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Birds_Can_Swim
Fish Can Fly

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Ego Death?
#5472593 - 04/02/06 10:26 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Experiences?
Definitions?
I think what I experienced during my first trip was something of ago-death, but I'm not sure at all
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Zorodius
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Registered: 11/28/05
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While peaking on LSD, I no longer experienced consciousness as I had during the rest of my life. My normal consciousness formed into a fractal shape that existed in the "real" dimensions, three spatial and one temporal, but I perceived the fractal from outside those dimensions. I did not experience the flow of time any longer. Stimulus to my "real" senses was experienced as colors flowing through the fractal. I felt pleasure and pain, but there was no meaningful distinction between the two, because the ability and desire to make such a distinction was a trait belonging to a mind I had long since left behind. I did not feel so much like "I" had left anything behind, for that matter, merely that the fractal was now the totality of the universe.
I don't know for sure if that was true ego death. I didn't experience the fear I hear others talking about at the prospect of no longer existing as the consciousness I had spent all my life experiencing before.
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FunkyLoFi
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Re: Ego Death? [Re: Zorodius]
#5472912 - 04/02/06 11:49 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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I once ate 10-11 grams cubensis over a 3 hour period. Although much of the trip has become a blurp in my memory some parts are still very vivid in my mind. When I started to reach my peak, I became very frightened, as I became basically paralyzed and my vision was the same with my eyes open or closed. For the majority of the time I fought against losing touch with this world...which made for a very long night. I feel that I had glimpes and moments of complete ego loss, but because I resisted sooo much I was never able to truly have the ego loss experience. I was so out of my gord that I could not think to try and let go, to let the mushrooms have their way. I had lost all sense or rationality and reason. At one point I had forgotten I had consumed mushrooms until a friend, noticing my panic, reminded me and helped talk me down. I quickly learned that I was not ready for a such an enormous dose. So did I experience ego-loss. Probably not due to my reactions, but I feel if I would have submitted to the experience things would have went alot differently.
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Birds_Can_Swim
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Yes, I experienced something like that
There was a period where my existence was defined by nothing but colors
It went on for a few minutes, and when I came to my friend said I was laughing like a maniac
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mecreateme
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Registered: 05/13/04
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There is no question. Ego loss is so easy to experience. We all glimpse it when we are so absorbed in a movie or video game that we forget what is going on around us. We are so in it, we become it. Ego death is a completely different ball game. At least to me it is. The death of the ego comes when you experience the tortures of existence and all it entails which is much more than any of us care to think about. And more than any of us could possibly dream at the same time.
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Ginseng1
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The thing about ego death is that after you experience it, you basicaly forget 90% of what really happened during the experience.
Ive experienced it, but that was a long time ago, and I dont remember enough of it to describe it or anything. Id have to take some shrooms to resurrect those memories.
All I can say is that it is the most amazing thing you can experience in your life. Ego-Death is key to understanding what it is to be a human, and part of this Earth. We are all children of mothernature, every single living organism. We are all brothers and sisters in this crazy fuckin thing we call life. Plants, insects, animals, fungus, ect...
Thats all i can come up with. All you can really keep from an ego-death experience is the big picture, that being that we are all just a little spec of nothing, but always will be a part of the neverending oneness that is the universe.
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