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Random Thoughts
#4877871 - 10/31/05 10:46 PM (18 years, 3 months ago) |
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well, today was halloween... and i had some mushrooms before i had gone out and wondered the streets. now... many hours after, i feel normal but i have many thoughts about my life that i never considered before. I know that other people must think some of the same things as i do when im done tripping. well... i was talking to some friends about what was going through my head and i really wanted to write them down so i could read exactly what i was thinking tomorrow morning. i guess you would call it free association writing? well, i dont know if anyone cares but i just thought some people could tell me their thoughts or what they think about my thoughts. here are some of them...
- I need music that had no lyrics because I don?t want anyone else?s thoughts in my head
- Drugs - for me, are not a way to relax or escape, but a way to see things from a different perspective. It also makes me think so much more deeply about things that I would never consider if I was sober. Actually, I wouldn?t say I would never consider these things, I would say that I am unable to recognize or understand the same things that I would otherwise.
- The thing that gets me is that there are people who are like... 40 years old, and sitting around and still cant see what the most important thing is. I can?t see how some people can live for so long, and not figure their life out.
- If I could do good at school,(not only good, but better than most, which I know i am capable of) I would be able to live my life without having to worry about so much.
- I have been going to school and not even putting any effort into my work. I need to start getting more done, because what am I if I?m not smart at what really matters? School is what really matters to me? or it should? and I never realized that before
- I don?t want to wake up tomorrow morning and figure out that all this was just a memory
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Welcome to the shroomery! Nice thoughts man. I'm gonna move this to the pub, it's a better place for it!
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Re: Random Thoughts [Re: gdman]
#4877936 - 10/31/05 11:04 PM (18 years, 3 months ago) |
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Those are very good constructive thoughts,its good you wrote them down,there is no telling how many times something important about my life has passed through my mind while tripping,to not be remembered the next day.Good shtuff man. I thought the music thing was very interesting.Your mind was just moving to much and to inside of itself for there to be any room for anything else,maybe,do you write?Or produce music?Maybe you should.
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thanks for your input. ive never really realized how well writing can get my thoughts out. I came home tonight thinking i would have someone here to talk to, but when i found no one, i needed to find another way to tell people what i was thinking. ive never tried to write down any of my thoughts before, and i think im going to keep doing it - whether im sober or not. its a great way to get out exactly what im feeling... and i think its good to be able to communicate with other people about your experiences. Well, to answer your question, i have tried to write music but its a hard thing to stick with. I could never seem to stay on one task for so long. I also have A.D.D. and a writing disability which sometimes can cripple exactly what im trying to say. sometimes i find it so hard to say what i mean, but now ive found a perfect way to do it. I havnt tried mushrooms very many times, but i think its interesting how you dont need to be a long time user to get the same experience out of them. I could count my experiences on one hand. Oh yeah... and one of the worse feelings is forgetting something that you know was important. I have done that the first couple of times i have tripped out. Not anymore  well... i should get some sleep
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The main screen said this thread had 2 replies, but 3 of them were new. Strange.
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Re: Random Thoughts [Re: daimyo]
#4878183 - 11/01/05 12:04 AM (18 years, 3 months ago) |
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And now it says there are only 3 replies. This one should make 5, wonder if it'll say 4.
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Re: Random Thoughts [Re: daimyo]
#4878564 - 11/01/05 05:44 AM (18 years, 3 months ago) |
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hmmm, mabye you could post somthing thats related to the subject and not about how many posts it says there is. just a thought
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i just thought some people could tell me their thoughts Those were my thoughts. Sorry they weren't intellectually stimulating or related to drugs. I'll try harder next time.
or what they think about my thoughts. As for your thoughts... 1. Limiting yourself to music without words is like limiting yourself to picture books. Sure you are able to let your mind wander, but why not listen to what other people have experienced? Not just what they have experienced, but what they feel worthy of conveying to others. There are lessons to be learned that you may take years to figure out when you could listen to a verse. Or you might never learn them at all.
2. You are using drugs to escape. You are escaping your normal(inferior) mindstate in hopes of improving yourself. An admirable goal, but until you can do this sober you are not where you ultimately want to be IMO.
3. Life is what you make it. Those 40 year olds might not care to "figure out" life. Maybe they are just trying to make it paycheck to paycheck becuase they wasted the first half of their life on drugs. Or they gave up on figuring it out because it doesn't matter to them anymore.
4. Doing good in school, and anything you undertake, is imperative. Go hard or go home.
5. See 4.
6. Do something about it then. Don't let the high wear off and go back to slacking. Go walk around the hood and look at all the people that did that their whole life. Get a buzz, have profound thoughts, come down, repeat. It's a trap for some.
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Re: Random Thoughts [Re: daimyo]
#4879626 - 11/01/05 01:01 PM (18 years, 3 months ago) |
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welcome to the shroomery man.
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Quote:
doublehelix said: hmmm, mabye you could post somthing thats related to the subject and not about how many posts it says there is. just a thought
Daimyo, you bastid
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Re: Random Thoughts [Re: Boom]
#4879655 - 11/01/05 01:10 PM (18 years, 3 months ago) |
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This is reply 10. Listed as reply 9
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Re: Random Thoughts [Re: daimyo]
#4879860 - 11/01/05 02:15 PM (18 years, 3 months ago) |
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lol... Listening to music with lyrics may tell you what other people are thinking, but sometimes its more important to listen to what you think. I don't listen to music with no lyrics because i don't care what other people think, i do it so that i can hear myself thinking more clearly. The reason i want to hear myself is because in my mind, my thoughts, and what i have experienced will tell me more about my life than anyone else ever can. No one else can tell me how to think. As for picture books... why would you want someone to tell you what to imagine in your mind when you can create more spectacular images in your own head? Also, this whole site is devoted to listening to other people, so obviously i am interested in what others have to say.
Also, i do not believe i use drugs to escape. I have only used shrooms a few times, and every time i use them, i take what i remember the next day and work off that. I realized a lot of things the last time i had them, and now i don't have to be in the shroomed state to think the same things. this is how i use drugs. Its too bad if you cant do the same.
I knew before that school was very important, and i believe the quote "Go hard or go home", but i was never able to understand why i could never bring myself around to just get started working. Now i have the motivation to get started. This morning i woke up and felt totally changed. well, i hope you understand what im trying to say... and just remember these are only my thoughts, and just because I'm putting them out there doesn't mean you have to believe them.
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Re: Random Thoughts [Re: daimyo]
#4879878 - 11/01/05 02:22 PM (18 years, 3 months ago) |
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yeah, i always have similar revelations on mushrooms; like how i should work harder in school n whatnot. just wish i shared your 'drugs only to see different perspective' thing, i use em like a fiend.
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Re: Random Thoughts [Re: purity]
#4879905 - 11/01/05 02:28 PM (18 years, 3 months ago) |
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well, dont get me wrong. i still enjoy the experience i get from them. open eye visuals are always fun... but for me i get that little extra from it, and thats what makes me want to go through the experience again. I dont understand smoking weed when all it does is slow my brain down. lol, i just get more and more retarded, and for me that makes me feel depressed. i think its good that theres other things out there than can (or at least make it seem) make you smarter. either way, if it does or doesnt make you smarter, it helps me to see more. woot...
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