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EnCHaNTeDHoBBiT
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Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams
#5297902 - 02/14/06 02:03 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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My last , most recent, shroom experience was quite traumatic. I'm really not sure what has happened but I finally got "the fear". I'm fairly experienced with a wide variety of psychedelics. I've shroomed at least 20 times and most of my doses have been in the 4-4.5 grams range. I've been as high as 6.5 grams but that was just over doing it for me.
Any how, this particular experience is with 5 grams, fasted for 12 hours prior and downed them finely chopped with a little Sunny D. The come on was quite rapid and I began to sweat profusely. After smoking a bit of bud, I began to shake and tremble all over, especially in my legs. I thought I was cold so I wrapped up in a blanket. I still shivered for about an hour. This really amplified my panic meter. I wasn't feeling good at all, I was extremely nervous and could feel something trying to drag me back. Like I was about to experience ego death. I felt like I was going to pass out. My whole body was numb and I was fading in and out of reality. I puked(which I've never done b4) and dry heaved numerous times. I kept seeing demonic figures, true hallucinations, nothing like I've ever seen before. I couldn't leave the bathroom and my friend, who was also tripping from the same batch, same dose was worried. I was literally freaking out. I could hear voices and the whole room was a blend of twisting morphing colors.
I began to see my life memories flash before my eyes, I was paralyzed and couldn't move. I wasn't sure if I was still breathing and didn't believe I was blinking either. The TV which was loud sounded very distant. If I tried to speak it's like it wasn't me, it didn't even sound like me. My friend said I was mumbling and never made much sense. I thought I was dead and that it was taking a while for the official "end" to come. I was totally disabled and numb. I made myself relax and stop fighting. If ego death was gonna happen I figured there was no way to stop it. Plus I also read some posts by experienced shroomers about how if it's gonna happen it's gonna keep reoccurring until you stop fighting it and then it's suppose to not return again.
I had no control and I melted into the bed, the entire time this felt awful, I had pains all over and my head was pounding. Something was controlling me and forcing me to lie down and see all these strange, negative things. My last trip on 6 grams, something was pulling me back, trying to make me paralyzed on the bed but, that trip I fought it somehow. This time it got me. I laid there for hours wishing I could make it go away. It never eased up, the peak was so intense and strange, like nothing I've ever experienced and it would not stop. It was so profoundly terrifying.
I finally managed to pry myself from my bed and get on the net to login to the shroomery and see if that would help. If someone could help me kill it. I got to my computer and nothing would work. The screen was frozen or something and the time 1:58am, 7 hours since my dose. I couldn't believe it, I thought I was permanently insane. I rebooted my PC and looked at the time and freaked it said 3:58am. WTF I know I didn't sit there for 2 hours. I really can't explain that one. All of the sudden after seeing the time it's like the intensity went away immediately. The peak was gone in one glance at the time.
I read a bunch of comforting posts here the shroomery and sat here crying. (I love you guys, you all really know where it's at) I felt like all I saw and was, it's just so simple. I'm so perplexed by this experience. I cried and laughed and just sat there in awe of what had just happened to me.
It's all in the mind, man, it's all in the mind!
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EnCHaNTeDHoBBiT
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: EnCHaNTeDHoBBiT]
#5297910 - 02/14/06 02:10 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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I also kept thinking that maybe I had a fever. I don't know what made this so intense, has anyone else become sensitive to your usual doses? Like I could do 4.5 grams and have a decent time but nothing mindblowing. Any ideas on what might have happened?
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: EnCHaNTeDHoBBiT]
#5298003 - 02/14/06 03:13 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Damn dude, sorry to hear it went that way. After all your past experiences with shrooms i didnt think you would go through a trip like that. But i guess experience doesnt matter as much as i thought it would. Im just curious but Did you have any music playing during the come up ?
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Edited by Opioid (02/14/06 03:47 AM)
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beatnicknick
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: Opioid]
#5298086 - 02/14/06 05:05 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Wow man it sounds like you went straight to hell during this one. I'm happy people at the shroomery could help, but during the trip did you find anything out? Or was it pure confusion, chaos, and trauma?
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EnCHaNTeDHoBBiT
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: beatnicknick]
#5298189 - 02/14/06 06:09 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Well it was hellish but I did see a career change, in fact the experience has helped me go back to college this spring. I just registered for this spring and the experience guided me to not wait any longer.
I have come to terms with death of myself, my mom and dad. I worry that I won't be strong enough to pull out of it when they pass. They're getting old and I worry a lot about them dying. I sorted through some stuff while out there.
I felt deep sympathy for my chihuahuas. One of them has a severe licking/scratching problem and it's like she was telepathically telling me to give her more baths and have their nails clipped more often. I need to get them a special shampoo to help out with the itching. I mean I felt like they were just so helpless without hands and the intense itching must be driving them insane. I could feel their pain.
I mean a zillion things happened that night, unfortunately, I cannot remember a good majority of the profoundness. I feel it was an awakening, like rebirth and life is just far more precious than it ever has been for me.
I'm just worried about taking my usual dose again since this happened. I think I'll wait a while and when things in life are uncomplicated, I'll adventure out again to gain some more from my truly mysterious and marvelous guide.
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: EnCHaNTeDHoBBiT]
#5298231 - 02/14/06 06:46 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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i had my ass kicked by a 4.5 gram dose,the first poo shrooms i grew..it was pretty much like your trip..ive found that when ever your muscles tremble you are gonna get your ass kicked..it is very scary ,it really shook me up and to tell you the truth i really havent had but a couple of trips since and the only large one i did since, almost went down the same path..it was a 3.5 dose and i ate a couple of extra caps for some dumb reason...its hard to shake those feelings at least for me.... i still have great trips on lsd though..and never any scary or fearful feelings..good luck bro,try and spin it into a positive ,thats what i have done..it taught me alot about myself thats for sure
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: EnCHaNTeDHoBBiT]
#5298375 - 02/14/06 08:10 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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"Then I smoked bud"... it seems that this tends to go hand in hand with "bad trips". I'm not saying always, but oftentimes when trips take that quick turn away from peacefulness and tranquility, marijuana has been added somewhere in the mix. For me... I wait until the come down.
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: AlwaysFlowin]
#5298460 - 02/14/06 09:12 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Did you try stopping the fight to 'die'?
Or it didnt work?
Edited by Grapefruity (02/14/06 09:14 AM)
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: Grapefruity]
#5298471 - 02/14/06 09:20 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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This sounds soo much like a trip I had on 4g. I fasted for a good 12 hours also and ingested with cranberry juice. Some feelings over came me I started to tremble and sweat like I was in a oven. Seeing parts of my life go by every min then finally i let go and ego death came very stronge. I deff think fasting may be something to do with it. Just my two cents tho hehe
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thedudenj
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: Mazooki]
#5298522 - 02/14/06 09:46 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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wow i had a simlar hellish trip on the 12th, it was amanita tho but i tripped in a visual sense more then psilos and as for the psychological effects they were amanita ones but meanancing and hellish i thought i was going to die i think psychedelics are infulanced by the moon and if you looked out side on 12th or last night the 13th almost full moon i was getting effected by it greatly, i tripped on mesc last night and i saw many demonic faces in the shower rooms walls and they were screaming
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Edited by thedudenj (02/14/06 09:49 AM)
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tonyperez420
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: thedudenj]
#5298570 - 02/14/06 10:02 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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wow, thanx for sharing your trip... I was never brave enough to try such a trip, but I think its a good experience for everyone... its a like a battle within onself...
BTW what strain was that?
I had a real freaky trip off of amanitas.... it was not great but it was not bad either, real wierd my senses were really fucking with me
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: tonyperez420]
#5300002 - 02/14/06 04:50 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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"I rebooted my PC and looked at the time and freaked it said 3:58am. WTF I know I didn't sit there for 2 hours."
Hahaha, that must have screwed with your mind.
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: WScott]
#5300023 - 02/14/06 04:55 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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5+ g's have a tendency to do a lot of ass whooping, it's a known fact. ;D
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: Kaleidoscope]
#5302055 - 02/15/06 03:10 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Yeah, if I do adventure out there again, it will definitely be a smaller dose this round. From now on, I'll tread lightly.
I think that's my gauge now, if I start to tremble and sweat profusely, then I'm about to get my ass kicked. I definitely plan on having a couple Xanax around from now on.
I mean whenever I smoked bud during trips it's always been great. It does tend to make me a bit paranoid, so at higher dose trips, maybe it should be saved for the comedown.
Yeah, man I tried to stop the fight, it was terrifying to let go, to melt away into my bed. I have heard of it being physically pleasant after you let go, but this was far from pleasant for me.
The strain was Cambodian. Very friendly, visual strain for me.
Overall, it was beneficial to my mind and spirit, I know. Besides if you adventure out there enough, you're bound to meet your nemesis.
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Re: Intense, Terrifying and Profound Experience 5 Grams [Re: EnCHaNTeDHoBBiT]
#5302345 - 02/15/06 07:57 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Again, try not smoking if you know the trip may be an intense one. The shrooms are powerful enough alone, respect them like so.
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