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fresh313
journeyman


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: I_was_the_walrus]
#5543201 - 04/22/06 06:04 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I_was_the_walrus said: Well lets not derail the thread here. Sometimes immaturity is not always witty.
if u pm me in a adult like fashion we can talk about it 
i didnt know +m made you a judge of maturity either, maybe u can pm me that memo as well cuz i mustve missed it, this desk is so cluttered with things that matter, so it might be my fault it got sent to the bottom of the pile.
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Dfekt
Your mother wouldn't approve...


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: fresh313]
#5543880 - 04/22/06 11:52 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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My name's Danny, im 20, from England. I spend a lot of time reading posts in S&P but i don post here very often. I'm smarter than most of my friends, but then again they're mostly all dropouts lol... in comparison to most of the people who post on this forum i'm probably just below average. I love reading the threads and often find myself agreeing with several conflicting viewpoints at one time. I can follow the debates here easily and love reading and integrating other people's philosophies with my own when i feel they fit, but often feel out of my league when it comes to actually contributing my own ideas. I am a slow reader. I often feel frustrated that i cannot learn as quickly as i would like to (warp speed!), but that will not prevent me from trying to expand my awareness.
Walking contradiction. I'm the most paradoxical person i know. My beliefs, opinions, attitude, temperments and reactions to situations differ dramatically from one moment to the next, part of the challenge in my life is finding balance between my polar extremes.
I've been talking full sentences since before i could crawl, and was a very well mannered, polite little boy. School changed all that.
I was sent to a Roman Catholic primary school and refused to swallow the fundamentalist propaganda that was being forced down my throat from day one. I've always been a skeptic. I refused to believe in santa, and was briefly suspended from school at 9 years old when a teacher heard me saying "fuck what jesus says". I dont know why, but i remember crystal clear one day i stood in the playground and for no apparent reason felt extremely compelled to rebel against authority (especially dinner ladies who i developed a habit of biting). Not much has changed since.
Friends, good times, experiences and living for the moment are the most important things to me. I always stay up late because i worry that i'll be missing out on something while im sleeping.
I love music like it was my soul mate, writing poetry, playing guitar, exterme sports and creative experssion in general.
I like doing drugs very much and i'm not ashamed to admit it. I got into weed at about 16 and quickly found myself submerged in the stoner identity. At the time i adored it, now i look back and regret how much time and opportunity i wasted in a purple haze. I still would not change the early days though. Started doing ecstasy at around 17/18 and had some of the best times of my life. Got into rave culture and other drugs and every day i'm greatful for all the experiences i've had as a result. I had my first psychedelic experience with mushrooms around the same time and found so many answers, yet so many questions, which i feel have added great depth to my life. This psychedelic experience introduced me to the Shroomery forums, and i've been trying to crack open my head and free my mind ever since!
Religion wise, i'd say i'm probably agnostic, although i am extremely interested in spirituality, mysticism, philosophy, psychology, the teachings of religions and the pursuit of wisdom. I did a some psychology in college but unfortunately the only philosophy i've encountered in life so far has come straight from this forum over the past year or two, which is why i often feel like a quiet little voice in the corner. I hope i can change this and grow from the bonzai tree that i am now into one of the wise old oaks i respect and admire that i see posting on this forum every day!
-------------------- "Quotation is a serviceable substitute for wit." ~Oscar Wilde
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Sinbad
Living TheMoment


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Dfekt]
#5543955 - 04/22/06 12:14 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hi, my name is Alex. Im 22 and live in the UK. I post infreqently now, but i used to post here often at one time. Im interested essentially in life, and seek to understand the subtle interdepence that exist between all living beings. Im currently studying computer science at university, but am thinking of taking an extra modual in theoretical physics next year.
I enjoy relaxing and enjoying life as much as possible, whilst trying not to be fooled by appearences. Religion can be useful, but more important, i feel, is for each of us to uderstand deeply our own condition as it is. Science can be useful, but its limited because it is dependant upon the material level.
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Veritas

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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: RedNucleus]
#5543983 - 04/22/06 12:23 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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My "real" name is Laura. I used to post here frequently, but became disillusioned over management issues & took a long break. I may not be back for long, as the issues have persisted, and many of the voices I enjoyed listening to have been silenced.
Vital statisitics: I'm 34 years old, mother to two sons (aged 13 and 5), work as a bookkeeper, live with my partner (Icelander, who left due to the same issues I mentioned), hedonist by nature, well-behaved citizen by willpower .
My mother was raised Catholic, but was lapsed by the time I came along, so I was not inflicted with religion. I researched philosophy and world religions when I was 14, but could not find any one in particular which suited me and was supported by the evidence at hand. I prefer the "patchwork" approach to creating a philosophy of life, and I avoid belief in -isms as much as possible.
I attended public school for two years, was educated at home for ten years, and started college classes when I was 16. My focus points in University study were theater, literature, communication and psychology. I am curious about the world and all the strange people walking around on it, and I love to learn.
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MushmanTheManic
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Registered: 04/21/05
Posts: 4,587
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Veritas]
#5544405 - 04/22/06 03:13 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hi. My name is Eric. I'm also "disillusioned with the management" and their persistent closing of threads, for silly reasons, right before I try to post. But, enough about THEM.
I'm 19 years old, going to a community college, and living with my parents. I'm hoping to get my Associates Degree in Science and goto DePaul University in Chicago.
My father was raised Catholic, and like most good Catholics, didn't give a shit about religion... until he met my mother. Both parents are now conservative Protestants. A large part of my family is also wacky Mormons who buy ambulances and use them to sell vegetables. (I'm NOT kidding!)
I started doubting my Protestant upbringing at a young age, probably around 14 or 15. (Around the time I started smoking reefer and listening to Goatrance.) Then converted to Discordianism early in High School. Discordianism lead me to Robert Anton Wilson who sparked my interest in philosophy and similar ilk.
I waver between nihilism, daoism, determinism, empiricism, naturalism, atheism, agnosticism, and cynicism. (Usually depending upon the last book I've read. ) The only thing which seems to remain constant is my skepticism.
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michael_lifshitz
Student


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: RedNucleus]
#5544418 - 04/22/06 03:21 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hi, my name is Michael. I enjoy life.
I come from a jewish family I suppose, though no one is religious in any sense, though I was born in Israel, and we celebrate major holidays for tradition's sake.
I would classify myself as agnostic I suppose. I just don't believe in classification of beliefs to tell you the truth, my beliefs are my own, though I could list some influences on my beliefs. Buddhism, Hinduism (Ram Dass in particular), Alan Watts, Zen, Taoism, etc all have influences me somewhat. So that's what I believe.
Right now, I am just getting into the real world. But Im not there yet. This is my last year of secondary school, so next year something is going to happen.
I am going to be free to do what I wish for the first time in my life. What an interesting thought. So I think I will take a year off and explore myself, see where I stand.
For now, I am working on discovering what it is I really want. I am figuring myself out and it feels nice.
I am being a kid, I am enjoying myself, I am examining myself, my friendships, and trying to make the best of both. I am trying to enjoy my school work (when I do it) as much as possible, and I am trying to be productive with my time, and feel comfortable and satisfied always.
I am really trying to see where I stand before I decide what to do next. And in the mean time, trying to make the best and appreciate the most what I have.
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sunit
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: michael_lifshitz]
#5544421 - 04/22/06 03:24 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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my name is steve and i hate JESUS
-------------------- Well, I set my monkey on the log And ordered him to do the Dog He wagged his tail and shook his head And he went and did the Cat instead He's a weird monkey, very funky.
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MushmanTheManic
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Registered: 04/21/05
Posts: 4,587
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Shroomerious]
#5544425 - 04/22/06 03:27 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Shroomerious said: It is a Ducati Monster S2R.
Beautiful.
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Shroomerious
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: MushmanTheManic]
#5546307 - 04/23/06 01:57 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thanks mate!!!
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theuser
DON'T LOOK

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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Shroomerious]
#5546652 - 04/23/06 04:15 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I think life is just numbers and chemicals. I could change my mind tomorrow or next month. Fun.
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fivepointer
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: theuser]
#5546764 - 04/23/06 07:16 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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About myself
I was raised in a house without any religion at all. My mother was into that whole Ruth Montgomery/Edgar Cayce/pole shift thing for a while and would do automatic writing visit mediums. I rejected this and was a hard core agnostic/atheist/scientist type, very skeptical of everything. I studied astrology on a professional level for many years. My view of Christianity was that they are deluded people who make no sense. At work people would tell me that I had to "accept Jesus", blah blah.. So I went to investigate this whole Christian thing to see if it had any validity. The so-called "Christians" I worked with could not explain what they believe to my satisfaction. I began to search for something that could explain this mystery to me, I looked in bookstore for a book that might help, without success. I tried listening to Christian TV and radio. It all still made no sense to me. So eventually I "accepted Jesus", because my co-workers told me this was how to become saved. I now know that I was not saved at that time, but I thought I was, but in fact was totally lost. Now since I thought I was a Christian for several months, (when in fact I wasn't really) I tried to act like a Christian. Everything I read in the Bible I tried to obey. Like love your enemies, forgive those that hate you. However the more I tried to do these things, the worse I would become. I would curse out people in my mind. Over the period of about a month and a half I really became totally hopeless, and really saw what was really at the center of my heart, which was total wickedness. I did not know what was happening to me. I became desperate and knew I was not a Christian at all. This is Holy Spirit conviction. The Holy Spirit was showing me who I was, so that I might see who Christ is. January 8, 2000 was the date of utter hopelessness, and I knew if I where cast into hell it would be totally just. And then the gospel was revealed to me. From that point on the Bible made absolute sense, and I knew I had been saved.
Looking back on these things I now know my co-workers had no idea what the gospel was, that they were, and still are lost. When I told them the things what happened, and what the gospel is they ran away from me, did not want to hear it. They are fake Christians. I am fully convinced that 99.97% of so called Christians are lost, and they do not even know it. The modern churches all teach false gospels.
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BlueCoyote
Beyond


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: fivepointer]
#5547054 - 04/23/06 10:42 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Fellow Shroomerites, I am normally short with words and like to be judged by my words. That's because english is only my second language (german here) and I see view words in accordance to preciseness (even in double-meaning). I am mid 30 now and was living 'in-between' since I can remember. I always searched for dependencies and correlation of the spiritual and the material world. Born into a christian context (my grandmother survived wwII and was bombed out, told me a lot about the real concept of g*d very early) I soon found what I searched in plain nature (without human). The word paganism I didn't know in these times. As I was curious, I later searched out all different spiritualities, mythologies, religions..still based with one leg in pure rational science. I soon found out about meditation and its value, with only vague preconceptions, but followed my intuition, what gave me also great insight about my inner self, as like the outer reality, esp. nature, where then human concepts were mixed into. With a friend I did ouija board for over a year regularly (no drugs at this early phase of my life ), which deepened my spiritual experiences, mixed with oobes (second sight and astral-travel, f.e.). All that mixed up to a large spiritual and philosophical universe, where pan-, poli- and monotheism flew together. I slandered over magic, but was disgusted/repelled from the black one and more found the grey and white one. That did lead me to the Kaballa and the Tarot. I started collecting tarots until I finally found, what I did need. A kind of kabbalistic tarot in some different order to what Waite or Crowley and the most others used. I found it with William G. Gray and I have still to read so much from him 
I constantly urge to bring my (sometimes extreme) dualities together what does not do good all the time, but as far as I am convinced, the primal chances for an existence of a real spiritual universe, what is predeterministic for our material experienced universe are exactly 50%, like the other way round. That is the biggest mystery for me and I came to some explanations which I perhaps some days will post in MR&P I try to bring these explanations of course, in every post I make, to understanding to the dear reader. I started hemp with 18 and my first trip was about with 21. In my journal you can read more about my early trip experiences and psychose I did quite wild things at the beginning of 20, but it folded out to almost let me end up insane (reasons in my journal), so I reduced it, but I stay with good hemp and beer. My first shroomie trip was shortly after I joined shroomery (yes, about 10 years later) and perhaps I overdid it a bit in the beginning, but I still consider it a good way for many things, if you don't overdo and get a hpd(? the permanent things, I have some little). I will do shrooms still 1-2 times a year  My job is very stress-full and sensible, so I won't tell much here of it. It is a private company with about 1500 employees, mainly technical engineers and doctors and we sell technical 'system-solutions'. I am no engineer or doctor, I entered the 'side-way' there Now 5 years fix and five years part time before, while studying at university. I dream of some easy, loving and joyful live, where everyone can work on her/his talents to bring them for society, where plain nature is respected and seen for its proper value, which is treated like shit nowadays for the sake of short ranged egoistical utilitarianism. I see the immense value of nature and my heart is torn in two if I see the majority of humans treating it like plain throw-away shit. I will never forget the roots of my comfort, spirit and philosophies, what I learn(ed) and deepend from and in it.
I dream to see humans in balance again.

(sorry for the confusing structure or mixed content, that is another reason, I more like short writings in english )
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OverSoul
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: RedNucleus]
#5547167 - 04/23/06 11:45 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Here's my story.
I was raised by divorced parents and was lucky enough to have one parent who throught my entire childhood told me that when I get older I can choose any path that I want to take, and that the only way to succeed in the world is to think for myself. I currently do not consider myself part of any religion. I meditate very heavily and have for a few years. I think that there is a god, however, I believe "he" exists in all of us and that through this "god" we are all connected to eachother and everything else in the universe.
There is a lot more to all of this, but I would have to write a book to explain it all.
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Huehuecoyotl
Fading Slowly


Registered: 06/13/04
Posts: 10,685
Loc: On the Border
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: OverSoul]
#5549513 - 04/23/06 10:26 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I am Huehuecoyotl. There is nothing to know about me. My history is gone...and my future has not yet arrived.
-------------------- "A warrior is a hunter. He calculates everything. That's control. Once his calculations are over, he acts. He lets go. That's abandon. A warrior is not a leaf at the mercy of the wind. No one can push him; no one can make him do things against himself or against his better judgment. A warrior is tuned to survive, and he survives in the best of all possible fashions." ― Carlos Castaneda
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michael_lifshitz
Student


Registered: 12/27/05
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Huehuecoyotl]
#5549655 - 04/23/06 11:30 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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And you seem to have read some Castaneda! But I could be wrong.
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Icelander
The Minstrel in the Gallery


Registered: 03/15/05
Posts: 95,368
Loc: underbelly
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Huehuecoyotl]
#5673304 - 05/25/06 02:34 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I am the Icelander. I was born not knowing what I am, I was programmed to continue on that path. Now I am deprogramming myself so I can honestly say that I don't know what I am. My complete history was and is a dream and at the moment of death I hope to disappear quickly back into the soup. In the mean time I have become convinced that something is happening.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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fireworks_god
Sexy.Butt.McDanger


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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: Icelander]
#5673980 - 05/25/06 05:45 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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"The soup"? Why not be poetic and refer to the ocean, or something, you crazy bastard. 
 Peace.
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If I should die this very moment I wouldn't fear For I've never known completeness Like being here Wrapped in the warmth of you Loving every breath of you
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Icelander
The Minstrel in the Gallery


Registered: 03/15/05
Posts: 95,368
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Re: I am confused who is who and who thinks what! Introduce yourself and give a few words about your [Re: fireworks_god]
#5674015 - 05/25/06 05:55 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I like soup, yum, chicken soup, split pea, vegetable, corn chowder, lental,beef barley, ect. Now don't you want to be in the soup? You should have some of my soup sometime. I'm a very, very, good cook. I use organic meats and vegetables and spices. Yum. I'm fasting right now an so I have to stop writing this.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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