The past month has been such a rollercoasting of extreme feelings and experiences, that I thought I might share with you tonite a fraction of a grand story that we are all characters of. My mushroom experiences are limited to three voyages into higher vibrational frequencies, all of which had a profound effect on my "normal" life. As I reflect I notice a pattern in the spiritual path I have undertook...
Briefly - in the first "experience", I became aware of the walls around me. I became aware of the spirit of the Earth. I became aware of how I was connected with this massive, dreamy, loving Earth that is a knowing environment of this holy experience. This trip prepared me for what was to come... My second time on mushrooms, it felt like i was warped into an eternal dimension where so many things were revealed that I have trouble remembering it all. Im sure you all know what im talking about... During this trip I overcame ego completely, and opened all of my chakras, including the illusive crown chakra, which spun energy so fast around my obdula oblungota I felt like I was warping into hyperspace. I could feel energy spinning at the speed of light around my brain, I could feel some kind of field around myself. I experienced the true love, the light that I had forgotten since birth, the shining light of where I came from. In the eternal dimension I was boosted into space towards a planet which I now suspect as being Uranus (ruler of Aquarius). I approached this planet in spirit form and had telapathic conversation with it... It told me that I was part of It's flock It had sent to Earth for the particular purpose of shifting the Earth's consciousness, or dimension. (I cannot be for sure the EXACT meaning since it was communicated through my mind, which slightly alters any truth to my version of "truth") Also during this experience I met with some sort of Hindu serpent god/goddess that morphed my meditation posture into a "cock n ball" image (I was viewing myself out-of-body at the time). I suspect it to be Kali or Shiva, particulary since I recently discovered that according to Hindu legend, Kali was born on the same day as I (February 17th). Anyways, the third and most recent experience involved an intensely painful, fearful, and blissful Kundalini awakening. I was alone, afraid, and pitiful when i sent out "the call" for higher guidance to get me through my Fear into Love. (Be careful what you wish for, by the way..) Anyway, the serpent being came again (this time not in the form of Kali or Shiva, but more of an "alien" form) and revealed to me that the road I wanted was the hardest road of all, but with the most blissful rewards to reap. I agreed, and we made some sort of pact on a deeper level that I am still discovering the small print to
Some of the small print revealed so far:
All the problems that come with kundalini energy, such as digestive problems, aching muscles, splitting headaches, pains in the left foot, intense depression, the terrifying fear that comes with confronting your fears, etc... But I wouldn't of made this pact if the rewards were not worth the pain. At some stages of the cycle (usually after I break down the fear-created walls around me) I experience a most blissful state in which my chakras bloom (mostly my heart chakra), I can see things with my Third Eye, and my Higher Self comes down to be here now, in this body, to help me along this path. Ive noticed that my pupils become large when my Higher Self is here, and that I feel liquidy warm sensations up and down my spine and in my chest (all of this occurs sober, keep in mind).
This brings me to my current state... I never imagined how hard this could be, to confront my innermost fears and embrace light and love with my entire being... but I'm getting there...
Sorry for writing a "life story", im sure most of you are tired of this kind of stuff by now, but I would be interested in hearing anything similar from anyone, so I figured I'd put part of my own story out for someone else's interest. Its comforting to know I am not alone in this and that I really am not going insane when so many around me are sleeping and Im trying to wake up. "Is there even something to wake up to?" my Fear asks, and that deeply instilled intuitive KNOWing that was ignited through the mushroom replies with a definite, comforting, "yes".
I will leave you all with a quote I found on the net today that sent those tingly feelings you get when you recognize serious synchronicity at work:
"The shaman seers of the Fourth World generally agree that those who tenaciously cling to the past will fall into mass insanity. The serpent power of the Aquarian Age is upon us. The Kundalini of Gaia is about to awaken. No one can avoid being affected. Most human beings may go out of their minds; others will go beyond mind." -John Hogue
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Edited by Adamist (01/26/02 11:25 PM)
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