Veritas]
#5544405 - 04/22/06 03:13 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hi. My name is Eric. I'm also "disillusioned with the management" and their persistent closing of threads, for silly reasons, right before I try to post. But, enough about THEM.
I'm 19 years old, going to a community college, and living with my parents. I'm hoping to get my Associates Degree in Science and goto DePaul University in Chicago.
My father was raised Catholic, and like most good Catholics, didn't give a shit about religion... until he met my mother. Both parents are now conservative Protestants. A large part of my family is also wacky Mormons who buy ambulances and use them to sell vegetables. (I'm NOT kidding!)
I started doubting my Protestant upbringing at a young age, probably around 14 or 15. (Around the time I started smoking reefer and listening to Goatrance.) Then converted to Discordianism early in High School. Discordianism lead me to Robert Anton Wilson who sparked my interest in philosophy and similar ilk.
I waver between nihilism, daoism, determinism, empiricism, naturalism, atheism, agnosticism, and cynicism. (Usually depending upon the last book I've read. ) The only thing which seems to remain constant is my skepticism.
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michael_lifshitz
Student


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: RedNucleus]
#5544418 - 04/22/06 03:21 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hi, my name is Michael. I enjoy life.
I come from a jewish family I suppose, though no one is religious in any sense, though I was born in Israel, and we celebrate major holidays for tradition's sake.
I would classify myself as agnostic I suppose. I just don't believe in classification of beliefs to tell you the truth, my beliefs are my own, though I could list some influences on my beliefs. Buddhism, Hinduism (Ram Dass in particular), Alan Watts, Zen, Taoism, etc all have influences me somewhat. So that's what I believe.
Right now, I am just getting into the real world. But Im not there yet. This is my last year of secondary school, so next year something is going to happen.
I am going to be free to do what I wish for the first time in my life. What an interesting thought. So I think I will take a year off and explore myself, see where I stand.
For now, I am working on discovering what it is I really want. I am figuring myself out and it feels nice.
I am being a kid, I am enjoying myself, I am examining myself, my friendships, and trying to make the best of both. I am trying to enjoy my school work (when I do it) as much as possible, and I am trying to be productive with my time, and feel comfortable and satisfied always.
I am really trying to see where I stand before I decide what to do next. And in the mean time, trying to make the best and appreciate the most what I have.
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sunit
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: michael_lifshitz]
#5544421 - 04/22/06 03:24 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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my name is steve and i hate JESUS
-------------------- Well, I set my monkey on the log And ordered him to do the Dog He wagged his tail and shook his head And he went and did the Cat instead He's a weird monkey, very funky.
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MushmanTheManic
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Shroomerious]
#5544425 - 04/22/06 03:27 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
Shroomerious said: It is a Ducati Monster S2R.
Beautiful.
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Shroomerious
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: MushmanTheManic]
#5546307 - 04/23/06 01:57 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thanks mate!!!
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theuser
DON'T LOOK

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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Shroomerious]
#5546652 - 04/23/06 04:15 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I think life is just numbers and chemicals. I could change my mind tomorrow or next month. Fun.
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fivepointer
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: theuser]
#5546764 - 04/23/06 07:16 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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About myself
I was raised in a house without any religion at all. My mother was into that whole Ruth Montgomery/Edgar Cayce/pole shift thing for a while and would do automatic writing visit mediums. I rejected this and was a hard core agnostic/atheist/scientist type, very skeptical of everything. I studied astrology on a professional level for many years. My view of Christianity was that they are deluded people who make no sense. At work people would tell me that I had to "accept Jesus", blah blah.. So I went to investigate this whole Christian thing to see if it had any validity. The so-called "Christians" I worked with could not explain what they believe to my satisfaction. I began to search for something that could explain this mystery to me, I looked in bookstore for a book that might help, without success. I tried listening to Christian TV and radio. It all still made no sense to me. So eventually I "accepted Jesus", because my co-workers told me this was how to become saved. I now know that I was not saved at that time, but I thought I was, but in fact was totally lost. Now since I thought I was a Christian for several months, (when in fact I wasn't really) I tried to act like a Christian. Everything I read in the Bible I tried to obey. Like love your enemies, forgive those that hate you. However the more I tried to do these things, the worse I would become. I would curse out people in my mind. Over the period of about a month and a half I really became totally hopeless, and really saw what was really at the center of my heart, which was total wickedness. I did not know what was happening to me. I became desperate and knew I was not a Christian at all. This is Holy Spirit conviction. The Holy Spirit was showing me who I was, so that I might see who Christ is. January 8, 2000 was the date of utter hopelessness, and I knew if I where cast into hell it would be totally just. And then the gospel was revealed to me. From that point on the Bible made absolute sense, and I knew I had been saved.
Looking back on these things I now know my co-workers had no idea what the gospel was, that they were, and still are lost. When I told them the things what happened, and what the gospel is they ran away from me, did not want to hear it. They are fake Christians. I am fully convinced that 99.97% of so called Christians are lost, and they do not even know it. The modern churches all teach false gospels.
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BlueCoyote
Beyond


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: fivepointer]
#5547054 - 04/23/06 10:42 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Fellow Shroomerites, I am normally short with words and like to be judged by my words. That's because english is only my second language (german here) and I see view words in accordance to preciseness (even in double-meaning). I am mid 30 now and was living 'in-between' since I can remember. I always searched for dependencies and correlation of the spiritual and the material world. Born into a christian context (my grandmother survived wwII and was bombed out, told me a lot about the real concept of g*d very early) I soon found what I searched in plain nature (without human). The word paganism I didn't know in these times. As I was curious, I later searched out all different spiritualities, mythologies, religions..still based with one leg in pure rational science. I soon found out about meditation and its value, with only vague preconceptions, but followed my intuition, what gave me also great insight about my inner self, as like the outer reality, esp. nature, where then human concepts were mixed into. With a friend I did ouija board for over a year regularly (no drugs at this early phase of my life ), which deepened my spiritual experiences, mixed with oobes (second sight and astral-travel, f.e.). All that mixed up to a large spiritual and philosophical universe, where pan-, poli- and monotheism flew together. I slandered over magic, but was disgusted/repelled from the black one and more found the grey and white one. That did lead me to the Kaballa and the Tarot. I started collecting tarots until I finally found, what I did need. A kind of kabbalistic tarot in some different order to what Waite or Crowley and the most others used. I found it with William G. Gray and I have still to read so much from him 
I constantly urge to bring my (sometimes extreme) dualities together what does not do good all the time, but as far as I am convinced, the primal chances for an existence of a real spiritual universe, what is predeterministic for our material experienced universe are exactly 50%, like the other way round. That is the biggest mystery for me and I came to some explanations which I perhaps some days will post in MR&P I try to bring these explanations of course, in every post I make, to understanding to the dear reader. I started hemp with 18 and my first trip was about with 21. In my journal you can read more about my early trip experiences and psychose I did quite wild things at the beginning of 20, but it folded out to almost let me end up insane (reasons in my journal), so I reduced it, but I stay with good hemp and beer. My first shroomie trip was shortly after I joined shroomery (yes, about 10 years later) and perhaps I overdid it a bit in the beginning, but I still consider it a good way for many things, if you don't overdo and get a hpd(? the permanent things, I have some little). I will do shrooms still 1-2 times a year  My job is very stress-full and sensible, so I won't tell much here of it. It is a private company with about 1500 employees, mainly technical engineers and doctors and we sell technical 'system-solutions'. I am no engineer or doctor, I entered the 'side-way' there Now 5 years fix and five years part time before, while studying at university. I dream of some easy, loving and joyful live, where everyone can work on her/his talents to bring them for society, where plain nature is respected and seen for its proper value, which is treated like shit nowadays for the sake of short ranged egoistical utilitarianism. I see the immense value of nature and my heart is torn in two if I see the majority of humans treating it like plain throw-away shit. I will never forget the roots of my comfort, spirit and philosophies, what I learn(ed) and deepend from and in it.
I dream to see humans in balance again.

(sorry for the confusing structure or mixed content, that is another reason, I more like short writings in english )
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OverSoul
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: RedNucleus]
#5547167 - 04/23/06 11:45 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Here's my story.
I was raised by divorced parents and was lucky enough to have one parent who throught my entire childhood told me that when I get older I can choose any path that I want to take, and that the only way to succeed in the world is to think for myself. I currently do not consider myself part of any religion. I meditate very heavily and have for a few years. I think that there is a god, however, I believe "he" exists in all of us and that through this "god" we are all connected to eachother and everything else in the universe.
There is a lot more to all of this, but I would have to write a book to explain it all.
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Huehuecoyotl
Fading Slowly


Registered: 06/13/04
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Loc: On the Border
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: OverSoul]
#5549513 - 04/23/06 10:26 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I am Huehuecoyotl. There is nothing to know about me. My history is gone...and my future has not yet arrived.
-------------------- "A warrior is a hunter. He calculates everything. That's control. Once his calculations are over, he acts. He lets go. That's abandon. A warrior is not a leaf at the mercy of the wind. No one can push him; no one can make him do things against himself or against his better judgment. A warrior is tuned to survive, and he survives in the best of all possible fashions." ― Carlos Castaneda
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michael_lifshitz
Student


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Huehuecoyotl]
#5549655 - 04/23/06 11:30 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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And you seem to have read some Castaneda! But I could be wrong.
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Icelander
The Minstrel in the Gallery


Registered: 03/15/05
Posts: 95,368
Loc: underbelly
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Huehuecoyotl]
#5673304 - 05/25/06 02:34 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I am the Icelander. I was born not knowing what I am, I was programmed to continue on that path. Now I am deprogramming myself so I can honestly say that I don't know what I am. My complete history was and is a dream and at the moment of death I hope to disappear quickly back into the soup. In the mean time I have become convinced that something is happening.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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fireworks_god
Sexy.Butt.McDanger


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Icelander]
#5673980 - 05/25/06 05:45 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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"The soup"? Why not be poetic and refer to the ocean, or something, you crazy bastard. 
 Peace.
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If I should die this very moment I wouldn't fear For I've never known completeness Like being here Wrapped in the warmth of you Loving every breath of you
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Icelander
The Minstrel in the Gallery


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: fireworks_god]
#5674015 - 05/25/06 05:55 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I like soup, yum, chicken soup, split pea, vegetable, corn chowder, lental,beef barley, ect. Now don't you want to be in the soup? You should have some of my soup sometime. I'm a very, very, good cook. I use organic meats and vegetables and spices. Yum. I'm fasting right now an so I have to stop writing this.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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