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fireworks_god
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So, Where Are You At?
#5504596 - 04/11/06 05:48 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Seriously, now, what are your plans? Where are you at right now? What are you doing right now, and how does it fit in to where you wish to go later on?
Who are you, what do you concern yourself with? Reflection isn't a bad thing. 
Let me eat something, and I will answer my own questions as well. 
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If I should die this very moment I wouldn't fear For I've never known completeness Like being here Wrapped in the warmth of you Loving every breath of you
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TODAY
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i am currently working on my career plans for the future. developing my company's product line and working out marketing strategy with hopes of mass selling my products to business owners, homeowners, and contractors countrywide. at the moment I am working hard finishing up my college business education. my degree is my backup in case my plans fail.
other than that, i am exploring my mind...my tastes and my distastes and experimenting with social interaction. eventually i will have a grip of who i am and what i'm doing with my life and who I want to share it with and where i want to live.
its an exciting time and a stressful time and a beautiful time and a hopeless time all at once with weights continually sliding between those descriptors. its life...
what are you doing?
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Gomp
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Seriously, now, what are your plans?
In action!
Where are you at right now?
I am at, being in action. ( .. [the] change of change)
What are you doing right now, and how does it fit in to where you wish to go later on?
I am doing this, and it fit on to, that I would/will always be doing what I do, when I do it?
Who are you, what do you concern yourself with?
I am who I am; I concern myself with that of being ? concerned.
BTW: Please "rephrase"/ask again, if you bother, I love questions!
really LOVE!
Edited by Gomp (04/11/06 06:20 PM)
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fireworks_god
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: TODAY]
#5504760 - 04/11/06 06:36 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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TODAY said: what are you doing?
Right now, I'm working in retail. 
I am, of course, an aspiring musician. I work in retail in order to sustain life and support my environment (my house, its inhabitants, my objects, etc. ). More focus is being placed on work than on musikk at this point in time, which is actually part of the long term musikk plan.
I prefer to maintain a certain standard of living, such as having a house, a truck, several animals, an Internet connection, etc. I require a stable foundation upon which to propel myself into the world.
Focusing on work at the moment is, essentially, for two reasons. One is so that I can follow through into management. I wish to do this in order to have something to fall back on, as well. I work for the corporation, and becoming a great manager will ensure that, no matter what other endeavors I involve myself with later on, I will always have a means of sustaining myself to fall back on.
I also am pursuing this in order to build a lot of personal skills that I require; overall, and also specific to my musikk plans. Dealing with the business aspects of the musikk industry, becoming comfortable with presenting myself in front of others, dealing with new circumstances, etc. etc. etc. In the long run, it pays off. 
As far as work is concerned, I am progressing. I recently came off of the overnight shift after nearly two years, as I got promoted to department manager. I've seen myself apply myself entirely by my own means and have reaped the payoff. Work is a playground of personal development.
In terms of musikk, at this point in time, I am simply focusing on playing my damn guitar. I work on building a consistent, dynamic, expressive technique which I can utilize effortlessly. I work on maintaining full focus when I play, so that I am completely immersed in the act of playing and my mind concerns itself with nothing else, so there is simply playing. I'm piecing everything together, and preparing myself for the extremely expanded roles of musikk that I will be involved with later on.
That is where I am at. As far as on a personal level, I am in a great space. I've really worked on overcoming barriers that prevent me from venturing off into life, and I have started along the path. I feel that I tend to operate in more higher states of awareness than I ever have before, and I feel that I am becoming more wise.
On reflection, it is like, "okay, this is who you, along time ago, you said you wanted to be. you then started applying yourself in becoming that person. so far, so good, you are where you are at, and you are continuing on without missing a beat!". 
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If I should die this very moment I wouldn't fear For I've never known completeness Like being here Wrapped in the warmth of you Loving every breath of you
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michael_lifshitz
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Right now, I am just getting into the real world. But Im not there yet. This is my last year of secondary school, so next year something is going to happen.
I am going to be free to do what I wish for the first time in my life. What an interesting thought. So I think I will take a year off and explore myself, see where I stand.
For now, I am working on discovering what it is I really want. I am starting to keep a diary to put my thoughts into action and more organization, it seems to be effective so far. I am figuring myself out and it feels nice.
I am being a kid, I am enjoying myself, I am examining myself, my friendships, and trying to make the best of both. I am trying to enjoy my school work (when I do it) as much as possible, and I am trying to be productive with my time, and feel comfortable and satisfied always.
I am trying to be less bored, and am suceeding very well in that respect. I am always doing something constructive now, even if that is relaxing because it simply feels right. I play the guitar, am starting to experiment more with recording music and intend to make an album this summer, as well as discover more of myself through psychadelic journeys and relationships with others, as well as time to myself and keeping the journal I mentioned earlier.
I am really trying to see where I stand before I decide what to do next. And in the mean time, trying to make the best and appreciate the most what I have.
I am very happy with where I stand. I feel very up right now. As I usually do. Im happy.
Thanks for this thread, it helped me sort myself out even more. I am really keen on the benefits that keeping a journal seem like they will provide.
I am curious to hear more from all of you.
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Octavius
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I'm spending time with a friend, not a whole lot of time but a little. We go to a gambling place every so often where you get credit and gamble with that. I played black jack and earned 4 bucks but then turned around and lost it all. I've been to the dog track and lost most of my money.
I haven't been to the beach in the longest time and was going to go with my mother but didn't get to go.
I have plans to start my own business and maybe even go back to school but i've been blundered by all sorts of things. Money is a huge issue and I haven't had a job in the longest time and was going on disability.
If I had the money and the chance I'd build my own hovercraft that would take off from the air port and i'd build my own landing pad at my house. This is a dream of mine to build it and it would take so much money but the only way i'm going to accomplish this is if i have tons of money.
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fireworks_god
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Octavius]
#5508984 - 04/12/06 04:57 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Octavius said: Money is a huge issue....
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Octavius said: We go to a gambling place every so often where you get credit and gamble with that. I played black jack and earned 4 bucks but then turned around and lost it all. I've been to the dog track and lost most of my money.
Sense a correlation there?
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If I should die this very moment I wouldn't fear For I've never known completeness Like being here Wrapped in the warmth of you Loving every breath of you
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MOTH
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Hmph. I am 4 dogs away from completing 100 dogs and going on commission as a groomer. I'll finish tomorrow. I'm thrilled. Really. Considering...well, I've never completed anything before. My next plan is to get more involved with my writing stuff. More completions. Now that I've completed one thing, I know I can push onward and get even more accomplished. One step at a time, don't look back. My story is the most important thing to me. Always has been, and still is, even when I'm not involved with it all the time due to being busy. I write where I can though, since it feels so good.
Besides work and writing, I've been working on myself, which pretty much requires 24 hours of constant internal vigilence. Gets exhausting, but nobody else will do it for me, so you know, I have to take matters into my own hands. (and use that great free will people are always rambling on about)
I'm optimistic, overall. I just can't look back. Onward. ONWARD.
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Cherk
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Me. I'm 18 and I enjoy mangos and fast food. I'm living at home with the family now while I take a year off from school for thinking, bumming, and meditating. As of now I plan on attending Colorado State University next fall and living in a house with a few friends. I'm most likely going to be moving up to the university over the summer where I will get a job and save up some spending money for the school year ahead. I would also like to adopt a vegeterian diet this coming fall.
But if fall comes and school still isn't calling me it will be more bumming and eventually a pilgrimage to India where I might spend a few weeks or the rest of my life.
I spend the typical day by waking up between 9-12 and then moseying upstairs to log on to the internet for a while. Then it's breakfast, shower, meditation, followed by reading, and then I get to work doing my work if anything needs to be done. House cleaning, yard work, ect... After the work it's time for meditating, reading, and then dinner with the family. After dinner it's spending time with the hard working family either in conversation or planting myself in front of the tube with them. When everyone goes to bed it's time for some internet, reading, and meditating. Throw in a healthy dose of an hour of computer games each day and you've got my current life.
With my life I will pursue my spiritual path. The past few weeks I've been going at my learning with much fervor and have been practicing Brahmacharya(celibacy) for about a week and a half now, it's been a hard passion to resist but the spiritual evolution I have experienced in the short time urges me to keep up with it. It is hard though! Being intimate with a lovely lady is the best illusion of them all!
Eventually I will make it to India and wander around there for a while. I would love to travel all over this magnificent earth, but India is the one place I MUST visit before death.
One thing lacking from my life at the moment is interaction with people, face to face. I talk to friends at college online and with my family each night. But I am starting to get cabin fever.
I can work anywhere as long as I enjoy it, no type of work is out of question for me if I can find a way to enjoy myself. I can smell work in my near future. I worked for OragneGlo, the makers of Oxiclean, as a lab technician for about a month earlier this year in a temp posisition. My only job experience other than that was working as a bulk scanner for an imaging company for around 7 months.
That's me. And I really love mangos. I fantasize about starting a hermitage in California with acres and acres of mango trees.
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Temptress
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Cherk]
#5509191 - 04/12/06 05:55 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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The past few weeks I've been going at my learning with much fervor and have been practicing Brahmacharya(celibacy) for about a week and a half now, it's been a hard passion to resist but the spiritual evolution I have experienced in the short time urges me to keep up with it. It is hard though!
sorry to hear that you are not 'getting any' - sooner or later though you will luck out, then you can declare your celibacy 'experiment' a success.
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Cherk
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Temptress]
#5509417 - 04/12/06 06:55 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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MushmanTheManic
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Currently, I'm planning to plan out my plans, but there is a considerable amount of pre-plan planning which needs to be completed until I can begin planning to plan out my plans. I'm 19 and in a community college. I'm currently majoring in Pre-Pharmacy, but am planning to change that to a Psychology, Philosophy double major. (Fuck Pharmacy.) But, as far as a career goes, I'm still lost. Generally, I have problems motivating myself to get school work done. 
I had a steady job at a UPS Store, but was fired for reading a pornographic magazine (High Society ) which won me a considerable amount of respect from my male coworkers. Now, I'm a pizza delivery driver.
I'm the Intergalactic Surreptitious Fluoro Funkster, solitary ubermensch prankster, Founder and honorary sole member of the Nerdle Wombanger Cabal.
Considering the first label: I'm very very secretive and un-talkative. Some of the people who I consider my best friends have remarked that they don't know anything about me, and my family certainly doesn't have a clue. I'm from another planet. A planet which values its funk and fluorescence. Earthlings could learn much.
Considering the second label: Due to the first label, I generally don't have much of an active social life and the herd mentality has completely atrophied. It's amazing how isolation can effect your worldview. (Just ask Siddhartha Gautama.) Being alone is something I ordinarily don't have a problem with unless it becomes excessive and nihilism doesn't seem to be much of a problem for me. The prankster part? Well, I often, when no one is looking, pull my own little self-satisfying pranks, such as writing a Zen koan on a piece of paper and putting it into a CD-rom drive at school. I've got a bunch of stickers which say "Warning: This Object Does Not Exist" and I wander around town and stick them onto things. I'm an active agent in Operation Mindfuck. 
Another bad habit I picked up from Operation Mindfuck was the creation of the Nerdle Wombanger Cabal. It's the name of my pseudo-organization which bothers politicians and celebrities with strange, satiric mail. If I'm able to find a mailing address for Anderson Cooper, you can be certain that this trustworthy individual will receive a piece of mail from the Nerdle Wombanger Cabal concerning his recent accurate and unprejudiced prattle regarding Salvia Divinorum. (Edit: After having watched Anderson Cooper, I was dissappointed to see his coverage of Salvia Divinorum was not as sensationalized and irrational as I thought I was going to be. He will probably not be recieving a letter, unless I get very drunk tonight.)
Edited by MushmanTheManic (04/13/06 12:53 AM)
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Silversoul
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Career-wise, I'm lost. I graduated from college last December, and haven't held a steady job since then. There's all this pressure to find a career and make something of myself, but I just don't know where I'm going. My parents keep telling me to do something I love, but most of the things I love don't pay shit.
Today I brought up the idea of going to bartending school so I could become a bartender. They said they want me to find something where I could use my college degree. Hypocrites. They always told me all this liberal hippy bullshit about how I can anything I want to be, but whenever I come up with something, they shoot it down.
Sometimes I think they find it hard to accept that I don't want their bourgeios, upper-middle class lives. I don't want to whore myself out to some corporation and make profits for some money-grubbing asshole above me. It's not that I'm against free enterprise or anything, but that shit just isn't for me.
They keep confusing me. I really need to get away from them. But in order to do that, I have to start making some money. Seems to be quite a Catch-22.
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Silversoul]
#5510859 - 04/13/06 01:03 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Paradigm said: My parents keep telling me to do something I love, but most of the things I love don't pay shit.
Maybe they're really telling you to stop caring so much about money. Have faith in what you love and everything you need will be taken care of.
sometimes "you" don't like what you need
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Cherk]
#5510876 - 04/13/06 01:10 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Smoker For Peace said: Maybe they're really telling you to stop caring so much about money.
I wish. It seems all I ever hear about from them is money.
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MushmanTheManic
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Silversoul]
#5510882 - 04/13/06 01:15 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Life is expensive.
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Cherk
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Silversoul]
#5510897 - 04/13/06 01:27 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Paradigm said:
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Smoker For Peace said: Maybe they're really telling you to stop caring so much about money.
I wish. It seems all I ever hear about from them is money.
So you love what they love because they are your parents?
this was/is a tough thing to break out of for me
find what you love!
maybe you'd be happiest with a life of poverty of course these are the two extremes, there is plenty of middle ground
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Edited by Smoker For Peace (04/13/06 01:38 AM)
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Fospher
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Well, let's see, today ... ... I got fired from a fucking car wash.

I would come in when I wanted and leave likewise. Not show up and never call, and the managers loved me. I did this for a year and a half, and I guess today I pushed that envelope waaaay too far. It's alright, however, I've been wanting to quit that job anyway, this was a nice catalyst. Plus, why not take back some money back from the IRS? Anybody could use an extra $200.
Im thinking I might go back to multimedia freelancing again and whore myself out for some corporate pseudo-art, build up my portfolio.
Been working out for the past 4 months, daily. Really rebuilt my posture. I'd like to join a dojo, but the bastards charge close to a $100/month, and as a student, I can't really afford that.
Quit drinking altogether, barely smoke grass. Fucking around time is over, and now, I am making up wasted time. I still trip once in a blue moon, and will hit up many Psy-Trance parties this summer. It's all good, I see it as very beneficial to my psyche.
Working on my new art project (the sequel to the one in my sig) with a soundtrack by one of my friends, an extremely skilled and talented musician. I've noticed, also, that my design skills have gone downhill, judging from my previous work and what I do now. Plus, coming back to reality now from doing a smorgsboard of drugs over a fairly short term didnt do annnnyyy good for my programming skills at all .
I am also trying my best to do good in college, but being at a community college sometimes can get to ya. I still say it feels like High School only you dont talk to anyone - and whoever actually talks - you really dont want to talk back to.
Long term goals?
☼ Major in Visual Effects & Motion Art, come out and work for a nice design studio or a VG/film company.
☼ Save up money, and get my own design studio and become the Art Director/CEO.
☼ Hopefully, outgrow my epilepsy and get a pilot's license and work on a contract (notice how I said on a contract, not join) with the US Air Force/Navy.
I am just recovering from a criminal lifestyle, and getting back to work. I am extremely grateful to God for not being knee deep in legal issues like some of my friends. For example, I just took my friend to court yesterday morning on his charge of a possession of an illegal firearm as a double felon. My other best friend will probably be in jail for another 6 months. I got out with a clean record, I am ever-so-lucky!
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Fospher]
#5510999 - 04/13/06 02:39 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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im in fuckin heaven
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Temptress
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Silversoul]
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Sometimes I think they find it hard to accept that I don't want their bourgeios, upper-middle class lives.
just their comfy house, a full frig, cable TV, internet hook-up and a hand-out.
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I prefer to maintain a certain standard of living, such as having a house, a truck, several animals, an Internet connection, etc. I require a stable foundation upon which to propel myself into the world.
what animals do you have, if you don't mind my asking?
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fresh313
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Deviate]
#5511049 - 04/13/06 03:12 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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i got a studio apartment bout 4 pings, community bathroom, shower and toilet in a 4x4 room, gotta take military style shower cuz the hot water only lasts a few minutes. but i have a sink by my room which i can piss in and get drinking water. wash clothes. a laptop which i can steal wi-fi from my 3rd floor balcony, some clothes a baseball glove and a bouncy ball, couple books. im looking to add one more possesion of a motorcycle, then my personal museuem of possesions will be complete.
some dope would be the cherry.
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Birds_Can_Swim
Fish Can Fly

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No idea where I'm at
No idea where I'm going
I don't particularly care
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bobjones
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wrapping up my junior year of college, so far it has been a monumental waste of time. i dont feel myself 'learning' anything outside of how to better regurgitate useless information so i can pass classes. im beginning to notice more and more that mediocrity is the standard here. it has lead to me beginning to worry about the future, and if this degree is going to be able to get me anywhere, but i'm trying not to concentrate on it too much.
i think i might be studying abroad next spring in london though. really looking forward to that if i get the chance to go.
outside of school, i started working at a restaurant washing dishes. its been two years since ive had a job and it feels good getting back into the rhythm of life. plus finally having a cash flow once again doesnt hurt anything. in a couple more months i think i'll be moved up to chef, and im anxiously awaiting that day. seeing as some day i might want to work in the food industry, possibly attending culinary school, this would be a good learning experience.
as far as my psyche, ive found myself drifting further and further away from the social scene as my time in college, and understanding of myself, deepen. it seems like most people i interact with are stuck at one stage in their life, and its hard to find open people to have honest conversations with. it is only made harder because as of late ive found my self confidence lacking, but this has been a life long problem. i quit smoking the green until at least summer, and it has really helped clear my head and put things into perspective. also ive been trying to meditate more and more, which has helped more than anything. it seemed like every time i would build up my confidence, id smoke and tear it all down. so im not really eager to get back into that. as far as other psychedelics go, im looking to widen my horizons. so far ive shroomed a few times, and each one was great in its own aspects. i have some mescaline, and as soon as i move into my own place over the summer and get away from my current roommates, i plan on making some tea and see where that takes me. ive been waning to try lsd for awhile, but it doesnt seem to exist up here.
and lastly the future. i dunno...the only thing i have my mind set on is getting the hell out of texas. i'm thinking somewhere on the west coast, but ill need to spend alot more time researching this before i make any kind of decision. getting work is also an issue im not sure on. not really any clue what i want to do yet. i figure as long as i keep making the right decisions in the present, the future will write itself. at least i hope this is how itll work...
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Temptress]
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Sometimes I think they find it hard to accept that I don't want their bourgeios, upper-middle class lives.
just their comfy house, a full frig, cable TV, internet hook-up and a hand-out.
I don't need to work for a bank or an insurance company to have those things. And I'd be perfectly happy in an apartment, even without cable TV. Believe it or not, it takes relatively little to make me happy. So you can take your high and mighty bullshit and shove it.
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I am about to graduate from college. I studied Geomatics (land surveying.)
I just broke up with my girlfriend of thirteen months.
I'm about to start a new job with an engineering firm on May 1.
I'm going to buy a car next week. Probably a Honda Civic.
Over the next three years I will write my Western Board of Examiners exams to earn my Commissioned Land Surveyor status.
As of right now, I'm 3 hours away from a four-day weekend.
(Haha the guy in front of me in class is looking up sleepwalking and wet dreams on Wikipedia right now.)
-------------------- Welcome evermore to gods and men is the self-helping man. For him all doors are flung wide: him all tongues greet, all honors crown, all eyes follow with desire. Our love goes out to him and embraces him, because he did not need it. ~ R.W. Emerson, "Self-Reliance"
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Temptress
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Silversoul]
#5512254 - 04/13/06 12:52 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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So you can take your high and mighty bullshit and shove it.
disrespecting your parents and calling them hypocrites while living off them - um, ok.
reborn?
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Silversoul
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Temptress]
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So you can take your high and mighty bullshit and shove it.
disrespecting your parents and calling them hypocrites while living off them - um, ok.
reborn?
The fact that I'm living off them has nothing to do with them being hypocrites. Hablas ingles?
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: bobjones]
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bobjones said: wrapping up my junior year of college, so far it has been a monumental waste of time. i dont feel myself 'learning' anything outside of how to better regurgitate useless information so i can pass classes. im beginning to notice more and more that mediocrity is the standard here. it has lead to me beginning to worry about the future, and if this degree is going to be able to get me anywhere, but i'm trying not to concentrate on it too much.
I remember dealing with a similar situation once. I was in high school, senior year. I had recently sat down and really thought about what it was that I wanted to do with my life, as I realized that, A. I needed to involve myself with a pursuit that I would thoroughly enjoy, and, B. I needed to make a decision and fully focus on following through with it, otherwise I would just drift, and would have no real opportunities.
Ultimately, I dropped out. I got my GED, of course, and I freed myself from the struggling constrains of school months ahead with the same outcome. I'm certainly not suggesting anything of the sort for yourself, as it is a highly personal decision. It almost always isn't the best choice. I'm simply just reflecting. 
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i think i might be studying abroad next spring in london though. really looking forward to that if i get the chance to go.
Sweet! A year after I left school, I got paid to stay in Norway for a year. I wish I was still there.... 
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outside of school, i started working at a restaurant washing dishes.
I worked in a restaurant, washing dishes, during and after I was in school. I always enjoyed doing it, and it is in doing so that I taught myself a valuable lesson. If, for whatever reason, you find yourself involved in a certain endeavor, and it is such that you have to spend your time involved with it, then, by all means, do not make it unpleasant for yourself. One's mind has a list of what it prefers to do and what it does not want to do, and it fucking enforces it. Shut it up and simply focus on doing it. You'll find that you'll perform better anyways (putting yourself leagues above the other people in this world), and, even better, you'll enjoy the work, even if you didn't before. 
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as far as my psyche, ive found myself drifting further and further away from the social scene as my time in college, and understanding of myself, deepen.
Same here, but then, I was never too involved with the social scene, beyond that of some stoner friends. Now, I live hours away from where I used to. Work isn't much of a social scene, especially after switching shifts, and my socialization is among my girlfriend, my animals, a few online friends, and, of course, the Shroomery. For the most part, I wouldn't have it any other way. Eventually, I will have a band, and will tour the world, and there will be all kinds of people everywhere. 
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it seems like most people i interact with are stuck at one stage in their life, and its hard to find open people to have honest conversations with. it is only made harder because as of late ive found my self confidence lacking...
It sounds to me like a perfect oppurtunity to really discover, develop, and then know yourself. Confidence will no longer be an issue then! 
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i figure as long as i keep making the right decisions in the present, the future will write itself. at least i hope this is how itll work...
That is how it will work. Know yourself, have an image of where you are headed, and focus intensely within the present moment. Make those decisions that will best develop yourself and actualize that true image of who you are. Everything naturally flows forth from there, a lifetime of awareness and experience! 
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: Deviate]
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Deviate said: what animals do you have, if you don't mind my asking?
I have a Norwegian Elkhound, a male known as Odin. He'll be two years old in August.
Behind him, of course, is the home of my two oscars. They are each about 9" long. I've had them for well over a year now. As soon as possible, their habitat will get upgraded to a 125 gallon tank. 
We then have two ferrets. A Silver Mitt named Merlin, and a Sable female named Dainty. We've had them for a few months now, and ferrets are quite possibly the coolest animals of all time! They are very intelligent and full of life. Very determined.
Short Video Of My Ferrets <Save Target As>
We also have a cat that came from Wal*Mart. That is to say that, two winters ago, there was a cat that lived in the parking lot there. One night, when we had the receiving doors open, she came into the store. A fellow associate took her home, but later had to move, and bestowed the cat upon us. My girlfriend called her Beaker.
The chinchilla in that picture, unfortunately, recently passed away. Coolest animal ever, though! 
And, finally, we have two rabbits. Pepper and Norg. Norg is the one raiding the dog's water.

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I used to have a rabbit that i could play catch with. I would throw a tennis ball at her face gentely and she would pop it back to me with her front legs with dead on accuracy. I dont know if she was playing the game or protecting herself but she never ran away from it so i guess she new we was playing.
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hey fireworks, thanks for taking the time to comment. i really appreciate it.
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I remember dealing with a similar situation once. I was in high school, senior year. I had recently sat down and really thought about what it was that I wanted to do with my life, as I realized that, A. I needed to involve myself with a pursuit that I would thoroughly enjoy, and, B. I needed to make a decision and fully focus on following through with it, otherwise I would just drift, and would have no real opportunities.
Ultimately, I dropped out. I got my GED, of course, and I freed myself from the struggling constrains of school months ahead with the same outcome. I'm certainly not suggesting anything of the sort for yourself, as it is a highly personal decision. It almost always isn't the best choice. I'm simply just reflecting. 
yeah, im 3 years in, so dropping out now would be like shooting myself in the foot. i can struggle through this for another year and be done with it. and trying to find something that i enjoy doing, and following through with it is something that ive been meditating on recently. but ill get to this later.
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Sweet! A year after I left school, I got paid to stay in Norway for a year. I wish I was still there.... 
badass, glad to hear you enjoyed it. pretty much everyone that ive talked to that has studied abroad has had nothing but good things to say about it, so im getting really excited about this opportunity. i think it will be an incredibly maturing experience.
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I worked in a restaurant, washing dishes, during and after I was in school. I always enjoyed doing it, and it is in doing so that I taught myself a valuable lesson. If, for whatever reason, you find yourself involved in a certain endeavor, and it is such that you have to spend your time involved with it, then, by all means, do not make it unpleasant for yourself. One's mind has a list of what it prefers to do and what it does not want to do, and it fucking enforces it. Shut it up and simply focus on doing it. You'll find that you'll perform better anyways (putting yourself leagues above the other people in this world), and, even better, you'll enjoy the work, even if you didn't before. 
i love my job more and more every time i go. the people i work with are all cool, my bosses like me, and most of the time i can just do my own thing. and if im working by myself its a meditative experience like you were talking about....i am the dish. the food industry is the one outlet where i could actually see myself in years to come. ive always loved working with my hands ever since i was a kid, and now i love cooking. if i continue to enjoy this, and still enjoy it when i get moved up to being a line cook, im not going to rule out going to culinary school once i graduate.
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Same here, but then, I was never too involved with the social scene, beyond that of some stoner friends. Now, I live hours away from where I used to. Work isn't much of a social scene, especially after switching shifts, and my socialization is among my girlfriend, my animals, a few online friends, and, of course, the Shroomery. For the most part, I wouldn't have it any other way. Eventually, I will have a band, and will tour the world, and there will be all kinds of people everywhere. 
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It sounds to me like a perfect opportunity to really discover, develop, and then know yourself. Confidence will no longer be an issue then! 
i agree, its just taken me along long time to get used to this. theres such societal pressure to have alot of friends and to go out drinking on the weekends and such, and to turning my back on that causes a bit of anxiety. but ever since i was a kid ive done my own thing. i never really fit in with what people usually did, so i sat around and played videogames for the majority of my earlier years. but i think back then i still wanted to do all the things other kids were doing because i thought i was missing out on aton of fun, but now that ive found out what most people do...its just not worth getting out of the house most of the time. i thought i was missing alot of life, but i wasnt missing anything. next year i think it will be MUCH easier being by myself because i will be living by myself. my roommates right now are all highly extroverted and cant stand not being around a bunch of people. once im able to do my own thing, without any pressure from anyone, ill come to love being by myself even more so than right now. and i think when this happens i will truly begin to know myself. i can feel it happening already, but its a slow slow process only made slower by my environment. i cant wait to trip this summer once i move into my own place... 
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That is how it will work. Know yourself, have an image of where you are headed, and focus intensely within the present moment. Make those decisions that will best develop yourself and actualize that true image of who you are. Everything naturally flows forth from there, a lifetime of awareness and experience! 
thanks again 
and one more thing...your dog looks badass.
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Thanks for asking.
This is the conclusion I came to. I don't know who I am, therefore no one else knows who I am. I know my ultimate goal, but I have no idea how to get from here to there, not to mention all the space inbetween.
But, maybe someday I will know. Even if I find I don't like the person I really am, as long as I know, it gives me the ability to change.
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: demiu5]
#5514827 - 04/14/06 05:29 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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3rd year college dropouts unite, anyone else besides me?
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fireworks_god
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Re: So, Where Are You At? [Re: fresh313]
#5514936 - 04/14/06 07:21 AM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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