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mediman0078
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I was railroaded....
#5281885 - 02/09/06 01:45 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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by a nurse I was working with during a clinical. I was assigned to assume the duties of a nurse in a nursing home who had 33(!!!) patients and handle the distribution of their daily drugs. Now I've never had to deal with more than 7 patients at a time because large patient loads aren't feasible in acute care settings like the ER. Anyhow, during her rush to get out the morning medications, she instructed me to give a cup full of various drugs to the wrong damn geezer. She fucking crashed hard, damn near died. Her blood pressure was so low I had to give her epinephrine and put her on a ventilator because she was only breathing 6 times a minute and only very shallowly. Unfortunantly for the people in this nursing home, they aren't required to wear ID bracelets like you get at the hospital, so I had to take this nurses word that the patient I was giving drugs to was who she said it was. Well she fucked up, and I got the full brunt of the blame because I was the person who actually handed the drugs to this patient. Now I've been dismissed from the school I was attending for the rest of the semester, I have to pay back nearly $3100 in financial aide, move to another city to get back into school by the fall, and completely repeat one of the hardest classes I've ever had while carrying another load of bachelor level specialist classes. I've never been so fucking pissed off in my entire life. Plus, I've been having constant nightmares about nearly killing or actually killing someone, I've managed to get an enormous, throbbing stress ulcer that is so fucking painful I can't hardly eat, and I've been blackballed by this bitch of a shithead instructor that was the one who said I needed experience in a long term care facility. I HATE THE FUCKING NURSING HOME!! It's the most depressing place I've ever had to work. All those dying people just sitting around, getting shitty nursing care because the facility is so short staffed (33 patients for 1 nurse is fucking INSANE), waiting to keel over. I've even had people ask me to give them extra doses of their pain meds so they can horde them up and OD just to die and get the hell out of there. So fucking wrong... if I ever get to the point that I have to be sent somewhere like that, I'll off myself first... that's a living nightmare.
Keep your fingers crossed for me folks, as I have a bumpy ride ahead of me.
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: mediman0078]
#5281901 - 02/09/06 01:49 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Seems like you need a career change. If you're not happy doing what you do, get out. Easier said than done, I know, but maybe you HAVE to now.
Everything is a lesson. What do you choose to learn?
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The_Hobbit
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Just keep going, bro. You know you don't deserve it, but you have to take what's given to you.
I admire your dedication. Just realize that you need to relax. Meditate at night before sleeping. You need to stay sane.
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mediman0078
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I love the medical field... this was just a very shitty circumstance. No career change is in my future. I've invested years of time and tens of thousands of dollars into this. To switch now would prevent me from being able to have the family life me and my wife have been planning for for 6 years. We've been waiting to have kids until I finish with my advanced practice degree so that I can work, make enough money for us to live quite comfortably, and allow her to stay home and raise our future children right. ......and I'm not getting any younger. If I wait much longer I'll be nearly 60 when my kids are ready to leave the house and go it on their own. So time is of the essense. I can't afford setbacks like this.... they're expensive.
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Edited by mediman0078 (02/09/06 02:00 PM)
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In(di)go
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: mediman0078]
#5281984 - 02/09/06 02:12 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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fuck man! that sucks big time... i'll keep my fingers crossed for you... 
keep your head on straight and try let go of the anger... or release it some way harmless to others...
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TheHateCamel
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: mediman0078]
#5282003 - 02/09/06 02:18 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Learn from that shit and relax.
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mediman0078
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It's hard not to learn from it. There's several things I will never do again because of this. But as much as I'd like to relax, it still comes back to me in my dreams... seemingly each worse than the last.... I don't know if you guys know how stessful it is to watch someone die because of your actions. I know it's part of the job, but that doesn't make it any easier.
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: mediman0078]
#5282256 - 02/09/06 03:33 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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"The world is like a ride in an amusement park and when you choose to go on it you think it's real, because that's how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and around and around and it has thrills and chills and it's very brightly coloured and it's very loud. And it's fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they begin to question, is this real, or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered, and they come back to us, and they say, "Hey, don't worry, don't be afraid, ever, because... this is just a ride."
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Infrared
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: mediman0078]
#5282269 - 02/09/06 03:36 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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man, you got fucked... seriously i woulda snapped at that dumb bitch who told you to give meds to the wrong patient... how did she not get in trouble?? , if SHE told YOU to give the person these meds... she was in charge, you werent.. you were just following orders.. she shoudla been fired not you... go file a complaint or sumthin man... it wasnt your fault, go get your job back..
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mediman0078
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Quote:
McKennaDMT said: "The world is like a ride in an amusement park and when you choose to go on it you think it's real, because that's how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and around and around and it has thrills and chills and it's very brightly coloured and it's very loud. And it's fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they begin to question, is this real, or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered, and they come back to us, and they say, "Hey, don't worry, don't be afraid, ever, because... this is just a ride."
I like that. *printed* I'm sticking that on my cork board along with my physicians creed.
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mediman0078
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: Infrared]
#5282340 - 02/09/06 03:56 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Quote:
DeepBlue42 said: man, you got fucked... seriously i woulda snapped at that dumb bitch who told you to give meds to the wrong patient... how did she not get in trouble?? , if SHE told YOU to give the person these meds... she was in charge, you werent.. you were just following orders.. she shoudla been fired not you... go file a complaint or sumthin man... it wasnt your fault, go get your job back..
I didn't lose my job... just my position in my class. I was the valedictorian of the class up to now too. The nurse did get written up, but that's small potatos compared to trying to get into a reputable nursing school. Especially if your working towards anethesia specialist. The reasoning behind frying me was that I should have caught the error prior to handing the pills out, though i don't understand how I could've done that. They weren't wearing any form of ID and half of those old folks don't even know who the hell they are anyhow. I did hire a very good lawer to go over this whole thing and determine if I have a lawsuit that might help me out of this mess. She's expensive as hell, but is one of the best for this area. I'm litterally bankrupt right now because of this.
Thanks for the support guys, I just needed to vent... cause if I did it physically and verbally, I might just beat the hell out of someone.
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In(di)go
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best bill hicks quote ever, IMO
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: mediman0078]
#5282564 - 02/09/06 04:52 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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That sucks nuts man. I hope everything works out for you, and I especially hope you have a case against those pricks.
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: mediman0078]
#5284398 - 02/10/06 01:25 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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I Can understand how its her fault, and also how its yours. In the medical business there is no excuse for her to fuck up, and noe xcuse really for you to not triple verify when it comes to someones life. I have to deal with similar fault situations at work, though not with peoples lives, but computer servers. Someone can write me bad instructions and it will still be my fault if I down half the network for not checking the instructions instead of just blindly following them. 
Sorry hear all that though man, Relax, take a deep breath, and just bust ass to get what you want. Look at it like a test, a small hurdle to make you a better person.
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: mndfreeze]
#5284456 - 02/10/06 02:00 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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old people... die,
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mediman0078
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Re: I was railroaded.... [Re: fresh313]
#5284949 - 02/10/06 08:34 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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yes they do... I just don't want it to be because I was being a tard. I did manage to bring her back around and she's fine now. She just said she slept real good... I bet! She probably had more narcotics in that cup than she'd ever had before, along with some Ativan and blood pressure meds. The person they were supposed to go to was terminal and on LOTS of morphine and hydrocodone and had quite the tolerance.
I feeling a bit better about this because I spent most of yesterday after starting this thread calling schools and talking with them to see how much of what I've already done will transfer. I found a better school (IMO, less girly office politics, more PhD's teaching) that'll accept most of my credits. I'll still have to take a not so easy advance practice placement test to prove I actually know what the hell I'm doing, but I have several months now to study... in that amount of time I'll study enough to place ahead of where I am now. I still will lose some credits, but not nearly as much as I thought... Nursing schools are notoriously picky about taking transfers. I will keep on though... this has at least shown me that I can't trust anyone else with this kinda thing, as my own license is on the line... now I'll be a bastard about not administering anything I didn't draw up myself... and that's a good thing.
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