hey pub i wanted to see what you guys thought about this, i fucking hate wrighting, but i actualy like this paper i just finished. it had to be a dramatic monologue, meaning its just me talking for the whole time the charictor in the paper is not me but what he has to say is obviusly from ym brain anyhoo give it a look: ---------------------------------------------------------------
Hello. Yes, yes you. I know you have been looking for me. I could hear you coming through the brush almost an hour ago. Hahah of course you can?t see me. Here come around the nettle bush and look up?. ah there you are. Heh don?t feel bad, you must have been the tenth person to come to see me this year alone and no one has ever found me without me having to guide him or her to me. So I assume you heard about me from some other visitor who has passed through this grove. Ah I see. That is a story I have heard many times now friend. People come to me seeking wisdom, seeking peace, seeking meaning. The outside world seems to have come to the consensus that I have figured something out, is that what they told you? That I was enlightened, that I was on a higher plane? Well I personally just have found my home, call it peace, call it enlightenment, call it god, call it Allah, call it anything you like, because no matter what you call it, it will still just be words. But??. Since you did come all this way through the forest, and you do seem to be one of the more balanced souls who has come to speak with me I will answer your questions as best I can. Mmmhm?. You wish to know what I have seen, and what has made me stay on this stump for the last 3 years. Well that?s a reasonable enough request. Some people have come here demanding the meaning of life from me or looking for magical potions. You however have come out of pure curiosity and that is something I can respect. Well ill try to make this concise, as I could probably ramble on for hours about the things I have seen. That?s one of the main recons I chose to live this life of splendid isolation. First of let me start by saying that I do not believe I am on a higher plane then most people. I have however come to the terms with the fact that I do indeed think different from most people. There was a time when I felt my thoughts meshed more cohesively with societies collective mind. Until I started to feel empty. The life I was living seemed hallow, I knew life was precious but the lack of understanding I had for it made me frustrated. Until one day I met another person who shared my confusion as well as my lust for answers. What?s that?haha yes that?s true I wasn?t that far off from the position you seem to be in. yearning, searching. Hoping to strike a chord in a sea of black uncertainty. Well me and my new companion began to spend our time searching together. We would walk through this very forest. Many times I have seen this place light up in a blinding fractal symphony. I have had my soul ripped out of my mind and thrown into oblivion. I have had all matter and energy condensed into a single point of light. Hmmm? What did that teach me? Originally, very little. These experiences left me and my friends with only more questions. Until one night. I finally was struck by an earth-shattering wave of truth. I was sitting here on this very stump, where I sit right now. I saw the patters of life and light spiraling infinitely through a fractalscape of chaotic light. And it finally hit me. Life is not about searching, it is not about answers, it is not about words, or status, or work ethic. It?s about fitting in with the pattern. It?s about here, now, and everywhere else all at once. Heheh, see there I go again. Ranting and raving, forgive me for getting a tad poetic. But anyway to answer your question. What I finally learned is that all life is interconnected, we all fit together in a web of actions and reactions. And for most people this is seen as something to escape, much of their life is spent struggling to escape these connections. I sometime think that everything we as a species have created, language, jobs, monetary systems, governments are all just away to numb us from what we really are. Sweating dripping bleeding pulsing pieces of life. No different from the largest red wood or the smallest insect. Of course these are all just my personal views on personal experiences. Like I said I do not consider myself in anyway higher above anyone. Iv figured out my own ideas and I invite you take my findings and do with them what you will. Thank you for visiting me. I am honored to call you friend. Please come back anytime if you feel the need. Farwell.
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