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XUL
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Re: Worst trip of my life, really bad.... almost Schizophrenic [Re: leery11]
#5295941 - 02/13/06 05:30 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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If your going to pray to Jesus, then dont pray to other deitys also.
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leery11
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Re: Worst trip of my life, really bad.... almost Schizophrenic [Re: XUL]
#5296398 - 02/13/06 06:58 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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I don't think Jesus is the only enlightened person that has ever existed by a long shot. 
are you a Christian?
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Re: Worst trip of my life, really bad.... almost Schizophrenic [Re: leery11]
#5296421 - 02/13/06 07:01 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Quote:
leery11 said: I don't think Jesus is the only enlightened person that has ever existed by a long shot. 
are you a Christian?
Im not debating that. Im just saying there is no point wasting your time praying to Jesus if your praying to other gods. God, and Jesus are christianity, and you may not pray to false gods.
I dont care tho, Im not gonna argue anything, ill leave it at that. nice report tho 
and yes im christian
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Edited by XUL (02/13/06 07:02 PM)
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leery11
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Re: Worst trip of my life, really bad.... almost Schizophrenic [Re: XUL]
#5296477 - 02/13/06 07:12 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Yeah I see what you mean..... what I did was just because I was afraid of hell.
But yeah.... I mean I don't know what I believe in, but if I believe in Jesus I believe in Buddha and belive in Jesus more from a Buddhist perspective, that anyone can get enilghtened and help others do the same.
In that light I would not consider them false idols. The television is our false God :/
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Re: Worst trip of my life, really bad.... almost Schizophrenic [Re: leery11]
#5297160 - 02/13/06 09:31 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Ok, so the moral of your story is stay away from the T.V. especially while high ;0 And just remember to keep questioning and analyzing, while at the same time remaining hesitant to fully invest yourself in any single ideology (i.e. dualism, monotheism, nihilism, consumerism, etc, etc. ad infinitum)
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Mr.Knowitall
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Re: Worst trip of my life, really bad.... almost Schizophrenic [Re: 33L]
#8099933 - 03/03/08 10:40 PM (15 years, 10 months ago) |
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I had a similar trip on new years eve stretching on into the days after(seemed like a lifetime). My first "bad trip" which in the end wasn't bad at all. It was on what I thought was LSD. It started off wonderful and at one point I just lost it. There were times where I could actually hear the word "schizophrenic" steadily coming from the hip hop we were listening to because I guess it's sort of a fear I have, you know, doing a drug and never coming down. Sometimes if felt like the world was ending and everything was shrinking to a singularity. I called my aunt/grandparents who live hours away and rushed to see them as soon as I could in fear that I would never have another chance. I felt like I could hear everyone's thoughts. I felt like I was causing chaos by being too "in-tune" Like things were being revealed to me that shouldn't be and by me knowing them I was interfering with what should be happening. At times I felt as if I was being repaid for something I had done, and I found myself confessing things that I felt I needed to get off my chest to people around me. I was extemely paranoid, the television was a scary thing while I was on this trip. Terrible thoughts seemed to project themselves on it. Vivid images of death and gore. I felt like I was dying, and even felt like I was reborn at one point and asked my mom if I looked like a baby in her eyes and if I was going to have to go back to highschool(hahah that was funny). I also over-analyzed everything and felt like lyrics of songs and poetry or any writing for that matter was speaking directly about or to me. With you the band was Tool, with me the main band that did it was Primus haha go figure. (both of those bands are meant to trip you out) I freaked out and cleaned out my room until there was almost nothing left. I ended up shaving my head because it felt like a new beginning(I had really long hair) I got on some guilt trip about doing drugs. I swore off all the drugs even weed (which I smoke daily) and deleted pictures of people that I did drugs with including my best friend. (a few days later I realized how stupid that was and how I was just tripping out and restored them, as well as started toking again) It was very emotional. Funny that you mention going vegetarian, because I have been vegetarian ever since that trip, and the first week I did the vegan thing. Every trip I've ever had I would get the feeling like I was everyone that I came in contact with, including animals. Kind of like I was everything (just using different eyes and ears and such), and completely alone, but my mind was playing a big trick on me trying to keep me from finding out, by projecting these images of things that seemed real(and independent), but also helping me to find out that it's all me (for example, by giving me a drug that would let me realize, like LSD or shrooms) kind of like a game if you can understand what I mean. I would think things like this and convince myself into thinking that I was sort of like a cannibal, killing and eating myself every time I ate animal products. And the thrill of catching a fish would be just the sensation of "catching" yourself. It was inevitable that I'd finally quit the meat and this trip is exactly what I needed to finally commit. This trip pushed me to be more of the person I want to be. I learned so much. I have bettered myself immensely since then and feel healthier/happier then ever before. I just needed to come to terms with things. After the confusion dissipates these things can be used for good.
Sorry I wrote so much, just wanted to share because I could kind of relate. Except the ganja is an everyday thing for me, if anything it's the opposite of "the devil" but even I got confused to the point where I thought it was evil
About religion and everything else you can involve yourself in- You just gotta find out what you believe in, don't let someone tell you what the truth is, find out for yourself.
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Re: Worst trip of my life, really bad.... almost Schizophrenic [Re: Mr.Knowitall]
#8100055 - 03/03/08 11:22 PM (15 years, 10 months ago) |
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I wish I had more time to read the replies to this thread, and hopefully before too long I will. I did however read the original post.
I often get the experiences where the world is revolving around my thoughts. Things sync up in ways that are quite bizarre. However, mine are generally very positive in nature. I have had quite a few VERY negative ones though, and they helped me immensely in my life.
You seem to be taking things in roughly the same direction as I would have. Apply it to your life, see what in your life could have caused something like this. I think that our fears definitely play a large role in our lives, and can certainly surface in less than enjoyable ways if we repress them. Try to turn things in your favor if you can, but don't be concerned if it doesn't happen right away. I often find myself reminded of how lucky we all are that time keeps going and doesn't stop, because sooner or later something bad happens. Time eventually pushes that bad right on down the line and lets something new come in.
Best wishes for your self-exploration and I must apologize for not being able to read the responses in more detail. Maybe another day.
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Re: Worst trip of my life, really bad.... almost Schizophrenic [Re: leery11]
#14157640 - 03/21/11 02:03 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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On weed
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