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RatherBeAlone13
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Losing my mind *DELETED*
#5314019 - 02/18/06 05:34 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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take some vicodin
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Ginseng1
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what do u mean your loosing your mind?
too many thoughts at once, not enuff thoughts?
just relax man, take a deep breath and try not to do any drugs for a few days.
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I'm entering year four of that type of shit, you get used to it.
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RatherBeAlone13
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: Idiot]
#5314041 - 02/18/06 05:39 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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no, this is gotten really bad
my mind has been gone for a long while now,
but now, its not there at all... it is really completely gone
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: Idiot]
#5314044 - 02/18/06 05:40 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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If you truly lost your mind, you wouldn't be worrying about it. But perhaps you are having a panic attack or something. Perhaps you should get a benzo to help calm you down.
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eligal
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look for it!! maybe its under the bed
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RatherBeAlone13
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: eligal]
#5314054 - 02/18/06 05:42 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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No, I am calm.
Just feeling lost in my own house.
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: eligal]
#5314056 - 02/18/06 05:43 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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or u can just check yourself.
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: Ginseng1]
#5314058 - 02/18/06 05:43 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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before you wiggity wreck yourself
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gregorio
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Have you been dealing with a lot of stress lately? Stress can fuck your mind and body over in ways that just are never appreciated. You say you have felt like this for about 4 days are so. Anything significant happen the week before leading up to this?
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RatherBeAlone13
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: gregorio]
#5314067 - 02/18/06 05:46 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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It all happened with a big party. For some reason, I was drinkin, smoking and doing coke for 17 hours straight or so, everyone woke up tha next day.. And I was still up partying alone outside.
I dont know how much i did
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RatherBeAlone13
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But that was days ago, i should be fine by now
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take a xanax.... go to bed .... nuff said
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: Infrared]
#5314081 - 02/18/06 05:49 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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coke is evil, the sooner you realize that, the sooner youll stop, and the sooner your mind will come back.
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Well, I would lay off the coke to begin with. Eat some good healthy food, drink plenty of water, take your vitamins, start exercising even if it is nothing more than a long walk. It sounds like something that will soon pass.
Did anything bad happen at that party? Any regrets of anything that you did there?
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: donkey2]
#5314088 - 02/18/06 05:51 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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i havent realized that yet.
and dont think i will for a long while.
And about going to bed, i cant, slept all day. And plus im bout to head out to another party tonight, if i can make it there. I just need to be around some people tonight.
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THE KRAT BARON
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Quote:
RatherBeAlone13 said: no, this is gotten really bad
my mind has been gone for a long while now,
but now, its not there at all... it is really completely gone
Have you been huffing gas recently?
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RatherBeAlone13
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Regrets?? Hmm yeah, quite a few. But i was so fucked up that i dont really care. Didnt care then and dont now. And i cant lay off tha coke, i still have some here and cant help but do it. It must seriously be about tha most addicting thing in tha world. Its always on my mind.. It has totally re-wired me and my brain and my life.
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RatherBeAlone13
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Quote:
mattzdope said:
Quote:
RatherBeAlone13 said: no, this is gotten really bad
my mind has been gone for a long while now,
but now, its not there at all... it is really completely gone
Have you been huffing gas recently?
Haha, wow i actually laughed? Thats fun.
But no, to answer your question i havent. No huffing of nothing for me. Im not that bad
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What do you want more? Coke or your mind back?
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RatherBeAlone13
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: gregorio]
#5314111 - 02/18/06 05:57 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Quote:
gregorio said: What do you want more? Coke or your mind back?
Both actually
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RatherBeAlone13
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one more fuckin line. I really got a problem here. I need to get away from life for a bit so, i can get drugs off my mind
I really thought that I could maintain. And I have for years, with weed. But now coke is in tha picture and I CANT do this much longer...
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I don't know man, it sounds like the coke just might be the cause of your problems. I'm not trying to make this sound easy but maybe it is time to just flush the coke.
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if you wanna feel normal you just have to stop doing that shit.
just sit in your room for a long time and relax. watch every thought that pops up and ask yourself if it's a healthy thought or an unhealthy thought.
you just have to wait. you sound ike you don't really want to wait, you want to keep using coke. so if you want to keep using it, just know that this kind of shit is going to keep happening....
if you want to feel normal just fucking stop. if you need to see people then try and hang out with someone but not at a party where you'll probably just do it again.
your brain will go normal, you just have to let it.
you have started a self destructive desire of not liking what is happening to you, but continuing doing the things you do to make you feel that way in the first place. you will never be content until you fix this cycle.
just sit in your room and meditate. spend an hour or more doing nothing but paying attention to what it feels like to breathe and be alive. each moment becomes progressively easier until you're free. you just have to fucking let go.
psychedelics might help, maybe, but you need to get some rest and just get yourself back to doing a healthy routine of exercise and eating well and living for the moment, not for intoxicated moments.
all you need is a WILL to feel normal and you WILL feel normal.
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: gregorio]
#5314131 - 02/18/06 06:04 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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maybe im making it sound like it is. I dont know
I really dont know...
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THE KRAT BARON
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You personally obviously cannot have both. 
It's really not that hard to stop it just takes a little will power and restraint.
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RatherBeAlone13
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I will just go out and smoke a cigerette and see what happens...
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lay off the coke bro...
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: eligal]
#5314147 - 02/18/06 06:07 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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also if you really feel the need to drugs at least just cut the coke out of the equation and stick to weed or something.
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I would lose my fucking mind if I ran out of ciggerettes.
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Sounds like a spirtual quest to me. I lose myself all the time and consider myself reborn. I find this is the only way to live my life. Things of the past sometimes must be permenatly removed and your new consiouness remains. Don't be afraid, just let yourself become.
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: eligal]
#5314171 - 02/18/06 06:14 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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You have to be willing to go through the fire to get come out the other side clean.
You can face your pain and defeat it.
Or you can avoid your pain forever and always have it control you.
Do you want to own your life, or struggle through it until you die?
Love for you.
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Quote:
Demonichildren said: Sounds like a spirtual quest to me. I lose myself all the time and consider myself reborn. I find this is the only way to live my life. Things of the past sometimes must be permenatly removed and your new consiouness remains. Don't be afraid, just let yourself become.
It always has been a spiritual quest for me.
But i think i figured out what i need... or forget it i havent
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All I have to do is make it through tha next hour.
I need to find something to do...

(besides that)
oh, wait i got it!!
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why don't you try and see if you can meditate for an hour?
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Re: Losing my mind [Re: leery11]
#5314230 - 02/18/06 06:32 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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meditate? I dont know tha first thing about that.
And Im surprized that someone is still here with me.
I thought id be just talking to myself from here on out
So, thank you to all of you who are still here right now!!!
Much love!
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leery11
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Just breathe!
Sit down or lie down in as comfortable a position as possible, then commit a period of time to doing nothing other than paying attention to your breath.
inhale while trying to not think, then exhale and count until its time to inhale again. it's okay that your mind thinks, you just don't deliberately think about any topic on your own.
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THE KRAT BARON
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Trust me, I've been there, and understand how you feel to some extent. It's a love / hate relationship. Withdrawal really isn't the problem (unless you're a weak fuck), the problem lies in coming to terms and actually wanting to stop.
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RatherBeAlone13
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yeah it is cuz i dont want to stop not at all
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RatherBeAlone13
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this is a pointless post i know. But once in a lifetime wont hurt
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There is nothing pointless about it at all.
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Well, you have the mental wherewithal to make a post about it, so things aren't as bad as you think they are.
Edited by Le_Canard (02/18/06 07:49 PM)
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PinballWizard
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Read a book. Catcher in the Rye or something.
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RatherBeAlone13
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Update:
Things are slowly getting better. I still can only type like 10 words a minute tho. Well, maybe more..
But I think my mind is comming back....
Time for more sleeppp.....................
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