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Real_Poopypants
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It can always get worse
#5372705 - 03/06/06 10:43 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Life is a nightmare - you would do anything to escape. Your closest friend is a razor blade. You have been cutting away the pain for years. Lately, this therapy - slicing until you can't feel - is becoming less effective. You have to cut deeper and more frequently. Like an alcoholic or a junkie, you have gained a tolerance to your drug.
Tonight, it ends - you have it planned. A warm bath, some candles, a mix of favourite songs - and your blade. Perfection. Anticipation. The time is near and you feel, oddly, excited. You will soon find out what's on the other side.
In the water, you waste no time. You cut - down the arm, not across the the wrist like in the movies. You relax and drop your arms to your side. The blade falls to the bottom. It won't be long now - death will come quickly. You are happy in this moment - happy for the first time in your life. Your last clear thought: "I hope I never let you down".
...and the world begins to go away. First the sound - "It is deathly quiet" you think and chuckle a little inside. Next, the colours fade leaving only shades of grey. Finally, the lights go out and you wonder "how much longer"? Just long enough for you to ask.
Good-bye
But wait - it's not the end, my friend. You wake up - the nightmare continues. It seems a loved one - poor soul - happened upon your lifeless body. The miracle of modern medicine has thwarted your escape. You have been lying in this bed for weeks, comatose, unable to defend yourself from those that conspired to save you.
"I'm still alive". It's beginning to sink in. By now you think you've seen it all - nothing can surprise you. "I can't feel my arms"... Well, almost nothing. You scream. Nurses rush in and try to explain. It's hard to understand, but three sharp words stab you in the brain: infection, spread, amputate. You stare blankly, hopelessly at the ceiling and realize your blade can't help you now.
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The_Hobbit
Bilbo Baggins


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bla bla
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faslimy
Dead Man

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must be emo
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StandsAlone
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Re: It can always get worse [Re: faslimy]
#5376375 - 03/07/06 11:41 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Edit: User has been warned about inappropriate post encouraging suicidal action.
Edited by JacquesCousteau (03/08/06 08:20 AM)
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daimyo
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It can always get worse:
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eligal
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Registered: 05/25/05
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Loc: California
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i actually liked it!
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Atheist
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Re: It can always get worse [Re: eligal]
#5379344 - 03/08/06 09:21 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Man why do people cut themselves.
I dunno about you guys but I don't like pain. I'd rather be comfortable LOL
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Real_Poopypants
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Re: It can always get worse [Re: Atheist]
#5379478 - 03/08/06 09:57 PM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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This story isn't about me or anyone that I know for that matter. It was originally intended to be somewhat humorous - dark, but humorous. I don't know why I wrote it, but maybe by posting this someone might read it and think twice the next time they reach for that blade. I don't know. I'm sure it appeals to someone. later
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silver22
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Suicide is a serious issue. If someone wishes to end their life by means of suicide with or without seeking advice--I hope they are strong and able to succeed with their outcome. For, if I chose this route to end my life, I would not want to be rescued by anyone--I would not want to live by means of life-support--that's not living to me.
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CaRnAgECaNdY
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This may have been more appropriate for the MA&L forum. Since you claim it is a poem. Obviously some have taken this the wrong way. I don't like the idea of suicide. My father hung himself in my bedroom closet and I was the one who found his body. I was 8 then.
I don't take suicide very lightly.
I like you though Mr. Poops. I'm sorry I haven't been on MSN to talk to you in awhile. I miss our convos. I hope things are going well for you.
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