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leery11
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Silly Salvia
#5392259 - 03/12/06 03:16 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Well I was on a negligible dose of mescaline and had hoped salvia would boost it.
I have saturated my mind with the tibettan book of dead/psychedelic experience and nonchalantly lit up the bowl thinking "yeah i'm ready... i'll go all the way"
well okay so I lie down.....................
the first thought that enters my head is "no I'm not ready" .... I notice a spiral starting in the right eye working counterclockward as I feel that I have fragemented into a few different people while still retaining a sense of body.
This is the peak. So............ I am oriented.... and I am struck with a sensation of "going fishing" these are my family members or something going fishing and I'm sitting here BENEATH THEM in another dimension and they are "above me" in a fragmented spiral.
They say nothing at first.... they only speak as I begin to articulate things.... first thing was, I didn't want to slip away..........
second thing was I realized that I am supposed to slip away, that's what ego loss is......... third thing (now i'm going out of order) is i notice there's a stale choking energy in my heart.....
so I start talking to them saying "you need to heal my physical body..... you need to heal my physical body..... you need to heal my physical body.......... you need to heal my physical body" as i'm focusing on what my body feels like....... then.... they start saying "you want to go to heaven" or "you're going to heaven" or "do you want to go to heaven?" or something like that.....
Then I think........ well how can they heal my body with me tripping like this so I say "heal it when i go to sleep tonight" to them....
and then........ I realize... dude you're on the brink of ego-loss just surrender but its too late as I'm already coming down from the high................
the visions are GAPPED like FLICK non FLICK non with 1 or so seconds between, not that they are flickering... (i did notice some strobing pulsation of dull greyish white energy near the third eye) but......... its like you see but at the same time you don't
they were composed out of the dullness and blackness of the eye lids.
i'm also not sure how long this lasted it seemed like just a few minutes but to the clock it was 19 minutes before I got up.
I feel like I've time shifted a bit into the evning, but perhaps its becasue it's just getting darker out.
it's good to partake in salvia without terror or strong emotions though, but it really is bizarre i dunno if you're supposed to be tinkering with the mind like that.... im not sure what exactly it is that you experience with it.
edit: also the "me" that wasn't willing to let go was located right about in the navel area, which is where i've been having some energy problems.
-------------------- I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo! ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!
Edited by leery11 (03/12/06 03:58 PM)
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redgreenvines
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Re: Silly Salvia [Re: leery11]
#5394689 - 03/13/06 10:11 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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where is all this stuff about heaven coming from leery? did your elders chant that song at you over and over, all the little who's in whoville - gotta love 'em, but how dumb, ehh?
we have to work with what is here. realistically the toilet might help the navel or yoga would. some solutions are really body simple. when the body is working nicely - it is heaven.
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leery11
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I'm not sure what you mean redgreenvines.... I had a dream about you last night though, I was deliberately trying to induce a salvia experience in my sleep (sort of worked) and you were talking to me about something.
I think the stuff from heaven came from my subconscious of sorts, because those "things" weren't really "people" necessarily it was like my mind turned them in to people, but only once I started thinking. Initially they were just the result of some sort of schism in my brain or the top of my head or third eye or wheerve it exactly was that I felt like I had split up into pieces.
What IS odd though is how the brain randomly attaches a memory of childhood to the salvia experience for me. This time it was related to fishing (the visuals were very dull and kind of dead, blackish and whitish..... like the spiral on the lateralus cd.....) but the first time I broke through a year ago the memories didn't come back until after I came down, and related to eating a fruit rollup and watching Legend of the Hidden Temple many many many many years ago.
And well if I need to purge something out of my body it's going to have to happen at its own pace...... I think yoga is a better solution than the toilet but some meditation, exercise, proper diet.... and thinking is the best route. (plus yoga)
The sense of familiarity is very strong...... I mean. that is not the first time I've felt that way and it was in conjunction to fishing, it meant something somehow. Or it was the first way but its lodged deep in my brain from the result of the mini-trip, so now it just feels familiar.
-------------------- I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo! ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!
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Re: Silly Salvia [Re: leery11]
#5394963 - 03/13/06 11:44 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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most any connection to fishing is decent.
looking for something that you cannot see, but you have hook and baited line, and may watch the calming surface while in position to reel in and fight some energetic bit of life into cooperation and nutrition.
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calling something from the unconsious mind.
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was not jesus a fisherman?
all good connections, so no quandry required about it.
then there is a bobbing of the float & the pulling on the line a little tug another then the mind is off on a reel...
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leery11
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Well when high it seemed like THEY were fishing and sort of wanted me to join them, but was incapable as of my hesitance to sever connection to my body and the high didn't take me out of body to begin with.
Those are nice interpretations though. When I came down I realized that it's not cool to fish... I mean it is if you need to eat fish but to do it recreationally is very unfair and traumatizing to the fish. As it could be that they were fishing for "me" somehow.
But that wasn't what they were doing, it was more like being coaxed into a memory. But after coming down I could see how it could be that I was "under the surface" and they were trying to fish me out.
-------------------- I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo! ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!
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Re: Silly Salvia [Re: leery11]
#5395299 - 03/13/06 01:55 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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like the process of memory unfolding : something emerges in the space where some other body of water had been.
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