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the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear
#5301085 - 02/14/06 09:58 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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I've set my ring on the stove till it was piping hot and tried to burn a hole in my palm, like Jesus took his nail through the flesh. I am weak. I dropped the fire, I sustained only MINOR burns from this experience, and I feel like if I was given the choice of pleasureful sin, or PAINFUL goodness, I would choose the easy path.
Ah, the easy path. SO fucking easy out there in the free tide. SO flowing and easy to access, and master. SO fucking free handed to me, like candy. And I ate of the vine, the wine, and the sweet candy. Until even I Was sick. Like a sinner in the eyes of the Lord.
When asked to die, To die to my BODY, when asked to hold onto the ring of pain, I dropped it, and would not leave my mark of burned flesh. I hope to be stronger, even now, as I heat my inner fire, to golden the band of silver . To turn the silver, INTO GOLD. The ultimate act, of Jesus or our savior. Metaphorically, at least the idea of turning something into another, even greater or more like our Lord.
The creator turned darkness into light, and I will turn those demons into saviors. This thing inside of me, must be brought out to prowl the plains, and to seek what it wants to, on it's own accord. Like a Lion stalking and laying in the field.
And now, I spit the candy out, as I heal myself from within. I hurt myself, to know what pain is about. No pain is greater, than the ones inside, but only because they last forever, and not how long the body takes to heal them. I will heal these wounds, that I sport on my skin, because of the blessings of the Human body. And like our Lord who was also the ultimate human, I strive to move beyond the here and now, unto the ultimate realization of who I am and who I am to become.
I must become the Healer, of both self AND spirit, a leader of myself and others to salvation. And wherever this path may lead, I have seen it, because of my past, and who I am.
I am like the moon, a child in the darkness. One who has been slow to embrace the sun. And here between the shadows I think in my head, endulged in liquor and the Nature of mysself, and try to reflect the Sun. THe sun is my savior, and I must forever BE the sun, and spread the rays of love and hope.
Edited by four_winds (02/14/06 10:07 PM)
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: four_winds]
#5301155 - 02/14/06 10:12 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Some here may remember my bad acid trip from a year ago. What made it so terrifying was that it felt like I was experiencing the pain that all the people in the world inflicted on one another. I believe that this is the true meaning of the crucifixion: It was not just the Romans crucifying Jesus, but mankind crucifying itself. Jesus felt the pain of the world, yet forgave everyone because he understood that he was one with the same people who were killing him. Seen in this manner, one can understand the resurrection as mankind overcoming its self-destructive hatred and reaching salvation.
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: Silversoul]
#5301162 - 02/14/06 10:16 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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If men do not first experience the resurrection while they are alive, they will not receive anything when they die.
Gospel of Philip, saying 21
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: Silversoul]
#5301184 - 02/14/06 10:20 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Both of you are wise, yes, with words that help a brother. Out there in the waters, it is hard to make of the truth. Yes, Jesus, beyond my total understanding, one whom I love and trust, like myself
Edited by four_winds (02/14/06 10:25 PM)
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: four_winds]
#5301211 - 02/14/06 10:29 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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christians piss me off
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: DeathCompany]
#5301234 - 02/14/06 10:36 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Quote:
DeathCompany said: christians piss me off
That's ok. Jesus loves you anyway.
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: Silversoul]
#5301238 - 02/14/06 10:36 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Quote:
Paradigm said:
Quote:
DeathCompany said: christians piss me off
That's ok. Jesus loves you anyway.
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: spud]
#5301249 - 02/14/06 10:39 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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haha
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: Silversoul]
#5301251 - 02/14/06 10:39 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Nothing is as offensive as people who derive their virtues from fantasies.
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: NerdleWombanger]
#5301260 - 02/14/06 10:41 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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NerdleWombanger said: Nothing is as offensive as people who derive their virtues from fantasies.
After taking a course in moral philosophy, I have to say that philosophy is unlikely to bring you any closer to morality than religion is.
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: four_winds]
#5301266 - 02/14/06 10:42 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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All I know is that I wouldn't burn myself intentionally for any reason
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: Silversoul]
#5301277 - 02/14/06 10:45 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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I don't consider virtue and morality to be synonymous, to avoid confusion, maybe I should've used the word 'value' instead?
Besides... most philosophy isn't any less fanciful.
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: NerdleWombanger]
#5301286 - 02/14/06 10:47 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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you can tell jesus thankyou...o wait no one has ever seen him nevermind
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: DeathCompany]
#5301300 - 02/14/06 10:50 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Quote:
DeathCompany said: you can tell jesus thankyou...o wait no one has ever seen him nevermind
I have.
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: Silversoul]
#5301305 - 02/14/06 10:51 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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haha yeah and i have pictures of mrs claus naked
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: DeathCompany]
#5301310 - 02/14/06 10:53 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Dude... whip em out!
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: NerdleWombanger]
#5301314 - 02/14/06 10:54 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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hahai got em for valentines day and she said they were for my eyes only
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: DeathCompany]
#5301322 - 02/14/06 10:56 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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What a shame. Luckily, I've always got my imagination.
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: NerdleWombanger]
#5301328 - 02/14/06 10:56 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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yeah same with all these other jesus loving retards
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Re: the pain of Jesus, that I could not bear [Re: DeathCompany]
#5301593 - 02/15/06 12:04 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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hey now! jesus is real! ive seen him!
hes a mexican who works at taco bell
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