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XUL
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O and how wonderful it is
#5447056 - 03/27/06 11:16 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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I am back to normal, but even better.
So here is what I did.
well first off let me tell you of my spring break, I drank for a week straight everynight. Not just social drinking. When I drink I drink untill I passout or barf. So lalala I did all that drinking and it left me drenched in anxiety.
So instead of bear it I made a plan.
I took muscle relaxers and codein one night. Opiates and downers relax me for the time, and the effects of it level me out even after the drug is worn off. So I was back to level agian, not much anxiety.
The weekend came and it was time for drinking again! ... but no, as hard as it was I said no and I did not drink.
Now its monday and Im feeling the best ive felt in my entire life. It might not seem like much, but for once in about a year I can look at people in the eye as I walk by. Sometimes I can feel my anxiety trying to rule me, but it cant break through. Its like all the pain and agony faded away and its all clear from here on out.
I think its funny how things worked out. First off because drinking was doing two things to me. Fucking up my studies and causing bad anxiety. It is this semester that I have to study hard to pass. So all in all.. I quit drinking because of anxiety, and I am doing well in school because I quit drinking.
The good thing is I can smoke bud and I have no anxiety the next day. I will have some at the time of high, but not so bad these days.
yea, that was long, but I feel great.
Awsome!
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daimyo
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Re: O and how wonderful it is [Re: XUL]
#5447215 - 03/27/06 12:10 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Congratulations. Oddly, it was way easier for me to quit smoking than it is to quit drinking. Tried twice this year, and the longest I went was three weeks.
I'll give it another go starting today. Drinking leaves me feeling like shit every time now. I used to be fine, but not anymore. Gotta give it up.
Good luck with school.
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leery11
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Re: O and how wonderful it is [Re: daimyo]
#5447757 - 03/27/06 02:22 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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you'd might as well quit weed too man. it's not bullshit about paranoid delusions and moderate psychosis.
When I used to smoke more then 4 times a week and have to quit I would just have constant anxiety for about 1 and one half weeks straight without really understanding why. Thinking I was constantly being monitored, people were looking at me through the windows.
It eats a HOLE in your navel region if you use it excessively as it stimulates massive amounts of chi flow which you aren't really supposed to be experiencing unless you know how to deal with it.
The flip side is this can lead to spiritual use when used sparingly and in moderation.
I'd say weed's a lot better than alcohol to use to chill out though, way way way better physically but not necessarily that great mentally. Plus the fucking laws.
Cut back the smoking a bit to where it's really intense each time you get high and you have no tolerance, and cut out the drinking altogether is what I'd do.
I myself vowed to stop smoking and will now only eat weed, or maybe smoke it once a month or less. Since I don't have a stash because I cooked it all to save my lungs from dying (they got really badly infected and are clearing out nicely though) right now it's just eating.
Everything in moderation or you will fuck yourself up.
Give eating a shot if you haven't.
-------------------- I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo! ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!
Edited by leery11 (03/27/06 02:23 PM)
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browndustin
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Re: O and how wonderful it is [Re: leery11]
#5448234 - 03/27/06 04:43 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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I'd easily disagree with that position on weed. Given the circumstances, there's a trillion and one different strains scattered across the world so it's hard to say what weed will do from person to person. This is clearly taking into consideration that there's even MORE variables with people and surrounding than just strains. I'm very fortunate that I never had anxiety problems with weed, asides from some very wacky sativas that surfaced a few years ago. They'd tear your ego straight out of your ass like mushrooms could during a bad trip.
I've been amazed, almost scared at how much or how little I can smoke and have no negative impact on my life. Perhaps I'm just blessed. I've smoked almost an ounce a week at some points of my life and didn't even have a sore throat to show for it. Now I smoke less than a gram a week, and that's only if I roll a joint. I still think it has no negative impact on my life. Perhaps I'm just good at balancing things out. Very cognizant when it comes to my mind, body and soul... or maybe there's just a good social setting and weed genetics in BC. Who's to say.
What I can say is that I wholeheartedly agree with cutting back. Everyone could cut back a little. I think that there's far greater benefits with smoking in moderation than every day! I'm with you on this one till the end. Like I said, I'm down to about .1g a day, some days I smoke none and some days it'll be 3-5 TINY puffs before the gym. I think it's good for people to take a ride on the green roller coaster... smoke a lot, hit the ceiling, stop to explore things for a while and smoke up from time to time. As this is a forum full of pyschonauts, I'm sure we'll all understand that. But to each his own. I don't want to preach so much as I'd like to help people and help them get more from their weed experiences. I think it's a blessed plant and I'll love it forever. There just needs to be moderation and heaps of respect.
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leery11
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Re: O and how wonderful it is [Re: browndustin]
#5448339 - 03/27/06 05:13 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Oh I think it's a great plant..... but you smoked an ounce a week and didn't fuck up your lungs really bad? Let me tell you I still have layers of mucus stuck in mine even after a weeks of anti-biotics and decongestants..... its cleaning though which is the good thing.
Smoking would have killed me. Casually...... max I'd ever smoke in a session would be 6 hits to get real ripped off mids. Generally I didn't smoke every day.
It fucked me up all the same.... now you're smoking good BC stuff so I guess you don't have to smoke nearly as much... but an ounce in a week dude? I don't know how you can do that and still be healthy.
Maybe chi has fantastic healing powers and once I learn to harness it better I will have enhanced respiratory health, to where if I do smoke it doesn't do much damage.
But I know that I was KILLING myself and lying about it all the way....... and I hate to see my friends who are addicted to cigs, and I can't STAND being in their place because when they smoke it shuts my nostrils clear out and gives me a headache and pollutes and drains all my energy for the rest of the entire day.
Just even walking by a smoker gives me a headache and makes me feel depleted for a few moments.
Weed smoke, second hand.... doesn't bother me in the slightest... tobacco is evil as far as my body tells me though. But still.
I dunno. Maybe I was smoking unhealthy weed.
Just be careful. Too little is better and more beneficial in the short and long run than too much. You can TRIP TRIP TRIP on weed if you treat it with respect and WORK ON YOUR ENERGY...... you can go to the second bardo of clear light, but with ego in-tact. I did... before I started abusing.
Also to give you a perspective I made a half ounce last about 7 months. Yes. 7 months. Sometimes daily smoking, sometimes bi-weekly..... never really went more than a week without doing it. And it was mids. So I can't imagine dude.... unless maybe mine was moldy and that fucked my lungs, but it seemed fine just old, and started to smell bad eventually.
-------------------- I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo! ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!
Edited by leery11 (03/27/06 05:16 PM)
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daimyo
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Re: O and how wonderful it is [Re: daimyo]
#5449274 - 03/27/06 10:16 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Quote:
leery11 said: you'd might as well quit weed too man.
I quit months ago. One of my better decisions.
I started with mids. Smoked maybe a quarter a week. After a year or so I was smoking around 10g-20g a day. Went that route for a couple years, then got into the quality smoke. That allowed me to cut back to 5g-10g a day. Then I quit, and now I feel much better mentally and physically.
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Re: O and how wonderful it is [Re: daimyo]
#5450050 - 03/28/06 06:09 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Nice one XUL, congrats.
On the subject of mariwana I'd say I like to keep usage at the occasional level, got stoned last night - awesome . Respect the Chong !
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Re: O and how wonderful it is [Re: XUL]
#5468611 - 04/01/06 07:01 PM (17 years, 9 months ago) |
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Awsome, indeed!
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